Wishing They Were Real For a Day

Jane's POV

I felt the need to move back and forth without end, doing my best to shake off this anxiety. These walls have always been my refugee, but although I feel like I should stay, doesn't mean I shouldn't go.

 As I welcomed a new day, the first task was to send a few emails to Niklaus and asked Sarah to give me a day off.

Mom gave me the apartment's key her gloom didn't go unnoticed. I went to get Ailee and Annabelle luckily Luke was with her.

I didn't have to waste much energy mom already bought most of the furniture, I was basically just adding to it, even so, Annabelle bought things I didn't think I needed.

We literally tried to do things with the speed of light. Niklaus was coming back on Saturday, I wanted to move before that.

When we finished shopping I crawled back to Ailee's place. I didn't even bother to eat because my body was magnetized to her bed and I couldn't resist.

I woke up and everything seemed wrong.

The people trapped bellow the see-through floor didn't scare me, but I couldn't say the same about seeing myself hiding under the bed on the ceiling.

"Please put him back " She begged.

She cried repeating the same request over and over, I was still laying on my bed looking up at the scared girl.

" You can't keep him clamped to you. Please rebury him" her screaming made me turn abruptly to my left, where I found his corpse slumbered next to me. 

Shrinking away, my muscle became tense, eyes wide, lips opened but no sound could make past them, once again that feeling of my chest tightening took over.

Like a soft whispered I heard your voice "Wake up twin" 

But that voice suddenly changed " Jane, wake up!!"

" Luke??"

found myself pounding and sweating in Luke's arms, Ailee and Annabelle next to us.

With worry written on her tears, Annabelle caressed my hands" Are you okay? "

I tried standing up but my body didn't agree " Just a bad dream" 

" Not just a bad dream Jane, you were screaming, you wouldn't wake up. You still have nightmares about him, isn't it? " Luke asked concerned.

" I don't know why but I can't differentiate the nightmares from reality, it feels so real. I know I'm dreaming but I can't bring myself to wake up " I admitted.

" You need to go back to your therapy " Ailee suggested. I looked her way and nodded yes.

No one seemed to believe me." I promise when I get time I'll " I lied.

 I didn't mind having these nightmares if I could see him, but these days I feel terrified. I appreciate that they were concerned about me but this is not a subject I wanted to discuss.

" Now if you're done with the nagging, a group hug would be appreciated " I whined and they all hugged me.

Not caring about the classes in the morning we stayed up all night. We took a one hour nap before getting ready for classes. Believe me, no one was alive when we went to college.

I went back to my new apartment after the classes, the furniture arrived and I started unpacking and organizing the place when my aliens arrived with pizzas.

They entered the house after taking off their shoes and placing them on the shoe cabinet and walked in with the indoors slippers I'd in there. I bought a hundred of them just to be safe.

When entering a Korean home, you must remove your shoes doing any less is a sign of disrespect. I loved it so much when we went to Ailee's grandmother. She said " Dirty floor is intolerable " I agree so I wanted to cultivate that in my new home.

" Just what I needed " I growled taking one of the boxes Luke was holding.

" Like always " Annabelle smirked." while you eat I'll start unpacking those boxes.

" I don't know why you didn't want to move here," Luke said walking around the living room.

"I know right? I've been trying to get my parents to get me an apartment for years, even if it's just one room. Now, look at this!" Ailee murmured.

" let's get to work and talk less okay? we've got a lot to do " I groaned when I finished eating.

We assigned ourselves different tasks. Each one of us had to organize a different part of the house.

Luke took one of the rooms, I wanted it to have a masculine vibe although we pretty much did all the work, he kept asking what to do all the time.

The remaining rooms were for Annabelle and me, while Ailee was busy with the kitchen. I was glad Mom brought a few items of furniture here, otherwise, we would have been here for a whole year.

" Luke move this speaker there," Annabelle told him pointing at the corner.

Luke rolled his eyes obviously tired of moving the speaker back and forth." Make up your mind, would you? " 

" This living room looks too brownish and simple. Can I please add a few things? Jane remind me again why didn't we buy the pink pillows? " Annabelle said ignoring Luke's comment.

" One, I hate pink, and two I love the grey ones more " I explained smiling proud of our work.

" Can we stop now? I'm exhausted" Ailee whined throwing herself on the floor.

" We're practically done! The rest I'll finish some other time" I said checking every single detail in my new home.

" Thanks, guys it looks amazing," I said laying next to Ailee." Who is staying here today? " I asked. 

" Unfortunately we've to go, Annabelle has class early in the morning, I've to take her home " Luke informed.

" Ailee? Are you staying? " I asked and she nodded her hand yes.

" I'm going back home" I whispered knowing Ailee will kill me for leaving her here." I didn't get all my staff, so I've to go back. will be back tomorrow "

" Am I sleeping here, in your apartment alone? " She asked surprised.

" Yeah wifey, you're " I taunted.

"Okay, but you owe me one," She said standing up going in the kitchen.

I run upstairs to my room, took my car keys, and went to meet my aliens downstairs.

" I'll be going first. You guys take care and Ailee try not to break my house before I officially move in okay? " I joked making them laugh.

" Jane?! When did you get here? I didn't see you coming in " Mom said entering my room.

" I came late. I figured you guys were sleeping, didn't want to wake you up " I explained stretching up.

" What time is it," I asked my eyes still adjusting to the light coming through my window.

" 7 am " she informed opening the curtains. This woman and her habits.

" Did you guys manage to organize the apartment?" Mom asked sounding sad.

"Yeah, we did. Mom you don't have to worry about me, I can take care of myself " I assured her.

" I just don't want you to deal with those nightmares on your own " Mom was surely concerned.

"I'll get over it, so don't worry. Besides I'm grown now, you want your daughter to live under your skirt forever without a boyfriend " I teased trying to lighten the mood.

With a hopeful smile, she giggled " Is that your way of saying that you're planning to get a boyfriend "

" Will you stop worrying if I do? " I gasped.

" It will make me worry less if you've someone to take care of you, yes " Mom let out.

" I'll take your request into consideration, but for now I need to get cleaned up and finish packing up " I jumped hugging mom from behind.

" Okay, let me know if you need any help with the packing" she said walking out of the room.

I spent the day packing my things and organizing the room. Most of the things were staying here, mom said she wouldn't change a thing. I also packed things I wouldn't need anymore so mom could donate them.

Dad came home early and he found me cooking lunch.

Giving me a daddy bear hug he kissed my forehead " I thought you moved"

" You still have few hours to be annoyed by me dad " I giggled. 

" Lucky me " Dad whispered then went upstairs.

After eating, we were in the living room dad busy with some papers, while I leaned on his lap and mandated that he caressed my hair.

" I'll definitely miss this " I murmured.

" We're not going anywhere. You can always come back"

" I know dad."

" How is work and the classes going ?  "

" I'm handling them, I think I'm getting too comfortable in the company. Don't want to forget that is just a temporary thing" I confessed. 

"Let's worry about that later, right now just get the most out of this experience princess. "

" You know I always do" I said with confidence." Are you taking care of your health Mr. Walker?"

"With your mom always making me do those check-ups, I think I'm more than healthy " he said and we were both laughing when mom walked in.

" You home early honey" she told dad sitting next to me.

"I didn't have much to do today " he replied.

Mom took her shoes off her body seemed so tense. I took her legs and started massaging them.

" Thanks, darling" she said laying back.

I looked at my parents and realized how much I miss them even before moving out. I decided to move so they could start living for themselves, specifically mom. She is always worrying about me and I couldn't help to feel like maybe I'd to let others move on.

She once told me that she regrets not spending time with us when she had the chance, but I can't let her carry that guilt forever. I know she was just trying to make up for it but I think its time for her to live for herself. Like always I felt invisible tears escaping wishing they were real for a day.

I was leaving home with my feet, but not with my heart.

Ailee texted saying she was going to school and I'd to pick her up later so we go to my place together.

I called Granny to give her the news. She was happy but it didn't stop her from nagging about me not going to visit her anymore. I could blame Niklaus for it but as good samaritan I decided not to.

When it was getting late I packed the things in the car. I said my goodbyes and took off.

I went to get Ailee then we passed by the store to shop for groceries and head home.

I felt strange calling my new place home, I still need to get used to the fact that I was living on my own now.

When we arrived we made a few trips to get everything in the house. " I cook, you take these to your room ?" Ailee informed me not giving me a choice although I bet that in her mind it sounded like she asked a question.

"Okay "

After organizing everything I looked at the wall in front of me, where I placed a nail to accommodate pictures. Something is missing.

I stormed back in the room, went through every box I packed till I found what I was looking for.

I walked back, placed the big frame on the wall I was previously looking at.

"Welcome home Jaden "