We made the most of our whole day at the resort. We tries almost all of the activities that the resort offered. Island hopping, scuba diving, para sailing, we ride on a jetski and etc. I enjoyed it a lot. This is our first ever date together. He promised that he will take me out on a date more often.And I am alreading looking forward on it. For the first time I feel so alive. I feel like a human. For the past years due to my issues I forbid myself going out and enjoy my life. I don't have friends. Didn't have a big family since I was an only child and my parents were also very busy. I love being with Kian. He really makes me so happy. Looking forward for more happy days together. Sunday afternoon we traveled back to the city. Back to reality, I guessed. I temporarily forgot that we were students after all. I lost that in my mind. I thought we were really adults. We are of legal age now but still, we needed to finish our studies for our future.He took off his shoes and his t-shi
"Hmm... how many children do you want?" he suddenly asked.I don't know if it's still early for planning or talking about this kind of thing. I shifted on my seat to face him. Okay. He was serious. I sighed and shrugged."Since I was an only child, wanted to have a big family. I like to have a big and happy family."I grew up lonely. I wasn't like the other kids who stay most often outside their house. Playing with other kids. I stayed mostly at our house. Playing alone. I don't have someone to tell my secrets to. Don't have someone to share my toys with.Kian was also an only child, but we are totally different. He's friendly.People like to be friends with him. He gets along well with others. While I prefer to be alone. I just don't want to be judged.Childhood memories and trauma made me this way. I fear socializing. I don't want people to be nice to me while I'm in front of them, then, later on, will say ill things behind my back. So, why bother to be nice and to please people if
"Beth, are you coming?" my classmate Macy asked.I smiled timidly at her. I know she understands what I mean by it. The hope in her eyes faded. She sighed and nodded her head later on.Our group had the highest score so they were happy and decided to celebrate. There is a KTV bar near here and they plan to there. I don't like to go out so I refused. And besides, I already I am already married. It’s not nice to see me outside and having fun while I have a husband waiting at home.I left the room to go to the canteen. Kian texted me that he was already there. When I arrived at the canteen, their group grabbed my attention. They're having fun.When Kian noticed me he immediately stood up. He put his arm around me and kissed my cheek. His friend's eyes are on us. I raised an eyebrow at them. Kian guided me to sit next to him. He already ordered food for us. Their silence made me confused. Until I had eaten my meal half of it, they cleared their throats simultaneously."Beth." One of his f
I raised an eyebrow at Kian's friend. Again? I looked at Kian."It's okay if you don't want me to go," Kian said.While his friend made puppy eyes at me so that I could let Kian go to his birthday party."Who's birthday it will be next month?" I asked them. Like last time, almost all of them have the same reactions— scratching their napes and having this look on me. Last year, they didn't invite Kian and Kian also refused to go. I sighed."Where are you going?" I asked another question. I remember Raul's birthday last time. They say it will only take place at Raul's house but I found out from Macy that they went to a bar."Just at home. All boys just like Raul's birthday," Kian replied while his eyes are busy roaming around. He can't look straight in my eyes 'cause I'm staring hard at him. Liar! I know where these guys went."Please, allow him. It's our last year in college. When we graduate we might not be able to meet again."I sighed once again. "Okay. Make sure you don't take my h
I woke up alone in bed. It's only six-thirty in the morning. It's Saturday so we don't have to go to the university.I stayed still before being forced to get up and look for Kian. I found him in the kitchen. There is a frying pan on the stove. Looks like he just started cooking.The kitchen was a bit messy. There are ingredients and foods on the countertop. When he notices my presence he glances at me. I leaned against the kitchen door and looked at him with a smile."I guess you got up early and cook." He just smiled sparingly. He turned down the heat on the stove before taking a few steps toward me. He kissed me on the lips."Sorry about last night. I came home late due to traffic," he explained seriously. I nodded."It's okay. I just hope you have texted me. Your wife was so worried." I sighed."Sorry." He kissed me again. It lasted for just a few seconds because if he doesn't stop, the pan will burn."While I'm cooking, pack our clothes good for two days," he said."Why?" I asked
Kian and I never talk in the morning because my class was an hour earlier than his. I just heated up the food I cooked last night. The cake I baked was just in the fridge.After I got dressed, he woke up. He was quiet and I knew he was watching me. I have a lot to say and I have things I want to ask him but I don’t want to start this day with a fight. With the annoyance I felt last night and until now I am sure it will lead to a quarrel.As much as possible I want to be calm. I don’t want to mess up my mind especially since we have quizzes that I have to prepare for this week.My chest tightens. I hardly slept. I was irritated as I listened to her snore. He was under the influence of alcohol so he slept very soundly.He didn't know or it is more correct to say that he doesn't care about his wife who is irritated and resentful towards him."I'm going," I coldly said goodbye to him.He stood up immediately and approached me. He kissed my head."Remember, Moo, I love you. See you later."
Lunch break came, Macy and I never talk again. I knew she was looking at me from time to time but because of the intensity of the emotion I was feeling, I tried to ignore her.Or maybe because when I see the pity in her eyes I'll just burst into tears. She witnessed what happened. She witnessed Kian's grip on temptation. I don’t want to cry. Even if it's just a kiss or make-out, it's painful.But what if it wasn’t just a kiss? What if there was more than that? No!Whether it's just a smack or whatever, it's still an act of cheating.At lunch break, Kian picked me up out of my room. He smiled. He immediately hugged and kissed me. I sighed and smiled lazily at him.I don’t know what I should feel. My emotions are already turbulent. My heart was not yet calm. But we are inside the university. We should not be seen by others fighting. I don’t want Jewel to see or know that we have a misunderstanding. It will satisfy her and that is the last thing I don't want to happen."Beth, " his frien
"Go ahead, just cry. It will lessen the pain," Macy said while driving. I wiped away the tears that wanted to fall.It really hurts deep inside me. I wanted to cry to reduce the weight I felt on my chest but also didn’t want to shed any tears. I asked her to drop me off at the mall a few meters away from our house."Be careful. If you need someone to talk to, I am just here," she said before stopping the car. I just nodded at her and thanked her.Kian called my number several times a while ago so I blocked his number. Even on my social media accounts. I don't want to talk to him. As much as possible I also don't want to see his face. But we go to the same school. We go home to the same house. I don't know what to do now.I walked around the mall until late at night. I don't feel hungry. Nothing comes into my mind. I don’t know what to do and still thought of what had happened.As far as I know, he lied and deceived me. I really want to reprove him. But I don't want to utter hurtful wo
Kian and I had only been preparing for our wedding for a month. Our parents handle the cost of our wedding. Even though Kian and his parents wanted to handle it all. Our parents insisted that he'll just use his money for the construction of our dream house.While I was away, he started building our dream house. He was really confident that we would not be separated, because he continued anyway.It was designed by an architecture student at the university we were attending. Just a little finishing and we can live already there.After the wedding, we will fix the interior design of the house before we leave the country for our honeymoon. We'll spend a month traveling abroad, before going back to the country. Back to work, business, and to start having a family of our own. It's our mutual decision to have a baby.The big church here in the city is decorated with different colors of fresh flowers. The church is also filled with our friends, acquaintances, relatives, and classmates from el
"Wake up, Moo. You have a walk today, don't you?" Kian's soft voice woke me up.My eyelids are heavy— I still want to sleep. If I hadn’t given up, Kian wouldn’t have stopped me all night. He never tires of claiming me. Then the pain in my body especially in my womanhood, that I felt was torn apart. I adjusted the blanket wrapped around my body as I sat up in bed."I made us breakfast," he said before placing the tray containing the breakfast he had prepared for us on my thigh."Pain is all over my body. I feel so heavy," I complained as I frowned at him.He grinned and scratched his head."I'm asking you if you can still do it, you said yes."I frowned even more. He pinched my nose and laughed."As if you didn't enjoy it. You keep on screaming my name the whole night. You're even asking me to move faster on top of you." He laughed out loud when I hit him with a pillow."I was just joking, Moo. I'm sorry if you're tired. I just missed you so badly." He pinched both my cheeks."Let's ea
The happiness I feel overflows as he reciprocates every caress of his lips on my lips. We stop kissing to catch our breath. His eyes dimmed as he watched me.He wiped the helpless tears from both on my cheeks, before his lips touched mine again. This time it didn't settle there. His lip traveled down to my ear. I took a deep breath at what he did."Kian..." I whispered as he lightly licked the back of my ear down to my neck.He just answer me with a moan. I begin to bite my lower lip when he trailed off his hot and wet tongue on my skin. His kisses and his touch fuel my lustful desire.I gasped when I felt his calloused hand inside my shirt, gently caressing my stomach up to my breast. I moaned and move my hips upward.He stops kissing my neck. He looked at me and chuckled. He gave me a hard kiss before lifting my shirt. I took the initiative to take off my top. My two mounds were unfolded in front of him, waiting for attention from him but he didn't do what I wanted. He is obviously
I raised my eyebrows to meet his gaze, but I was also the first to look away. I looked like a teenager with a red face because I was staring at my crush.I sighed and gasped again. I was really hungry so I didn't care even if Kian was watching me eat. I could feel his warm gaze on me, and I tried not to be affected."You look even prettier, Moo..." He giggled like a teenager. I rolled my eyes."I'm lucky to have you. It's a good thing I tied you to me," he said proudly. I shook my head. I picked up the glass of ice tea and drank it. He was still staring at me. I could see the amusement and love in his eyes.When I put down the glass he grabbed my hand. He lightly touched it and brought it to his lips. He kissed it lightly. I blushed, especially when I heard the gasping of the students at the other table. I could see the thrill on their faces as they looked at us."So sweet...""Hoping all...""He's so handsome!""She's beautiful too. They look good together."We still got attention. K
"I'm sorry! It's my fault because I lied to you. I didn't tell the truth. But I didn't cheat!" He even really followed me. I stopped walking for a moment because of what he said."Believe me, I didn't cheat."Yeah, I know you didn't cheat. But can we still change what happened? Our marriage was annulled now. And one more thing, you already love someone else. I don’t know what this talk is for. Does he want closure? He signed our annulment. That is the closure.I took a deep breath and quickly wiped away my tears. I stepped away from him but again stopped when he spoke again."That's where you're good at. Instead of talking, you always just avoid, run away, and walk away.""What do you want me to do, huh!" I turned to him."Fight for me..." he answered weakly."How? How can I fight you if, in the end, I'm the loser? If you choose her. I just want to raise myself up because I'm exhausted, I poured all my love on you before. I am not an ideal girlfriend, Kian. I'm not as sexy as your exe
It was late at night but the people flocked to the bar even more. I'm also tired of dancing because my skin is almost sticking to the crowd on the dance floor. I invited Macy and the others back to our table.I'll just drink a little and then I'll go home to Macy's condo. I'll stay with her first until I find a unit for myself. Our house here in Manila was rented out so I can't go there either."Let's dance," said the man who had been following me on the dancefloor earlier. He saw that I had turned around and started to step away from the dancefloor. I smiled politely at him."I'm tired," I replied with a smile. He continued to block my way in front of me. He's tempting me but I shooked my head."Let's go!" I am with my friends now. The man still followed us. Macy and Barbara are now annoyed."Next time again," I told the man so he should stop following me.It looks like he's been drinking a lot too so he's being kinda naughty.Now he invites me to their table.We were close to our ta
Years later...I looked around as I pushed the cart containing my luggage. I smiled when I found what I was looking for."Here!" they shouted while still jumping. The happiness they have made you think we hadn't seen each other in years."Welcome back!" they all scream when I approach them.I shrugged and laughed at them one by one."So, you have decided?" Macy asked while looking at my luggage."No final plans yet. Let's go," I said because it was a bit hot out here.They brought a Hi-Ace van. And they also have a driver with them. We decided to eat first before we go to my parent's house. It's their wedding anniversary so I decided to go home. They didn’t know I was going home because I planned to surprise them.The celebration started when we arrived at my parent's house. The weather was good so they set up the party outside the house. There are tables and some chairs. There is also a table for meals placed on the side.Macy got out of the van first. My relatives looked in our direc
KIANAfter we had dinner, we went home one by one. My relatives are going home, so Daddy and I will go with them in their car.I don't know if Beth's cousins were planning to stay overnight at their house so that they could bond or whatever. I want to talk and be with Beth, but I don't want to deprive her of her relatives, especially her cousins who want to celebrate with her.I did not go with my friends. I always get hurt or get in trouble when I go with them. I'm already married and my focus should be on my wife. Something I forgot for a while.I was enticed to join the drink because it was my friend's birthday. And Beth allowed me to, so I took advantage.But the only thing I didn’t really know was that they lied to me and to Beth, when they let me know and said the celebration was just at their house. It was in a bar. Okay, just once. And then I'll go home right before Beth's allotted time.We were having fun as soon as Jewel's group arrived. She was not even invited yet she jo
I didn’t sleep well but I still woke up early. I felt heavy in my head and chest. It still hurts a lot but I can't take it anymore. I've cried a lot and no tears are coming out. Does that mean I accepted what happened?Today is our graduation. I should be happy because all my hard work will be paid off. I will finish with flying colors. Same as Kian. But I couldn't even get excited.I was also thinking of not attending my graduation. I can still get my diploma and my dean's awards. I also have a graduation picture that Mom and Dad immediately hung on the wall. But this day is special, and important to my parents who worked hard for me to attend a prestigious university.I gawked for a few seconds. I remember what happened yesterday. I took a deep breath. I don't want to think about what happened anymore. Because I don't want to be hurt again. Kian and my plans will never happen anymore. I will be the only one to fulfill my dreams.I'm used to being alone. It's not a big deal to me. Ma