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2021-11-26 21:56:03With all of my possessions, my freedom is the one that I am most contented. It was the only thing I’m grateful for to my parents who left me to fend for myself.
I was just a kid when my mom chose her modeling career abroad over me. And it was okay because she still sees me during the holidays, and I still have my father who brings me with him whenever he travels.
But one night, he said that he needs to leave. He told me that they want me to learn to be independent, and this is the only way I could learn. I’ve never seen him since then.
And I believed them. They were just teaching me how to be strong, how to never feel afraid of being alone, how to pursue whatever you dream of. They made me realized how it’s only me who can free myself.
But when I grew up, I realized how they also taught me to feel. They taught me anger, sadness, and loneliness. I was born but wasn’t raised.
They made me taste freedom from a very young age that I have never got to know the taste of a rusty cage. And after three years in the island, the bluest sea, the whitest sand, and the chilly wind still didn’t feel like a cage to me.
Now that I am waiting for Hue to open the door for me and our child, I feel afraid and suffocated. The door that I’ve been waiting to open felt like the door to the real freedom. I thought I was close to being free again.
But when he took Kahel from me, that was when I got to know the taste of prison. I felt trapped with anger and fear of never seeing my son again. So, this is what it feels like to be imprisoned. To not be able to hold the child that made you want to live, to never be able to love the only person you’ve ever loved.
This is the opposite of freedom.
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Taming The Wildflower Chapter 1 - Azalea
MenFriday night’s my favorite. It’s my fun time.Pagkatapos ng buong linggong pagtatrabaho ay heto ako ngayon sa isang bar sa Tomas Morato kasama ang mga kaibigang si Maliah at Dean. Dahil busy kami sa kani-kaniyang trabaho ay ngayon nalang kami muling nagkita matapos ang halos isang buwan.“How was your shoot in Singapore?” I asked Maliah.Maliah is a part-time model. Her mother owns a modelling agency, and she sometimes takes small gigs abroad. She only accepts gigs away because she wants to be known as one of the best pastry chefs in the country, and not as a model. Pwede niyang gamitin ang pagiging model niya upang mas makilala sa larangang iyon ngunit ayaw niya. I think it’s weird, but we can’t really question her goals.“Just the same tiring job for me. Nagkita kami ni Dean don. Oh my!” pagtili niya. Bumaling siya kay Dean at may paghampas pa sa balikat nito. “Tell her about the
Huling Na-update : 2021-11-26Taming The Wildflower Chapter 2 - Azalea
Puting PoloI had no choice but to follow him. Two days after that conversation with his crazy brother, I have already compiled a list of respectable women that would want to be the mother of his child. Sa katunayan, I even prepared a presentation to show him these women.I actually have a pool of women to choose from. Despite his snobbish and mysterious aura, maraming mga kababaihan ang nagkakandarapa sa kaniya. Hindi naman maitatangging matalino at maitsura ang lalaki.H’wag ka ngang plastik. Tila naririnig ko ang konsensya ko na kumakastigo sa aking sarili.Okay, fine. He’s damn good looking. Kung hindi ko lamang siya boss ay malamang na isa rin ako sa mga babaeng magkakagusto sa kaniya.Paanong hindi ba naman? He’s got a body to die for. Makisig na parang kayang-kaya kang ipangko at buhatin paakyat ng hagdan kung sakaling ‘di na kayo umabot sa kwarto sa paghahalikan.Lalo na sa tuwing hin
Huling Na-update : 2021-11-27Taming The Wildflower Chapter 3 - Hue
TiedPinasadahan ko ng kamay ang aking buhok nang lumabas na si Azalea ng aking opisina. I suddenly felt hot talking to her. Hindi ko maitatangging nasasaling ako sa kagandahan niya. Lalo na’t tingin ko’y napatitig din siya sa mga labi ko kanina. Pero mali siguro ako ng nakita, baka namamalikmata lamang ako o kaya ay umaasang titignan niya ko ng may bahid ng malisya.Dahil sa limang taong pagtatrabaho ni Azalea sa kompanya ay ni minsan hindi ko siya nakitaan ng interes sa akin o sa kahit na sinong lalaki sa opisina.May malinaw na pader ang humihiwalay sa kaniya at sa lahat ng mga taong nakakasalamuha niya sa kompanya. Maski kaming dalawa na matagal ng malapit na nagtatrabaho ay hindi rin maituturing na kahit pagkakaibigan ang mayroon kami dahil malinaw na komportable siya sa guhit na pumapagitna samin. Sobra siyang istrikto at seryoso sa trabaho na halos hindi ko makita ang relasyon namin lagpas sa pagiging mag-amo.Per
Huling Na-update : 2021-11-28Taming The Wildflower Chapter 4 - Azalea
Tell meI am really worried about Maliah. I know she’s a grown woman who can decide for herself but getting pregnant is a big deal and I really think she’s not in the right mind to accept this. I am so torn between being a good friend and a good corporate slave.“Anything else I can do for you, Sir?”Pinanatili ko ang ngiti sa aking labi kahit na sa loob-loob ko’y ‘di ako makapaniwalang binantaan ko ang lalaki. Kinakabahan ako na baka magalit siya kaya nang sinabi niyang wala na siyang ipag-uutos ay nakahinga ako ng maluwag.Matapos ng usapan na iyon ay dumiretso ako ng uwi sa bahay para maghanda sa date na itinaon ko talaga kasabay ng date nilang dalawa. Ayaw ko kasing mapuno lang ng isipin tungkol sa kanila ang gabing ito.I’m already fifteen minutes late but I still took my time walking out of my car going to the restaurant where I’m meeting up with the man that I found on a dating site.
Huling Na-update : 2021-12-01Taming The Wildflower Chapter 5 - Hue
WildflowerInaamin kong may nararamdaman akong kaonting atraksyon sa assistant ko. Hindi naman kasi maikakaila ang taglay nitong kagandahan at katalinuhan.Sa unang tingin pa lang, kapansin-pansin na ang haba ng kaniyang mga biyas, bilog na bilog na dibdib at pirming puwetan. Ang kaniyang kutis ay makinis at ‘di makikitaan ng peklat o marka. Sa kaniyang sobrang kaputian, namumula siya kapag nasisikatan ng araw. Parang kutis lamang niya ang tanging malambot sa kaniya dahil ang kaniyang mukha ay tila laging may matigas na emosyon.Ang kaseryosohan ng kaniyang itim na mga mata ay ‘di nawawala kahit pa siya’y ngumingiti o tumatawa. Dahil na rin siguro sa makapal na kilay, kung kaya’t may kaistriktuhan ang kaniyang itsura, na totoo naman sa kaniyang pag-uugali. Tahimik lang ito at parang laging galit.May pakiramdam ako na façade lang ito ng babae tuwing siya’y nasa trabaho at iba ito tuwing nasa laba
Huling Na-update : 2021-12-02Taming The Wildflower Chapter 6 - Azalea
SatiatedI’m drunk.Ramdam ko na ang pagbagal ng ikot ng mundo ko dahil sa alak. Medyo namamanhid na din kasi ang balat ko at huli na ang mga tugon sa bawat paggalaw sa paligid. Hindi ko tuloy agad nasasaway ang pagdikit sa akin ng mga kalalakihan dahil hindi ko agad namamalayan ang aksyon nila.Kaya naman pilit pa rin akong sumasayaw, pilit ko pa ring pinapakita na may kontrol pa ko sa aking sarili. Dahil sa oras na huminto ako ay malamang na susunggaban ako ng mga nakaabang. Halata namang nag-iintay lamang sila na mamili ako sa kung sino sa kanila ang makakapag-uuwi sa akin.And I’m not giving anyone the chance to take me home. I take men, not the other way around.Napalitan ang lalaking kasayaw ko. At sa sobrang kalasingan ko siguro ay mukha ng boss ko ang nakikita ko sa kaniya. Alam kong malabo iyon, alam kong imahinasyon lang ito dala ng alak kung kaya naman hinayaan ko ang lalaki na iikot ako patalikod sa kani
Huling Na-update : 2021-12-03Taming The Wildflower Chapter 7 - Azalea
HellThe moment I opened my eyes, memories flooded me. The way he touched and entered me is playing on my mind like a movie. I can still feel his hands on my skin and his kisses on every part of me. I remembered every bit of what happened, and everything that I felt.Nag-init ang pisngi ko sa mga alaala. Sinupil ko ang sarili dahil sa kahibangan. Dapat na pagsisihan ko ang ginawa at hindi dapat naghahangad pa ng kasunod dahil lang nakalasap ng sarap.Oh, great, I’m daydreaming when this isn’t the time to reminisce that hot night. I should… I don’t know… maybe I should be cleaning up this mess. Though I don’t know how. It’s not as if this was my first time.I am not a prude. I sleep around with my fuck buddies whenever I want to, but I practice safe sex. I make sure that I am physically, emotionally, and socially ready before having sex. Contrary to what other people thinks of those who&rsq
Huling Na-update : 2021-12-04Taming The Wildflower Chapter 8 - Azalea
ToreMagkaklase kami ni Maliah simula pagkabata. I was the loner kid that no one wants to be associated with while she was the popular kid in our school. Everyone adores her, and everyone wants to be her friend. Dahil bukod sa natural na ganda at kabaitan, anak siya ng isa sa pinakamayamang businessman sa Pilipinas. And that’s why everyone wants to be in her favor.Mayroon siya laging mahabang prosesyon ng mga kasa-kasamang kaklase. Marami siyang taga-sunod, pero wala siyang tunay na kaibigan. Alam ‘yon ng kahit sino maliban sa kaniya. Hindi niya alam ang kaibahan ng kaibigan sa mga taong mabait sa kaniya dahil may kailangan.Kaya naman ng maubos ang yaman at kapangyarihan ng pamilya niya dahil sa trahedya sa kompanya nila na kumitil sa bu hayng dalawapu’t isa nilang empleyado, naubos din ang mga tinatawag na kaibigan niya. And worse, she was bullied. She was isolated. Just like me.“Wala ka namang kaibigan s
Huling Na-update : 2021-12-07
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Taming The Wildflower Chapter 47 - Azalea
Bye Habang pinaliliguan ni Hue si Kahel ay hinila ako ni Maliah sa silid na ginamit niya matapos naming magligpit at maghugas ng pinagkainan. “Spill, babe. How was last night?” Inirapan ko lang siya. “Come on, give me some juicy details.” Hinampas-hampas niya pa ang braso ko. “Huwag ka nang macurious. Alam mo kulang ka lang sa sex. May irereto ako sayo, gwapong abogado. Hunk, mabango, matalino.” Agad namang pumait ang mukha niya. “Ayaw ko sa abogado. Mga abo-gago!” “Ohhh! I can smell bitterness. Who’s the lucky bastard?” pang-aasar ko sa kaniya. “Noone!” “Come on, give me some juicy details!” ginaya ko ang sinabi niya at boses niya. Natawa naman siya sa akin. “Okay, okay. So… I met a really, really pretty man. He’s a lawyer, a really nice guy. We became friends, and you know what happened next. We were having fun, sex galore. But he’s so gago. He’s in love with his best friend. Kaya ayun, I stopped talking to h
Taming The Wildflower Chapter 46 - Hue
NeverHe kidnapped the senator’s son because he wanted my company to fall. He was threatened because I am my father’s biological son. And when he found out that Dad is willing to give everything to my son, he kidnapped him and my love. The pain is twice as it was before, now that I found out that my brother is behind all of this. Betrayal indeed doesn’t come from enemies. I am feeling these different emotions because the person I didn’t expect to do it did it to me.Tulala ako ng ilang saglit matapos ang pakikipag-usap. Dinadamdam ko pa ang mga nalaman.“Hue, I suggest you cooperate with Ms. Guinto regarding this matter. Ikaw na ang bahalang makipag-usap sa kaniya. What we’ve learned today will make an impact to the ongoing case. You can call me anytime if you two need help.” Dahil hindi na rin niya ako makausap ng matino dahil sa mga iniisip ko ay hindi ko na namalayan ang pag-alis ni Attorney Martin.I
Taming The Wildflower Chapter 45 - Hue
BetrayalPagdating namin ni Kahel sa opisina ay pinagtitinginan siya ng mga dumadaan. Ang kaninang madaldal at masaya niyang mood ay napalitan ng hiya. Binuhat ko siya at agad siyang nagtago sa balikat ko dahil sa dami ng tao.“Baby, it’s okay. They are all friends of Daddy.” Kahit ilang beses kong sabi kay Kahel ay hindi pa rin niya inangat ang tingin sa mga nadadaanan.Binilisan ko nalang ang lakad patungo sa silid ko para sana mas maging komportable siya. Ngunit bago pa kami makapasok ay sinalubong kami agad ng sekretarya ko, si Tessa.“Sir, Mr. Silverio is here again.” Bungad niya sa akin. She called me about this yesterday. It is also the reason I came here.“Did you lead him to the meeting room?” When she nodded, I went inside my office. I asked Tessa to follow me.Nang makapasok sa loob ay agad kong ibinaba si Kahel sa sofa. “Baby, this is Ate Tessa, she’s our friend. She&
Taming The Wildflower Chapter 44 - Hue
PromiseAeza was acting cute. She always calls me babe, she kisses me all the time, and she always excites me which leads to you know what I mean. It started the day Maya came, she’s been cuddlier, sweeter, and sexier. I didn’t know that she’s territorial, possessive even more. And I’m enjoying every bit of it.When she said that she wants a date with me, I know that she was jealous. She was marking me in front of Maya. It was funny to act clueless about what she’s doing. Before, it was always me who’s jealous. So, I happily joined her games to experience what’s it’s like to be the receiving end. I know for sure Maya doesn’t mind a little PDA, that’s why whenever Aeza feels needy, I always give in to her.I reminisced our moments on our very first date, and I can’t help but smile.Aeza doesn’t have anything to wear for our date night. She still uses the three pair of shirts a
Taming The Wildflower Chapter 43 - Aeza
Game Ang mga sumunod na araw ay mabilis na lumipas. Halos wala kaming ibang ginawa kundi ang magkulong sa bahay. Pero minsan, nilalakad ko ang kaso sa umaga at agad na umuuwi para makasama sa mga kasayahan ng dalawa. Pagkakataon na rin iyon para mas magkaroon ng sariling oras ang mag-ama ng sila lang para na rin mas magkakilala sila. Tulad ng inaasahan, naging madali kay Hue ang mapalapit sa anak. Halos hindi na sila mapaghiwalay. Hanggang sa pagtulog ay gusto niyang katabi ang ama, kaya naman sinasamahan namin sa silid si Kahel hanggang sa makatulog siya. At kapag tagumpay at maaga siyang nagpahinga, sinasamantala namin iyon para bumawi sa mga nawalang oras. Sa madaling salita, ang araw namin ay nakalaan kay Kahel habang ang gabi ay para sa amin. Halos gabi-gabi akong niroromansa ni Hue na parang wala ng bukas. Mabuti rin na umuwi na si Manang Maria kaya naman malaya na kaming nakakakilos sa buong bahay. Kaya ang tatlong taon na pagkatuyot a
Taming The Wildflower Chapter 42 - Hue
Breakfast“Umuwi ka na kaya muna?”Naguguluhan akong lumingon sa nagsalita. It was Maliah.Anong nangyayari? Nilibot ko ang tingin sa paligid. I found Aeza sleeping on the hospital bed just like the way she was before she disappeared. Why am I in the hospital?! What is happening?!“I guess I should go. Babalik ako agad.” Nagulat ako nang magsalita ako. I said the exact words I’ve said that night. Ang mas nakakagulat pa ay hindi ko namalayan na lumapit na pala ako sa natutulog pa rin na si Aeza. Hinalikan ko siya sa noo at ganon din kay Kahel.Everything went fast. The next thing I know, I was already lying on my bed at home. This is the part where I will sleep, and Goddess knows I shouldn’t. I should go back to the hospital to stop Aeza from leaving me, from taking away my son. But I can’t fvcking move. I tried and forced myself, but nothing’s working. It felt like as if I can’t control
Taming The Wildflower Chapter 41 - Azalea
PleaseI went out of the room after licking his lips. Surprisingly, he didn’t try to stop me.I was so pissed off at him, but that only fueled my arousal. I know I need to relieve myself of this frustration or else I’m going to come back and beg for him to pleasure me. That sounded not bad at all, it sounded like a good plan, but my pride won’t let me.I value my choices and independence, and even if I’m into him, that will never change. My choice of clothes is something I do for myself, no matter how simple or grand it is. I’m not myself I f I just let him have judge and decide for me.I was about to go to Kahel’s playroom, but I can’t face Manang Maria and Kahel in this state. So, what I did is explore the second floor for a room. Mabuti na lang at sa playroom sila pinapunta ni Hue kanina. Kaya kahit nahihiya ako sa sarili na pumasok sa silid ng anak ko sa ganitong ayos ay malaya akong nakakuha ng pares
Taming The Wildflower Chapter 40 - Azalea
Punish“You don’t break a promise with me, woman.”He locked the door behind us.His grip on me loosened, so I got the chance to roam my eyes around the room. It was his home office. Bumungad sa akin ang kulay itim na L-shaped at dalawang single-seat sofa na pinagigitnaan ng maliit na table. Sa magkabilang gilid naman ng silid ay dalawang high-ceiling bookshelves. Habang sa pinakadulo ay ang kaniyang lamesa at office chair.Dumiretso si Hue sa lamesa niya, itinuon niya ang dalawang kamay niya doon. Wala siyang imik pero napansin ko ang pagtaas-baba ng balikat niya hudyat na sinusubukan niyang kontrolin ang kanyang emosyon.He’s mad.I was reluctant at first, but when I got near him, it became hard for me to stop myself from touching his right arm. He flinched at my touch, but his heavy breathing suddenly stopped.“Sorry kung ngayon lang ako.” I sadly said, pertaining to not just about tonig
Taming The Wildflower Chapter 39 - Azalea
Promise“Write down any amount. Ako na ang magbabayad ng utang sayo. Hindi ka aalis.”Ah, sh!t. My heart’s racing. Kinailangan ko pang huminga ng malalim para makabawi sa linyang iyon. I don’t know if he knows it, but every little thing he does or says, everything blows my mind. He shakes my heart; he makes it stop beating. Na para bang siya ang nagmamay-ari nito kaya kayang-kaya niyang buoin o gibain sa mga simpleng salita.“I, uh, okay… Kung ayaw mo ‘kong umalis, okay...” Napayuko ako. Para akong napaamong tigre, animo’y matapang pero kinikilig naman.But he scoffed at me. “Ayaw ko? Ang ayaw ko ay ang umiyak na naman si Kahel kakahanap sayo.” ‘Yung puso kong hawak niya na kanina, parang bigla niyang binitawan. “Wala akong pakialam kung saan ka pupunta.” Tapos parang inapak-apakan niya pa.“I know.” Pagsubok kong bumawi sa pagkakapahiya. Tinaa
