When the bell rang signalling the start of first period, I quickly grabbed my things and hurried to my first morning class, Math. Don't get me wrong. I neither like nor hate it, it's just simply a coexistence.
I took my usual seat at the front of the class and watched as the other students filed in quickly and took their seats as well.
"Alright class," Mr. Finn spoke with his scratchy voice. "We have a new student joining us but I'm not quite sure where he is."
"Moving on, today we shall look at the basic principles of Calculus and I hope you are all familiar with those concepts as I told you to go through chapter 3 yesterday," he said and received groans from the rest of the class while I just sat there smiling to myself.
Mr. Finn went on to explain about the first principle and how we should utilise it whilst I sat there quietly and scribbled away everything he was saying. After forty-five long minutes of him trying to explain, the bell rang and everyone dashed out of the class at such speed you'd think they all won the lottery or something.
I went to my next class, Civic Ed and took a seat waiting for Kai and Jake to show up. The class began to fill up but there was still no sign of them, heck I would have even preferred if Nick showed up. Otherwise, I'd just look like a complete fool doing her group assignment all alone.
Ms. Thompson came into the classroom a few minutes later and told everyone to go to their respective groups.
"Alexis where are your group members?" she asked when she noticed that I was all by myself while everyone else was with their partners.
"I don't know Ms. They said they would be here today so we could start the assignment but maybe something held them up," I said trying to convince her. Why? I didn't know.
"Alright then, just don't do the whole assignment alone," Ms. Thompson said and went to her desk where she pulled up her laptop and began typing away.
This is just great, the second day of school and already they are nowhere to be found.
I did a bit of the assignment alone before the bell rang and then I was off to the rest of my morning class.
The morning classes seemed longer than they were the previous day and not once did I spot Kai, Jake or Nick in any of the classes we shared together, which was nearly all of them except Math.
Lunch time rolled up and I made my way to the cafeteria where Asher and his football friends were sitted.
"Hey!" I said as I took a seat next to Steph.
"Hey Alexis," Parker, Evan and Steph said at the same time.
Drake and Rick were busy arguing about something that happened during their football practice. "You should have passed me the damn ball," Drake whined with his nostrils flared.
"I did, but you're just too slow," Rick said as he took a bite from his sandwich.
"Whatever!"
"Stop being annoying, both of you," Asher said. "Al I got you some chips, hope that's okay?"
"Yeah, it's okay."
The rest of lunch passed with Drake and Rick arguing nonstop. These two always argue about the most bizarre things.
I got up, said my goodbyes to everyone and made my way to study hall.
"Al wait," Asher said and I stopped so he could catch up with me. "Do you wanna hang out after school today like the old times?"
"Sure, just don't ditch me if you have football practice again."
Asher laughed. "Nah I won't, coach said we have the day off so I'm free."
I turned to look at him, "what about Steph," I asked, "she is your girlfriend after all."
"I told her we'd do something together this Friday," Ash waved it off, "besides, she's got a student council meeting or something like that."
"Fine then, just wait for me when school ends, okay?"
Asher nodded and went to his afternoon class while I went to study hall as my timetable said I had no classes in the afternoon.
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When school ended, I went by Asher's white SUV and waited for him. Moments later he came out with Steph and Parker.
"Dude can I get a ride? My car's in the shop," Parker asked.
"Sure, but you're sitting in the back."
Parker nodded and leaned against Asher's car. "Hey Alexis, don't mind if I tag along, do you?"
"Of course not."
"You know Asher really cares for you right?"
"Yeah I know that," I said rolling my eyes at him.
Asher and Steph stood at a safe distance and said their goodbyes before Ash gave her a quick kiss and jogged towards us.
Parker ran a hand through his hair, "no I mean-"
"What are you guys talking about?" Asher asked when he was standing in front of us.
"Nothing, just casual talk," Parker said slinging his hand around my shoulder with a smirk on his face.
I saw Asher clench his jaw, "watch it Michaels, that's my best friend you're talking about."
"What are you gonna do about it Daniels?" Parker furrowed his left eyebrow.
Asher unlocked the car and I got in the passenger seat while Parker and Asher stood talking in hushed voices before they both got in.
The drive to Parker's house was filled with an eerily silence that no one dared to break, not even the radio was playing. We dropped Parker off and he waved and smiled at me before closing the door.
Asher looked angry for some reason and I couldn't take the silence anymore. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing, I'm fine."
The ride to his house felt uncomfortable like I shouldn't be there, "Can you just take me home?"
"No, it's nothing, it's just Parker being annoying as usual," Ash said as we sat in the car in front of his house. "C'mon, let's go."
We entered the house and I took a seat on the huge couch that faced the huge flat screen TV in their living room. I knew his house like the back of hand as I spent a lot of time here when I was growing up. It was like my second home.
"I'm ordering pizza and then we'll watch a movie," Ash said.
I stood up and searched through the movie collection and came up with The Fault In Our Stars. I hadn't watched it before so I thought why not?
He came back moments later with the pizza and took a seat beside me, "what movie did you pick?"
"The Fault in Our Stars," I said to which he made a disgusted face. "What? I haven't watched it and I heard it's nice."
We eat whilst watching and to say I liked the movie would be a complete lie. I didn't find it that interesting, heck I only liked how bold Augustus Waters was and that's basically about it.
"Remind me never to watch that ever again," I said as the credits rolled and the pizza box long forgotten.
"Told you."
Ash shifted so he was completely facing me. "Hey Alexis, can I ask you something?"
"Okay."
"What's up with that Nick guy? I mean why's he so rude?"
I tried to find something to say but I came up blank, "beats me, I just met the guy yesterday and I already have a feeling he hates me."
"He's a dick."
"A jerk."
"A douche bag."
"A complete Arsehat."
Asher cackled at that, "man you're spending so much time with me you're starting to curse," he said.
"Maybe I should just stop hanging out with you altogether and find new friends," I said with a smug smile.
"Oh please! You need me just as much as I need you and you are afraid of coming out of your little cute shell," he said as he poked my cheek. "Besides, we've known each other for all our lives so it makes sense that you can't live without me."
"Whatever."
THE WEEK PASSED by in a blur and still, there was no sign of Kai, Jake and Nick. I was starting to get worried and not for them, it was the mere thought that I would be stuck doing the Civic Ed assignment all on my own. Not that I couldn't do it, but still.The hallways were abuzz with student chit-chat as I made my way to the school library. I heard my phone vibrate through my jean pocket and I took it out to see who would text me whilst at school.It was a text from Mum saying I had a doctor's appointment later in the afternoon.Sighing, I typed a quick okay before stashing my phone back into my pocket.I spent the rest of my morning in the library studying as I waited for lunch to roll up. And when it finally did, I packed my things and went to the school parking lot to wait for her to come pick me up."Alexis," I heard Asher's voice a few metres from where I stood.I turned to see him jogging toward me all sweaty. "Where are
SATURDAY WAS THE earliest I'd ever woken up before as the excitement was overwhelming. I couldn't sleep the whole night as I kept tossing and turning-trying to push the thoughts away from my mind but I couldn't.I got up and took a warm shower before throwing on a pair of sweatpants and a sweatshirt with some sneakers. I pulled my hair into a quick braid and quickly texted Asher finding out if he was still coming before going downstairs where I heard chatter."Morning," I chirped taking a seat next to James."Someone's happy," he commented from his seat at the kitchen island while mum was busy making breakfast."Can't I be happy for no particular reason?"James pierced his bottom lip in thought. "Nope. Knowing you then there's obviously a catch," he said smugly.I rolled my eyes at him, "you're just jealous."James laughed, "me? Jealous of my kid sister? Oh please.""Enough," mum said smile plastered on her face. "Can you two just quit
SPENDING MY SUNDAY holed up in my room wasn't something I wanted to do. After my confession yesterday, I tried texting Asher multiple times apologising and asking him to hear me out but I got no reply. And James on the other hand hadn't come out of his room the entire time which was something I didn't expect from him considering how the boy loved food.I sighed, this was my own doing and I had to fix it immediately. I couldn't have both my brother and best friend mad at me simply because I made my choice about my life-which I knew they just wouldn't understand why I did it in the first place."Honey you need to come out of your room and eat something," dad's voice sounded outside my door.I groaned and pulled the duvet further up my head. "I'm not hungry," I shouted.I heard dad sigh before there was a soft click and then a creek as the door opened. I still didn't pull the duvet off even when I felt the bed dip as dad sat down."I know you don't wan
MONDAY IS USUALLY one of the days that I look forward to the most as it's always the start of a new school day, but not today. Today I was anxious about seeing Asher again and wondering if he would even talk to me considering I left him countless voicemails and texts asking him to talk but all went answered.I walked to my locker with the hopes of spotting Asher there but I was only disappointed when I didn't see him standing there waiting for me. I sucked it in, grabbed my books and made my way to Physics class. At least learning about Gravity, Momentum and Kinematics would help distract me from my thoughts.The morning classes went by in a blur with me mostly spacing out of each and every class I had. I could not, by the life of me stop thinking about Asher. And no, it wasn't because I was secretly in love with my childhood best friend, but more so the fact that I had potentially pushed away the only friend I had."Alexis what is the answer here?" Mrs. Briggs ask
TODAY WAS GOING to be different. I didn't why or how, but I just knew something was going to happen that broke my usual everyday boring routine.I didn't know what it was but something felt different. I got to my Math class and took my usual seat at the front. Yes, I wear spectacles and sit at the front of all my classes, that doesn't mean anything. It just simply means that I prefer being in front so I can actually see what's happening.Mr. Finn was sitted at his desk going over some papers. "Good morning Alexis!" he said as he looked up from his papers. I smiled in return and took out my notebook and textbook.The other pupils began filing in and the last one to walk in was Nick. What, Nick?Mr. Finn clasped his hands together, "ah yes the new student I was talking about last week is here, care to introduce yourself young man?"All the girls were already beginning to swoon over him and I wouldn't blame them. He was dressed in black wash jeans, a g
THE WIND WAS blowing my hair in every direction and the adrenaline that was pumping through my blood was amazing. I don't remember the last time that James took me riding because it almost feels like a life time ago. But now, as I sat behind Jake tightly clutching onto his torso-I felt like the whole world was moving too fast, like nanobots and before I knew it, we were pulling up into the very familiar driveway.I hopped off and took the helmet off, making sure to give it back to Jake as I slung my rucksack over my left shoulder.Kai and Nick pulled up beside us and took off their helmets before placing them on their motorcycles and finally walking up to Jake and I."Come on let's go," I said before turning around and walking to the front door. I pulled my keys out of my jean pocket and unlocked it."Dad are you home?" I shouted as I passed over the threshold."In the kitchen pumpkin," dad shouted back.I looked back at the three guys stand
I COULDN'T SLEEP the whole night. I kept tossing and turning as beads of sweat formed on my forehead. I knew I should have taken my medication but I didn't. In fact, I had poured it all down the toilet earlier with the hopes of my mum not finding out that I decided to stop taking my medication all together.I wasn't quite sure if it was the lack of medication, the lack of sleep or the fact that I was feeling queasy over Nick's new reaction towards me. Should I be happy that he at least is starting to be nice to me? I didn't know.When I did finally manage to fall asleep, it was past three in the morning and I didn't get any sleep as the stupid alarm clock decided it was the right time to blur it's annoying tune.I groaned and pulled the duvet over my head once more and went back to sleep.Minutes later, the duvet was being yanked away by someone. "You better wake up now or so help me I will drag your arse out of bed," the sweet voice of my mum spoke.
I SPENT THE night in hospital and when morning came I couldn't be happier to get out of there. Hospitals remind me of death and all the loss and heartbreak that people go through in them.When Dr. Dave came to release me, I was already dressed in the clean fresh clothes that we left out for me."I can see you're in a hurry to leave," he joked."Honestly, I'd rather be at school than in here," I said pointing around the room for emphasis. "It's so depressing, though the pastel gives it a bit of life."Dr. Dave chuckled. "You wouldn't be here in the first place if only you had followed the rules," he said and I rolled my eyes at him. "Your mum is waiting for you outside," he said."Thanks."We walked out of the room together heading towards the main entrance in silence but I knew he wanted to say something. Though I didn't know what it would be."I'll see you for your monthly check up," he said. "And please do try to take care of yourself beca
N I C KSIX WHOLE MONTHS, that was long how it had been since Alexis passed and each day hurt more than the last. I felt utterly lost without her."Nick hurry up, Kai and Jake are already here and you don't want to be late for your own graduation," mum shouted from the kitchen.I sighed as I took one last look at myself in the bathroom mirror before I made my way to the kitchen."You look so handsome and grown up," mum cooed as I entered the kitchen.I rolled my eyes and joined everyone at the kitchen table and sat down next to Leah. I poured myself some orange juice and placed a few chocolate chip pancakes on my plate."I'm wearing the same outfit I always wear each day except for this stupid cap and gown.""Which I'm totally rocking by the way," Kai beamed as he stuffed mum's chocolate chip pancakes into his mouth and moaned. "I love your cooking Hailee, maybe I should think of moving in with you guys."Jake and I rolled our eyes whi
N I C KAFTER I LEFT, Alexis was dragged on a gurney to the operating room and I prayed-tried to anyway, that all would go well and I'd be able to hold her again in my arms and kiss her once again.Everyone was sitted in the hospital waiting room with gloomy expressions waiting for any type of news-news that wouldn't break them even more than they already were from not knowing."Dude relax," Kai said as he placed a hand on my shoulder. "Pacing like that won't do anything other than tire you out."I didn't realise that I had been pacing back and forth until he pointed it out. I sighed and took a seat next to Asher who had his head hung low in his hands."How are you holding up?" I asked him.I honestly need to find something to distract myself otherwise I might just barge in there and see what the hell was happening to her.Asher raised his head and stared at me blankly. "My best friend is in there and I can't do anything but sit here and wai
N I C KI HAD BEEN dreading this moment ever since I knew it was a possibility. I didn't want anything to happen to Leah, she was the only sibling I had left after Kayla passed and she was all mum had. But more importantly, I did not want to have to lose Alexis after I just got her.I had spent a huge amount of time researching SCD and how to treat it but each time it always led to a negative finding. The older you are, the riskier it is to have a successful bone marrow transplant. The odds were against her and that, that just broke me because I loved her. And to make matters worse, I didn't tell her I loved her when she said it to me.Sighing, I opened the door Dr. Dave had pointed me to and saw mum sat next to Leah who was stretched out on the small hospital bed."Hey!""Hey!" Leah smiled, "how's your girlfriend holding up?" she asked.My mum rolled her eyes at her statement. "Stop trying to rail your brother up," she chastised her."Gee I
THERE WAS A loud beeping sound that I kept hearing and I wasn't sure what it was. I tried opening my eyes but I couldn't, it felt like they were glued together with superglue or sewed shut.I tried lifting my hand to rub my eyes but there was someone holding on to it with an iron like grip.Am I dead already? Is this how being dead feels like? This is not the way I wanted to go, my subconscious said.No of course I'm not dead. Because if I was, then I wouldn't be talking to my subconscious right? Right.I pushed myself harder until my eyes finally opened and I looked around to see that I was still in my hospital room. The thing making the beeping noises was the heart monitor I was plugged to. A sigh of relief fell from lips because I wasn't died....yet.I rolled around and saw Nick sleeping on one of the chairs in a very uncomfortable position as he clutched onto my hand with a firm grip. His usually perfect hair looked dishellved and my heart clutched
FOUR MORE DAYS, that was how much time I had until the surgery. I dreaded each passing moment because the pessimistic side of me kept telling me that I wouldn't make it and I was only fooling myself by believing.Asher came over whenever he didn't have football practice or a football match and we hung out a lot. He would bring some of my school work and we'd do it together. Sometimes, he would even tell me how his relationship with Steph was going and how sometimes he just couldn't stand her clinginess. He also told me how the football guys missed me a lot and sent their well wishes.James moved back home full time and spent his mornings with me before he would drive back to his lectures which was a sweet gesture. But I hated the fact that he had to drive four hours to and from school each day. Each time he came over I would tell him he didn't have to move back but he only dismissed me with a wave of the hand and he would tell me it was no big deal.On the othe
WE SPENT THE next few minutes in silence just wrapped up in each other and not saying anything. I was glad that we didn't need words in order to know what exactly each was feeling or wanted to say."Do you think we should read now?" I asked. "Or maybe later?"Nick shrugged but nodded nevertheless. "Yeah I think we should do that otherwise I might not be able to keep my hands to myself any longer," he said with a smirk as I got out of his hold."Seriously!" I exclaimed."I'm a growing hormonal teenage boy, it's not so hard to believe I have such thoughts," he replied with a casual shrug and ran a hand through his hair.I couldn't believe he just said that and he had no remorse whatsoever. I shook my head and grabbed my book from the ground as I opened it up to the first page."Do you even like reading?" I asked as he picked up his book and began reading."I'm not obsessed with it like you are, but, I do enjoy a good book once in a while," he
"RISE AND SHINE sleeping beauty," Nick's voice said waking me up from my peaceful slumber."Get up, get up," he continued and opened the hospital curtains allowing the sunlight to stream through the entire room and nearly blind me.I quickly covered my eyes with my hands. "Leave me alone and close those bloody curtains, it burns," I whined."Stop whining and get up," he pestered. "You've been asleep for two days and I've missed you like crazy."At that, my eyes snapped open just to have me quickly shut them again. "Hand me my glasses."Instead of handing me the glasses like I assumed he would, he gently put them on my face for me. "There you go love," he said with a fake British accent.I rolled my eyes as I sat up and leant my back on the wall. "Before I say anything about what you just said, let's rewind a little shall we?""Whatever you say love.""I was out for two whole days?" I asked. "Explain."Nick took off his boots and
THERE STOOD NICK with a huge I'm Sorry banner hung above his head and another one that read You've Got A Donor beside it. There were different coloured balloons that were hung on the tree branches."Surprise!" James and Asher whispered in my ear as they went over and joined everyone else.I couldn't believe my eyes. Was I dreaming? Because it sure felt like it and the worst thing was that I didn't want to ever wake up if it turned out to be a dream.Everyone was gathered there: my parents, Dr. Dave, Sara, Lisa, Hailee, Leah, Riley, Kai and Jake. I couldn't really believe that they all went out of their way to tell me I had found a donor."Alexis!" Nick muttered as he walked up to me and stood a considerable amount away. "I'm sorry I didn't return any of your calls or texts but this," he said as he gestured to everything around, "was what James and I were busy planning for you and I know it's not an excuse but we got Asher, Kai and Jake to be there for you whe
I WAS OFFICIALLY back on chemo and I felt better, or as better as someone on chemo felt. I felt more relieved than I ever thought I'd be to be back on it. I honestly thought I'd hate it and call quits but I didn't.My parents were very happy to find out I was going back on treatment and mum cried for hours. I hoped James would have come along with them but he didn't and that hurt. Though I knew I deserved it and had to work hard to earn his forgiveness.It had been three days since Nick left and I tried calling him but his phone always went straight to voicemail. I even left him countless text messages asking him to come over so I could explain myself and tell him the good news but he never once answered any of them. I was beginning to lose hope but I knew better."Stop over-thinking things," Asher said as he leant on the doorframe with his hands and legs crossed. "They'll both come around. Plus, you've got visitors so be nice or try for them anyway," he said and t