RayahAlpha Cuan has a rule about intimacy. Back then, he wanted to wait until we were both eighteen to find out if we are made for each other. Then we can commit to each other as much as we want. He has a great sense of responsibility. He just never liked half of anything. IIt's either all or nothing. I tried everything i could think of that could work. With his strobg sebse of responsibility, he would not leave me even if he met his mate knowing he would hurt me badly in the process. I sneaked into his room most nights but all he did was state clearly that it was not time yet. There are times he was so close to crossing the line and it pissed him off so much he stopped talking to me for an entire week. He just stopped reacting to anything I did. It was almost like, he stopped caring at all, putting the required distance between us to keep him safe from my advances.I knew that I couldn't manipulate him with our physical relationship if it turns out we weren't mates. This is some
RayaAlpha June was never intimidated by our relationship. She always kind of expressed that she would wait to find out if we are mates. It was another big hurdle I wanted to pass. Sometimes, she would joke about letting him keep me for my house management skills. I hate that bitch!After I returned, I heard that Alpha Cuan actually kissed Neerah at a boutique of all places! People said he did it to show Alpha June that he was interested in someone. What I think he did was send a direct message that he found his mate. It was a respectful announcement to Alpha June to let her know that her hopes would never be fulfilled. He has never dissuaded her before and often found it funny and cute that despite her bulldozing into things, she actually has a feminine side. I used to be livid about It but he never took it seriously. He always just thought that if we are meant for each other, then no one else would matter anyways. i personally think he kept her as an option for when his efforts
Rayah“Neerah beat her up!” Nina cringed at the reminder.“A wolfless human beat Fero up. Be more believable please!” I refuse to take them seriously. Nah! That cannot be true. Come on!“It is true though. Her eyes were silver. I have never seen anything like it. Maybe she is lying and she does have a wolf” Nina explains. “She was so strong, it took four werewolves to bind her arms. Everyone In the library saw it. Mrs Sofia was so shocked that she did not remember to bring us to order and remind us that this is the sacred library until Neerah left and she could speak again” another pack member states.I literally feel chills run down my spine. The elders talk about Alphas getting ridiculously stronger when their mates are special. I heard that Cuan experuenced the 'wolf cry' when he went to the Luna Moon pack. I did not want to attach meaning to it but it could make sense if it happened when he met his mate.Neerah.I don't have time. I am not sure why they drifted apart after my ret
Neerah Come to think of it, the day she returned, she looked weak and sick in all honesty. Perhaps it was the reason that Alpha Cuan was angry that Chase was shouting at her. It was the scene I saw when I came down for a walk. Those terrible days afterward when I nurse my broken heart, it was all too familiar how the process works. Your loved ones disappoint you once again, and you have to eat up your ridiculous expectations and make peace with the fact that you don't mean as much to them as they do to you. Then you must control your emotions, make peace with the fact that they would fade away with time. That it's okay to be hurt. But it's also okay to have unreciprocated feelings.It didn't matter that it felt like life or death right now. It would pass. i just had to hang in there.The days I started to go to school were very boring. I went to find Rayah, as the Alpha had suggested. But then she refused to see me. I was chased out of the room as if I did something wrong. She s
Neerah“You are not one of us. Yet you dared to hit Fero” Rayah declares with a chilling intensity. Suddenly, I can hear animalistic growls from both Nina and Rayah as they didn't technically shift. But you can just tell that they are so close to shifting. Are they going to attack me?!I regret all the reading I have done these past few weeks. I wouldn't have known that since I didn't officially take an oath, I was not entitled to anyone's protection.Would they kill me for punching Fero? Isn't that a little too extreme!I started to step back, so scared that Rayah would use the opportunity to get rid of me. Even if Alpha Cuan is not happy with the outcome, as the leader of his pack, he couldn't choose my side over his own pack members. It wouldn't make a lot of sense.Not that I think he would choose my side anyways.The moment Nina jumps, I know she would shift in that intimidating manner I have come to realize that werewolves prefer in a fight. Yes. I am super intimidated.I do
NeerahWhen I appear in front of his office, my hands were sweaty and they shook with the fear of rejection.I gathered all my courage and knocked on the door.“Neerah, come in” he states from within.I open the door, trying to even my breathing before going in. This guy would probably have a whiplash watching me change from sad to happy in a flash. But damn if I didn't achieve it!I smile brightly, deleting the past few weeks from my memory as I said “Alpha! Good day!” He regards me with a serious look. But nothing would extinguish the smoky depth of his beautiful beautiful eyes… I can also see curiosity in them now.I am beginning to find out that it is so rare to read his gaze fully. Seeing him let his guard down enough for me to read that curiosity makes my heart skip a beat. Did he like my smile or something?Okay, focus! Don't get distracted. I reprimand myself. “Can we talk for a moment please?” I ask with a hesitant smile.He gestured to the chair in front of his desk wordl
Neerah“You know, I love reading! Can I read books here in your office?” I ask, trying to hide my still extremely powerfully beating heart. God! He cannot hear it can he?!I steal a look at his direction. I see a small smile appear at the corner of his lips and he shrugs. “Suit yourself” he agrees.“I noticed that maids do not enter your bedroom. Who does the cleaning?” I ask, cringing inwardly at how I must have sounded. i hope he doesn't think that I am hinting at anything else.I steal another look and foubd out that he has his head tilted to the side and I swear his grey eyes sharpened even more. “So?” Is all he said.“So, can I be the one to clean it for you? I worked as a nanny before. I clean their house sometimes when they let me stay over for the night” I explain. “a human monster, a house girl and nanny?” He says it as if pondering it over. I cant decipher the layers to his tone though. “Oh wow! That's me in one sentence!” I admit. And my heart beat slower again. My fraye
Neerah When Rayah comes to stand in front of me, I am so close to laughing. I can feel her outrage from miles away!“Baby, I am feeling sick today” she smoothly plants herself in front of him and she means to lean into him but he steps back with a blank look on his face. “You should rest” he states in a flat tone. “Can you hold my hand until I fall asleep? I miss your care sweetheart" she practically melts in front of him in an effort to get his full attention. But I think that the way her chest is positioned is also a clue to what she really wanted to do. He looks at me for a second or two and I just raised a brow as if to ask ‘what will you do?’ He goes around her to stand next to me and he just says quietly ‘we had a lot in the past. But I am married now. Neerah is my wife. It's not officially announced so keep it a secret will you?” He drops the bomb.My, is it loud!I am so proud of him! I never thought he could come through for me. I felt really emotional.When he took my
Alpha Cuan“He needs to hand her over!” Alpha Daren's voice silenced everyone. Although I expected the other Alpha's to stay silent out of self preservation, it still Felt pathetic. I remember when I was young, my father attended a meeting like this. Back then, there was a pack known as ‘Royal Crescent pack’ Their Alpha was of royal descent. He is not a direct descendant but he was pretty powerful. Alpha Daren was not well known then. He has just started his reign of terror and he wanted everyone to fear him. What he did was attack the Royal crescent pack when their Alpha was away. He killed his mate and their unborn child. Somehow, my dad was outraged and simmered in anger for days before he realized that no one was gping to hold his hand and fight. It was bigger than a mere fight war. Alpha Daren has Royal backing. No one wants to test the waters and end up sacrificing their pack for it. So it was like it never happened before. When no one fought back then, why will they fight
NeerahA few Hours LaterHe put a slice of toasted bread on my plate and pushed it gently towards me so it was very close to me. “I know you are hungry. Eat up” he urged. Sitting back in his own chair, I looked up at Rayah's picture in the dining room and blurted out “why is that still here?” He looks at the picture and then at me. As if realizing how bad it seemed, he smiles a little "Don't ruin your appetite. I will take it down” he tells me. I am a little taken aback and with a suspicious look, I say to him “Knowing it's there, how can I have an appetite?” He stares at me as if thoughtfully. And before I knew it, he jumped on the table, reached out to the picture and brought it down. “Put it somewhere outside. Rayah will get it later” he states in one of the maid's directions. I think her name is Alicia. Seeing the photo dragged outside eases the knot in my chest I didn't know existed. I don't know why, I smile to myself, picking up the slice of bread with my bare hand and
It feels like I am having a fever. There is something sensitive running over my skin with tingling and pricks of growing intensity. At first, I was unaware if this was just another bad dream. My mother has left my dreams too long. Perhaps the dreams are changing as there is another form of nightmare I will start to see.The rocks of my life are absent. And the intensity is growing. Only half awake, I sincerely thought that it was a dream. Well, until I open my eyes to find Cuan staring at me with eyes light as silver. Something isn't right here. He is hovering over me fully clothed but I don't feel afraid. Yet knowing instinctively that something is wrong is a thought that was buried deeply because that door that we use to share our emotions kind of burst open and I can suddenly feel …so much …too much…“You are back early” I whisper. My voice is scratchy from sleep but I can tell why he came back. I don't think he slept well last night. He was going overboard trying to give us spac
NeerahI don't want to talk about Rayah today. So I shift my thoughts to something else. “You were mystifying earlier. I felt included but…now that I think about it, I wish I could share the bond with the pack. When you said 'Luna’...” I deepen my voice to imitate him. Cuan smiles fondly. I love the way his eyes spark to life when he smiles.“You said it with that deep tone of voice.I can understand more of why you are Alpha and no one else. You sounded…unnatural. It was mighty powerful. Like, It is something that can't be told. It can only be seen, felt… I wish I knew why I couldn't shift” I try to paint an image of how I felt, gushing out my overflowing emotions.Alpha Cuan caresses my cheek lightly and smiles a little more so his eyes are not only lighting up, but practically glittering. “I wish you can feel it too. The bond between the pack and Alpha…you would have felt the strength of it…l” he sighs as if wishfully. “So, when you fought Alpha Deren, did I influence you in any
NeerahIt's an amicable night. Ine filled with secrets of a budding lovestory. It's easy to get swept up in the fantasy of the night. The wind blew, the cold air making our warmth a shared blessing…“Alpha Beret came for a reason. Do you know why?” I ask him. It's been silent for more than thirty minutes And I feel tired so I rest my head on his lap, which is heaven by the way. Somehow, the action is intimate and gives me a sense of familiarity with our new found closeness.“I don't know why he felt a need to come in person. But he is not a rash person. As you just said, he definitely jas a reason for coming over. We will find out as soon as we meet with the elders” he explained to me. “What will you do if he doesn't accept the payment? Or if my father spent your money deliberately to make it seem like the situation was as bad as before you took me away?” I ask.Clearly, if my father did not pay the money for real, it means that he is still scheming out ways to use me further for h
Alpha CuanWe Kind of just used the plane again to go over to the beach. The main reason being that the plane doesn't Need to refuel or anything. And besides all that, the pilot will be here until we are done anyways. Instead of fly everyone back, I would have them book commercial flights back.In any case, I was specific about the number of people to be invited for this reason. We have like fifty people who came on call. The rest came because they wanted to…Neerah is still feeling the remnants of a first flight trauma. She tries to appear fine but I can Smell her fear just like the last flight. Albeit less I guess.She is brave though. She carries herself well in tensed situations.Although, I am proud of her for keeping her cool, I am now very much worried about us. What sill it be like if I were in greater danger. It was fortunate that the f8ghr was just a dare. A test of courage of sorts. Most Alpha's Would prefer to avoid confrontation with Alpha Deren. The fact that I accepted
NeerahI am so fucking mad! But when you are weak, sometimes, courage is a myth. Like, what is courage when nothing would back it up? It would be an aimless bluster!I think of how to help Cuan. I don't want to seem so useless just after they have all kinda trusted me to lead them alongside their Alpha. It occurs to me that our mind link is not for us to understand each other only. I think that us being able to influence the other is why Alohas need a string mate. And if that is the case, I can't afford to let my fear make him so weak…No one taught me this. It's just instinct. I focused on the rage that had begun to build up earlier. Big mistake! Cuan kind of lost his cool and threw a punch before I could do anything more about my idea.It was definitely the most brutal ten seconds I have ever witnessed in my entire life. Like, Cuan threw the punch, jumped back in the same second while Alpha Deren aggressively shifted into his wolf form. But then Cian shifted too and both werewolves
NeerahAnd then I locked eyes with Rayah. And she smiles at me as if respectful. If only I could beleive it!My biggest hurdle is always Rayah. Somehow, she is no longer with Cuan but she makes everything difficult. She would endure his direct rejection, pretend to be good and holy, and then turn around to bite me instead. It is like she always knows what to say to Cuan to make him feel sympathetic, or guilty enough to let it go. Or rather, she knows how to act in a way that would stop him from wanting to take action against whatever she did. She knows him better than I do. Somehow, even with the mating bond, she has had years to know him. She doesn't want me to forget it…She wants to be Luna. I don't know why. But she wants it bad. Does she love him so much that she wouldn't want him to be with his mate? How brazen is that? How selfish… Sadly, I know too well how selfish love works. It has no consideration for the other party. I sit next to to Cuan who sits at the head of rhe long
NeerahWe arrived at the most beautiful place I have ever been to. The greenery is just mindblowing. The architectural design of the massive one thousand acres of the Wolf Teeth Inn is the most alluring thing that makes me feel excited just for being here. If you love nature, this is your last stop. If leisure is your game, I think you will still love the Wolf Teeth Inn. It screams upper class. The kind of place that reminds you there are two sides to life. Rich and poor. I feel poor even in my richness if you can believe it! It's not my money. I did nothing to contribute to it. I feel like such a fraud… But then I reexamine my emotions. I thought to myself ‘Get out! It's my poor old self struggling to embrace this new life. So would it be better if I said that I feel rich in my poor status? Forget it! I can't get it straight either. It's just mighty weird.First, we were welcomed by staff members who wore uniforms and we were led to the biggest building where Cuan held my hand all