RavenI wake alone, the memory of yesterday and last night in my mind. I don't want to get out of bed, my body is unwilling to move because it knows what I am going to do. Yesterday was awful; I drank far more than I had before, and while it helped, it quickly stopped when I saw the brothers.Getting showered and ready, I sit with my phone. My eyes looking at the messages. They just confirmed I need to leave now and not later. He seems so set on making me hurt, and this time, it's different. It's as if he can see I love them. He never got this descriptive before, he is jealous and angry, and those feelings are aimed at the brothers. Placing the phone in my pocket, I grab my case and ensure I have what I need in it.Standing by the door I suck in a breath and walk out, getting closer to the living room they turn and look at me."Raven, don't!" Grayson looks at me."I have to.""No! You fucking don't Raven, you have a choice, no one is making you walk out of that damn door!" He stands u
EmmettStanding, I watch her leave and hear Ashton cry. Turning, I walk to him. "Get up!""I'm sorry." His words are quiet as he cries."Get the fuck up, Ashton! Do not let her do this to you. You deserve fucking better, now get your ass off that floor and stop crying." I feel Grayson pull me back."Don't be a fucking asshole! Look at him, Emmett, he is in fucking pieces." I turn back and see him shaking and crying. She doesn't deserve his tears, out of everyone she doesn't deserve his. Walking out, I go into my studio, pick up the guitar and play, but my mind won't stay silent. Screaming, I smash it, slowly breaking everything in the room until I fall to my knees and cry.She left us. She walked out like it didn't even touch her, like walking away from us wasn't painful. Screaming, I hold myself and cry. I knew I should never have let her in, I shouldn't have trusted her.Just like everyone in this life, she left. No one ever stays.AshtonI'm to blame, somewhere along the road, I fu
RavenI begin the drive back to the apartment, stopping when my phone vibrates. I look down and see Emilia's name. I wonder if she knows?Raven, do you have a bit of spare time? I need to talk if you're free.Their mum is too nice, had it been my own or similar I would have said get fucked, but I can't. So instead I drive back to the house, stopping outside I watch the door open. Walking over she hugs me and smiles. She looks happy, so maybe she doesn't know I left them? I sit down and she hands me a glass.We sit in silence for a while and I wonder what she wants me for. Would she really be smiling so much knowing I had essentially just ripped her sons' hearts out?"Raven I thought you realised running saves no one?" She knows, of course, she does. I fight back the tears and look at her. "You're hurting yourself more than anyone. I can guarantee you, that the only person winning right now is him.""I'm sorry." I need to apologise because I hurt her sons so god damn much."You don't n
GraysonWe walk back through and sit down, I don't know where the hell to start. I know what I want to say but I can't, not with Ashton around. So that will come later."I'm sorry. What I said was awful, you were not just someone to pass the time Ashton. I'm sorry I made out like you were the bad guy Grayson, like you were making Ashton and Emmett bad, that was wrong. I needed you all to hate me so walking away would be easier."She looks at us."Why run? You had just agreed, so why the fuck agree just to run after?" Emmett looks at her."I agreed, that morning felt great, I agreed because I wanted it. Then the reality hit that me saying I wanted more and not just fun removed those barriers. The ones I have had up my entire life to keep people out. Then I saw his messages in my head and I realised I was going to hurt anyway, either by him killing you all or me leaving, I chose to leave."Her words make me smile, she wasn't running so much because of us being at risk, more she had fuck
RavenI smile at Grayson, happy with my joke that clearly had him freaking out."I agreed with Grayson if I am feeling like I should run or self-destruct in any way I will say. To all of you or just one of you." I look towards Emmett and Ashton.Ashton walks to the bed and throws himself down on it smiling. Yet Emmett is still looking at me like he wants to tell me to leave, and I can't blame him."I like you all a lot, which is why I felt like I needed to run. I never stayed anywhere long enough to feel anything. This is actually the longest I have stayed in one place." Emmett glares at me, god he is grumpier than Grayson at times. I get it though, so maybe I should be honest.I smile at him, and his frown wavers slightly. "If I am honest Emmett, that night you came in and spoke to me, I had already known I wanted you. Since then I realised I fell in love with you, I was happy for you to push me away because it made me feel safer. Only you stopped, and that scared me."He stopped pus
RavenI wake up squashed, sticky and sweaty from sharing a bed with them. Grayson is lying next to me, his hand as ever is on my neck. Something about it is possessive yet it feels like it's his safety. Like it makes him feel safer and calmer knowing if anything happened he would know. Emmett is laid on the other side of me, his hand is situated under my face, almost like support for me while I am sleeping.Ashton is laid between my legs, his head resting on my stomach as he sleeps. If anyone wanted to get to me on a night with these three it would be impossible.I can't even escape myself. I try and shuffle slightly, but none of them wake or move. As much as I want to move, I don't want to wake them. I know they have barely slept recently. Hiding away though won't help. Too much needs sorting. I shuffle slightly, trying to turn on my side to ease Ashton off my stomach but I fail."Okay, I need to breathe please." I laugh slightly and watch as Grayson's eyes open, he stays looking at
EmmettAfter leaving Raven at the gym we go to the offices. Even I know it's a waste of time, sure Raven described his eyes, but she hasn't seen him to know what he would look like.Grayson thinks it will help though to search through local hotels and other places he may be sleeping. We can't exactly assume every person staying in one is him.Sitting, I go through the video footage from hotels. The most I can do is look and see if anyone acts weird."Food." I look up confused. Have I been sitting here that long? "I was also thinking, we need someone watching over Mum." Grayson sits and holds out the food."If you think it's needed." I don't see why he would be bothered with our mum."Come on Emmett, if he struggles to get us alone or to get to us at all, he will go to Mum. He isn't exactly sane."He's not wrong there. The guy is weird as hell."Right, but she needs to be told Grayson. You know mum, she won't like it. She lived too much of her life living in fear." She will hate having
RavenWe get to the party, and Grayson stops me by the bikes. Here are the rules. I knew there would be rules, but I have a feeling these will be crazy."Go ahead." I stand waiting."All I am going to say is stay somewhere where there are people. This isn't me insinuating that you're going to go slip off with a guy, more you might want peace or you and Ava want a break, don't go away from the crowds Raven.""I won't, I'm not stupid. Oh and can you tell Jasper he is safe to fucking talk to me?" I glare at him and watch as he laughs."He didn't think you were worth it.""That is different, totally different. I'm going to go find Ava, and have a drink, one, because I don't want to crash and the bike die." I smile and he stops me."Be careful please, we will be walking around and checking on people, listening and things, so be careful." I nod at his words. I know he is worried because he won't always be there to watch over me."I promise, any issues I will scream, loud." Kissing his lips