CHAPTER 1

Waking up in the morning is the worst part of my day, I'm not a morning person. That's why when I finally started working in Prime and I didn't have to be at work till 10am I was super excited.

Prime is a modern magazine, news and also a tv network. I work in the magazine/news department but my dream job has always been to work in fashion.

They have a fashion segment and are currently looking for a new editor. I'm perfect for the job and I have to get the job.

My boss agreed to recommend me if I'm able to interview Lucas Joe Alvarado, I've known Lucas since when I was in middle school. He's Kathy my best friend's older brother. Also the hottest man you'll ever have eyes on. I've had a crush on him all my life, at some point I was even fixated on him but he never noticed me. Always saw me as his little sister's little friend. After a while I moved on.

And now I have to interview him, which is not easy because he has never done a single interview. Kathy helped me ask him which he agreed.

But it's still not going to be easy I have my first official interview with him tomorrow. He said he'll send a car for me at 5, and I've already started obsessing about what to wear tomorrow. Vanessa it's not a date I mentally tell myself. I blame my lack of having sex for this, I'm super horny all the freaking time.

Maybe I'll take Ariana and Kathy's advice on getting a vibrator. I've never actually used one which is why I've been contemplating.

My phone starts ringing, I check to see who's calling this early morning to find my mother. What does this woman want again, probably to nag me about finding a man. I don't answer it and wait for it to go into voicemail. She leaves a message obviously. "Hello my darling Vanessa, I know you're probably busy with work and your secret secret life you don't want your mother to be part of. Well just wanted to talk to you and please make sure you come for Sunday dinner this week and please Vanessa call your father. Love you."

Listening to this message you would think she's just a normal mother who wants to know about her child. But no, my mom is a control freak who tries to control every aspect of my life and my brother's life. A very manipulating woman who always puts you down.

And you would think my dad is different but no, in a way he's maybe worst. He's the most misogynistic and sexist man you would ever meet, tries to hide it but it eventually comes out. Emotionally tries to blackmail his children and of course my mom is his favorite subject during his emotional blackmail.

She's probably the way she is because of him, I remember growing up how he insulted her in every little way, emotionally abuse her but she still loved him and stayed with him. Even when he cheated, got another woman pregnant. She still loved him and never left him.

He has never been violent but the insults will sure get to you. Don't get me wrong they love both me and my brother, they just ruined and hurt us emotionally.

Imagine growing up in a house with a control freak as a mother and an emotionally abusive man as a father. Probably why my brother and I are so messed up but it also brought us together, my brother is my best friend.

I actually have two brothers, my half brother he's the same age with my brother which I'm actually six years older than both of them. Part of all my dads quality was the cheating, he got another woman pregnant.

Which resulted in my half brother, my mom was so hurt. I have actually never seen her that hurt in my life. But she still stayed with him, you would think the other woman was bad but she didn't know he was married and when she found out she broke it off but she had my half brother then.

And that's how I got a half brother, and I also love him thesame way I love my brother. We actually love each all together. We found out about him when he was 5 years old, his mother brought him to our house one evening looking for our dad.

That's when she found out about my mom and us, she told my mom everything. I remember hearing my mom crying in her room all day long but she still forgave him. Ever since then our half brother was brought to our house every weekend, we hung out and became a family.

It hurt my mom to see him every weekend, but she agreed to him coming anyway because my dad asked her and she loves him so much to ever say no to him.

Imagine.

I hope I never love someone that much.

I take a shower, dress up and head to work. "Jessica is looking for you," my bosses secretary says immediately I enter the office.

I drop my bag in my office and head to Jessica's. "Good morning." I say entering.

"Morning Vanessa, sit." She says. I sit down opposite her.

"You didn't tell me you know Lucas Alvarado," she shows me a picture of us together at Kathy's wedding.

"Yeah we know each other, he's my best friends brother." I say.

"Good so you have the exclusive interview with him then."

"Yeah I do, I wanted to actually tell you that today."

"Great then, when do you start the interview."

"He said tomorrow but it's going to be according to his schedule so I'm not so sure about the timing."

"Great, also get some personal scoop on him, I know he's private but please get something."

"Of course," I say.

"You probably won't be coming in for a few days now since you would be busy with the interview, I'll also be traveling tomorrow. So just text me on how it's going. And I'll give Edward my recommendation on you for the fashion segment editor today and you'll start immediately you're done. Good luck."

"Thank you, Jessica." I say smiling.

"And please don't make me regret my decision," she says before I leave.

I go back to my office rejoicing, I finish some pending work before leaving an hour later. I have time off since I'll be interviewing Lucas. I can spend the rest of my day doing what I enjoy the most, shopping.

I call Ari, "hey girl please tell me you're not busy today."

"Hey Vee, as a matter of fact I'm not. What do you have in mind."

"Please let's go shopping, I need me some shopping therapy."

"Okay I'll meet you in la perla."

"God I love you, you know exactly what I'm thinking."

"Hey you." Ari says giving me hug. "Hey you." I say hugging her back.

"Shopping in the middle of day, I think I like you more now and Kathy would be proud." Ari adds as we go into the store.

"So what are we looking for today." She asks.

"Sexy lingerie of course, you know my weakness."

"You look a little excited today, who's he?" Ari asks.

"Hahaha you're funny Ari, of course there's no he or I wouldn't be this horny. It's just work. Did I tell you Lucas agreed for the interview."

"No you didn't, did Kathy ask him."

"Yeah she did, we're actually starting tomorrow."

"Oh oh I get it now, you still have a crush on him. Oh my God Vee this could actually be a good thing for you. Lucas is very single, you know he doesn't date. What you need is a hot night in the sheets with him. But before then we'll have to get you a vibrator to at least get rid of some of the horniness before you jump him."

"Haha very funny Ari," I say sarcastically. "My relationship with him will be strictly professional. By the way have you talked with Kathy since she the left for her honeymoon." I ask changing the subject.

"No but we texted earlier this morning, she's having so much fun with Ethan. She said she'll fill in the details when she gets back." Ari says.

"Good for her, at least one of us is getting constant cock." Ari adds.

"Oh my God Ari you can't say words like that."

"Like what? Cock cock cock," she repeats.

"Please stop. Now help me spend my daddy's money." I say as we continue to shop.

Two hours later we were done, and I'm back home already arranging my closet. I bought a lot of lingerie, new dresses and shoes. I just thank God for my dad financing my lifestyle if not I don't know how I'll ever be able to afford it. He pays for my lifestyle because he's guilty of the way he treats us and I accept the money because I'm used to living that way and I'm a coward of course.

I FaceTime my brothers talk for a while, they're both in college. They both attend UCLA. Before leaving them to continue whatever college kids do nowadays.

I binge watch the office on Netflix before falling asleep. Ari and Kathy are right I really do need to get a life beside work.