"I can do this!""You can do this!" Hannah repeated my words. She was full of enthusiasm and smiled to me very encouraging. I returned the smile to her and nodded.After a week in this hospital and full sighting of my mother and that little, perfect bitch who has the same last name as my, whatever he is now, I've had enough. I was ready to go home, lay on my couch, and eat my chips. Read some Cosmo if I have to...Well, we better hurry then.I smiled widely when my inner voice spoke to me."Aghh!" I moaned after I took one big step towards my life-saving exit. Mom, I mean, Dr.Miller suggested I don't strain too much or walk because I'm risking of cracking sutures and bleeding to death. Yes, she enjoyed telling me that. Now, all I can do is walk to the bathroom which is a few steps further away from my room and that's it. Yea, as If I will survive without checking my fridge every few minutes.My pain is still fresh. Every mov
"Wake up... Someone wants to see you." Hannah gently shook my shoulder. I just moaned and didn't even bother to open my eyes. Whatever is going on, it can wait until I woke up. Suddenly, I felt familiar sound of cologne mixed with aftershave. Mike!My inner voice spoke to me. My heart started beating fast and all of a sudden, I felt a big wave of heat going through my body. I still couldn't open my eyes."I wouldn't let him in, but he brought food so..." I heard Hannah's voice. I slapped my forehead. Damn Hannah, and damn Mike! Everyone knows she can't resist food! I heard his giggle. I couldn't help it but smile a little too."Evening, sleeping beauty." I felt his strong mint fresh breath on my cheek. I stopped breathing when I felt his lips on my skin. As I felt a strong tingling sensation going from my cheek to my toe, I opened my eyes and I saw him. He backed off from me, standing straight in front of my co
I don't know what happened right there but remember John left. Everything was still blurry to me. He slammed the door so strong, I twitched. I still don't know what happened. All I know is, Mike lied to me again. He called John. He did that so I could be with John and forget him. I mean, what? Seriously? Who does that? "I will leave you two alone." Hannah said quietly but you could see she is very angry. She walked out of the kitchen leaving me and Mike in alone. He was still covering his face with his hands, sitting on the chair while I was leaning against kitchen counter. I was watching him, trying to realize, trying to understand him. Believe me, it was hard. "Why Mike?" I asked him after ten minutes of getting my thoughts, my head and my heart to normal. I was still looking at him, as he lowered his hands and looked down. He sighed deeply."You must forget about me." He sad weakly. Instantly, as my chest tightened, my eyes were getting
I watched my daddy's face go pale as I said him every detail in this two weeks. The more he found out, the more his face lost every inch of redness. To be honest, I expected this reaction, but I talk to him about everything. He knows me and he would find out by himself, anyway. At least, he has feelings, not like Dr.Miller. Yes, I call her Dr.Miller now, not mommy. "How mad are you from 1 to 10?" I asked my dad as I gave him the best puppy face I could pull out. He looked at me seriously but after a few seconds and a few blinks with my blue eyes, his look softened and he gave me the best reassuring smile ever."I am not mad, my baby..." He caressed my cheek softly. "But I'm confused." He said and sighed. "You were always so determined about everything, but when it comes to Mike, you like, lose your brain or something!" He said confused. I covered my face with hands realizing that he is telling the truth! I mean, when I used to say no to someone, it was no. No
"John, I can't do this..." That was my first 5 words when we broke our kiss. Last time we kissed was when I was still back home in a small Detroit, before I found out he cheated me with some waitress in our local bar. It was our last kiss, and it was perfect. Just like this one!"Oh..." He said as he lowered his head. He looked so wounded, so disappointed, so sad. I tried to put my arm on his shoulder but he winced so hard, I instantly pulled my hand back."John." I said weakly. He sighed."Whatever, Jess, I will just bang another girl and I will be fine." He said coldly. I opened my mouth but I couldn't say a word. I shook my head and sighed. Why I ever thought he changed? How could I be so stupid and naive?"Get the fuck out of my apartment!" I raised my voice. I remembered all the times he cheated, lied and many other bad things. Of course he will just bang another girl, I knew he's that type, why am I freaking out here? "Now!" I yelled a
First, let me start with a small author's note.I am so grateful that I have people who support me and I've wouldn't done it without you!Love you guys, and once again, THANKS FOR YOUR SUPPORT!! Yours, Daisy.-----------------------------------------"Morning beautiful." I opened my eyes slowly as I felt a warm lips on my cheek. I won't lie, I felt alive more then ever."Morning..." I turned around to him and leaned my head on his strong and sexy shoulders. Mike spend the night here because he didn't want to leave me alone since Hannah called and said that she will sleep at George's house and from there, they are going to college together. My first scary thought was that Gorilla will see them."Are we planning on getting up soon?" Mike asked me with the most beautiful morning voice. I was still ashamed by the fact we were both naked in the same bed. Last time we were like that, I was drunk and I can't remember a thing
"Why are you so pale?" Hannah asked me after I entered her car in a Hospital's parking lot. "Jessica?" She asked me again but I couldn't answer."She knows." I simply said."Who knows what? Jess?" She looked at me puzzled but after a few seconds, she realized. "Ann. Oh my God." She formed an 'O' with her mouth but then she covered her mouth with her hand."Maybe, I don't know." I sighed."But what happened?" She asked me after a moment of silence."She invited me for coffee." I sighed deeply again and covered my face with hands."That... Doesn't mean anything!" Hannah tried to reassure me but it didn't work out much. It seems that Hannah don't believe that either."When she invited me, she had that devilish smile and her one eyebrow was always up, you know, like you look when you have a plan. Evil plan." I looked at her seriously and she sighed deeply with her eyes closed."Ok. Here's what we're going
"I... I have to go..." I said to that stunningly evil Ann. She just smiled proudly."Sure you do." She said barely audible and sounded like all this is super boring. I stood up slowly, holding myself on to a chair. I didn't understood why my body is so heavy when I don't even feel it. To be honest, I didn't knew how will I get to my apartment. On every stair of building's staircase, I waited for a few seconds, then I took a step forward. I'm coming back home from the hell. To him. To that liar. That son of a..."Jessica?" Hannah's voice interrupted my thoughts. She was beneath me, probably coming home from the store."Peter. His son." I said weakly, letting my tears block my view. Hannah ran to me, standing beside me."His what?" She asked with her eyes wide open but I just sighed. "Jessica?!" She said trying to catch my eyes but I looked down. I didn't want to cry. Not over him. Not now, not here."I'm fine." I said sniffing. S
"What the hell?" Hannah repeated herself because we ignored her the first time."What are you doing here?" I asked him, narrowing my eyes, still ignoring Hannah."Well, since you're not answering me, I came to make sure my girlfriend is still alive." Mike said coldly, clenching his jaw."As you see, I am so..." Filled with anger, I rolled my eyes."Can we talk?" He asked, slowly yet strongly grabbing my arm. I flinched, feeling pain. Hannah was just standing there, confused as she can be."Not a place or time Mike." I said firmly but I was visibly scared and that annoyed me. I shouldn't be afraid of him, I don't have a reason for that. Right?"Something happened?" He asked me, now looking genuinely concerned and confused. Then it hit me. He doesn't have a clue that I overheard his conversation. How could I be so stupid and let my emotions get the best of me?"We will talk later okay?" I said as my face softened. He looked at me, one eyebrow up, still mad. He growled under his voice an
"Sleepyhead..." I heard a soft voice near me. Air smelled like our toothpaste and mix of herbs from Hannah's shampoo. Although I smiled lightly, knowing it was her, I still didn't want to wake up."Nooo..." I whined and turned on the other side. Hannah smiled and leaned on me, sighing deeply."When did you even got home last night?" She asked, still on my body. I moaned, not happy with that. "I know what will make you got up." She said, slowly getting up. I moaned again, feeling lighter and relieved that I can just roll over on the other side of my bed, completely ignoring her. Realizing it wasn't the smartest move as she grabbed my legs and started pulling me out, I started laughing."Stoooop, leave me in peace!" I managed to mumble as she continued to pull me up. I tried to budge but I couldn't. How the hell is she so strong?!"I got engaged!" Hannah exclaimed, finally letting me go."What?!" I lifted my head so rapidly, the whole room started spinning! She was screaming and jumping
My head was at the verge of blowing up like the ones in cartoons. There was too much information I needed to cope, too deafening sounds, everything was spinning. Me, the room, everything! I felt numb and over-touched, cranky, mad, all feelings you could think of and none of them in the same time. I didn't even knew until now that that's possible.My shift ended vaguely, honestly I'm happy I didn't kill anybody! All I could think is how I will eventually go home and tell Hannah everything what was heavy on my crazy noggin.Darla didn't say anything for the rest of our shift. I could only imagine what's in her head now, poor girl...I got a text from Hannah asking if I'm ready for our date night. I was more then ready but I wanted to do one more thing before I head home."Hi you..." John's head lifted up when he saw me entering his room. "Did I woke you up?" I asked, carefully closing the door. I stood by them as my legs wouldn't let me come closer to him for some reason."I won't bite
"What the hell is going on?!" I yelled a little bit louder than I expected. Few doctors that was passing by with patients looked at me concerned. I brushed it off. Soon enough, my mom will hear about this, but I can't deal with this now."Dr.Miller." Veronica called my name in so calming voice, my anger vanished in thin air. I slowly turned around. She looked at me, smiling acidly, slightly tilting her head."I'm sorry." I said to her. She didn't say anything, she just shrugged her shoulders and smiled. I felt bad for not knowing how to control. "Let's continue this in my office, shall we?" I asked, faking a smile and politeness so we don't draw any more attention. I felt eyes all over me as patients and hospital staff were suddenly walking slowly, trying to catch a glimpse of our conversation. Miller's daughter causing the drama. Big news. Darla and Delia both started walking behind me as I tried to go into my office as soon as possible. My head was spinning really fast and I felt l
"She is fine!" Mr.Bhat said after he stopped hugging us. "She is fine thanks to you doctor Miller and you doctor Care." He said, closing his palms and bowing to us. Ann's surname is Care? Why does that sounds familiar? I quickly brushed off that for now, I can't be dealing with that too. I smiled politely to Mr.Bhat, bowing to him, as he did to us."You don't have to thank us for that Mr.Bhat, we did our best." I said firmly. I was so proud of myself, so fulfilled, so good about myself! We saved that girl's life! "She is sleeping now." Mr.Bhat said, approaching Ada's bed. He slowly and gently caressed her hair and smiled. He looked peaceful. "You don't need to wake her up, we will just do a little checkup." I said as I grabbed a pen out of my uniform. I checked her temperature, it was 36.6 Celsius which is quite normal. Excellent."She may feel dizzy or groggy as she come around from general anaesthetic." I said to him, caressing her hand. "We will check her blood pressure regularly.
"I'm sorry I'm late." Darla quickly came beside me after Dr.Stepford and me started walking towards Nina's room. I rolled my eyes when I looked at her but I didn't want to say anything."Dr.Miller?" Dr.Stepford raised his glasses while we walked and looked me dead serious. "Are you going to let your intern be late?" He smirked. "I want 20 pages on AIDS research. By tomorrow morning." I stated seriously. Dr.Stepford chuckle a bit, sounding like a teenage girl. I bet he was amused by this as he probably remembered some of my mom's situation again and how much I do look like her. I smiled to myself and I was proud how I quickly got an idea for Darla's punishment but I put on my straight face instantly. Darla didn't say anything, she was probably too scared.I promise I won't be so hard on her once she toughen up a bit. She can't be soft, not on Pediatric, let alone Pediatric surgery. In Africa, I had a resident who was so strict, my hair would go up when I remember her. But she was fair
We kept walking until she stopped us in front of the door, right next to John's room. What is her plan? We will easdrop? I hope not! Hannah looked at both directions and slowly opened the door in front of us. I was confused."What are you doing?" I whispered to Hannah, hoping she will hear me. She just smiled and continue with her plan. We entered a patient's room, an old lady seemed to be sleeping. I looked puzzled as I was looking around her room, trying to figure out Hannah's thoughts. Hannah turned over to me and rolled her eyes."This is Elenore. She is in a coma. Come." She said that bluntly, like we do that on our daily basis, like this, whatever this is is normal."Hannah." I exclaimed quietly, yet strongly enough for her to stop. She looked at me again, now confused like I'm the one who's crazy. I couldn't help but smile."She won't hear us, what?!" She asked, opening her arms towards me in isn't-it-obvious way. I shook my head and smiled. I might just let go all my question
I went to the park. I managed to stay calm and cool long enough so I can walk and sit ona n empty bench. I felt exhausted. I felt really worned out for some reason like all my energy went somewhere else. I started feeling nauseated. Why? I don't even know what I heard! Did Mike and his Gorilla killed someone? At least tried to?! I shook my head in disbelief because I just knew, all of this sounds so ridiculous and unreal. I tried to comprehend all of that information. That can't be right, I heard something wrong and I made some scenario in my head, I surely misheard."You are being stupid, Jess." I said barely audible to myself. I was looking around me as I tried to calm my nerves. There was just a few people in the park but the weather was nice. Small, sweet breeze was calmly blowing making leaves do a little song of their own. That calmed my mind a little. I noticed small children and I heard their giggles while they run towards their parents. That made me smile! I started feeling
I did it again. I gave in. I have managed to disappoint me one more time. How can I be so weak, just how many times I have to hurt myself with what is so wrong yet it feels so damn good?"Sex isn't supposed to be an answer." I said after I buttoned up the last button on my shirt. He was already done."I know." He simply said, repairing his Rolex."So why are we doing that?" I asked, sitting down. "Do what? I want you. Isn't that enough?" He looked at me puzzled. I was stunned by the fact that he doesn't seem to see the real problem is. "No, Mike. Sometimes it's not." I said standing up. Why am I suddenly feel angry? I am to blame here, I let him manipulate me one more time. He just used that so well! "What is your problem Jessica?" He exclaimed. I backed off a little. "What do you want?" He raised his voice. I narrowed my eyes and sighed deeply. To be honest, I don't know what I want. "I want you. But not just sex. I want the whole package! Conversation, going on a trip, go to par