Everything in my gut is telling me that Ava is special, but I need to be careful. She’s staring straight into my soul. It’s like we’re already connected. This has to be a dream. She shakes her head no. I look into her eyes, and I’m melting. We’re about the same height, she’s just a bit shorter than I am. Ava leans over the console. She carefully reaches her hand up and cups my face. This feels so natural, but I don’t even know her.
She puts her lips on mine. I freeze in this moment. No thoughts. Just her tongue in my mouth. She bites my lip gently as she pulls away. Ava manages to act shy and tucks her hair behind her ears. “So where are you going exactly?” She asks me. I question whether she already knows. Perhaps not.
“California. The ocean is calling me. What about you, where’s home?” Maybe she’s from here. Then again how could a dry ass desert produce such a precious gem of a mermaid? She curls her long red hair around her fingers, and smiles again. “I live in Malibu actually. I was just out here to hunt over the full moon.”
The moon. “Is that why I changed? Was it the moon?” She nods. “How old were you when you found out?” Ava puts her seat belt on. “Most werewolves turn when they’re sixteen. I was thirteen.” Whoa. “Thirteen?” That surprises me. I’m barely twenty two years old. I shift my car into gear, and begin to drive out of the garage. Malibu it is. Ava agrees silently.
“It’s not usual for a were to shift at twenty one, but you’re a hybrid. You also didn’t know. So I guess the Moon Goddess was giving you some time.” Ava says surely. She’s absolutely stunning. Her aura captivates me. I think I could look at her for hours, but I gotta drive. That beast won’t find us here.
Ava stares out the window as I drive up the on ramp to the highway. I wonder if my grandmother knew I was a hybrid. Did she know my father? Holy shit.
Is my father a werewolf?
I look at Ava, but she’s not reacting. I think I’m learning how to keep some thoughts to myself. Something deep within me was always connected to the moon. I thought it had to do with The Harlow Witches. My ancestors.
“Harlow!?” Ava quickly covers her mouth in shock. So she was listening. “Yeah, I’m a Harlow.” I lick my lips. They feel chapped. I go to reach into my console, but Ava beats me to it. She takes the cap off my lip balm, and puts it on my lips herself. “Just focus on the road Aster Harlow.” I do just that.
We cruise west on interstate 10. “Welcome to California.” Ava says with a hint of old Hollywood glamour. “Do you like it here?” I ask her as we cross the state lines. She smiles and nods. Her smile is pure fucking magic.
The state border is pretty empty this late at night. No lines, that’s nice. I drive through and stop at the booth. The officer is a gorgeous woman. “Good evening ladies. Welcome to California.” I look at Ava, she rolls her eyes and looks away. “Thank you very much.” I say as she waves us through.
“What was that all about?” Ava almost seems jealous. “Ha! Not jealous. She just doesn’t seem like your type.” Is she talking about the border officer?
“Yes Aster. Yes I’m talking about the border officer. You think she’s gorgeous.” Ava is being a bit dramatic. “Dude, chill. We barely know each other. For what it’s worth, you are by far more my type than that woman is.” Ava seems happy with that. I can’t help but wonder what I may be getting myself into here. It’s almost like she thinks I’m hers after one kiss.
“One magical kiss.” Ava puts her hand on my leg. It’s so fucking warm. “The heat. Is that because you got mad?” I’m curious. “Not mad. Passionate.” She squeezes my thigh. Part of me wants to pull this car over and ravage her on the side of the highway. “So do it.” She squeezes harder.
I take a look at her, and I pull the fuck over. I throw my car into park, lean my seat back, and motion for her to climb on top of me. She straddles my hips. My eyes roll back. Ava kisses me like I have never been kissed before. I reach up under her shirt and unfasten her bra with one hand. The other has the hair at the nape of her neck in a tight grasp. I tug a little. She moans.
“Take your shirt off.” Ava pulls her shirt off and then puts her hand on my neck. “I’m not your slave Aster.” This is almost scary. I’m so wet, I almost don’t care. Her nails dig in. “Ava, stop.” I can barely breathe. She may not know her own strength. If I stay completely still I can tolerate it. Why would she want to hurt me? Does she like this?
Ava releases a little bit of tension that she has on my neck. Just enough for me to breathe, but I don’t move. She moves her hips back up against the steering wheel. I’m not sure what she’s doing but I go along with it. Breathing slowly. She moves my entire body up by my neck. Why didn’t that hurt? She leans down and kisses me hard. Her free hand pulls my hoodie up over my tits. She sucks my nipples so hard and nibbles. I flinch, she likes making me squirm.
How low is she willing to go? Ava puts her hands in my pants. She knows exactly what I want. Her fingers thrust in and out of me at the right speed.
Oh fuck yes.
She rubs my clit exactly when I need her to. Ava fingers me again. I’m gonna cum so hard. She takes her hand off of my neck and bites it instead.
My insides throb and gush. I scream. “That’s it. Cum for me.” She whispers in my ear. My body quivers. “Yeah, yeah, yeah! Don’t stop. Fuck!” Heat boils throughout my bloodstream. My head is in the clouds. Ava leans back and rubs my clit while fingering me with her other hand. That just makes me cum harder.
Fuck that was amazing. “You’re welcome.” She says as she pulls her fingers out of me and puts them into her mouth to taste me. She kisses me. Tasting myself on her tongue makes me want to devour her. I reach up to unbutton her jeans. “Not yet.” She stops me.
The glowing yellow super moon shines bright over the mountains of the Mojave Desert. I feel like I’m on autopilot. Ava is fast asleep, her head rests on the window. I can’t stop thinking about her even though she’s right next to me. It pains me to think that beast wants to hurt her. I will always protect her. I’m trying to keep myself awake with music. My eyes keep drifting off the road. I may not be able to stay awake. She depleted my energy with her fingers. I pull into the Joshua Tree National Park. There’s a few dirt roads off to the side before the main park entrance. I roll my car quietly behind a cluster of rocks and trees. My head is swimming with thoughts. I turn off my engine, and carefully pull my tarot cards out of the glove box. Ava doesn’t even move. She’s out cold. I step out, and shuffle my deck. The Eight of Cups flips onto the hood of my car. The illustration is perfect. There’s eight cups stacked carefully on the ground. A man is walking away from them towards the
Trouble seems to keep finding me. Ava and I run to my car without looking back. I quickly pop my trunk, throw the bags in, and start my engine. Why are we running? I sense Ava is hiding something, “What did you steal?” I yell at her as I swiftly back out between the shoppers in the parking lot. There’s an employee running out of the store, I can see him in my rear view mirror. “Buckle up.” I hook a left to weave through the parked cars, and drive down a different lane to the exit. He might have been able to see my make and model, but not my plate number. “Where’s the hotel, Ava?” I don’t know which way to turn. “Go right, she says.” Whatever she stole, it better be worth all of this. I’m mad now, and I don’t let her in to my head. I can feel her trying to read me. She can’t. “You better start talking Ava.” I look at her intensely. “Just keep driving Aster.” She’s being snarky and I don’t like it. I’m not the one who stole shit. This is pissing me off greatly. Ava uses the map on her
My skin crawls. I don’t want to answer the door. Ava is naked standing right in front of me. The knocking gets louder. I’m caught up in the moment and the person on the other side of the door is uninvited. My fangs burst through my gums. I can feel my vision change. My claws launch out of my fingertips. The soap drops from my hands. Ava looks half worried but I’d never hurt her. I raise my hands to her waist. She slides the shower curtain open. I see my half wolf self in the mirror. “Holy fucking shit.” I can’t believe what I’m seeing. There’s no hair growth. No wolf snout. My eyes are glowing so bright I imagine they can be seen in the dark. The knocking on the door makes me growl. I didn’t know I could even do that. “I kind of like it.” She puts her finger on my nose, “Stay here. I’m going to answer the door.” Ava puts on a robe. When the fear of who could be at the door kicks in, I become human again. Or whatever I am. What am I? Am I even human? I don’t even know. The only thing
Ava is asleep in my arms. I carefully free myself from her. I’m feeling disoriented and sore. Looking in the bathroom mirror I can see that it clearly wasn’t a dream. There’s a few scratches and light bruising on my neck. I sit in the tub and let the shower water fall on me like a rain storm. For a moment I get lost in the thought of this being some kind of forever. I shuffle my tarot cards on the coffee table. My heart thinks it’s possible for me to have some kind of a happy life with Ava. The World and the Ten of Cups. I shake my head. It’s like these cards are mocking that very thought. They show me harmonious happiness along with achievement and completion. If only life could truly be that easy. I watch Ava sleep for a few minutes. She’s absolutely everything I never knew I wanted. I know I could love her. There’s a cosmic connection here for sure. Some people never know a love like this. Ava could leave tomorrow but yet ten years from now if I saw her, I know I’d feel the same.
The thought of being a slave doesn’t sound appealing at all. I can’t believe that werewolves choose to do this willingly. I’m driving angry. I need to slow down. Ava stares out the window with her headphones on. I don’t want to be a pack slave if that really means I’d just be passed around. Sounds more like I’d just be the pack slut. I’m sure some girls would kill for that. Not me.Ava says I could be her slave, but would the pack be okay with that? Would they cut me a break and just allow me to be at the hands of the gamma. What if the Alpha doesn’t approve of me? Lots of questions are running through my head and I need them to be answered but I’m not even sure I’d get the whole truth out of Ava. There’s something about her that just seems so selfish.I’m head over heels for her, but I fear that she’s not exactly who she says she is. Or maybe that’s just how I feel because I have major trust issues. It’s probably because she can hear everything I’m thinking, and I can’t hear her at a
My anxiety is so bad that I feel like I’m going to throw up. “Aster close your eyes and breathe with me.” Ava takes my hands into hers. We’re standing at the end of a dirt road. She inhales slowly through her nose and exhales through parted lips. I take in a few deep slow breaths.My boots crunch through the gravel. Spectacular rays of orange and purple bathe clouds in color. This is a beautiful location for the packhouse. We’re about ten minutes away from the coast and thirty to the city. I like what I’m seeing but the energy is off. She’s attempting to sneak me into the packhouse slowly. I think about running back to my car to escape. But I breathe in my fear instead.“Welcome to The Barking Moon.” Ava says majestically. I throw a salty stare her way, “You didn’t mention a bar.” She smiles, “You never asked.” I could go for a drink. Ava douses me in her perfume. “What the fuck are you doing?” She sprays my whole body, “I don’t want any of them to pick up your scent.” I’m lost, “Do I
I’ve never believed something so complicated before. It sounds insane. He doesn’t even really know me. “I know enough.” Reed speaks but it’s not just his words that I hear. His soul is speaking to me on another level. I see his eyes glowing amber in the moonlight. I’m not as scared as I should be. There’s an instant trust between us. I can feel his energy in a way that I can’t with Ava.His brows furrow, “Ava?” Shit! I carefully say, “I’m still not used to everyone being able to hear my thoughts.” Reed looks to the moon in deep thought. I peer down to my feet trying to focus on the rain. Images from the past few days flash through my mind. “You can’t be with her anymore.” He looks down at me.“What do you mean? You don’t own me. You can’t tell me who I can and can’t sleep with.” He backhands me across the face, “I just did.” The pain I feel from the blow is more than just physical. All of my emotions are raging. I’m anxious and disappointed. I also want to knock him out. “Go ahead!” H
I’m chasing Ava through the forest. Why is she running from me? “Ava!” I yell to her. She runs even faster. Sprinting at this speed seems effortless. The earth feels so good under my feet. I look down and realize that I must have fully shifted. She’s running from me because I’m trying to kill her.I wake up screaming in a cold sweat. Reed snaps up and scoops me up into his arms. I’m just sobbing uncontrollably. Seeing myself like that scares me half to death. I’m not a killer. I would never do anything to hurt Ava. She must be wondering where I am. What if she thinks I left?She knows exactly where you are.How is he so certain? “The last time I saw her was before I stepped outside for air. I need to go talk to her.” Reed grabs me by the hand as I stand up, “Don’t bother. She’s pissed at you right now.” How would he know that? Oh that’s right, “You can all hear each other but I can only hear your thoughts. How is that fair?” He looks puzzled, “Why is that?” He asks. “I guess I’m just
Staring out into the deep blue sea. Thunder clouds begin to form in the sky. “Alpha Wes is my father?” Ava stands tall next to me, “Yes.” I question her, “You’re absolutely sure of that?” She nods once more, “Luna Bernie knew your mother when she was with Alpha Wes.” I’m trying to wrap my mind around all of this knowing I have to return to the packhouse. Pretending I know nothing.“Alpha Wes brought your mother here to meet his father. At the time Gavin was the Alpha. He knew your mother was a witch right away. He could smell it.” I recall, “My mother wasn’t a witch.” Not that I can remember. “She was born a witch. Clea didn’t have to practice magic. She had the blood of a Harlow.” I’m a Harlow too, “How did Alpha Wes not smell it on me?”Ava shrugs, “That I don’t know. But we should start heading back before they realize we’re gone.” She turns to walk back to the car. I grab her by the wrist to swing her back to me. “Is there anything else that you’re hiding from me?” Ava pulls her h
Reed is visibly upset with me. “I’m sorry.” I put my hand on his face. “You should have told me.” He turns away from me. “Ava told me not to. She convinced me that the pack would want me dead if they found out.” He looks at me and then back to the sky, “She’s right.” I walk towards the bar with fear in my eyes. “There’s only so much I can do to protect you Aster.”Instead of going in I walk around the side of the packhouse. “Where are you going?” Reed asks me. “The ocean.” I say as I head to my car. “But Alpha Wes just told you to work With Ava in the bar.” I look back to Reed, “I need to clear my head. The last twenty-four hours were a lot. I’m going.”Ava walks out of the back door. She looks at me and then to him, “Hey Reed you think you can cover for me for a couple of hours?” He looks confused, “Why where are you going?” Ava smiles, “To the beach.” My stomach just flipped. Reed looks at me. “It’s okay. We have some catching up to do.” He looks at us like we’re both insane, “Whate
Alpha Wes has deep green eyes with speckles of black and yellow. Reed and I stand together in the the middle of his stone chamber. Why did I agree to enter this man’s basement? It’s beyond me. Maybe this is where he sacrifices people. Shit. What if he can he hear me? Can you hear me? Alpha Wes says nothing. Either he’s got quite the poker face or he can’t hear my thoughts.Aster stay calm it’s going to be okay.I look at Reed. Does Alpha Wes know that we hooked up? Reed nods. I roll my eyes. Great. That’s just what I need. This guy is just gonna think the worst of me. I’m just some whore from the streets to him. Now he’s gonna think I’ll make a great pack slave for sure. Might as well just break out the shackles already.Aster!The energy in this room is dark. I nonchalantly move my eyes all around. I’m looking for my escape route. “What’s your name?” Alpha Wes is just a few feet in front of me. “Aster.” He steps a foot closer, “Where are you from?” Breathing in slowly, “Massachusetts
I’m chasing Ava through the forest. Why is she running from me? “Ava!” I yell to her. She runs even faster. Sprinting at this speed seems effortless. The earth feels so good under my feet. I look down and realize that I must have fully shifted. She’s running from me because I’m trying to kill her.I wake up screaming in a cold sweat. Reed snaps up and scoops me up into his arms. I’m just sobbing uncontrollably. Seeing myself like that scares me half to death. I’m not a killer. I would never do anything to hurt Ava. She must be wondering where I am. What if she thinks I left?She knows exactly where you are.How is he so certain? “The last time I saw her was before I stepped outside for air. I need to go talk to her.” Reed grabs me by the hand as I stand up, “Don’t bother. She’s pissed at you right now.” How would he know that? Oh that’s right, “You can all hear each other but I can only hear your thoughts. How is that fair?” He looks puzzled, “Why is that?” He asks. “I guess I’m just
I’ve never believed something so complicated before. It sounds insane. He doesn’t even really know me. “I know enough.” Reed speaks but it’s not just his words that I hear. His soul is speaking to me on another level. I see his eyes glowing amber in the moonlight. I’m not as scared as I should be. There’s an instant trust between us. I can feel his energy in a way that I can’t with Ava.His brows furrow, “Ava?” Shit! I carefully say, “I’m still not used to everyone being able to hear my thoughts.” Reed looks to the moon in deep thought. I peer down to my feet trying to focus on the rain. Images from the past few days flash through my mind. “You can’t be with her anymore.” He looks down at me.“What do you mean? You don’t own me. You can’t tell me who I can and can’t sleep with.” He backhands me across the face, “I just did.” The pain I feel from the blow is more than just physical. All of my emotions are raging. I’m anxious and disappointed. I also want to knock him out. “Go ahead!” H
My anxiety is so bad that I feel like I’m going to throw up. “Aster close your eyes and breathe with me.” Ava takes my hands into hers. We’re standing at the end of a dirt road. She inhales slowly through her nose and exhales through parted lips. I take in a few deep slow breaths.My boots crunch through the gravel. Spectacular rays of orange and purple bathe clouds in color. This is a beautiful location for the packhouse. We’re about ten minutes away from the coast and thirty to the city. I like what I’m seeing but the energy is off. She’s attempting to sneak me into the packhouse slowly. I think about running back to my car to escape. But I breathe in my fear instead.“Welcome to The Barking Moon.” Ava says majestically. I throw a salty stare her way, “You didn’t mention a bar.” She smiles, “You never asked.” I could go for a drink. Ava douses me in her perfume. “What the fuck are you doing?” She sprays my whole body, “I don’t want any of them to pick up your scent.” I’m lost, “Do I
The thought of being a slave doesn’t sound appealing at all. I can’t believe that werewolves choose to do this willingly. I’m driving angry. I need to slow down. Ava stares out the window with her headphones on. I don’t want to be a pack slave if that really means I’d just be passed around. Sounds more like I’d just be the pack slut. I’m sure some girls would kill for that. Not me.Ava says I could be her slave, but would the pack be okay with that? Would they cut me a break and just allow me to be at the hands of the gamma. What if the Alpha doesn’t approve of me? Lots of questions are running through my head and I need them to be answered but I’m not even sure I’d get the whole truth out of Ava. There’s something about her that just seems so selfish.I’m head over heels for her, but I fear that she’s not exactly who she says she is. Or maybe that’s just how I feel because I have major trust issues. It’s probably because she can hear everything I’m thinking, and I can’t hear her at a
Ava is asleep in my arms. I carefully free myself from her. I’m feeling disoriented and sore. Looking in the bathroom mirror I can see that it clearly wasn’t a dream. There’s a few scratches and light bruising on my neck. I sit in the tub and let the shower water fall on me like a rain storm. For a moment I get lost in the thought of this being some kind of forever. I shuffle my tarot cards on the coffee table. My heart thinks it’s possible for me to have some kind of a happy life with Ava. The World and the Ten of Cups. I shake my head. It’s like these cards are mocking that very thought. They show me harmonious happiness along with achievement and completion. If only life could truly be that easy. I watch Ava sleep for a few minutes. She’s absolutely everything I never knew I wanted. I know I could love her. There’s a cosmic connection here for sure. Some people never know a love like this. Ava could leave tomorrow but yet ten years from now if I saw her, I know I’d feel the same.
My skin crawls. I don’t want to answer the door. Ava is naked standing right in front of me. The knocking gets louder. I’m caught up in the moment and the person on the other side of the door is uninvited. My fangs burst through my gums. I can feel my vision change. My claws launch out of my fingertips. The soap drops from my hands. Ava looks half worried but I’d never hurt her. I raise my hands to her waist. She slides the shower curtain open. I see my half wolf self in the mirror. “Holy fucking shit.” I can’t believe what I’m seeing. There’s no hair growth. No wolf snout. My eyes are glowing so bright I imagine they can be seen in the dark. The knocking on the door makes me growl. I didn’t know I could even do that. “I kind of like it.” She puts her finger on my nose, “Stay here. I’m going to answer the door.” Ava puts on a robe. When the fear of who could be at the door kicks in, I become human again. Or whatever I am. What am I? Am I even human? I don’t even know. The only thing