Chapter 62

After the auction, Ben spent the night satisfying his new master but it was not the same. He felt nothing. He had to depend on drugs to get an erection. Not just that. When his new master chained him up and beat him, he felt pain. Lots of pain but no pleasure. He didn't understand. Rolph had done worse things to him and he liked and enjoyed them. Since Rolph was his first and only partner, he had always gone through pain to please Rolph. He had no idea what sex without chains felt or look like. He only saw them on TV. He had never experienced them. He could take a lot of pain. Pain gave him immeasurable pleasure until that night. All he sensed was pain. He felt violated, dirty, guilty, disgusting, useless, lost. For the first time in his life, Ben thought of taking his life. Not because he was tired of life but because he felt he was no longer worthy of his real master. And while despairing over his bad luck, he accidentally overdosed.

When next he opened his eyes, he