Molly: I tried to remain calm as I grabbed the phone, but the moment I placed the phone on my ear, and heard Maya cry, I lost it. My eyes welled up in tears, and I tried to focus on what she had to say. “I’m so sorry, Molly. It must be difficult for you, and we both know Kate wouldn’t want us to be this way but there is barely anything we can do,” She was right. Kate seemed happy in that trance, even though I couldn’t tell if it was really her or my mind trying to make me feel better by creating an image of her in my subconscious. Either way I hope she is in a better place. “Her body has been placed in a morgue here, and without wasting much time, I would fix the burial in two days. I can’t bear the thoughts, and I want to put it behind me…. Even though I doubt I can,” When she said this, I looked at Farrell who had been standing with his hands on his waist. He looked confused, and I could tell that he was puzzled on what to do. My tear glands were leaking, and even if he consoled
Molly:The next day, I woke up wrapped in Farrell's arms. It was the day we were supposed to travel to see Maya. Thinking of the next day, which was supposed to be the burial, made me really sad. It was really happening, and nothinh was going to stop it. "We should get ready, so we can make it on time," Farrell said in his deep morning voice, making me open my eyes which were shut. He kissed my forehead, and when he tried to sit up, I grabbed his hand and pulled him back to me. Then I kissed his lips."I'm sorry I took the decision without your consent," I said, and he sighed. I wasn't particularly sorry because I felt Maya needed us.He didn't say anything else, all he did was kiss my lips before standing up from the bed. He walked towards the mirror, and took his shirt which was hanging on the chair in front. I thought of the fact that he could be angry but then I pushed it off my mind, and tried to focus on the pressing issue. I could deal with his anger problems later on, becaus
Molly:When Farrell's car pulled up in front of Maya's little cottage, my mind became clouded at once. Maybe he was right, I may be making a mistake trying to console her. My case was like the popular saying of having a log of wood in my eyes while trying to take a stick off another person's."It will be alright, and remember I'm here," Farrell whispered into my ears as the car came to a halt.The driver came down, and pulled the door open for us. Farrell got down before me, then he helped me come out of the car.He held my hand, and walked me towards the front door. On a normal day, Maya wouldn't let the car stop, she would run out to embrace us with the widest grin on her face. But things had changed faster than expected.I took a deep breath as Farrell pressed the button by the door to alert Maya. My heart rate increased the moment I heard her footsteps. She approached us very fast, and she pulled the door open at once.Her once bright face was swollen, and red. My heart crumbled m
They said the ultimate love is shown at death, and I kid you not I haven’t witnessed the amount of love been showered on Kate’s dead body until today. Relatives whom I had never seen before all lined up in church, crying, and consoling Maya. Kate and I had been through thick, and thin but none of them showed up, but all of a sudden, they all had something good to say about her. Watching all of them go up on stage to confess the nicest things about Kate made me so angry that I felt like punching one or two of them in the face. This was on all manner of wrong. It pricked me so much that when I was called upon, I had nothing to say about her, because I would only sound hypocritical like them, even though I was telling the truth. What pricked my heart was the fact that her mother didn’t show up. She always warned Kate about her lifestyle, and she must be glad that Kate lost her life to one of her predictions. Even though Kate barely talked about her, and I barely asked about her parents
Farrell:Loving was hard, but loving a woman who had no clue on how much you’ve had to sacrifice to open up to her is an entirely different case. Only if she knew how much I hated myself for not meeting up to her standards, but no matter what I did, she would never ever believe me. Even at that, I had to keep trying because I wanted this to work. I couldn’t imagine separating from her, that would only cause me more pain.“Show me a room where I can lay down, please,” she said, walking away.With a deep breath, I quickened my steps to catch up with her. I caught her hand, and spun her around, making her crash against my chest. Then I claimed her lips with a kiss.“I’m not perfect but I’ll keep trying my best,” I said in a low tone, but then she fought hard to get away from m y grip while shaking her head.“No, Farrell, I said no!” she yelled, and then I let her go, staring at her cluelessly. I understood she was bereaved so I had to be careful with the way I acted.“I have heard that s
Molly:I requested to see Kate’s grave today, since it may be the last time, I would ever set my foot here. Maya was a great person, but I would definitely not return to a place the bore so much pain in my body. Except if I badly wanted to see Kate.“Sure,” Farrell responded before turning over to the other side of the bed.He seemed tired so I didn’t want to bug him. With my hands placed on my chest, I took a deep breath then I stared at the ceiling blankly hoping that the sky would clear up quickly so that I can get on with my life.My prayers were answered because the sky became clear in no time, and Farrell opened his eyes. Then he planted a kiss on my head as usual, before getting out of bed to pee. I sat up, and waited for him to finish.“We should hurry up because the chopper would be prepared this minute, and I need to get back to work,” he said, and I feigned a smile.I know the world doesn’t revolve around me, but it would help if he doesn’t shove the fact that he had moved
Molly: Today was already a handful, but I decided to let a lot of things slide. I would have picked on Kate’s mum for being cruel to her, but I turned away, and paid my last respect to Kate before leaving. Maya too didn’t utter a word to her, because it would only aggravate the situation. We dropped Maya off after leaving her with words on encouragement. Then we headed back to our main house. As soon as the chopper landed, and I got out, the feeling of sadness swept through. I definitely needed therapy but I wasn’t going to give in to seeing Courtney. It would take the grace of God to not rip off her face during the first session. she caused me a lot of pain, and forgiving her wasn’t in my agenda yet. “What is it that I have to deal with now?” Farrell asked in a loud tone as I walked to my room. I wasn’t necessarily looking to have a fallout with him, I just wanted to be alone. In order to restructure my life, and survive, I had to condition my mind that what had happened was perma
Molly:When a chapter of life closes, another opens, and as for me I had one open chapter for almost a year. I still haven’t found out about Farrell and his past. This bugged me so much that I could no longer sit at a place. He had been away for several hours and I tried not to cloud my mind with it, because if I questioned him, he would always have an excuse. I wasn’t supposed to be at the forbidden wing, and it had locked rooms but the study was open, so I decided to go to it. Boredom was the culprit, and the only way to quench my incessant thoughts was getting my hands dirty in his secrets.After I had taken a bath, and eaten, I waited for Rose to leave then I walked to the forbidden wing, and made my way to the study. I opened it without hesitation, and the sight before me shocked me to my marrow. On the floor were littered books, which had some torn. Mere looking at the room you would think a very serious fight had occurred here, and it made me wonder if Farrell was responsible.