StephanieI hadn’t wanted to turn on my phone, I knew Jake would track me I had clearly realized too late before switching it off. I told the cabbie to just drive whilst I cleared my head. Normally whenever something like this happened, I would go to Sabrina’s but we weren’t even on speaking terms, it was something I was going to have to fix. I just didn’t have the head space for it, plus without telling her the whole truth I don’t know if she would understand. Plus, I still didn’t know how things would turn out and I didn’t want her complicit in any of my mistakes.Ruby, God love her I didn’t know if she would be right for how I’m feeling now, slightly buzzed broken hearted and bruised. She would just tell me to get over a guy by getting under another. Which may have worked the last time but after the assault from Joe, that was the last thing I wanted, even kissing that guy at the bar made my stomach churn.Then there was Millie, she was probably the perfect option for this, although
StephanieI waited outside the Tree Rest Rehab center, as predicted I hadn’t slept very well, I was nervous to talk to my sister, something I had never been before.How can I tell her my biggest darkest shameful secret.I didn’t want the stress of this to jeopardies her health, she was so close to being free of all of this. Sighing I stared at the door to reception running a hand through my hair. The lady on reception kept staring at me out the window. I gave her a smile but I still couldn’t bring myself to enter.My phone beeped and I looked down, there were always messages from Jake but I hadn’t opened them, I wasn’t ready to deal with that yet. There was another one from Millie though that I opened.Millie – You can do this Steph; Jess will understand xxShe was a good friend; despite her own work drama she was able to be there for me when I needed someone on my side the most. Smiling I took a deep breath taking a step towards the building. I had probably stood there for an hour by
JakeI had been sat in my office all morning waiting to see if Stephanie would be in today. I had sent her so many messages, calls to apologize. I just needed to see her, I needed to make things right. I hadn’t been able to sleep the last few nights since putting her in that cab … I was a mess without her.Every time I heard the lift ding in my apartment my heart leapt and I prayed it was her coming home. Each time just the cleaner, at the office I kept my door open to see when she came in, the only message I had got from her was that she needed time.I couldn’t argue with that, I wanted to. I had fucked up as penance I was now going to have to wait it out. I hated the waiting, my gut hurt, there was a constant pain pressing down on my chest that wouldn’t budge either.Leaning back in my chair I stared blankly out into the office, what the fuck was I going to do, I needed a plan. The problem was I had never been in this situation, I had never felt more powerless than knowing I might h
StephanieI didn’t know what to think, looking at the man before me. He was a wreak. I’d never seen him like this the entire time I had worked here, he was always so slick and put together. Don’t get me wrong he still looked incredible as always just rough around the edges now.His usual crisp white shirt was crinkled with flecks of blood on the cuffs, his hair was ruffled as he continued to sweep his hands through it. The front always falling back into those piercing grey blue eyes of his. They held so much emotion in them it made me want to cry. I could see his love, need and desire for me, I knew he was doing his best to stay in control but if I left him, he would break.The feeling pulled at my heart a pain in my chest I hadn’t expected to feel. After speaking with Millie and Jess, I didn’t know how I felt about Jake. I had decided on the way to work that I was done, this thing between us needed to end. It wasn’t healthy our relationship to have this intense pull between us, all h
JakeI felt relieved to have her finally back home, I still had some work to do to fix things between us. But I was going to try.We had had dinner together and as much as I wanted to steal a kiss a time or two I didn’t, I needed her to know she could trust me. Plus, something she had said earlier had stuck with me. She didn’t think I had given her a choice. I wanted her to know that she did, even if after this Carter mess was over if she wanted to still walk away. I’d let her.The thought weighed heavy on my chest I knew the pain I would feel would consume me. I just had to hope that this time together I could prove to her that I am the man she needs to be with. There is that constant pull between us, I wanted things to be more than that or for her to know that what we had went deeper.I have told her countless times of my feelings for her; I knew she believed me. I also knew that if I continued to act the way I did then words alone would not be enough. For her I was going to try to
JakeIt was closing statements for Carson Duggers case, I for one could not be happier that things were coming to an end. Aire was doing well in the hospital he was set to be induced out of his coma in the next three days. I’m normally not so relieved when a case is coming to an end, but I just wanted Carter out of my life.I had heard back from my police correspondent with the information I had given they were now starting their investigating into Carter Dickson and I was going to be ready for when the time came. Lyla was also being annoying she seemed to sense something had changed between Stephanie and I and was now openly flirting with me. Something I continued to shut down, I just wanted to be rid of the woman.I had brought Stephanie with me, I had asked Todd to sit with her directly behind not wanting Dylan anywhere close, plus that was something I was going to have to settle with him. I had assaulted him but he knew what he was doing, sadly as it was on company property it mak
StephanieIt had been a few days since the trial, the jury were still deliberating which was just putting Jake on edge. I also wanted it over with, it just brought up too many painful memories, I hoped despite Lyla being a bit of a bitch that at least for Aire’s sake they got justice.I had agreed to the date with Jake something he refused to go into more details about, but the smile on his face was just infectious, we were both walking around the apartment with crazy big smiles on our faces. There had been a few kisses between us but none on the lips just yet, I’ll admit I was impressed with how things were between us, we would spend hours in the evening just talking together. My resolve was breaking I wanted him I just needed this date to come so that I didn’t cave before then.I was meeting Sabrina today, she was finally ready to talk, I think this had been the longest time we hadn’t spoken. I really missed her; she has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. Jake was
StephanieThe day of our date was finally here, Jake had been extremely secretive about it, I had tried to get him to tell me what it was but he didn’t say anything, he would just continue to tease me until eventually I stopped asking.My stomach was full of both nerves and excitement, I just didn’t know what to expect. Although we had been alone together in the apartment, I was just very aware that we were going to be together and alone. This date was going to decide the future of our relationship and although I knew he had changed and been respectful we can’t stay in our little bubble any longer.I had forgiven him already, ultimately, he needed to forgive himself, we needed to find a way to start our relationship at the same level, equals. He may still be my hero rescuing me from so many things that I had struggled with, looking after Jess, my horrible landlady and Carter. I wasn’t blind to the help he had given me. I just didn’t want it to feel like the reason we were together was