GraysonWhatever happened has worn Raven out. I make Alexa aware she won't be at work, I don't need to warn her that Raven won't lose her job.Even if Raven wakes later, she isn't working tonight. The fact she passed out says she is exhausted and needs time out."Big bear wants us." I turn and look at Emmett. "He said whenever we're free. So maybe later? Take Raven with us if she is awake and she can see Ava?" He looks at me and I nod."Fine." I won't argue."Also, you won't like this, but I think she needs to see Jasper." Turning I glare at him. "Not to fuck, let her have friends, Grayson, even if it is a guy. You know Jasper isn't a threat. She needs more friends than just Ava."He's right, but Jasper being her friend means her going to parties, as that's all Jasper does. She has slowly cut back the amount she parties and drinks.Picking up my phone I have an idea, looking up the place, I hit the number and call through. I stand talking and watch as Emmett stares at me shocked. Ten
RavenI leave, feeling relaxed and better, which I hadn't expected to happen. Ashton is waiting for me, and I climb onto the bike with him. I hate to admit it, but Grayson was right.Even those thirty minutes, I felt so much better than I had before. Speaking to Grayson helped, but this was something different. I watch as he stops outside the club where Ava works."Come on, see Ava for a bit, they were catching up with Big Bear," Ashton speaks and I follow him through. I see the brothers in the corner and feel anxious. I have no idea what this is, are we together?How do I behave in public? Can I go over and kiss them? Shaking my head I walk to Ava and wrap my arms around her."How are you feeling?" She smiles at me."Good, really good." I do, just uneasy and unsure of how things will work going forward."You look better." I stare at her shocked and she laughs. "Like a weight has lifted Raven."Nodding I sit down and we talk, but I can sense something has happened. "What is it?" I loo
RavenI wake feeling Grayson wrapped around me. His hand, as ever is wrapped possessively around my neck. Last night floods through me, and I smile. It was so different, an entirely different side to Grayson I hadn't known existed, and a side of him I wanted to learn more about. I feel his lips kiss down my neck, his hand tightening around my neck."Good Morning Doll." His words are whispered in the quiet room. I move closer to him, feeling his erection, a groan escaping his lips as I do."Behave, we have things to discuss today. Go to your room Doll, get ready, and meet us at the dining table." I don't want to, but I don't get time to decline before I feel his arm unwrap from my neck and his body moves away. Emptiness seems to flow through me at the distance he just created. I didn't want to move, but I know he's right, we have things to sort.I watch him go to his bathroom, deciding to behave I wrap his shirt around me and go to my room. Getting ready I sit on the bed after, my eyes
EmmettI left and went to see Hawk, we spoke, and I spent some time in his garage. It’s an excuse to hide away, something tells me when I return home tonight Raven will be gone. I know she is leaving Something tells me none of us will survive if she leaves, and as much as I want to shut my heart to her, it’s too late.Why would I give in, I told Grayson not to, and then I fucking did. I don’t want to go back, she changed us all for good, and we will fall down when she walks.“Hiding away won’t work.” I laugh and look at Diesel. “You realise whatever you are running from, if it happens you still feel the exact same, if not worse because it happened while you were hiding.”“I’m not hiding Diesel, I’m simply having a break.” Even I know that is bullshit. I want to hold her, refuse to let her go.“Well, what do you think? Grayson painted it, so it’s ready now.” I turn and look, watching as he pulls the sheet from the bike. I want to say it’s perfect for her, but it won’t be hers. She won’
EmmettI spend hours in the gym, and I can see Jason has questions. Normally I talk, but today I'm not. I don't want an opponent or someone to practice with. I need him, I need to finally be able to face him without being tied up.No matter how hard I kick or hit, It doesn't burn the feelings and hate that radiates within me. He's ruining my life again, and there is only one way to stop it. I need to face him, until I have I need to make sure everyone hates me.I go home after the gym, grateful that no one is in, grabbing my phone I go to work, but even Alexa can tell I can't concentrate and quickly sends me home. I don't though, home isn't somewhere I want to be.Home is somewhere I need to face them and I can't face them, I can't face the reality I need to hurt them. Stopping the car I look at the house and then walk into it, the music flooding through the rooms. I grab a drink, walk into the crowd of people and begin dancing. A few people are looking at me surprised, maybe because
AshtonWe had a feeling she would try to run, but this isn't running. This is self-destructing and not giving a fucking damn how much it hurts us. I thought I could survive with her running, but I'm not sure I can now.She didn't even seem to care when Emmett dragged the guy off her. I was ready for her to run, but not to do this. It threw me and I just stood silenced, and shocked. I felt like she had burned me alive, the jealousy clawing at me from the inside out. I walk in and grab a drink, sitting down, Grayson following me."Try to stay calm Ashton." Turning I look at him shocked. "Emmett has already flipped, I have myself in some ways if we keep acting like that she will run. We will push her and she will run.""She is running anyway Grayson. Her trying to fuck a guy is proof of that." He's a fool if he doesn't realise."You fucked someone yourself Ashton at the start."I nod. "Difference is that was at the start, not fucking now." I hear the door open and we don't speak, we watc
RavenI wake alone, the memory of yesterday and last night in my mind. I don't want to get out of bed, my body is unwilling to move because it knows what I am going to do. Yesterday was awful; I drank far more than I had before, and while it helped, it quickly stopped when I saw the brothers.Getting showered and ready, I sit with my phone. My eyes looking at the messages. They just confirmed I need to leave now and not later. He seems so set on making me hurt, and this time, it's different. It's as if he can see I love them. He never got this descriptive before, he is jealous and angry, and those feelings are aimed at the brothers. Placing the phone in my pocket, I grab my case and ensure I have what I need in it.Standing by the door I suck in a breath and walk out, getting closer to the living room they turn and look at me."Raven, don't!" Grayson looks at me."I have to.""No! You fucking don't Raven, you have a choice, no one is making you walk out of that damn door!" He stands u
EmmettStanding, I watch her leave and hear Ashton cry. Turning, I walk to him. "Get up!""I'm sorry." His words are quiet as he cries."Get the fuck up, Ashton! Do not let her do this to you. You deserve fucking better, now get your ass off that floor and stop crying." I feel Grayson pull me back."Don't be a fucking asshole! Look at him, Emmett, he is in fucking pieces." I turn back and see him shaking and crying. She doesn't deserve his tears, out of everyone she doesn't deserve his. Walking out, I go into my studio, pick up the guitar and play, but my mind won't stay silent. Screaming, I smash it, slowly breaking everything in the room until I fall to my knees and cry.She left us. She walked out like it didn't even touch her, like walking away from us wasn't painful. Screaming, I hold myself and cry. I knew I should never have let her in, I shouldn't have trusted her.Just like everyone in this life, she left. No one ever stays.AshtonI'm to blame, somewhere along the road, I fu