EmmettI left and went to see Hawk, we spoke, and I spent some time in his garage. It’s an excuse to hide away, something tells me when I return home tonight Raven will be gone. I know she is leaving Something tells me none of us will survive if she leaves, and as much as I want to shut my heart to her, it’s too late.Why would I give in, I told Grayson not to, and then I fucking did. I don’t want to go back, she changed us all for good, and we will fall down when she walks.“Hiding away won’t work.” I laugh and look at Diesel. “You realise whatever you are running from, if it happens you still feel the exact same, if not worse because it happened while you were hiding.”“I’m not hiding Diesel, I’m simply having a break.” Even I know that is bullshit. I want to hold her, refuse to let her go.“Well, what do you think? Grayson painted it, so it’s ready now.” I turn and look, watching as he pulls the sheet from the bike. I want to say it’s perfect for her, but it won’t be hers. She won’
EmmettI spend hours in the gym, and I can see Jason has questions. Normally I talk, but today I'm not. I don't want an opponent or someone to practice with. I need him, I need to finally be able to face him without being tied up.No matter how hard I kick or hit, It doesn't burn the feelings and hate that radiates within me. He's ruining my life again, and there is only one way to stop it. I need to face him, until I have I need to make sure everyone hates me.I go home after the gym, grateful that no one is in, grabbing my phone I go to work, but even Alexa can tell I can't concentrate and quickly sends me home. I don't though, home isn't somewhere I want to be.Home is somewhere I need to face them and I can't face them, I can't face the reality I need to hurt them. Stopping the car I look at the house and then walk into it, the music flooding through the rooms. I grab a drink, walk into the crowd of people and begin dancing. A few people are looking at me surprised, maybe because
AshtonWe had a feeling she would try to run, but this isn't running. This is self-destructing and not giving a fucking damn how much it hurts us. I thought I could survive with her running, but I'm not sure I can now.She didn't even seem to care when Emmett dragged the guy off her. I was ready for her to run, but not to do this. It threw me and I just stood silenced, and shocked. I felt like she had burned me alive, the jealousy clawing at me from the inside out. I walk in and grab a drink, sitting down, Grayson following me."Try to stay calm Ashton." Turning I look at him shocked. "Emmett has already flipped, I have myself in some ways if we keep acting like that she will run. We will push her and she will run.""She is running anyway Grayson. Her trying to fuck a guy is proof of that." He's a fool if he doesn't realise."You fucked someone yourself Ashton at the start."I nod. "Difference is that was at the start, not fucking now." I hear the door open and we don't speak, we watc
RavenI wake alone, the memory of yesterday and last night in my mind. I don't want to get out of bed, my body is unwilling to move because it knows what I am going to do. Yesterday was awful; I drank far more than I had before, and while it helped, it quickly stopped when I saw the brothers.Getting showered and ready, I sit with my phone. My eyes looking at the messages. They just confirmed I need to leave now and not later. He seems so set on making me hurt, and this time, it's different. It's as if he can see I love them. He never got this descriptive before, he is jealous and angry, and those feelings are aimed at the brothers. Placing the phone in my pocket, I grab my case and ensure I have what I need in it.Standing by the door I suck in a breath and walk out, getting closer to the living room they turn and look at me."Raven, don't!" Grayson looks at me."I have to.""No! You fucking don't Raven, you have a choice, no one is making you walk out of that damn door!" He stands u
EmmettStanding, I watch her leave and hear Ashton cry. Turning, I walk to him. "Get up!""I'm sorry." His words are quiet as he cries."Get the fuck up, Ashton! Do not let her do this to you. You deserve fucking better, now get your ass off that floor and stop crying." I feel Grayson pull me back."Don't be a fucking asshole! Look at him, Emmett, he is in fucking pieces." I turn back and see him shaking and crying. She doesn't deserve his tears, out of everyone she doesn't deserve his. Walking out, I go into my studio, pick up the guitar and play, but my mind won't stay silent. Screaming, I smash it, slowly breaking everything in the room until I fall to my knees and cry.She left us. She walked out like it didn't even touch her, like walking away from us wasn't painful. Screaming, I hold myself and cry. I knew I should never have let her in, I shouldn't have trusted her.Just like everyone in this life, she left. No one ever stays.AshtonI'm to blame, somewhere along the road, I fu
RavenI begin the drive back to the apartment, stopping when my phone vibrates. I look down and see Emilia's name. I wonder if she knows?Raven, do you have a bit of spare time? I need to talk if you're free.Their mum is too nice, had it been my own or similar I would have said get fucked, but I can't. So instead I drive back to the house, stopping outside I watch the door open. Walking over she hugs me and smiles. She looks happy, so maybe she doesn't know I left them? I sit down and she hands me a glass.We sit in silence for a while and I wonder what she wants me for. Would she really be smiling so much knowing I had essentially just ripped her sons' hearts out?"Raven I thought you realised running saves no one?" She knows, of course, she does. I fight back the tears and look at her. "You're hurting yourself more than anyone. I can guarantee you, that the only person winning right now is him.""I'm sorry." I need to apologise because I hurt her sons so god damn much."You don't n
GraysonWe walk back through and sit down, I don't know where the hell to start. I know what I want to say but I can't, not with Ashton around. So that will come later."I'm sorry. What I said was awful, you were not just someone to pass the time Ashton. I'm sorry I made out like you were the bad guy Grayson, like you were making Ashton and Emmett bad, that was wrong. I needed you all to hate me so walking away would be easier."She looks at us."Why run? You had just agreed, so why the fuck agree just to run after?" Emmett looks at her."I agreed, that morning felt great, I agreed because I wanted it. Then the reality hit that me saying I wanted more and not just fun removed those barriers. The ones I have had up my entire life to keep people out. Then I saw his messages in my head and I realised I was going to hurt anyway, either by him killing you all or me leaving, I chose to leave."Her words make me smile, she wasn't running so much because of us being at risk, more she had fuck
RavenI smile at Grayson, happy with my joke that clearly had him freaking out."I agreed with Grayson if I am feeling like I should run or self-destruct in any way I will say. To all of you or just one of you." I look towards Emmett and Ashton.Ashton walks to the bed and throws himself down on it smiling. Yet Emmett is still looking at me like he wants to tell me to leave, and I can't blame him."I like you all a lot, which is why I felt like I needed to run. I never stayed anywhere long enough to feel anything. This is actually the longest I have stayed in one place." Emmett glares at me, god he is grumpier than Grayson at times. I get it though, so maybe I should be honest.I smile at him, and his frown wavers slightly. "If I am honest Emmett, that night you came in and spoke to me, I had already known I wanted you. Since then I realised I fell in love with you, I was happy for you to push me away because it made me feel safer. Only you stopped, and that scared me."He stopped pus