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2022-07-23 23:50:18Beta Finn POV
The wolves dump me out about a mile from the pack territory. One wolf, Jeramy, took great satisfaction in pulling me out of the black SUV and dumping me on the ground. He knows I cannot touch him. At least he cannot touch me now. That will be a different story if I do not bring Alaska back to my father and breed with her as he keeps calling it.I begin my walk back to Alaska and Alpha Kai. Maybe she does love him, and I cannot blame her if she is in love with another wolf. I have given her nothing but pain. I have tried to be kind to her and love her, but the truth is we are not compatible. We are only together because my father forced me to be with her.The pressure my father puts on me to get Alaska pregnant makes it almost impossible for me to even be with her. He wants a daughter to replace my sister. What kind of sick shit is that? If I lie to Alaska and take her back to my father, then what? He will rape her and kill her after she gives him a child.WRelated chapters
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