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Raven: Pain

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Raven

I wake alone, the memory of yesterday and last night in my mind. I don't want to get out of bed, my body is unwilling to move because it knows what I am going to do. Yesterday was awful; I drank far more than I had before, and while it helped, it quickly stopped when I saw the brothers.

Getting showered and ready, I sit with my phone. My eyes looking at the messages. They just confirmed I need to leave now and not later. He seems so set on making me hurt, and this time, it's different. It's as if he can see I love them. He never got this descriptive before, he is jealous and angry, and those feelings are aimed at the brothers. Placing the phone in my pocket, I grab my case and ensure I have what I need in it.

Standing by the door I suck in a breath and walk out, getting closer to the living room they turn and look at me.

"Raven, don't!" Grayson looks at me.

"I have to."

"No! You fucking don't Raven, you have a choice, no one is making you walk out of that damn door!" He stands u
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