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BRIAN’S POV

I drowned in guilt, unable to forgive myself for causing the loss of my child.

‘How could I ever face her?’

‘How do I live the rest of my life with this guilt?’

‘Was I supposed to keep this a secret from her? How long could I do that?’

Blair was never going to forgive me for this, if she ever found out. I couldn't even forgive myself, how could I expect forgiveness from her?

I was a monster, just like my father, I wasn't any different from him. Doing anything to have my way and not thinking about the effect on other's feelings.

It was bad enough that she woke up and found me in Stacy's arms, and now she had to deal with the fact that I had cost her a baby.

I left the room, not able to face her, even in her unconsciousness. The innocence of her face reflecting the purity of her heart stung my selfish heart.

I walked from one end of the small garden in the hospital, to the other end of it, soaking in my guilt and the shame of my actions. It felt like the end of the