***PROLOGUE***
My chest hurts, and the pain is unbearable, but I will smile, lying here in her arms dying. All I can do is smile. She loves me. I can see it on her face. I am dying a happy man. I hope she survives this, and I know if anyone can help her, it is Jackson. I will never know how I managed to fall in love with my brother's wife, but I did, and she loves me. Not enough to walk away from Jackson, but she loves me and right now, that is comforting.
I can still hear her screams, her cries of pain as my life slips away. I wish I could tell her that I would be fine. I can’t, though, slowly the darkness creeps over me, and my mind flies back to the past, to before I met her, and before all this had begun. Why Don't I feel like I am dying, just dreaming of the past?
*Now*
“Marcus.”
Turning, I face my wife, beautiful as ever. We have been married for nearly ten years, but I always want more, and she knows it, so we agreed we would keep our relationship open. It comes with its difficulties, but we make it work.
“Yes, darling.” Looking at her, I smile.
“What time are you leaving?”
Turning, I glance at the clock. I should have left already, but I haven’t. I should leave. I am meeting the team. We always meet before we go on a mission, and then afterwards, I meet Rebecca.
“I am setting off now. I should have left ages ago. Hopefully, I am not late.” Kissing Maria goodbye, I walk out the door. I am looking forward to meeting up with the team at the club. It has been ages since I saw them. My last mission was over a month ago.
Since that mission, I have been on holiday and spent most of my time between home with Maria and with my brat Rebecca.
Jackson has been quiet for most of the time as well, his new woman keeping him busy apparently. Getting into the club, I am glad to see Jackson isn’t here yet. It means I am not the last one here. Troy, Alexander, and Joel all sit at the table, waiting. Grabbing my drink, I walk over to sit down.
“About time. Are you ever going to meet us on time?”
Laughing, I face Troy. “I am not late. Jackson isn’t here, so technically, he is the one that is late.” Having a drink, Troy points towards the door.
“Jackson is here now and with a sidekick.” Turning around, I see him walking towards us, the redhead by his side. Who is she?
“Here he is, Jacko late as always.” standing up, I look at Jackson, my eyes fluttering to the woman by his side. Her eyes are on me, skimming across my body.
“Hey, lads, sorry, I got a little delayed. I am never usually late. This is Alena”
I smile at her, I know I will like her, and I now remember her from not that long ago, from when we had to search for Jackson’s brother and somehow found Alena.
“Hi Alena, I am Marcus.” Looking at Jackson, I smile. It’s about time he finally got back out there. “I see you have a new sub.” Smiling at Jackson, he shakes his head, well who the hell is she?
“Not a sub, not this one, although she might be in time.” Now that sounds good. Why he would want someone who isn’t a submissive, I will never know. Sitting down, the team introduce themselves. I can’t seem to keep my eyes off her.
What is it? Her hair is wild and red, like a fire spreading its heat, and her height is short, which I love, maybe it is her innocent look, yet you just know she isn’t as innocent as her face portrays.
“So, Alena, can you keep this one in check? He likes wild ones.” I chuckle at Jackson's glare because of my words. I smile at her. Her face looks shocked, but I love it.
“I can try, but then again, he is a bit rogue and well, to be honest, I would rather he keep me in check.”
Now that is something I love. On the other hand, maybe she is a brat, in which case Jackson has his work cut out for him.
“Fuck Jackson, you better watch your back with this one, she bites.” I can’t help but laugh at his reaction. He is so easy to wind up, and let’s be honest, Alena can give it back clearly.
“No, Jackson does the biting. I take the bites.”
My eyes widen at her words, wow, I love her. I can’t hold in my howls of laughter. Jackson covers his face, then grabs her. I watch as he lifts her over him, swapping seats. So, now she is no longer next to me. I think he is taking the banter worse than her.
“You sit next to Troy.” His words only make me laugh more. Is he really trying to hide her from me?
“You talk to someone else before you turn her into a brat as you do with a lot of the subs and women you meet.” Jackson looks at me. Well, I could, but to be honest, I would rather talk to Alena. I am just glad he has finally got on board and is saying something back.
It isn’t like Jackson to miss a chance to throw digs at me. Leaning back, I reach my arm reaches around Jacksons' back, tapping her on the shoulder.
“Brats are the best, Alena, don’t let him tame you, be a brat.” Winking at her, I smile. She seems so innocent. Jackson's hand grips my shirt pulling me forward, almost knocking my drink over.
“Fuck’s sake, Marcus, behave. Seriously, she isn’t even a submissive, and you’re on about her being a brat.” At least he is laughing, yet he seems serious about her, and his reaction just has the whole team laughing at him as well.
“Sorry, just a bit of banter, or is it?” Looking around Jackson, I wink at Alena. I love that she fights back with words. Sitting we talk, Alena hardly says much at all, just observing us, yet I keep seeing her eyes flick towards me. With a small smile on her face, watching her, she whispers in Jackson's ear before leaving the table.
Why do I feel so drawn to her? Maybe it is her brat attitude, as she certainly has one of them. Jackson gets up, leaving the table as well. Sitting, we carry on talking. A few minutes later, I get up and go for a drink, walking towards the bar, I see Jackson and Alena. Her tiny body is pinned against the wall by his, and you can see in her eyes she loves it.
“Well, this looks like fun, space for another one?” I stand smiling. Jackson turns to look at me. Cocking my brow. I smile at him.
“Fuck off, Marcus.”
Harsh, but I will let him have it. He is laughing, which is amazing to see. He has not laughed in so long.
“Hey, worth a try. I love the redhead ones just as much as you, Jackson.” Oh, now that I like. Her face is bright red, my words making her cheeks turn crimson red, walking off, I can’t help but laugh, but also smile that Jackson has finally found someone. Getting back to the table, Jackson and Alena are sitting down. I can’t help but keep trying to tease her and Jackson.
“Alena.” My word is quiet, yet I know Jackson hears me.
She turns to look at me, smiling.
“I taught him everything he knows.”
Laughing, she shakes her head and turns back to Troy. She doesn’t believe me.
“I mean it, ask him where he learnt all his tricks from.”
She laughs, turning to face me. “Really? Maybe you could teach me something right now?”
Jackson's head turns to her, shocked, and I laugh.
“Like what? I will teach you anything.”
She sits looking at me, considering what I have just said. Is she really going to? I look at Jackson, shocked. He doesn’t look happy.
“I would love to learn how he gets those sides so clean that you can see your reflection in them while moaning.” Jackson is howling. Heck, I thought she meant it then. I honestly thought she was going to ask me to show her something.
“She got you there, Marcus.” Jackson laughs, kissing Alena.
“Be careful little girl. You might get stung playing with the big boys.” I shake my head, still trying to sort out my mind after that, and that was the best comeback I have right now. They look at Alena now, waiting for her reply. Jackson is glaring at me. Okay, maybe that was too far?
“I think I can take the sting, thank you, but I don’t think your cocky nature could take much more comebacks from this little girl.” Her words slapped me hard.
Heck, I quit. Nodding my head, I leave her alone, for now anyway, everyone laughing at me rendered speechless. I can see it is getting to Jackson, yet I can’t help but say things. Sitting we talk a lot, every now and then I make a joke towards Alena, and like a big girl, she takes them.
Where did he find her? She is truly unique. I can hear her faintly whispering to Jackson about leaving his hand grasping hers and pulling her back. He doesn’t want her to go, I don’t blame him either, yet he tells her to wait to dance, which is mean.
“I will dance, come on.” Looking at her, I turn to Jackson. “If Jackson agrees, it is okay, that is.” Looking at him, I wait for his reply. I am no fool she is taken. You don’t dance with another man's woman without his and her permission.
“Yes, just try to behave and not turn her into a brat, please.” He is laughing and nodding at me. He agrees. However, she now looks unsure, like she is considering if she should dance with me.
I am not giving her a chance to change her mind. Getting up, I walk over to her, reaching my hand out. She looks at me, deciding if she should take it. Finally taking my hand, she stands up, my arms wrapping around her, pulling her and throwing her over my shoulder, her scream making me laugh.
Jackson looks mad, typical. But it was just a bit of fun.
“Just giving her a ride to the dance floor.” Laughing, I put her back down. At least she is now laughing and seeing the humour in it. Walking to the dance floor, we start dancing. She is amazing, and it is a shame Jackson met her first.
“So, you’re not his submissive?” Looking at her, and she shakes her head at me. I don’t understand Jackson. He amazes me with the fact that he can give up that part of his life for someone he loves.“That is a shame, so you’re not into the whole being tied up and dominated then?” I know what she likes. I talk to Jackson daily. He has spoken about her, but he was not sure about her meeting us.“I am, I can’t say I did a lot of it before Jackson, but I am.”Our eyes connect. I love her eyes, she stays staring at me, and I wish I knew what she was thinking. Her eyes keep looking down at my body.“I know, Jackson talks.” Smiling at her, my response makes her freeze. Okay, that sounded wrong.“Wow, don’t freak. I don’t mean what you do in the bedroom and stuff. I mean your ex, Max.” I know I shouldn’t be saying some of this, yet I feel compelled to, who is this woman? My sentence just makes her worse. She looks like she has seen a ghost just from hearing his name.I knew things had been ba
Getting up, I walk upstairs and open the dungeon door. There she is, perfect as ever, fully naked, blindfolded and her arms behind her back while she kneels.Walking over to the whips, my hand reaches for my favourite one, my hand clutches at the air, where is my whip? Oh, she better not have.“You little witch, where is it?” Walking to her, I help her stand, slipping the blindfold off. Her eyes are telling me everything I need to know. She has hidden it, her cheeky grin making me aware she has.“Sorry, Master, I seem to have misplaced the memory of where I put the whip.” I knew it, the shower threat. So, this is her way of fighting back. Oh, she is still getting whipped.“Still five whips, witch, and by the end, you better say where my whip is. Otherwise, I will find a new punishment.” Grabbing another whip, I walk over and set it down on the table. Guiding her over, I bend her body over the table. Stroking along her arms, I fasten her wrists down, so she can’t stand up.“Five whips
“You seem on edge Master, is everything okay?”Is everything okay? I don’t even know. I have not felt so drawn to anyone, not even Maria, and she is my wife. Maybe it is the fact that she is off-limits, plus the fact of what she has been through, she is strong, and I like women who are strong but look weak and innocent.“Just the mission, Kitten, that is all.” The feeling will pass, and I will be back to feeling how I usually do. It will help that I won’t see Alena much. Rebecca falls asleep, lying here. I can’t stop thinking about Alena, but I need to. This obsession is nothing more than that, an obsession, falling asleep I hope my thoughts are gone by the morning.The feel of leather running across my skin wakes me, Rebecca above my smiling, going to move my hands, are fastened down.“Stop that kitten.” Looking at her, I pull against the restraints. I hate these damn things. Her laugh is teasing.“Okay.” Her hand stops stroking the whip across me. Instead, she starts swinging it gen
Walking back to the bed, I open the drawer, pulling out the pills I take my daily dose. I don’t know why, though. They don’t help. Every now and then, I feel amazing, joking, laughing, yet inside I am dying, and I can’t keep fighting it. I shouldn’t be alone tonight, but I don’t want to pull the guys away from their families. I shouldn’t do that so close to us leaving.Looking around this house, I wonder if all the decisions I made these last ten years were right. How did I go from smiling with Alena within my mind to now having nothing but darkness and scary thoughts, dark, melancholy plaguing my mind and trying to make me do something I shouldn’t?I look at our wedding photo. I can’t do that to Maria. No matter how down I am feeling, I can’t do that to her. I still remember the last time, waking up in the hospital, her by my side, her face broken, soaked from tears because I was selfish, trying to take the coward's way out.Her words are still loud in my mind.“Do I mean so little t
I need her now, not later. My hand begins unfastening her shirt, my hands moving down, lifting her up, her back against the wall, as my mouth keeps kissing. My hand is pulling her dress up, moaning against her neck.“Marcus, not here.” Her words stop me, why can she never just let loose, stop thinking sex is only for the bed, looking at her, I push my lips against hers, her moan quiet, I will carry her to bed if I have to, but I would rather just fuck her here and now.Why does everything have to be planned? Why do I have to be in bed?“Just once, just this once, please.” Looking at her, I wait. My lips pressing against her neck, her touch so soft and delicate, nothing like any other woman I have witnessed. She doesn’t pull me to her, she doesn’t go frantic for me, and she is always so calm.“Bed, please, Marcus.” She looks at me, she means it, yet I don’t want that. I want her, but I don’t want the bed. I want something different. This is why we would never work alone. I can’t live a
Picking up the phone, I text Troy, hoping he has space for me for a few days. I can go to my apartment, but I know Rebecca will be there still.Troy replies, I know I am welcome, but I always like to ask. Driving, I meet him at the pub local to him, walking in I sit getting a drink. I should talk to Jackson about this.He at least knows what I am like. Sure, Troy knows but not like Jackson. Sitting drinking, Troy walks in, he is happy, and I am ready to burden him with my life.“Maria?” He looks at me as he sits down, ordering his own drink.“Do you ever wonder if you made the right choices at the beginning of the relationship that led to now?” I look at him my question waiting for an answer.He shakes his head. “Never mind asking me questions. What has happened?” I wish he was Jackson, Jackson would understand more, but I don’t want to pull him away from the new life he has.“I gave up Rebecca, I can’t get someone else out of my mind. Today, though, standing with Maria, she was gone,
Parking up, I unlock the door. Walking in, there she is, sitting on the sofa, walking over to her, with her collar in my hand. I only hope she takes it back. She knows my issues, but I have never done this to her. Yet, she knows my demons and knows how much I struggle in my own mind. Her eyes light up seeing the collar, walking towards me, my hands place it around her neck, her smile growing as I do. Jumping up, she wraps her legs and arms around me, my cock instantly going hard for her. My hands pull at her shirt, ripping it open. This is going to be quick, no toys, nothing but us two. Throwing her onto the sofa, my hands pull her trousers off, my lips kissing her body, the feel of her hands in my hair forcing my head down. Slowly kissing down her body, I reach her sex, my tongue teasing, licking at her entrance. She tastes so nice. My hands grab her waist, pulling her closer to my mouth, her moans getting louder. My tongue teases faster as my fingers rub against her sex, the wetn
“You okay, baby?” I stroke her back, seeing her tears. She looks up at me, smiling.“No, I am sure you could have done worse.” Of course, I could have if I had her in the playroom with my toys, the whips, the restraints, but I didn’t want any of that, just her.“So, what changed your mind? What about the other woman?”What about Alena? To be honest, after that with Maria yesterday, she has basically not entered my mind.“I had a wobble, my mind took control, but I am fine now. As for Alena, she is forgotten about. I just messed up.” My hand strokes down her body, taking in her beauty. “I am sorry, Rebecca, what I did was wrong and inexcusable” I don’t think any apology will be enough, not at all for what I put her through.“I wouldn’t have left. I am no fool, I could see you had issues, I could see you were battling with yourself, and I knew you would come back.” She is truly amazing. I am lucky. I know I am. “Plus, I wasn’t about to walk away and miss out on that. The whole, I’m sorr
It is Monday, and Jackson leaves soon, and I know he will hate himself more than he hates Liam right now if he leaves and doesn’t sort it. So protecting my balls, I walk into the now-empty office.“Go see Liam.” He doesn’t even look up to me, he shakes his head and continues signing papers.“I mean it, you go and see Liam, he is the only family you have left Jackson. Go see him sort this shit out, I know Alena is hurting not seeing Georgina.” No one has even communicated, Georgina is sticking by Liam and Alena is sticking with Jackson, it needs sorting.“Go sort it, then Alena can at least say bye to Georgina.” He finally looks up and moves, standing in front of me.“I will, but only for Alena, I have no intention of accepting his apology none at all, but for her, I will.” He walks out, following him I watch him leave, Alena looking at him confused.“He is going to sort things out.” She smiles, clearly, she agrees it needs fixing“I am glad, he leaves in an hour and I don’t want him g
“What are you trying to do to me? Seriously.” I laugh stepping backwards, her body coming towards me,“Stay kitten.” She looks at me with an innocent look and slowly takes another step.“I thought I would come and help Master.” I shake my head looking at her, she is amazing.“Kitten, not happening, I would be fucking you right here for everyone to see all night” Her eyes spark with interest and it just makes me want to do it more.“Fine, no sex, I will just help you.” She steps forward now reaching me, her hand pushing into my jeans and grabbing my cock.“And how do you plan to do that kitten?” Someone walks in, Alena moving closer to my body hiding her hand, he walks past into a cubicle, and she smiles.“Well Master, first I am going to go so slow, so, so slow until you can’t take no more you drag me onto my knees. Then after that, I am going to tease slowly and gently with my mouth until you grab my hair Master, grab it so hard I scream and force me, gagging me” She smiles, does she
Arriving at the club we walk in, Georgina and Liam nowhere in sight.“You stay here Alena, and I will see if I can see them.” I leave her standing against the bar leaning over it ordering drinks, is she doing that on purpose? If she leans forward a bit more, we will see everything!Shaking my head I walk around and can’t see them anywhere, giving up I walk back to the bar, someone is standing with Alena. His arm is around her, and he is laughing. I recognise him, but I don’t like how his hand is slowly sliding down Alena’s back, and she is letting it.Walking over I stand behind them, Alena looking back and smiling.“Marcus, you remember Daz right?” Oh, I do remember Daz, pushing myself in between them his arm folds,“How are you Daz? Any new crazy girlfriends?” He flinches shaking his head.“No, no one yet still holding out for someone if I am honest.” I look at him, acting interested but really I am not, everyone knows that person is Alena.“Oh is she that good she’s worth staying s
“What’s happened?” Moving I hug her, my heart still beating in my chest.“You that is what, tell me next time please, I have been searching the house for twenty minutes, I even called Jackson.” Her arms wrap around me, hell I thought I had lost her, just like that.“Sorry, I didn’t think. I am fine.” She moves back, turning in a circle.“See, nothing wrong, totally fine. Let’s get packing.” Sitting we pack away a suitcase each for the kids. Alena carries on while I go down to cook, walking around the kitchen I make us dinner, Alena coming down looking exhausted already.“Early night for you tonight” She nods not even trying to argue with me, sitting we eat. Alena is quiet the whole time.“Why don’t you go get some sleep now? Honestly, there is no need for you to sit awake.” She nods and walks upstairs, I will even get the kids if she is still asleep, sitting in the living room I turn the tv on, sitting and watching random stuff.The time comes to get the kids, and as much as I want to
I throw on a pair of slacks and walk out, Jackson stood there in the hall waiting.“She came then.”I nod walking towards the room.“Good, the first thud I thought you fell off the bed, then the scream had me worried it was Max but checking her room was empty and the second thud came from your room, so I figured she had.”“Yeah, I walked in turned around, and she was standing there waiting”. I shake my head to myself, I took a risk there doing that to her, a huge risk.“What happened?” He looks at me sensing my doubt.“Nothing bad I don’t think. She just kept pushing for me to be me, to stop hiding and take control.” His eyes widen, he knows what I am like.“She cried, a lot but still didn’t tell me to stop even when I asked her she said not to. I need to clean the room.”“I will help, and you can tell me what you did, and how she reacted, so I know, I won’t do it myself, but if she gets that side from you that is a good thing.” Nodding I open the door walking in we clean the room, Ja
Walking to the office, I sit down with Jackson looking at me.“No way, even just to cuddle she didn't look comfortable. It may take time, if she is like this in a few weeks, it stops." Jackson nods, clearly agreeing her not being comfortable with doing anything with me with Jackson around isn’t good.“Right, bed for me, if you need me just come wake me." Walking out I go back to my room. Closing the door I rest my head against it and sigh. As I turn I stop, my eyes taking her in.“Sorry Master, I thought I should change first.” She stands smiling, her body looking perfect, heels and stockings, but other than that totally naked.“Would you like a picture?” She giggles.“Why would I need a picture when I have you?” I'm frozen, taking her in. I think it's just shock that she just did it, I thought she was in bed. She steps towards me, hitting the play button on the music. Her body stops before me, standing she looks at me, then her hands stroke down my chest, her hips swinging as she beg
Walking in Georgina and Alena are sat talking and looking through printouts of houses.“Right, for you two. I am happy with all these, Georgina has found houses local to each one as well. So you two decide which house and location are the best.” She hands us both a pile of sheets. Sitting at the table with go through them, Alena and Georgina cooking and talking.“You think she is giving a hint here Marcus?” I laugh and nod.“Yeah, considering for every one house in this country there are about four in America.”“Okay, if you're happy with it, throw the ones here away and pick from America?” He looks at me, and I nod.“Hell yeah, no arguing from me, let’s move to America.” Laughing I push the ones from this country away, sitting another hour we look over the pictures getting it down to two.“Alena, Georgina,” Jackson calls them over, sitting at the table Jackson places the two sheets down in front of them“Two houses, you two need to decide this part.” They turn over the sheets, Alena
My alarm wakes me and I get ready, walking down I grab a coffee, when Jackson comes down looking at me.“I’m coming, I left Alena a note, there is no way I am just going to sit and wait.” Grabbing his coat he follows me out, and I drive us the three hours to the court. The trip is done in silence. Nothing right now is right to talk about. I stop outside the court and both of us just look at the doors. Waiting for the other to move. I guess I will. Getting out of the car Jackson follows and we walk into the courtroom and sit down. We sit where they will see us. Jake is brought up first, then Roxy, their eyes catching ours but don't linger as they quickly avert their eyes away.Roxy's barrister stands up."My client made a full confession and admitted to all charges that were put before her. Yes, he was the one who used the gun, but she had no part in the torment of the family, the boxes, and such. She did not intend to physically harm anyone, and Mr Jake O'Brian used her broken mental
“In we go kitten.” I get out of the car walking into the house Alena follows me.“Honestly, after Melanie how did you have the energy for more?” Jackson laughs looking at her, and she looks embarrassed, seriously embarrassed.“Sorry.” Her head lowers, and we both look at her confused.“Oi, we agreed on no apologising, and why would you apologise anyway, you did nothing wrong in fact you did something right you let it happen around people that could see.”“Wait, surely she has at some point let you do that around people?” Jackson shakes his head, and I honestly feel shocked.“Other than at the business, those days when the blinds are up, and staff can check in no, never has she agreed or thrown caution to the wind and let me do what you did, so to me, that is an achievement.” He walks to Alena pulling her to him.“I love you kitten, go get a shower, I will be up in five minutes to cuddle and sleep.” He kisses her gently, and she walks off, turning to me I am ready for some sort of argu