I sighed, this was my own doing and I had to fix it immediately. I couldn't have both my brother and best friend mad at me simply because I made my choice about my life-which I knew they just wouldn't understand why I did it in the first place.
"Honey you need to come out of your room and eat something," dad's voice sounded outside my door.
I groaned and pulled the duvet further up my head. "I'm not hungry," I shouted.
I heard dad sigh before there was a soft click and then a creek as the door opened. I still didn't pull the duvet off even when I felt the bed dip as dad sat down.
"I know you don't wan
MONDAY IS USUALLY one of the days that I look forward to the most as it's always the start of a new school day, but not today. Today I was anxious about seeing Asher again and wondering if he would even talk to me considering I left him countless voicemails and texts asking him to talk but all went answered.I walked to my locker with the hopes of spotting Asher there but I was only disappointed when I didn't see him standing there waiting for me. I sucked it in, grabbed my books and made my way to Physics class. At least learning about Gravity, Momentum and Kinematics would help distract me from my thoughts.The morning classes went by in a blur with me mostly spacing out of each and every class I had. I could not, by the life of me stop thinking about Asher. And no, it wasn't because I was secretly in love with my childhood best friend, but more so the fact that I had potentially pushed away the only friend I had."Alexis what is the answer here?" Mrs. Briggs ask
TODAY WAS GOING to be different. I didn't why or how, but I just knew something was going to happen that broke my usual everyday boring routine.I didn't know what it was but something felt different. I got to my Math class and took my usual seat at the front. Yes, I wear spectacles and sit at the front of all my classes, that doesn't mean anything. It just simply means that I prefer being in front so I can actually see what's happening.Mr. Finn was sitted at his desk going over some papers. "Good morning Alexis!" he said as he looked up from his papers. I smiled in return and took out my notebook and textbook.The other pupils began filing in and the last one to walk in was Nick. What, Nick?Mr. Finn clasped his hands together, "ah yes the new student I was talking about last week is here, care to introduce yourself young man?"All the girls were already beginning to swoon over him and I wouldn't blame them. He was dressed in black wash jeans, a g
THE WIND WAS blowing my hair in every direction and the adrenaline that was pumping through my blood was amazing. I don't remember the last time that James took me riding because it almost feels like a life time ago. But now, as I sat behind Jake tightly clutching onto his torso-I felt like the whole world was moving too fast, like nanobots and before I knew it, we were pulling up into the very familiar driveway.I hopped off and took the helmet off, making sure to give it back to Jake as I slung my rucksack over my left shoulder.Kai and Nick pulled up beside us and took off their helmets before placing them on their motorcycles and finally walking up to Jake and I."Come on let's go," I said before turning around and walking to the front door. I pulled my keys out of my jean pocket and unlocked it."Dad are you home?" I shouted as I passed over the threshold."In the kitchen pumpkin," dad shouted back.I looked back at the three guys stand
I COULDN'T SLEEP the whole night. I kept tossing and turning as beads of sweat formed on my forehead. I knew I should have taken my medication but I didn't. In fact, I had poured it all down the toilet earlier with the hopes of my mum not finding out that I decided to stop taking my medication all together.I wasn't quite sure if it was the lack of medication, the lack of sleep or the fact that I was feeling queasy over Nick's new reaction towards me. Should I be happy that he at least is starting to be nice to me? I didn't know.When I did finally manage to fall asleep, it was past three in the morning and I didn't get any sleep as the stupid alarm clock decided it was the right time to blur it's annoying tune.I groaned and pulled the duvet over my head once more and went back to sleep.Minutes later, the duvet was being yanked away by someone. "You better wake up now or so help me I will drag your arse out of bed," the sweet voice of my mum spoke.
I SPENT THE night in hospital and when morning came I couldn't be happier to get out of there. Hospitals remind me of death and all the loss and heartbreak that people go through in them.When Dr. Dave came to release me, I was already dressed in the clean fresh clothes that we left out for me."I can see you're in a hurry to leave," he joked."Honestly, I'd rather be at school than in here," I said pointing around the room for emphasis. "It's so depressing, though the pastel gives it a bit of life."Dr. Dave chuckled. "You wouldn't be here in the first place if only you had followed the rules," he said and I rolled my eyes at him. "Your mum is waiting for you outside," he said."Thanks."We walked out of the room together heading towards the main entrance in silence but I knew he wanted to say something. Though I didn't know what it would be."I'll see you for your monthly check up," he said. "And please do try to take care of yourself beca
I WOKE UP early and got dressed in some comfy and presentable clothes. Then I grabbed my phone and bag and headed out the door.It was still pretty early and since I didn't want to wake any of my parents, I quietly tip-toed downstairs and made myself a toast with a cup of black, sugar-free coffee-just the way I liked it. I quickly ate the toast and downed the coffee which burned my mouth in the process and then I proceeded to leave the house.It was still pretty dark outside as I sat on the front porch waiting for Asher's white SUV to pull up any minute. And sure enough, he pulled up at exactly 6:30am.I stood up and dusted imaginary dirt from my jeans as I got into his car. "Morning.""Morning," Ash responded with a small smile on his face. "Are you ready for an incredible morning looking for the best puppy ever?" he beamed as he began driving."Of course. Steph will totally be all over you today," I mused.Asher took a quick glance at me as he s
OVER THE NEXT week, my relationship with the guys was beginning to evolve into something more than just mere acquaintanceship. I was spending so much time with them working on the assignment and getting to know them better.Nick was slowly opening up to me and in all honesty, he wasn't a bad guy-just reserved. But once you got to know him, then you wish you'd known him earlier."Hey!" Jake said as he took a seat next to me on the bleachers."Hey!" I responded with a smile. "What brings you here?""I don't know. I just saw you and decided to come here," he admitted. "And what are you doing here exactly?" he asked raising a perfect eyebrow."Waiting for Asher," I replied. "But he's still practicing so I decided to get some studying down." I said as I looked down at the field where Asher and his team were trying to get the football past their goal keeper, Dwayn
I CAN'T BELIEVE my mum managed to get me to go shopping with her. But what I couldn't believe the most was the fact that I actually willingly agreed to her proposal.I stood there staring at my reflection in the mirror, the girl that stared back at me wasn't me, she looked absolutely different. She had on a cream pastel dress that hugged her too tightly on her torso, which was a little too revealing and reached mid-thigh."Come out Alexis, you've been in there for so long," Asher groaned from the other side of the cubicle."No way am I coming out looking like this," I replied."Why not?" Asher questioned."Because I look like a desperate prostitute or hooker or whatever."I heard Asher chuckling from the other side. "We'll be the judge of that. Now come out.""Come out honey, we just want to see how you look," my mum spoke in her soft delicate voice. "Won't you do that for me?"I hated how she could get me to do anything with those
N I C KSIX WHOLE MONTHS, that was long how it had been since Alexis passed and each day hurt more than the last. I felt utterly lost without her."Nick hurry up, Kai and Jake are already here and you don't want to be late for your own graduation," mum shouted from the kitchen.I sighed as I took one last look at myself in the bathroom mirror before I made my way to the kitchen."You look so handsome and grown up," mum cooed as I entered the kitchen.I rolled my eyes and joined everyone at the kitchen table and sat down next to Leah. I poured myself some orange juice and placed a few chocolate chip pancakes on my plate."I'm wearing the same outfit I always wear each day except for this stupid cap and gown.""Which I'm totally rocking by the way," Kai beamed as he stuffed mum's chocolate chip pancakes into his mouth and moaned. "I love your cooking Hailee, maybe I should think of moving in with you guys."Jake and I rolled our eyes whi
N I C KAFTER I LEFT, Alexis was dragged on a gurney to the operating room and I prayed-tried to anyway, that all would go well and I'd be able to hold her again in my arms and kiss her once again.Everyone was sitted in the hospital waiting room with gloomy expressions waiting for any type of news-news that wouldn't break them even more than they already were from not knowing."Dude relax," Kai said as he placed a hand on my shoulder. "Pacing like that won't do anything other than tire you out."I didn't realise that I had been pacing back and forth until he pointed it out. I sighed and took a seat next to Asher who had his head hung low in his hands."How are you holding up?" I asked him.I honestly need to find something to distract myself otherwise I might just barge in there and see what the hell was happening to her.Asher raised his head and stared at me blankly. "My best friend is in there and I can't do anything but sit here and wai
N I C KI HAD BEEN dreading this moment ever since I knew it was a possibility. I didn't want anything to happen to Leah, she was the only sibling I had left after Kayla passed and she was all mum had. But more importantly, I did not want to have to lose Alexis after I just got her.I had spent a huge amount of time researching SCD and how to treat it but each time it always led to a negative finding. The older you are, the riskier it is to have a successful bone marrow transplant. The odds were against her and that, that just broke me because I loved her. And to make matters worse, I didn't tell her I loved her when she said it to me.Sighing, I opened the door Dr. Dave had pointed me to and saw mum sat next to Leah who was stretched out on the small hospital bed."Hey!""Hey!" Leah smiled, "how's your girlfriend holding up?" she asked.My mum rolled her eyes at her statement. "Stop trying to rail your brother up," she chastised her."Gee I
THERE WAS A loud beeping sound that I kept hearing and I wasn't sure what it was. I tried opening my eyes but I couldn't, it felt like they were glued together with superglue or sewed shut.I tried lifting my hand to rub my eyes but there was someone holding on to it with an iron like grip.Am I dead already? Is this how being dead feels like? This is not the way I wanted to go, my subconscious said.No of course I'm not dead. Because if I was, then I wouldn't be talking to my subconscious right? Right.I pushed myself harder until my eyes finally opened and I looked around to see that I was still in my hospital room. The thing making the beeping noises was the heart monitor I was plugged to. A sigh of relief fell from lips because I wasn't died....yet.I rolled around and saw Nick sleeping on one of the chairs in a very uncomfortable position as he clutched onto my hand with a firm grip. His usually perfect hair looked dishellved and my heart clutched
FOUR MORE DAYS, that was how much time I had until the surgery. I dreaded each passing moment because the pessimistic side of me kept telling me that I wouldn't make it and I was only fooling myself by believing.Asher came over whenever he didn't have football practice or a football match and we hung out a lot. He would bring some of my school work and we'd do it together. Sometimes, he would even tell me how his relationship with Steph was going and how sometimes he just couldn't stand her clinginess. He also told me how the football guys missed me a lot and sent their well wishes.James moved back home full time and spent his mornings with me before he would drive back to his lectures which was a sweet gesture. But I hated the fact that he had to drive four hours to and from school each day. Each time he came over I would tell him he didn't have to move back but he only dismissed me with a wave of the hand and he would tell me it was no big deal.On the othe
WE SPENT THE next few minutes in silence just wrapped up in each other and not saying anything. I was glad that we didn't need words in order to know what exactly each was feeling or wanted to say."Do you think we should read now?" I asked. "Or maybe later?"Nick shrugged but nodded nevertheless. "Yeah I think we should do that otherwise I might not be able to keep my hands to myself any longer," he said with a smirk as I got out of his hold."Seriously!" I exclaimed."I'm a growing hormonal teenage boy, it's not so hard to believe I have such thoughts," he replied with a casual shrug and ran a hand through his hair.I couldn't believe he just said that and he had no remorse whatsoever. I shook my head and grabbed my book from the ground as I opened it up to the first page."Do you even like reading?" I asked as he picked up his book and began reading."I'm not obsessed with it like you are, but, I do enjoy a good book once in a while," he
"RISE AND SHINE sleeping beauty," Nick's voice said waking me up from my peaceful slumber."Get up, get up," he continued and opened the hospital curtains allowing the sunlight to stream through the entire room and nearly blind me.I quickly covered my eyes with my hands. "Leave me alone and close those bloody curtains, it burns," I whined."Stop whining and get up," he pestered. "You've been asleep for two days and I've missed you like crazy."At that, my eyes snapped open just to have me quickly shut them again. "Hand me my glasses."Instead of handing me the glasses like I assumed he would, he gently put them on my face for me. "There you go love," he said with a fake British accent.I rolled my eyes as I sat up and leant my back on the wall. "Before I say anything about what you just said, let's rewind a little shall we?""Whatever you say love.""I was out for two whole days?" I asked. "Explain."Nick took off his boots and
THERE STOOD NICK with a huge I'm Sorry banner hung above his head and another one that read You've Got A Donor beside it. There were different coloured balloons that were hung on the tree branches."Surprise!" James and Asher whispered in my ear as they went over and joined everyone else.I couldn't believe my eyes. Was I dreaming? Because it sure felt like it and the worst thing was that I didn't want to ever wake up if it turned out to be a dream.Everyone was gathered there: my parents, Dr. Dave, Sara, Lisa, Hailee, Leah, Riley, Kai and Jake. I couldn't really believe that they all went out of their way to tell me I had found a donor."Alexis!" Nick muttered as he walked up to me and stood a considerable amount away. "I'm sorry I didn't return any of your calls or texts but this," he said as he gestured to everything around, "was what James and I were busy planning for you and I know it's not an excuse but we got Asher, Kai and Jake to be there for you whe
I WAS OFFICIALLY back on chemo and I felt better, or as better as someone on chemo felt. I felt more relieved than I ever thought I'd be to be back on it. I honestly thought I'd hate it and call quits but I didn't.My parents were very happy to find out I was going back on treatment and mum cried for hours. I hoped James would have come along with them but he didn't and that hurt. Though I knew I deserved it and had to work hard to earn his forgiveness.It had been three days since Nick left and I tried calling him but his phone always went straight to voicemail. I even left him countless text messages asking him to come over so I could explain myself and tell him the good news but he never once answered any of them. I was beginning to lose hope but I knew better."Stop over-thinking things," Asher said as he leant on the doorframe with his hands and legs crossed. "They'll both come around. Plus, you've got visitors so be nice or try for them anyway," he said and t