Spade couldn't go back to his house, he didn't think he could stand staying there after what he just found out, he headed to the club immediately he left Nate's apartment.It had been almost 30 minutes since then and he had somehow managed to calm himself down, even though not completely, but he was now calm nonetheless, but that didn't mean he wasn't thinking about it.It was a betrayal and he was fucking thinking about it, and it was eating at him because deep down as much as he was trying not to think about him, he couldn't help it, he still loved Nate and it made it even hurt more.He clenched his jaw as he tightened his hand on the pen in his hand, he wanted to haul it at something, he wanted to punch something or someone very badly, but doing that would only end up in destruction of something or someone getting hurt.He sighed out deeply and looked up, his mind going around in circles, he had left the recorder at Nate's place, he didn't want to even look at it.Another reason wh
NathanSitting on the couch for the past hour and my mind has been blank, well not completely blank but what's the point?I've tried calling Matteo, not that he didn't pick up, of course he picked up but what I heard was not what I had wanted to hear.I know he already told me that he won't talk to Spade on my behalf and I totally understand him but I just wanted to try my luck one more time, at least before I give up.But it's not that easy to give up, not when I still love Spade so much, I haven't even been able to reach out to my sister but I know my father won't do anything to her, not after I've done what he wanted me to do.My hand move on it's own and landed on the gold piece Spade had given me a few weeks back, I fingered and caressed it, it felt like a long time ago that I was standing in the middle of his living room and he handed it to me.It's the only thing if him that I have, and as selfish as it sounds, I don't think I want to give it back.Him on the other hand wants n
Nate groaned out as he felt the heaviness settle in his head, his throat was completely parched and his vision was somewhat blurry, he shut his eyes, his head lolling back and forth.He was trying to steady his vision, at least to see where he was, he tried to move but his body seemed stiff, no not just stiff, but tied, like something was holding him down.And he knew he was lying on something soft, he could actually feel it's feathery touch in his hands, which were also tied, like they were bound to something.He opened his eyes and made a croaky sound from the deep ends of his throat before his vision finally started to clear up and he could see white ceiling up top.He moved his head, turning it slowly but fuck it was painful, his head ached.He was on a bed, in a room, he looked up and the room was fucking huge, wide with the door on the far right of the room, a tiny red door.There were no other doors in the room, just the one.He tried to look for something, anything that'll giv
SpadeI stood watching as both men landed their first on each other's face, hearing bones crack, I wondered which one of them was receiving the most blow, both had their faces bloodied and swollen, but it still didn't excited or amuse me one bit.Instead the more I watched, the more boring and plain it became, the others around me cheered though, while some just watched, grimacing once in a while if one of each men landed more punch than the other.I was trying to drown out their shouts and cheers, but if I did I'd just get swallowed up in my own thoughts and that was one of the main reasons why I started this in first place, to stop me from getting swallowed up in my thoughts.I hated that I couldn't keep it out of my head, that I couldn't keep him out of my head, and it was slowly turning into this uncontrollable rage that I couldn't understand.I wish I could just unlove him just as quickly as I had fallen for him, but even I knew it wasn't that easy.I was stuck like this, maybe i
NathanI had been locked up for a long time now, okay maybe not a long time, but the lack of windows in the room I was kept in has kind of made it almost impossible for me to determine how long I've been locked up in here.But in the time I've been here I've come to analyze and understand how things run here, I've even come to understand their routine.And that man has always been around to threaten me about what he intends to do to me.I don't like saying his name, because it doesn't help make me feel any better about being here.I have no idea what's going on in the outside world, I don't know if Spade even noticed I'd gone missing, or even Matteo, or even my own father.I sigh out as I get up and start pacing the room, even if they know I'm missing, I don't think this man would make it any easier for them to find me, seeing as I don't even know where I'm being kept, for all I know I could be in another country, or another continent for that matter.But whatever the odds, I couldn't
He lit the cigarette as he took a huge deep breath, inhaling a very big part of the smoke, before breathing out through his mouth, watching the clouds of smoke pass out and scatter into mist in the air.He felt the hotness in his veins and the sweet smell of nicotine in the air, he knew he was probably already looking like shit by now, but he didn't care how he looked, what was the point anyway?There was absolutely no reason for him to try and look better.He felt even worse than he looked, he felt dead, lost and so fucking aimless.He didn't even really know if he was living or just surviving at this point His life was pretty boring and lonely before he met Nate, but it was worse now.Now he was miserable, heart broken and worst of all, he still couldn't admit that he hated Nate.He can never hate the young man even if he tried, and that was even worse than the heartbreak he was feeling.He ran his hands down his face, looking around his office once more.The bottles of whiskey on
Spade narrowed his eyes at her as she uttered those two words, waiting for her to say something else, but when she didn't, he took it upon himself to speak."How is that my business"? He asked blankly, and he heard Matteo growl out beside him"Gio" he called warningly and Spade just sighed out"Go on" he muttered, hating that Matteo was doing this to him, he didn't want to know if Nate was missing, for all he knows it might be a ploy by Nate and his sister, to have him running back to Nate, like a knight in shining armor."I think my father knows where he is" she added making him cock his brows at her in question"I don't see your point" he said in a bored tone and Matteo groaned out again, making him just sigh out, already knowing what Matteo was trying to do and he hated that he had to listen to the blondeThe girl sighed out again, her eyes moving from Matteo to Spade "you still don't get it do you"? She asked, almost making him roll his eyes at her, she was actually the one that r
NathanI groaned as I tried to move my body, my eyes were shut tight and a part of my face felt as though it was ran over, and my whole body felt the same, like a train had ran over me.I couldn't even move as i felt all my bones crack underneath my skin, I opened my eyes slowly and was met with white blinding lights, I quickly shut my eyes again, groaning out loud.God I felt like crap, my head was pounding and my wrists were stinging like hell, I knew I was bound to the something again, but to what, it felt soft so I was guessing it was a bed.I slowly opened my eyes again and tried to adjust it to the light, my face still felt crampy and it hurt like a bitch, slowly and surely my memory started returning as I remembered shooting someone, that man that would bring me meals in the room I was kept in.And then I ran, only to be stopped by some equally huge men who ended up beating the crap out of me until I passed out, and now I'm up again, only to realize that this wasn't a sick joke