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Shadows 21: Caged In His Arms
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Diane’s P.O.V.
Kailangan ba talagang mawala ng baby ko? Bakit gano’n? Tanggap ko naman na siya eh. Oo, no’ng una—nag-alangan ako, umiyak ako, at na-shock ako.
I even told my friends na nasira na naman ulit ang buhay ko, but it was definitely because I hated the father of my child and not my child itself. Because I really could not accept the fact that I would still be able to have a connection with that Liam again!
Pero, bakit naman kung kailan tanggap ko na ‘yong baby ko at kung kailan excited na ako sa kanya ay saka naman siya mawawala? Kasalanan ko ba? Masyado ba akong nagpabaya at nagpadala sa stress nitong mga nakaraang-araw? Anong klase akong ina?
Ano bang nagawa kong masama para parusahan ako ng Diyos nang ganito? Hindi lang ‘yon. Napakahirap ding tanggapin na kahit kailan ay
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