Chapter 185

Edwina's POV...

Looking around the room that had clearly been tagged as out of bounds, I sat by the door, hugging my legs to my chest. Thinking about Xander's announcement, I didn't know how exactly I was supposed to act. And maybe I shouldn't have acted unreasonably, walking out on him like that.

But I was overwhelmed by the news, and my emotions weren't exactly clear. I should have suspected something was different about me, especially when I craved more sleep and felt some irritation in the mornings for the past week now.

Tears flowed freely from my eyes.

When Sonia was alive and pregnant with Star, I had wished to conceive, too, hoping Xander wouldn't have a problem with it. I hoped he would be pleased with the thought of it.

Somehow, I feel like this doesn't seem like the right time. To think that I had sex with Xander this morning makes the guilt weigh more on my shoulders. I wish I had spent more time with Sonia while she was alive.

I would never forgive our father for doing t