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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

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A thought always linger in the corner of my mind. How to live as the other gender?. How to be them? Aware naman ako sa LGBTQ pero come to think of it, ano kayang pakiramdam na mamuhay ka sa katawan ng ibang tao.

Not that I'm saying I'm not happy in my body but how about living in other body.

What's the feeling on the other side, or is it the same as what I feel?. Is it the same to what I felt everyday?. Is the routine, the emotions, the scenes are just the same

Is it the same as being a woman?. O iba yung mga nararamdaman ko sa nararamdaman rin nila.

That thought never leaves my mind. But I can't possibly transfer my soul in other body. I'm not a god or goddess that possess some magical powers that only exist in books.

Books, I love reading books. I love discovering new things, I like how I get a lot of knowledge on it.

But... transfering of soul. Nah, sa tagal tagal kong nagbabasa ng kung anu-ano. I never read facts about it, that it can happen to someone.

I never read it, I surely never saw it. Not a single book exist to prove that it can happen.

But

I didn't know that... it will happen to me. Hindi ko alam, pwede pala iyon. Pwede pala na malaman ko kung ano ang pakiramdam nang nasa ibang katawan.

A mere thought, a mere curiosity.

At ngayon, I am deeply blaming myself for allowing that thought to stays on the corner of my mind. For letting it there swimming with others. Kasi di ko naman alam na pwede iyon... never in my wildest dreams.

Kasalanan ko rin siguro kase minsan kong inisip iyon.

Pero... nakakagulat man. Viola, nangyari ang minsan ko lang inisip.

The word that best describes what I felt that time never exist in any dictionary that I know, maybe I try finding it at the Atlas.

To wake up beside a girl at ramdam ang paghaplos niya sa tiyan ko. Feeling the warm of her body. Feeling the touch of the sheets.

How did I know that she's a girl? because of her freaking long nails.

I immediately shut my eyes when I felt the shivered it gives to me.

I don't know what to do. Nasusuka ako sa ginagawa niya sa akin.

She keeps on touching me, my arms, my chest, my neck, my stomach. Nagsisimula na akong lamigin at mainis sa babaeng 'to.

How dare she touch me?!.

My body that even my brother protects the most. They treasure my body because I am their princess pero heto siya hinahawakan ang katawan ko. Who gave her the permission to do this?I'll surely let them pay.

"Hon, another round?"napapaos nitong sabi sa tenga ko habang patuloy sa paghaplos sa akin.

What's her problem?.

Why is her voice became like that?. Is she sick?, and why the hell she's beside me and almost hugging my body.

For pete sake, I am naked.

"I know you're awake hon"she softly said to my ear na may pahaging pang kagat dito. Her hands started to crawl towards a place.

Naimulat ko bigla ang mga mata ko when she touch me on my private part. That's gross.

Naitulak ko ang babae at agad binalot ang katawan sa kumot na nakapatong sa amin kanina. Nakaupo na ako ngayon sa kama habang siya sa nasa kabilang dulo.

"Get out'ta here"tinuro ko ang pinto na nakita ko at itinaas ang kumot hanggang balikat ko. The room is unfamiliar to me but I don't care.

First thing first, she needs to get out of my sight.

"Hey, what's the problem hon"tumayo ang babae sa gilid ng kama wearing nothing.

Holy mother!... she wears nothing.

"GET OUT!. NOW!"nakasigaw kong sabi sa kanya.

"Oh, so the rumors is true. Once you fuck someone, you dump it when your done. I thought iba ka sa mga fuck boy sa tabi tabi, akala ko lang pala"she said while dressing herself. And what she said?!. Me?. A fuck and dump person?. and for Pete's sake, a guy?. What the!.

First of all I'm not a guy. I am Denisse Lighte. Had an 18 years of existence. Currently a 4th year in college because of acceleration. I have a five siblings and I know hindi sila matutuwa sa nangyayari ngayon.

"Just get out... okay"I calmly said while slowly closing my eyes.

I don't wanna see her. I don't wanna see this room. No matter how closed my eyes is, nothing changes that it makes me just open it.

"Fine, but before that. Let me give back the insult"she said then walk near me. Napadikit ako lalo sa kama. I'm just staring straight at her eyes.

A loud and painful slap fell on my face.

Napaliko ang mukha ko at ramdam ko ang vibration na iniwan ng sampal niya.

My back slide to lay on the bed. Tinakpan ko nang nadampot na unan ang mukha ko.

What the hell just happened?!.

When I hear a door shut closed. Tinanggal ko ang unan sa mukha ko at sumandal sa headboard. The blanket fell on my lap. I didn't know what time is it, also the room is lighted in dim.

This is really not my room. Nilibot ko ang buong lugar ng tingin and this room clearly shouts a guy room and surely not my brother's. My brother loves basketball but they never have an award or trophy. But this has a shelf full of trophy and shoes.

I turn my eyes and it hit the wall, a glass wall to be exact.

Nasaan ba ako? Sure ako na hindi amin ito.

The shelve is in my right, it is between two door probably the bathroom and the walk-in closet. To my left is a l-shape sofa, infront of it is a 64inch flat screen tv.

Saan ako lalabas?

Kaagad akong tumayo to check myself if that girl done anyharm to me.

A mirror caught my eyes. Full body length mirror.

Nanlaki ang mata ko pagkakita sa reflection ko. Utter shock was not enough to describe what I'm feeling.

What the hell!

"No! no! no!. Kuya!. K-kuya. This is a dream. Panaginip okay gumising ka na Denisse"I slapped my face while my eyes is closed.

I slapped my face many times hanggang sa mamanhid na ang pisngi ko. I felt the sting on it. Even greater because of the slap earlier.

When I open my eyes. I see myself on the mirror having another body, napatingin ako sa ibang lugar. Tumama ang tingin ko sa headborad ng kama. May salamin sa headboard pero ganun pa rin.

And nothing change. The mirrors shows a different person, differs from who I am. I am a woman, I can't be a man. My hair is up to my waist but now I can't feel it on my back.

And why there's a mirror in the headboard?but it looks cool.

But...

Alam kong si Denisse ako... so why the hell am I in the body of a man only wearing a boxer. Kahit anung pigil ko my eyes is drifting on my lower part.

"A-anu 'to"nakaturo ako sa ibaba kong parte.

Tumingin ako sa paligid at sinigurado na ako lang mag-isa dito.

I'm sorry mga Kuya, I will just check if it's true. Kung totoo ba ito o ano.

I don't know what's happening at bakit ibang katawan ang nakikita ko, kailangan ko makasigurado. Baka pinagti-tripan lang nila ako at may ginawa lang sa katawan ko para maging ganito ang itsura.

I hold the garter of the boxer with my thumb and forefinger.

I slowly pulled it.

I already stop breathing but my heart is opposite, it thumps faster and louder.

My voice echoed to the whole room when I finally see the one behind the boxers.

"AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH"

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"Den"

"Uy problema mo tol"

"Bakit ka sumisigaw"

"Sisirain ko ang pinto pag di mo 'to binuksan"

"Baby what's your problem"

"Ano bang nangyayari? Tang*na naman ba't nandito ako nasan na ung babae kong kasama kagabi di kaya... binenta na ako nun. Argh!"bulong ko sa sarili.

I wake up screaming because of the headache that I felt. Nakasanayan ko na isigaw ang sakit ng ulo kada umaga.

Napatingin ako sa pinto nang narinig na naman ang mga nagsasalita.

Saan kaya ako dinala ng babaeng iyon?.

Don't tell me, she sell me to gays then they will harm me.

"No!."walang lakas kong bulong.

"Bakit ka bumubulong Den"

"Okay ka lang ba"

"Sisirain ko na 'tong pinto na 'to"

"Bi calm down and open this door. This is Kuyaaa"

Kanina pa sila dyan kung sino man sila. Di kaya sila ung bumili sa akin. Lalaki sila. Di kaya mga bakla yan. Baka may ginawa na sila sa akin. I start to feel my body. For any harm, wala naman pero baka hinawak hawakan na nila ang katawan ko. Paano ba kasi ako napunta dito at biglang may mga lalaki sa labas ng pinto.

"My body"I hug myself... pero parang may mali. Nanlalaki ang matang napatingin ako sa dibdib ko. Alam kong macho ako pero I don't have a boobs for pete sake, I'm a guy.

I am Cury Black, the captain of the Basketball team on Santa Lucia College. And I... I am an handsome creation. Based on my parents and the people around me, not self proclaimed.

Gusto kong sumigaw pero how the hell can I do that kung may mga lalaki sa labas na parang gustong gusto akong harasin. At kung may maririnig pang ingay mula sa kwarto na ito ay masisira na nila ang pinto.

"Den"

"Bakit ka nanginginig"

"May nangyari ba?"

"Pangit na ba 'yang kama mo, sisirain ko na 'yan"

"Baby, tell us what's your problem"

I lost the track of time and just noticed it when five guys stand infront of my face.

Tinignan ko lamang ang limang lalaki sa harapan ko. Pare-parehong naka-itim na boxer. Pakiramdam ko nakatingin ako sa isang tao na naging lima. The only difference is their hair.

"Who am I?"I ask still seated on the bed.

Ang sarap mo sapukin Cury, ofcourse you are Cury.

"Hay"

"Masisira ko na talaga lahat ng gamit mo dito"

"Huminga ka naman"duon lang ako huminga ng mas maayos. I think that's a reminder na hindi ko napansin na hindi na ako humihinga. I tried gasping for air slowly.

"You made us worried"

"Kuya mo kami kaya ano bang problema?"

Kuya! Kelan pa ako nagkaroon ng kapatid. At ayoko ng kapatid. I'm used to living as the only child and I love it.

"What?!"

"You're our princess"

"H-huh me?" I pointed at myself "p-princess"mahihimatay na sabi ko. My dad never raise me to be a... freaking princess?

They say I'm a princess, but I know that I'm not. What the hell!

I still didn't get what they said but the darkness are eating me. Narinig ko pang nagkagulo sila bago ako bumagsak sa kama... kamang hindi akin.

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Comtwin