Chapter 1 Another forbidden

Avant is in her late twenties, a woman who came from a prominent family in North London. I can sense that this body is not happy to live her life. Maybe that’s the reason why I woke up to take over her identity for God knows how long! I exclaimed out of frustration. I just came from a war last night I was a soldier the other day who fought in a battle against Russia. The body that I have taken care of was owned by a cowardly soldier he has been in love with the other guy who’s also a coward like him and he even used women to cover up his real self what a pathetic mortal.

His body died and maybe that was the reason why I have to switch to another body again. For decades of jumping from body to body one thing I figured is that when I accomplished something or helped the person I have taken over with, that’s the cue that I have to leave. It was like hitting two birds with one stone. I help them and they help me too in the sense that I used their bodies to find my inamorata.

How far are you willing to go for love? Don’t ask me because I have been wandering around the world to find her.

“Lady Avant your father summoned you.” A chamber lady spoke on my door.

“These maidens are going to prepare for your bath Lady Avant,” she added and the girls went to me, and before I could say anything they started to undress me. Fucks.

“What the fuck! The water is so cold!” I screamed but the girls just eyed me with a questioning look. Avant, you are a weirdo. Who wants to have a negative 5-degree shower early in the morning?

“Hey, can you do it faster I’m going to die of hypothermia.” I screamed again shivering.

“My apology Lady Avant.” The shorter girl said as they began to bathe me. It’s so weird how can this lady let other people bathe her. But I can’t tell them to halt to avoid suspicions. Damn this.

They dressed me in a royal blue long attire it has thick fabric and embroidered with sequence and stuff this is so girly far from the soldier get up. That’s the only get-up I liked so far. My hair was pulled into a stylish bun with beads I’m liking it this time, huh but I hate that they put some makeup on me. Fucks! I realized that I’m into an old timeline again maybe between the 1980s or something. Based on what I wear and the environment Avant’s memory is hard to read. I can only grasp a few like her feelings and the things she is used to. This archaic woman is a weirdo though I feel she is kind and her kindness is the one that makes her be easily manipulated. Being the only daughter of a rich man, her family is expecting big from her. Poor child.

“My lovely daughter come let us have our food. Your mother will be enthusiastic as I am to see our child who has grown into a beautiful lady.” Avant’s father holds my hand and kissed it. She got her looks from her father I can say, they look really the same.

“You look, uh well-shaved father,” I said and put every meal I find delicious in my mouth. He cleared his voice and was about to say something but I went to the table fast.

“These are delicious! gosh, I am so hungry come on let’s eat!” my mouth is still full and I was about to get another but I stopped on my track because Avant’s father was gaping his mouth open and he look like having a heart attack at any moment.

Shit! I forgot Avant is a prim and proper lady. I immediately grab the napkin and wiped my face.

“My apology father it’s just that my hungry stomach longs for a delicious meal.” I try to make my voice sweet as Avant.

“It’s fine my darling. I was just surprised with your vocabulary and your peasant-like attitude.” He still looks puzzled. I smiled shyly. Fucks this body will be the death of me.

Father I mean Avant’s father and I went for stroll in their spacious garden I can’t hide my excitement upon seeing the different plants and flowers. I used to be a botanist before that’s why I am familiar with all these. His father cleared his throat again. What’s with the clearing of throats it annoys me gosh.

“Sebastian Phillip is going home. Your brother will stay with us a little longer,” he said.

I tried to wander on her memory but it was blurry does she hate this person I see black and blurry and nothing else and I felt the pain the moment his father uttered the name. Something fishy huh.

“Why the sudden father?” I answered safely.

“I already told you the news days ago darling?” I thought I answered safely.

“Maybe I was not on my full attention that time.” I chuckled which made him laugh.

“As I was saying. I want you to do me a favor to decorate the house and help in preparing his favorite meals.”

“Can you do it then?”

“Sure. Sure, father. I would love to.” I faked my smile. Of all the bodies I have taken over there was no cook, unfortunately.

“I am confident that what happened in the past will stay in the past.” He look at me with a serious face and kissed my cheek and left. You better spare me some of your memories.

I tried concentrating so I can fetch another more of Avant’s memory this lady is stubborn I want to slap the shit out of her. As the years went by one thing that I mustered is the art of being patient. Maybe I have to be a patient for a little while to get her memories. The real owner of these bodies are just like sleeping but their subconscious is awake that’s why the moment I leave they will just think they have been in a fantastic dream but some of them died just like the soldier from last night I had to give him a favor to be himself before he ran out of oxygen on his lungs and finally at one last time he was able to proclaim his genuine love to his secret lover that moment I envied them how can they leave this world together while I’m still lost on this vast surface of the earth looking for her.

“This is so unfair fucks!” I shouted and my voice echoed in the halls. We have been decorating this for the grand arrival of God knows who.

Are you alright my lady?” a servant asked.

“Who is this man? And what is my relation to him?” maybe this young servant can answer me without being suspicious.

“Lady Avant he is your brother.” the young one bowed her head. She is so young to be a servant what in a world.

“I’ve been told that he is Avant’s brother but I know there is something more about this guy.” I chuckled at how the young maid looked at me like I’m sort of a meathead.

“Forgive me my lady that’s all I know” she smiled innocently.

“Let’s just go back with our chores then.”

Finally, the day has come the mysterious guy will arrive sooner but still, this lady has been blocking her memories of this guy. How can I help her through? The mansion is lively and their father has been dragging the life out of me to introduce me to his comrades. Men are eyeing Avant’s body like a piece of meat. I have been into a 21st-century timeline wherein I took over a ten-year-old girl. Her face was so sad at a young age that she has to experience abuse from her own people. My stay on her body was quite longer than I used to in that timeline I was able to observe the modern era the act of lasciviousness is still prevalent there. I glared at those men you filthy creatures!

“Welcome back Phillip!” everyone chanted and toasted for him except me I stayed in a corner. This guy has good genes huh. Tall and lean frame his eyes met mine and I saw longing, desperation, and passion that’s the cue wherein Avant’s memory is starting to give me a clearer picture.

So, this man is his half-brother and they settled on an affair years ago. Fucks incest! I covered my mouth and decided to hide I panicked when I saw him coming. Great Avant I feel like I’m still the guy, the soldier guy who likes guys too for peter’s sake!

“Avant. My dear Avant. How long are you going to run away from me?” he caught my arm and whispered in my ear. Fucks this is so gross.

“You left me. How dare you say that!” oh that’s the line that Avant has been practicing on her mind. So I have to say it out loud

“Father made me do it. I suffered too, my love.” He pleaded and held both of my cheeks.

“Are you out of your fucking mind! Don’t make up stories bro you dimwit” I said out loud trying to get away from him. I saw fragments of her memory Avant saw this guy sleeping with someone, it’s still blurry but I know it was this guy.

How could he make up the story and worst talk ill of their own father?

“Avant your language does not suit you. When did you learn to cuss that much?” there was sadness in his eyes. Oh boy.

“Phillip, my son are you still this disrespectful?” the father came furious. This guy immediately let go of me. Where are your balls huh? I’m torn between Avant’s heart and doing what I think is right.

“Father we are just talking. Please don’t put malice on what you have witnessed.” Phillip said in a low voice and bowed his head.

“I welcomed you into my house. You have to show me some respect son.” Father held my arms and we made our way to the exit.

“You’re hurting me old man!” I exclaimed Avant’s body is so small her porcelain skin can be easily bruised with his tight grip. As much as possible I don’t want to inflict damage on my host’s body.

“My darling since you woke up the other day your language is filthy. Your actions came worse!” he snapped at me. Fucks how can I tame his monsters now. Avant’s father is a manipulator. She has loved this man but sadly her love for his father is not enough for them to get accepted.

“I thought you already understand that you are bound to marry someone else and not your own brother!”

“We did not grow up together father! We never knew we are blood-related when we started to love each other! Five long years father he is still the one that my heart longs.” I uttered what Avant want to tell her own father but she never dares to speak. Now I’m giving her courage. Watch me Avant

“But you pained my heart, Phillip. I gave everything to you! But you’re a monster I can never accept you again.

Phillip came running towards me. Their father is about to slap me but Phillip was able to cover me.

“I can no longer let you imprison her. We have enough of you father” he angrily spat.

“You! Insolent child! How could you!” father gritted his teeth.

“Come here my darling. Don’t leave your father.” His face softens when he turned to me.

“No. I will not follow your orders like I’m one of your pawns. You never treated me fairly. You think I will not know that you sold me to the duke!?”

“Please, take Avant with you. She wants to run away from here. She is planning to kill herself.” I faced him pleading.

“What are you saying Avant?” they both looked at with their lost eyes.

“Take me with you, but it doesn’t mean we’ll be together again after what you’ve done! At least help me so I’ll find it in my heart to forgive you!”

I have to paraphrase gosh this man is so dense. I looked at their father he weeps and fall to his knees. He held my hands and cried.

“Forgive me my darling. Forgive me.” Now it’s time to let Avant wake up so that she’ll be the one to forgive his father.

Now the case is solved. I have to be in someone’s body again. With one last glance, Avant forgave his father in an instant.

She wants her freedom and at last, she’s one step towards her heart’s desire.

Until then Avant. I smiled and disappeared with the cold wind.