JakeShe just left.She walked through those lift doors without looking back at me once.I didn’t know what to do or think, I was consumed with anger the second I say the hickey on her neck I lost it. It was as if a red fog head taken over, no matter what she said I couldn’t believe her, someone had touched what was mine, worse she had let them.I had never felt jealousy or rage like it. I had struggled not to hurt her, she had to leave but, why was it so easy for her to do so, I couldn’t understand.It just proved I was right, her and Carter were in this together and I was not going to fall for her bullshit anymore. Those large doe eyes of her that I would get lost in, that was where things had gone wrong. I ran my hands through my hair not knowing what to do with myself as I paced around the apartment.I was angry and frustrated, I poured myself a whiskey from the mini bar in the corner before slumping into the seat. She had tricked me; her whole innocent act was so convincing. I ju
JakeI had really fucked up, why didn’t I listen to what she said. I could have avoided all of this. I was pacing the apartment my mind in turmoil. I needed to find her but where to start.I tried her number again and again but each time it went straight to voice mail, I couldn’t blame her if I was her, I wouldn’t take my calls either. Still, I needed to know she was okay, I looked back at the broken phone with the crushed screen the voice note on pause. I felt sick knowing what she’s been through. Why did I think she would cheat on me, she has never done anything to imply that she would.What was niggling away at me was that it was my idea, she never would have met that creep if I hadn’t suggested it. I ran my hands through my hair, this is all my fucking fault. If I manage to find her, what exactly would I say to make her forgive me, what could I say that would allow me to forgive myself.That was something I knew would never be possible, she had even begged me to be close by, she k
StephanieI hadn’t wanted to turn on my phone, I knew Jake would track me I had clearly realized too late before switching it off. I told the cabbie to just drive whilst I cleared my head. Normally whenever something like this happened, I would go to Sabrina’s but we weren’t even on speaking terms, it was something I was going to have to fix. I just didn’t have the head space for it, plus without telling her the whole truth I don’t know if she would understand. Plus, I still didn’t know how things would turn out and I didn’t want her complicit in any of my mistakes.Ruby, God love her I didn’t know if she would be right for how I’m feeling now, slightly buzzed broken hearted and bruised. She would just tell me to get over a guy by getting under another. Which may have worked the last time but after the assault from Joe, that was the last thing I wanted, even kissing that guy at the bar made my stomach churn.Then there was Millie, she was probably the perfect option for this, although
StephanieI waited outside the Tree Rest Rehab center, as predicted I hadn’t slept very well, I was nervous to talk to my sister, something I had never been before.How can I tell her my biggest darkest shameful secret.I didn’t want the stress of this to jeopardies her health, she was so close to being free of all of this. Sighing I stared at the door to reception running a hand through my hair. The lady on reception kept staring at me out the window. I gave her a smile but I still couldn’t bring myself to enter.My phone beeped and I looked down, there were always messages from Jake but I hadn’t opened them, I wasn’t ready to deal with that yet. There was another one from Millie though that I opened.Millie – You can do this Steph; Jess will understand xxShe was a good friend; despite her own work drama she was able to be there for me when I needed someone on my side the most. Smiling I took a deep breath taking a step towards the building. I had probably stood there for an hour by
JakeI had been sat in my office all morning waiting to see if Stephanie would be in today. I had sent her so many messages, calls to apologize. I just needed to see her, I needed to make things right. I hadn’t been able to sleep the last few nights since putting her in that cab … I was a mess without her.Every time I heard the lift ding in my apartment my heart leapt and I prayed it was her coming home. Each time just the cleaner, at the office I kept my door open to see when she came in, the only message I had got from her was that she needed time.I couldn’t argue with that, I wanted to. I had fucked up as penance I was now going to have to wait it out. I hated the waiting, my gut hurt, there was a constant pain pressing down on my chest that wouldn’t budge either.Leaning back in my chair I stared blankly out into the office, what the fuck was I going to do, I needed a plan. The problem was I had never been in this situation, I had never felt more powerless than knowing I might h
StephanieI didn’t know what to think, looking at the man before me. He was a wreak. I’d never seen him like this the entire time I had worked here, he was always so slick and put together. Don’t get me wrong he still looked incredible as always just rough around the edges now.His usual crisp white shirt was crinkled with flecks of blood on the cuffs, his hair was ruffled as he continued to sweep his hands through it. The front always falling back into those piercing grey blue eyes of his. They held so much emotion in them it made me want to cry. I could see his love, need and desire for me, I knew he was doing his best to stay in control but if I left him, he would break.The feeling pulled at my heart a pain in my chest I hadn’t expected to feel. After speaking with Millie and Jess, I didn’t know how I felt about Jake. I had decided on the way to work that I was done, this thing between us needed to end. It wasn’t healthy our relationship to have this intense pull between us, all h
JakeI felt relieved to have her finally back home, I still had some work to do to fix things between us. But I was going to try.We had had dinner together and as much as I wanted to steal a kiss a time or two I didn’t, I needed her to know she could trust me. Plus, something she had said earlier had stuck with me. She didn’t think I had given her a choice. I wanted her to know that she did, even if after this Carter mess was over if she wanted to still walk away. I’d let her.The thought weighed heavy on my chest I knew the pain I would feel would consume me. I just had to hope that this time together I could prove to her that I am the man she needs to be with. There is that constant pull between us, I wanted things to be more than that or for her to know that what we had went deeper.I have told her countless times of my feelings for her; I knew she believed me. I also knew that if I continued to act the way I did then words alone would not be enough. For her I was going to try to
JakeIt was closing statements for Carson Duggers case, I for one could not be happier that things were coming to an end. Aire was doing well in the hospital he was set to be induced out of his coma in the next three days. I’m normally not so relieved when a case is coming to an end, but I just wanted Carter out of my life.I had heard back from my police correspondent with the information I had given they were now starting their investigating into Carter Dickson and I was going to be ready for when the time came. Lyla was also being annoying she seemed to sense something had changed between Stephanie and I and was now openly flirting with me. Something I continued to shut down, I just wanted to be rid of the woman.I had brought Stephanie with me, I had asked Todd to sit with her directly behind not wanting Dylan anywhere close, plus that was something I was going to have to settle with him. I had assaulted him but he knew what he was doing, sadly as it was on company property it mak
StephanieI had been so happy to see Jake there in that room, I felt like I hadn’t breathed until I saw him held him. He came for me he really came!He was my life line I had held onto him for as long as I could I didn’t miss the exchanged between him and Todd the expression on his face as his jaw tensed when the guard came back in. I clutched onto his words like a life line.‘I’m not leaving without you,’‘I will always find you,’‘Just a few more hours,’I replayed them over and over again in my mind, they brought me comfort he was here.Don’t get me wrong I was still scared out of my mind but knowing he was just the other side of the budling helped. The guard pulled the door open the heavy metal door clanging.‘I wouldn’t get too comfortable doll,’ he said as he ushered me in closing then locking the door behind me. Was he being sarcastic? This concreate cell had a bucket and a hollowed-out metal frame for a bed. No wonder I had woke up on the floor.It was lighter now; I could act
JakeWhat the fuck just happened.My heart was pounding and my head was spinning, I swore I would protect her from this and I failed they had pulled her from my arms. I had held onto her so tightly I knew I left bruises. I felt guilty for that and everything else.The dick head of a policeman forbade me from coming down saying that as I was her husband I wasn’t able to represent her as her attorney. I almost decked him one if James and Daniel hadn’t been there to pull me off him I would have.The second her car disappeared I told them to find out where they were taking her I ran upstairs I need to feel like I was doing something productive. It was late but I didn’t give a shit I called the number again and again until he picked up.‘Get your ass out of bed I need you!’ I yelled running my hands through my hair, every second counted I needed to know where she was, I needed to fucking see her to know if she was okay.I knew she fucking wasn’t.That looks she gave me before they took her
StephanieThere was a buzzing in my ears and everything went in slow motion, I looked around seeing everyone’s shocked faces. Jake was holding me tight which I think is the only reason I was still upright. I knew he was speaking but I couldn’t make out the words it sounds like I was underwater.My heart was hammering in my chest as I tried to focus on what was going on I caught sight of Jess’s face the worry she held made me nervous. This was real.I pinched myself even so not knowing what to do, wake up Steph wake up!When the policeman grabbed hold of my wrist pulling me from Jake’s hold it suddenly all felt far too real all my fears confirmed as the handcuffs clicked onto my wrist, the heavy metal clanging.‘-anything you do say can and will be used against you!’ the policemen said.‘Let her go this instant you have no right!’ Jake bellowed as his friends stood holding him back.‘Sir I’ve got a warrant don’t make me arrest you too!’ The policeman glared as another one came over tur
JakeI had been on the phone all morning about this court order Stephanie had received the charges were bullshit too but everyone I called no one was speaking. I wanted this out the way after watching her look so scared after her nightmare I never wanted to see that expression on her face.After several hours I decided I was going to have to wait until tomorrow, I needed my team and I wasn’t getting anywhere on a Sunday. I had time the court date was not for several weeks so I pushed it from my mind, I left my office searching the apartment to find her, she must be worried it was my job to make sure she wouldn’t be.I eventually found her in the little lounge or reading nook as she called it, the place was the size of a library I found her tucked up asleep with the blanket wrapped around her reading Tess of the D’Urbervilles sitting loosely in her lap.I knelt down stroking her hair back even in her sleep there was a small frown on her face. our guests would be arriving soon I had arr
CarterHow dare she! I was furious she had fucking married him if she thought she could just waltz off into the sunset and forget me then she was out of her fucking mind.‘Hold still,’ I grunted as I slapped her about as I drilled into the little whore underneath me. I pictured Stephanie’s face as I looked down at her, dark brown hair just like hers. I yanked it back tight making her cry out.‘I’ll teach you to disobey me!’ I yelled as I fucked her hard she cried I smacked her again as I pulled her head up wrapping my hands around her throat tightly, I could hear the slapping of skin and her cries of pain but I didn’t give a shit. When I get my hands on her she is going to learn to never cross me.‘Fuck!’ I grunted as I came before pushing her to the floor where she collapsed whimpering, I scuffed my hand down my face, looking at her now she looked so similar to her, I could almost picture it.‘Get out,’ I whispered as she struggled to get off the floor picking up her discarded clothe
StephanieJake still had that look in his eye, it had taken so many rounds of sex for it to go. He was back to his normal self as we packed up our stuff from our own little island. He slapped my ass making me yelp, it was still sore from the spanking session I had received already this morning.‘Hurry up love,’ he gave me a cocky smile as he looks over his shoulder snickering at the look I give him as I rub my sore ass. He disappears into the bathroom and I smile feeling relaxed, the only time we argue is when it’s about me. He can be a little over protective I wondered what he was thinking about to making him so worried. I couldn’t think of anything the case from hell was over so it was just work as normal.We had to be back as we were having a little gathering with friends and family to welcome us back from home. It would be nice to see everyone again, Jake had actually suggested it so we had something to look forward to when we got home. Plus, he told me as the boss he can do what
StephanieI screamed as we got off the plane! How amazing was my husband! I looked at him he looked so hot in his white shirt, shorts and boat shoes that I wanted to have him right then and there, he just gave me his usual cocky smirk as he led the way to our private hut and our own island in the Maldives. The journey had been long but when you have your own jet with a bed in it there were plenty of ways to pass the time. I couldn’t even face them when we landed too embarrassed for all the noise I had made.He took my hand as we walked up to the only hut, it had our own private beach and pool with a full stocked fridge, there was a little boat to take us to the main part of the resort where we could socialize with everyone or eat out for dinner.I had changed into a blue tasseled dress with my bikini on underneath paired sandals, he had also given me an anklet as part of my wedding present it sparkled like the sun with the mix of diamonds and sapphires he hand-picked as he said they m
JakeThe wedding had been perfect, there was a brief moment when Tara showed up when we’re doing our vows that I was worried about. When she saw the look on both mine and mum’s faces she didn’t even need escorting out. I was worried that she could have ruined what was a perfect day, my little doe didn’t even seemed to have registered from the dreamy stare she was giving me.Having her by my side officially mine was perfect, I couldn’t describe the feeling of it. I felt whole. The whole day had been perfect, I was worried about my speech I wanted her to remember this moment for me to actually tell her the depth of my love for her.When I saw my little doe’s eyes widen and almost tear up the widest smile on her face I knew she understood, she was my all and I wasn’t afraid to admit it. I watched as mum’s face softened at that point also I wanted the women in my life to get along, Katie seemed taken with Stephanie I just hoped one day mum would be the same.I sneaked a kiss after my spee
StephanieIt was finally the day of the wedding and I hadn’t slept at all last night, my mind kept going over everything that still needed to be done. I wanted everything to be perfect for us, Jake kept telling me not to worry that it will all come together in the end but even so I still felt like there was something I had missed.‘Steph! Did you sleep at all?’ Sabrina wakes me we had all stayed at the venue the night before something that Jake wasn’t thrilled about, secretly I wasn’t either I missed him too much!‘Hmm? Uh yeah I think so,’ I mumble feeling like I either slept for 2 minutes or 2 days not knowing where I was. Sabrina sighs shaking her head as she looks at me, before I can even think of rolling over and going back to sleep Ruby and Millie burst through the door from their adjourning room. I groaned into the pillow as they opened up the blackout curtains, I caught a glimpse of the clock – 6am! Surely on my own wedding day I don’t need to be up now!‘Gurl get yourself in