The Void Screams Back

Jane's POV

" My day couldn't be better " I smiled enjoying the sunset. I closed my eyes and felt the breeze.

We were all at Granny's garden eating laughing just like before. Jaden ran towards me and started tickling me.

I couldn't stop laughing, tears forming as I laughed harder. There was music playing but I could see where it was coming from.

" Stop, stop it" I begged him. His expression suddenly changed.

He looked at me, sadness in his eyes." I'm sorry Jane " I was so confused.

" Why are you sorry Jaden " I looked around and everyone was gone, we were no longer in the garden we were in a dark room I can only see his face. 

I glanced back at my twin, his eyes tearing up." Wait, ...don't.. wait for me Jaden, do-don't go please ." I pleaded feeling like my chest was shrinking.

His face faded away into the darkness.

" Jaden come back, where are you, why can't you stay, PLEASE!!" I cried." Jaden" 

" Jane, wake up, baby wake up " Mom shook me awake.

" Mom he-he is gone" I tried telling her, my voice coming out rusty. " why can't I let it go, I can't even get these emotions to come out. I feel like crying all out, shout, scream but I can't, for some reason mom, I just can't " 

" Its gonna be okay" Mom kept me embraced in her arms. " You are strong my girl, the time will come where you will let go of this pain, it doesn't mean you've to forget all about him, it just means you'll be able to remember him without having to feel this pain" 

Mom went back to her room after I mellowed out. I sat by the window looking at the moon, my eyes not acknowledging the view.

" Wishing for something doesn't really make it true" I confessed. " I've been praying to move on but I can't bring myself out of this mess " 

" You must be pretty disappointed in me" I said smiling weakly." I occasionally think that you are in a better place you know!? Are you? So why does it hurt so much!? " 

I can still feel the emptiness of this place since you left, I swear that I can still see you coming back home and tease my lazy outfit. I still feel like heaven took you too soon, is it normal to feel like this even though it has been years? Or I'm going crazy. I swear it hurts like it was yesterday but with this hurt, I live.

Wishing that the world would stay quiet for a while, so I can drown my thoughts and once more smile to prove that I can be okay because is what everyone expects me to do. Am I right?

I looked at my phone and it was only 5 am " what a way to start a day" there goes my sleep.

I need something to occupy my mind, having these modules part-time is not helping, we barely have two classes a week, that is if we are lucky.

Woke up with a terrible headache, even bathing didn't help. I stood in front of the mirror trying to find the delighted girl I used to be, to conclude that she is long gone.

" Mom are you going somewhere" I asked when I reach the kitchen.

" Going to get some groceries, we invited an old friend, they will be here on Wednesday " she looked excited, well someone in this house needs to keep living.

" I can keep you company, but you have to drop me at Granny after. Deal?" I suggested.

" Young lady you got yourself a deal " she agreed. " But first I need to make breakfast for your father, we don't want daddy bear to starve " 

When we arrived at the mall, mom took a long list " Are we having a banquet or what? " I ask inspecting the long list.

" I won't have time for shopping from next week, I have several consultations booked " 

" I could always help, If you didn't notice, I'm amazingly free mom " I said smiling. 

We walked to the butchery section, she picked the different type of meat then looked at me."Lord forgive me for giving birth to such human being, that is so proud to increase the unemployment rate of this country "she affirmed exaggerating.

" I would love to do something, but is not like I'm done with college, I still need to graduate, and I don't see it happening so soon " 

" You don't need a fancy job, can be a part-time job" 

" Why would I want to work part-time mom? I can be busy doing nothing you know or, you can pay me for cooking if you want to" I chuckled.

" Did you ever tried looking for one? I would take you in again, but we don't want to repeat the previous incident, is better if you stay away from blood. " she said as we walked towards the fruits.

" Nop, but I'll look just to stop you from nagging at me every time you see me " 

" I'll talk to some friends to see if they have anything for you " she smiled as if she accomplished something.

" I don't want anything related to medicine mom " I grumbled." I would rather go with dad to work every day" 

" Is this favoritism I'm hearing? " she teased.

Since we walked in here I'd this feeling like someone was following us, I could swear a pair of eyes were on us this whole time. I turned around and there was no one I particularly knew, just random people shopping and talking, but this feeling wouldn't go away, It was making me anxious.

"Are you listening to me? " Mom snapped me out of my thoughts.

" What? Sorry, mom, I got distracted "

" Is something wrong?" 

" No, I just got carried away while thinking of something " I assured her.

" I said that I might as well just go with you to Lauren's place, I'll tell your father to meet us there for lunch " 

" I bet Granny will love it " 

" So let's grab something for lunch, I don't want to be inconvenient ".

We finish buying everything that was on the list and more, then we started packing everything in the car. There was a black car with smoked windows at the parking, I was getting bad vibes from it. I was glad when we finally got out of there.

Granny was so happy when she saw us, and Nora was there too. Mom and Granny kept themselves busy in the kitchen while I took Nora to help me water the plants. 

Dad showed up a few hours later he was just sitting in the garden reading a book. when the food was ready everyone moved inside.

" We'll go clean up all this dirt and we'll be back... Let's go, Nora " 

We both went to the guest room. " now, let's get you shining again " I gave Nora a quick clean up session that was almost mission impossible because her hair was entangled with the ribbon used to make the bun.

When we finally prevailed the obstacle, It was my turn. While she decided on what to wear from her pink bag.

" Did you choose what you want to wear a princess?" I asked looking for what to wear as well, choosing a black long sleeve dress.

" Yes, this one " she picked a yellow dress with few butterflies.

" Come here let me help you get in it" I helped her dress up." What do you want me to do with your hair, ponytail, top knots, double braids? " 

" What is a double braid? " she asked.

" Instead of one, you'll have two braids basically " I tried putting it in simple terms.

" I want double braids then "she giggled.

" Double braid it is then! "

" Sweety, who did your hair?" I ask while braiding her hair.

" Nik did it" she said cheerily as if proud to inform me." He only does my hair sometimes, most of the time daddy is the one, Ms. Kelly comes to work late so she can't do it, she is getting old you know? "

Wonder why it was a war zone. He was not only arrogant but also liked playing with the poor girl's image.

" What about your mommy ?" I asked.

" She is in heaven, with grandfather" she innocently replied making me regret asking.

"Sorry for that sweety " now I remember Granny's daughter was her mother. She used to be my mom's best friend.

" Nik says she is still watching us every day" she smiled.

" He is right" I kissed her forehead when I was done with her hair and we went downstairs.

" Something smells good. " I murmured when we reach the living room where everyone was already eating. We took the seats next to mom I served the first plate for Nora and then mine.

" Jane why aren't you eating your carrots" I looked down at the curious Nora. " Dad says that we need vegetables to grow "

" I don't eat because I'm already grown, I don't need them anymore, unlike you that still need to grow talker" I teased and everyone at the table started laughing. 

 Nora's brother come to pick her up, he didn't even bother to come in. When we also decided to go back, Dad gave me his car keys. He was going with mom so I was the chosen one to take his car home.

" When am I getting a car Dad?" I raised the question when we got home.

" Whenever you decide princess "

After getting the car that got Jaden killed from the police, no one touched it not even once. Dad sold it when he realized that it was unbearable to look at.

"Can it be next week, your wife is making me look for a part-time job, I don't want to take your car" I sadly informed him.

" You know that you don't have to work if you don't feel like it right?! " he said kissing my forehead.

"Did you just tell your daughter to be unemployed if she wants to Mr. Walker " Mom yelled from the kitchen.

" I would never to such thing honey " Dad assured her.

" Really Dad" I murmured.

" You know I can't confront her, but " he peeked to see if she was listening before whispering." You really don't have to" we both chuckled at our behavior.

Dad took me to choose a car as he promised. Hee kept nagging about me taking to long to choose so we decided on the white 2019 Porsche Panamera turbo. 

He paid for it and left me to finish signing the papers, and instructed what changes I wanted and luckily they said that it will be delivered in two days. Mom will have a heart attack when she sees it, I giggled at the thought. She already scolds Dad saying he spoils me too much when she sees the car she will go berserk.

The day for my baby to arrive was here, and I was so anxious to see my new car. I only had to submit an assignment and attend one class them I was done.

My class was dam boring, I mean who invented a three-hour class. I was so focused in the first hour, the second hour I was barely listening to what my lecturer was saying, in three hours' time my soul was already out there buying a burger for lunch.

After enduring a long queue I manage to get a milkshake and took a taxi to go home. To make my ride less boring I decided to text in the alien's group chat.

Me: hey guys what have you been up too.

Luke: Hey, busy comforting your friend.'.'

Me: what happened this time?

Wifey: Anna failed one of her modules again. >.<

Me: how is she holding up?

Luke: you should ask how am I, she is keeping me here since morning, listening to her regrets, I'm a student too you know?. It doesn't help if I fail a well.

Me: hahaha couple goals.

Wifey: hahaha that's right.

Anna: why have enemies if I have friends that at my most vulnerable turn their backs, let alone my boyfriend.

Wifey: we love you too drama queen.

Me: If you grace us with your forgiveness, I will let you be the first to ride in my new car, Anna.

Wifey: finally

Anna: why didn't you tell me about it, when did you get it?

Me: it will be here today...talk later I just got home, Love you *.*

" I'm home? " I yelled 

" Here" I followed mom's voice that was coming from the kitchen.

" What time did you get here?" I asked surprised." It's unusual for you to be here this time "

" Anyway, I'll be in my room, please let me know if anyone drops by with my new white baby" I smirked when I thought about how mom will react when she sees it.