Chapter Nineteen

        Ano pa bang hindi ko alam tungkol kay Zaccheus? He owned a lot of casinos in the country and he also had a successful distillery business worldwide according to Anita. What else do I not know about my own husband? I knew we should talk about our arrangement again but after what happened yesterday in his bedroom.

Napakawalang-hiya ko nga. That was even worse that physical punishment. Not only he humiliated me, I also humiliated myself. In conclusion, I'm not ever going to leave my room ever again.

Why was I ashamed anyway? He's my husband and sex was our agreement to impregnate me. I was a prostitute, it's a normal thing to do even when there's nothing romantic going on between us. Kung magpapakatotoo ako sa sarili ko, ginusto ko 'yon. At nagagalak din akong hinawakan niya na ako sa wakas.

Pero hindi niya tinapos ang inumpisahan niya. I wasn't ashamed that I wanted him, I was ashamed that he stopped and let me finish what he started with my fingers