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Three: Alex’s POV (Love sucks)

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last update Last Updated: 2025-03-27 00:10:13

“Is he still feeling like crap?” Rita asked as she walked into I and Nico’s dorm room with a somewhat large vanilla cake she had bought.

I rolled over on my bed and covered my head with a blanket. It had been a week since that night with Julius.

Safe to say that I have been severely under the weather. It didn’t make sense for him to act that way. Was it something I did? Was it because I was an orphan with no money to my name?

This was my first relationship and I hated that it had to end the way that it did.

Nico sighed.

“He’s been this way for a while now. I don’t think he’s been going for any of his classes”

“I don’t want to go. What’s the point when I know that I’m going to bump into him again?”

I asked and fought back tears. I had cried so much that I was certain that any more tears would make me ill.

Rita sat on my bed and gently stroked my covered head. She was always a nice person and as much as I was grateful for her and Nico trying to cheer me up, I really wanted to be alone.

“I get that you’re hurting right now but hiding in your dorm room isn’t going to do any good”

“Yes, it will” I insisted.

“Do you think that douchebag is in his private dorm room crying and feeling like shit right now?” Nico asked.

“I hope so” I said.

I really wanted him to come back with a huge romantic gesture and an apology. There was no way that we were actually over right?

God, I missed Julius so much.

“I can tell for free that he’s not,” Nico responded, “I bet that he’s busy banging his new girlfriend”

“I heard that he’s dating Sophia Burgundy now,” Rita said, “Isn’t she on the drama team?”

“Yeah and she’s also the bitch that bullied my baby cousin in high school”

“Oh my goodness,” Rita exclaimed, “She’s the bitch?”

“Yup”

“It’s always the pretty ones isn’t it?”

I sat up on my bed and pushed the blanket off my body.

“Can we please not talk about how my ex boyfriend’s new girlfriend is pretty and perfect”

“She is definitely far from either of those two options” Nico said.

“She’s rich too” I added

“So what?” He asked

I rolled my eyes and pulled my knees to my chest. I couldn’t care less what they thought about the new girlfriend, I just wanted to stop feeling so shitty.

“Do you want some cake? I heard you like to snack on it when you’re stressed”

Rita carried the cake off the desk and placed it on the bed. There was a fork and butter knife already set.

I flashed Rita a grateful smile. She was such a darling.

“Thanks, Rita”

“You’re welcome. You know, I’m really sorry about the way that things turned out between you and Julius. I know you really liked him”

I shrug and begin eating the cake.

“Can you believe that he said that he couldn’t have people thinking that he was into boys?” I asked.

“After all the time that you two spend together, I’m pretty sure a few people already know he’s into boys”

“That’s most likely the reason that he’s dating Sophia now,” Nico added, “He’s trying to get people to quit suspecting him”

I groaned out in frustration. Love sucks. Rita wrapped her arms around my shoulder and rubbed my arm comfortingly.

“I’m so sorry, Alex”

“It doesn’t matter,” I replied, “I should have listened to the both of you from day one”

“That doesn’t even matter at all, he dude” Nico said and I nodded.

“You know what, I have just the thing to make you feel better” Rita announced.

“Please don’t say a party” I pleaded.

Rita giggled. “Come on, it’ll be fun,” she urged, “A really big influencer is throwing it. You know, we can all try a little bit of molly while we’re at it” she wiggled her eyebrows suggestively.

I chuckled at the mention of the drug. The thing with Rita was that you could never really tell if she was messing around or not.

“I second that,” Nico said, “both the party and the drugs”

“You two are such horrible influences” I said and they both laughed.

“But, for real though,” Nico began, “I really think a change of scenery will do you some good”

“And the drugs?” I asked with a raised brow.

“We’ll cross that bridge when we get there” Rita said as she gently placed the cake aside so she could lay her head on my lap.

“I don’t know you guys, I really just want to eat ice cream and cry” I protested.

Why wouldn’t they just let me be sad in peace?

“Well, there isn’t any ice cream but you can eat some cake and cry. When you’re done, we can all get ready to go to the party”

“Rita, everyone knows you need special invites to get into places like that. We don’t even have invites” I said and she smirked.

“You forget that my brother is one of the biggest influencers ever and a lot of these other influencers want to get on his good side by doing me favors” she explained.

“And I’m guessing one of those favors include VIP passes at the big parties?” Nico asked.

“For me and my squad” She replied with a smile.

“What do you say, Alex?” He asked me and I looked up at both of them.

Maybe they were right and I needed to start accepting what had happened and find ways to deal with it.

“I don’t know, you guys”

“Come on, Alex,” Rita shook me a little, “loosen up a little. It’ll be great”

“You sure?” I asked and she nodded.

“Absolutely,” she assured, “plus, what’s the worst that could happen?”

“Don’t jinx it” I said and she chuckled.

“Of course, of course. Soooo does that mean that you’ll be coming?” She asked.

“Yeah, I suppose so”

“What about you, Nico?” She asked as she held eye contact with him, “I could really use a dance partner you know”

He scratched the back of his neck and chuckled.

“I guess that I could come along” he replied, his face had turned to a lighter shade of red.

“Great,” she exclaimed, “We’re going to a party!”

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