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30. Trouble in paradise
Huling Na-update:
2022-02-12 03:33:54Hadeon p.o.v
Today I had to stay at home from work as James suddenly had to go to the company. He said something was wrong and they needed his help. I didn't quite understand as he wasn't the CEO nor the largest shareholder, but I couldn't stop him. So it was just me and Alice today.
I couldn't pay her too much attention as I had a lot of work to do as well. I could only give her the necessary attention and care as I was busy working on a case. I was glad when I could put her down for a nap so I could work without any interruptions in my office.
I saw that it was almost time to wake up from her nap when one of my employees called me. She didn't bring me good news. The judge had nullified our key evidence to the case. They told us it would only help speculation which wasn't good enough.
We needed to have 'hard' evidence according to my employee. I was busy with making calls, looking through files, and going through everything I had s
Kaugnay na kabanata
The Baby Programme 31. Juggling
Hadeon p.o.vWell, there I was, all alone with my baby girl, watching how my husband, the love of my life, drove away from us. I had screwed up big time. I felt so bad for what I did to Alice, I didn't mean for it to happen. It was so stupid of me to forget her like that. I'm a complete idiot.I walked up to my daughter and picked her up. "I'm sorry Alice. I was a bad papa to you." She looked at me and said, "daddy." Well, now I'm totally screwed. "I'm sorry princess, but daddy had to go away for a while." I apologized to her. "Let's make dinner shall we."That night I had spent it with Alice, letting her stay up a bit too late, I didn't want to be all alone. Only when it was eight in the evening she was deep asleep and she needed to go to bed. So there I was at eight-thirty in the evening, alone with my beer. I felt so, so stupid. I already missed James, I needed him. I would never, ever make a mistake like this again.I tried to call hi
Huling Na-update : 2022-02-16The Baby Programme 32. Reunited
Hadeon p.o.vI bounced my leg up and down as I was watching my phone. Should I call? No, I shouldn't. But should I? Doubt clouded my mind. Could I take care of Alice on my own?I had called James already multiple times but he still didn't answer, so it was up to me to decide. I was quite desperate as Alice didn't get the attention she needed and it was still crazy busy at work.In a couple of days, I had another court date. The last time was a one-time thing. I couldn't bring her every time with me to court. I made up my mind and called Jim."Mr. Carter speaking.""Jim it's me, Hadeon.""Hadeon? Why are you calling?""I-I screwed up Jim...""What do you mean?""I-I made a mistake that caused James to leave me and now I'm alone with Alice. I-I don't know... I don't know what to do.""I'm afraid, Hadeon, I can't follow you. What do you mean with 'don't know
Huling Na-update : 2022-02-16The Baby Programme 30. First steps to the future
James p.o.vI was now two days home, back from the hotel where I was staying. I felt like such an idiot. I had left with the thought I would punish Hadeon. So he could see how dependent a baby is on its parent. But after my rage was gone, after two days I was so afraid.Afraid of losing him and afraid of losing Alice. They were the only family I had.I thought Hadeon would never take me back. And to top it all I had smashed my phone against the wall the first night of my stay at the hotel. Therefore I couldn't call him. I was such an idiot.I felt so lost without him. Just when I had made up my mind to go home the next day Jim had called. I know it sounds very shady, but really I couldn't take it anymore being away from my husband and daughter. I needed them. They were my oxygen.So I was really glad I was home right now. I sat with Alice in my lap looking at cartoons. It felt great to have her in my arms again. I
Huling Na-update : 2022-02-17The Baby Programme Epilogue
15 years laterAlice p.o.vI was sitting on the pavement waiting for... I didn't know what for, I was just waiting. Hoping to see a glimpse of them. The weather was nice. I had put some music in my ears to ease my impatience.The reason why I was here was because of what my dads told me.It all started with a couple of innocent dreams. I saw myself but with different parents and a brother. I was often yelled at for doing nothing. I didn't understand the dreams as I couldn't decipher them.I thought they were just dreams or rather bad dreams.But the dreams felt so real and I knew it didn't happen to me. I had two dads, no siblings, and was raised with love. I absolutely loved my fathers. They would move mountains for me if I asked them.They made sure I had everything I needed and in return, I was always on my best behavior and got good grades, with help of course. Turned out I had dyslexi
Huling Na-update : 2022-02-18The Baby Programme 1. Visitors
I was in my room studying for my next exam when I heard multiple car doors being opened and closed. I didn't pay any mind to it as I thought it was the neighbors. I flipped to the next page of my history textbook. I already went over this two times, but I had to make sure I knew everything. I had to get an A on this, I had to.As I was reading the text intensely I heard people entering our house. Voices were heard from the hallway. Had father and mother invited people over? That couldn't be. They never liked having people over to our house. They were quite introverted and there weren't many people who could meet up their standards to be considered by them as their friends.If you weren't educated the way they were, you failed. If you could only focus on your own field of expertise, you failed. If you were too poor, you failed. If
Huling Na-update : 2021-09-11The Baby Programme 2. Taken
"Yes indeed, but not only children from troubled homes are selected. Most of them are but parents can sign their children up as well. If they think their child will be better off with... someone else."His words came out with hesitance and I knew now why. It finally clicked in my head. My parents had signed me up. I turned to my parents and pleaded, "Please father, mother I can do better, I promise. Don't let them take me!" I desperately yelled.My mother looked away and my father's face hardened more if that was even possible. "You had many chances Alice, but you disappoint your mother and me again and again. You are a disgrace to our family! You will be way better of with some other family." He spitted out. My own father and mother had just disowned me. I couldn't help but cry softly. I was indeed not good enough
Huling Na-update : 2021-09-11The Baby Programme 3. The Programme
The ride was long. After thirty minutes I had my eyes cast down to my lap. Mr. Carter sat next to me and said a couple of times it would be okay. Only I didn't respond to that. Nothing would be fine without my brother.All of a sudden the car stopped. I looked up and saw a big, grey gate being opened. The car moved again and I saw a huge building appearing through the car windows. It had many floors and it looked very dull with big walls made of concrete. Not to mention the big fence made out of stone around the institution. I saw multiple guards outside but no signs of teenagers. It felt more like a prison than an organization that helped children. It also didn't help that the weather was rather gloomy.The car stopped, only I stayed seated. The car was my no-man's-land. It could take me home or it could leave me here. Leaving th
Huling Na-update : 2021-09-11The Baby Programme 4. Room 203
When every question was answered we were picked up by our guardians. Mr. Carter was one of the first ones to pick me up. He smiled at me and asked me to follow him. I did what I was told. We had to walk quite the distance. Not once had I opened my mouth.We had to take a couple of turns and walked in several corridors. You could not see clearly what was behind all those doors you would see from time to time. Nowhere were any plates with directions on them. For a short moment, I wondered how people could work in such a place. This place felt like a maze. I would get lost within a few seconds.When we had entered an elevator Mr. Carter asked me, "Are you okay, Alice? I know you have to process a lot of information. I'm happy to answer any questions." I didn't really want to talk but now everything had settled a bit I had
Huling Na-update : 2021-09-11
Pinakabagong kabanata
The Baby Programme Epilogue
15 years laterAlice p.o.vI was sitting on the pavement waiting for... I didn't know what for, I was just waiting. Hoping to see a glimpse of them. The weather was nice. I had put some music in my ears to ease my impatience.The reason why I was here was because of what my dads told me.It all started with a couple of innocent dreams. I saw myself but with different parents and a brother. I was often yelled at for doing nothing. I didn't understand the dreams as I couldn't decipher them.I thought they were just dreams or rather bad dreams.But the dreams felt so real and I knew it didn't happen to me. I had two dads, no siblings, and was raised with love. I absolutely loved my fathers. They would move mountains for me if I asked them.They made sure I had everything I needed and in return, I was always on my best behavior and got good grades, with help of course. Turned out I had dyslexi
The Baby Programme 30. First steps to the future
James p.o.vI was now two days home, back from the hotel where I was staying. I felt like such an idiot. I had left with the thought I would punish Hadeon. So he could see how dependent a baby is on its parent. But after my rage was gone, after two days I was so afraid.Afraid of losing him and afraid of losing Alice. They were the only family I had.I thought Hadeon would never take me back. And to top it all I had smashed my phone against the wall the first night of my stay at the hotel. Therefore I couldn't call him. I was such an idiot.I felt so lost without him. Just when I had made up my mind to go home the next day Jim had called. I know it sounds very shady, but really I couldn't take it anymore being away from my husband and daughter. I needed them. They were my oxygen.So I was really glad I was home right now. I sat with Alice in my lap looking at cartoons. It felt great to have her in my arms again. I
The Baby Programme 32. Reunited
Hadeon p.o.vI bounced my leg up and down as I was watching my phone. Should I call? No, I shouldn't. But should I? Doubt clouded my mind. Could I take care of Alice on my own?I had called James already multiple times but he still didn't answer, so it was up to me to decide. I was quite desperate as Alice didn't get the attention she needed and it was still crazy busy at work.In a couple of days, I had another court date. The last time was a one-time thing. I couldn't bring her every time with me to court. I made up my mind and called Jim."Mr. Carter speaking.""Jim it's me, Hadeon.""Hadeon? Why are you calling?""I-I screwed up Jim...""What do you mean?""I-I made a mistake that caused James to leave me and now I'm alone with Alice. I-I don't know... I don't know what to do.""I'm afraid, Hadeon, I can't follow you. What do you mean with 'don't know
The Baby Programme 31. Juggling
Hadeon p.o.vWell, there I was, all alone with my baby girl, watching how my husband, the love of my life, drove away from us. I had screwed up big time. I felt so bad for what I did to Alice, I didn't mean for it to happen. It was so stupid of me to forget her like that. I'm a complete idiot.I walked up to my daughter and picked her up. "I'm sorry Alice. I was a bad papa to you." She looked at me and said, "daddy." Well, now I'm totally screwed. "I'm sorry princess, but daddy had to go away for a while." I apologized to her. "Let's make dinner shall we."That night I had spent it with Alice, letting her stay up a bit too late, I didn't want to be all alone. Only when it was eight in the evening she was deep asleep and she needed to go to bed. So there I was at eight-thirty in the evening, alone with my beer. I felt so, so stupid. I already missed James, I needed him. I would never, ever make a mistake like this again.I tried to call hi
The Baby Programme 30. Trouble in paradise
Hadeon p.o.vToday I had to stay at home from work as James suddenly had to go to the company. He said something was wrong and they needed his help. I didn't quite understand as he wasn't the CEO nor the largest shareholder, but I couldn't stop him. So it was just me and Alice today.I couldn't pay her too much attention as I had a lot of work to do as well. I could only give her the necessary attention and care as I was busy working on a case. I was glad when I could put her down for a nap so I could work without any interruptions in my office.I saw that it was almost time to wake up from her nap when one of my employees called me. She didn't bring me good news. The judge had nullified our key evidence to the case. They told us it would only help speculation which wasn't good enough.We needed to have 'hard' evidence according to my employee. I was busy with making calls, looking through files, and going through everything I had s
The Baby Programme 29. Reunion
Hadeon p.o.vIt was weird to be back again, back to my childhood home. The last time I was here was when I told my parents James was my boyfriend. They were outraged. Especially my father.He never wanted to see me again. Telling me I wasn't his son anymore, that he would disown me and that I was never welcome again in his house.My mother, on the other hand, was already thinking of ways to 'fix' my problem. Saying the church could help me, even though they weren't big on religion. Or that I should change my scenery by engaging myself more with straight couples.I already knew before I was going to tell them they wouldn't accept my sexuality. Only I did not expect it to be so incredibly harsh.After I told them I didn't speak to them for several months. It was James actually that encouraged me to seek contact for our wedding. James and I never had such a big fight from
The Baby Programme 28. Going on a trip
James p.o.v"Babe, can you grab more diapers please!" I heard some cursing from upstairs but didn't pay any mind to it.Hadeon was grumpy all morning because we were going to visit his family today. I partially could understand why he wasn't excited to go to his childhood home. His history with his family was rich in constant fights, discussions, and confrontations with his parents.I had a feeling he had no happy memories of them, at all. I wished he had. The few memories I have of my family, the few happy ones, always got me through difficult times. Times when I missed them the most.But because of that strong feeling of great loss, I tried hard to convince Hadeon to find a way to make peace with his father and mother.I heard my moody husband stomping down the stairs with his arms full of the last things we needed for our short trip."Here are the diapers.""Thank you, honey." I
The Baby Programme 27. Mary
Hadeon p.o.vWhen I got home from work I heard a female voice coming from the living room. I hung up my coat, set my suitcase down on the floor, and made my way over to the living room. There I saw Mary and James having tea together while the little girls were playing with all the toys around them.I knew certainly then that James and I bought too many toys for our little princess. I made a mental note to not buy any new ones for the time being.When my presence became known to the people in the room all the attention was on me. "Hadeon? You are home quite early." James commented.I walked up to him and kissed his head. "Yes, and that is a problem because?""It's not a problem, I just noticed. That's all. I am glad you are home early for a change." I could hear clearly the undertone of his words. I knew he had trouble with me being home late from work since we had Alice.After I had greeted my h
The Baby Programme 26. A new friend?
Hadeon p.o.vI didn't get why James was so upset. She wasn't alone that long. He is just a neat freak and a control freak. The moment things don't go his way he gets agitated and starts yelling at people. I didn't do anything wrong. I rubbed my hands over my face. I was frustrated and I needed a drink. I opened one of my cabinets and got my whiskey and my glass out.First I needed to cool down and then talk to him. It was something I had learned when I worked on my anger issues. I would apologize and then explain the situation, if I had done that it was all up to James. If he would make up or stay mad at me.The thing that frustrated me the most was that James thought I didn't care for our daughter. I loved my princess. I would do anything for her. I just didn't see the harm in letting her be alone for a couple of minutes.I finished my drink, but I wasn't cooled down enough so I got myself another one. I needed a backup plan if he doesn'
