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BLAIR’S POV

All I wanted to do was sit in a spot, with no activity at all, until I eventually joined my sister.

I battled with guilt and pain that was too much for me to carry.

It was all my fault. I sat recalling the words of the doctor.

“She gave up on fighting.” He announced.

Words could not explain how I felt. I wished that she spoke to me. I wished that I got to apologize.

I was never going to forgive myself, or Sebastine for not going after her. Even though, I wished that I had done it myself.

Ashley must have hated us so much, she did not want to be in the same environment.

She left us and ran into the streets, headed only the universe knows where, only to be knocked down by a vehicle.

The fact that she had no one with her in her last minutes, made cry even more. She must have felt lonely, unloved and rejected.

I kept pleading for her forgiveness in death, even though my heart condemned me. I knew I was unworthy of her forgiveness.

I was not deserving of the love she