NeerahThe smell of books really calms my mind these days. And today, it is not just any book that I am reading. I am going to read the book titled ‘Soulful bond’ by a writer who calls himself ‘Gee Wolf’I am finally going to find out if I can explain the first two days I spent at the pack house. Every one of the teachers I asked in school said that this book is like the textbook to every tiny explanation you need about werewolf connections. Their connection with their mates, their wolves, their pack members…“That is the book I am looking for” Fero's voice reaches my ears. I stare at the spot the book was earlier before she snatched it out of my grasp and wondered why Raya has her tailing me.Is she insecure in her relationship with the Alpha? Why was she doing everything possible to make me react?!What would make her understand that I don't have the energy to fight for something so senseless?The Alpha will always choose her. What else does she want?!Despite my deep rooted desi
RayahAlpha Cuan has a rule about intimacy. Back then, he wanted to wait until we were both eighteen to find out if we are made for each other. Then we can commit to each other as much as we want. He has a great sense of responsibility. He just never liked half of anything. IIt's either all or nothing. I tried everything i could think of that could work. With his strobg sebse of responsibility, he would not leave me even if he met his mate knowing he would hurt me badly in the process. I sneaked into his room most nights but all he did was state clearly that it was not time yet. There are times he was so close to crossing the line and it pissed him off so much he stopped talking to me for an entire week. He just stopped reacting to anything I did. It was almost like, he stopped caring at all, putting the required distance between us to keep him safe from my advances.I knew that I couldn't manipulate him with our physical relationship if it turns out we weren't mates. This is some
RayaAlpha June was never intimidated by our relationship. She always kind of expressed that she would wait to find out if we are mates. It was another big hurdle I wanted to pass. Sometimes, she would joke about letting him keep me for my house management skills. I hate that bitch!After I returned, I heard that Alpha Cuan actually kissed Neerah at a boutique of all places! People said he did it to show Alpha June that he was interested in someone. What I think he did was send a direct message that he found his mate. It was a respectful announcement to Alpha June to let her know that her hopes would never be fulfilled. He has never dissuaded her before and often found it funny and cute that despite her bulldozing into things, she actually has a feminine side. I used to be livid about It but he never took it seriously. He always just thought that if we are meant for each other, then no one else would matter anyways. i personally think he kept her as an option for when his efforts
Rayah“Neerah beat her up!” Nina cringed at the reminder.“A wolfless human beat Fero up. Be more believable please!” I refuse to take them seriously. Nah! That cannot be true. Come on!“It is true though. Her eyes were silver. I have never seen anything like it. Maybe she is lying and she does have a wolf” Nina explains. “She was so strong, it took four werewolves to bind her arms. Everyone In the library saw it. Mrs Sofia was so shocked that she did not remember to bring us to order and remind us that this is the sacred library until Neerah left and she could speak again” another pack member states.I literally feel chills run down my spine. The elders talk about Alphas getting ridiculously stronger when their mates are special. I heard that Cuan experuenced the 'wolf cry' when he went to the Luna Moon pack. I did not want to attach meaning to it but it could make sense if it happened when he met his mate.Neerah.I don't have time. I am not sure why they drifted apart after my ret
Neerah Come to think of it, the day she returned, she looked weak and sick in all honesty. Perhaps it was the reason that Alpha Cuan was angry that Chase was shouting at her. It was the scene I saw when I came down for a walk. Those terrible days afterward when I nurse my broken heart, it was all too familiar how the process works. Your loved ones disappoint you once again, and you have to eat up your ridiculous expectations and make peace with the fact that you don't mean as much to them as they do to you. Then you must control your emotions, make peace with the fact that they would fade away with time. That it's okay to be hurt. But it's also okay to have unreciprocated feelings.It didn't matter that it felt like life or death right now. It would pass. i just had to hang in there.The days I started to go to school were very boring. I went to find Rayah, as the Alpha had suggested. But then she refused to see me. I was chased out of the room as if I did something wrong. She s
Neerah“You are not one of us. Yet you dared to hit Fero” Rayah declares with a chilling intensity. Suddenly, I can hear animalistic growls from both Nina and Rayah as they didn't technically shift. But you can just tell that they are so close to shifting. Are they going to attack me?!I regret all the reading I have done these past few weeks. I wouldn't have known that since I didn't officially take an oath, I was not entitled to anyone's protection.Would they kill me for punching Fero? Isn't that a little too extreme!I started to step back, so scared that Rayah would use the opportunity to get rid of me. Even if Alpha Cuan is not happy with the outcome, as the leader of his pack, he couldn't choose my side over his own pack members. It wouldn't make a lot of sense.Not that I think he would choose my side anyways.The moment Nina jumps, I know she would shift in that intimidating manner I have come to realize that werewolves prefer in a fight. Yes. I am super intimidated.I do
NeerahWhen I appear in front of his office, my hands were sweaty and they shook with the fear of rejection.I gathered all my courage and knocked on the door.“Neerah, come in” he states from within.I open the door, trying to even my breathing before going in. This guy would probably have a whiplash watching me change from sad to happy in a flash. But damn if I didn't achieve it!I smile brightly, deleting the past few weeks from my memory as I said “Alpha! Good day!” He regards me with a serious look. But nothing would extinguish the smoky depth of his beautiful beautiful eyes… I can also see curiosity in them now.I am beginning to find out that it is so rare to read his gaze fully. Seeing him let his guard down enough for me to read that curiosity makes my heart skip a beat. Did he like my smile or something?Okay, focus! Don't get distracted. I reprimand myself. “Can we talk for a moment please?” I ask with a hesitant smile.He gestured to the chair in front of his desk wordl
Neerah“You know, I love reading! Can I read books here in your office?” I ask, trying to hide my still extremely powerfully beating heart. God! He cannot hear it can he?!I steal a look at his direction. I see a small smile appear at the corner of his lips and he shrugs. “Suit yourself” he agrees.“I noticed that maids do not enter your bedroom. Who does the cleaning?” I ask, cringing inwardly at how I must have sounded. i hope he doesn't think that I am hinting at anything else.I steal another look and foubd out that he has his head tilted to the side and I swear his grey eyes sharpened even more. “So?” Is all he said.“So, can I be the one to clean it for you? I worked as a nanny before. I clean their house sometimes when they let me stay over for the night” I explain. “a human monster, a house girl and nanny?” He says it as if pondering it over. I cant decipher the layers to his tone though. “Oh wow! That's me in one sentence!” I admit. And my heart beat slower again. My fraye