***PROLOGUE***My chest hurts, and the pain is unbearable, but I will smile, lying here in her arms dying. All I can do is smile. She loves me. I can see it on her face. I am dying a happy man. I hope she survives this, and I know if anyone can help her, it is Jackson. I will never know how I managed to fall in love with my brother's wife, but I did, and she loves me. Not enough to walk away from Jackson, but she loves me and right now, that is comforting.I can still hear her screams, her cries of pain as my life slips away. I wish I could tell her that I would be fine. I can’t, though, slowly the darkness creeps over me, and my mind flies back to the past, to before I met her, and before all this had begun. Why Don't I feel like I am dying, just dreaming of the past?*Now*“Marcus.”Turning, I face my wife, beautiful as ever. We have been married for nearly ten years, but I always want more, and she knows it, so we agreed we would keep our relationship open. It comes with its diffi
“So, you’re not his submissive?” Looking at her, and she shakes her head at me. I don’t understand Jackson. He amazes me with the fact that he can give up that part of his life for someone he loves.“That is a shame, so you’re not into the whole being tied up and dominated then?” I know what she likes. I talk to Jackson daily. He has spoken about her, but he was not sure about her meeting us.“I am, I can’t say I did a lot of it before Jackson, but I am.”Our eyes connect. I love her eyes, she stays staring at me, and I wish I knew what she was thinking. Her eyes keep looking down at my body.“I know, Jackson talks.” Smiling at her, my response makes her freeze. Okay, that sounded wrong.“Wow, don’t freak. I don’t mean what you do in the bedroom and stuff. I mean your ex, Max.” I know I shouldn’t be saying some of this, yet I feel compelled to, who is this woman? My sentence just makes her worse. She looks like she has seen a ghost just from hearing his name.I knew things had been ba
Getting up, I walk upstairs and open the dungeon door. There she is, perfect as ever, fully naked, blindfolded and her arms behind her back while she kneels.Walking over to the whips, my hand reaches for my favourite one, my hand clutches at the air, where is my whip? Oh, she better not have.“You little witch, where is it?” Walking to her, I help her stand, slipping the blindfold off. Her eyes are telling me everything I need to know. She has hidden it, her cheeky grin making me aware she has.“Sorry, Master, I seem to have misplaced the memory of where I put the whip.” I knew it, the shower threat. So, this is her way of fighting back. Oh, she is still getting whipped.“Still five whips, witch, and by the end, you better say where my whip is. Otherwise, I will find a new punishment.” Grabbing another whip, I walk over and set it down on the table. Guiding her over, I bend her body over the table. Stroking along her arms, I fasten her wrists down, so she can’t stand up.“Five whips
“You seem on edge Master, is everything okay?”Is everything okay? I don’t even know. I have not felt so drawn to anyone, not even Maria, and she is my wife. Maybe it is the fact that she is off-limits, plus the fact of what she has been through, she is strong, and I like women who are strong but look weak and innocent.“Just the mission, Kitten, that is all.” The feeling will pass, and I will be back to feeling how I usually do. It will help that I won’t see Alena much. Rebecca falls asleep, lying here. I can’t stop thinking about Alena, but I need to. This obsession is nothing more than that, an obsession, falling asleep I hope my thoughts are gone by the morning.The feel of leather running across my skin wakes me, Rebecca above my smiling, going to move my hands, are fastened down.“Stop that kitten.” Looking at her, I pull against the restraints. I hate these damn things. Her laugh is teasing.“Okay.” Her hand stops stroking the whip across me. Instead, she starts swinging it gen
Walking back to the bed, I open the drawer, pulling out the pills I take my daily dose. I don’t know why, though. They don’t help. Every now and then, I feel amazing, joking, laughing, yet inside I am dying, and I can’t keep fighting it. I shouldn’t be alone tonight, but I don’t want to pull the guys away from their families. I shouldn’t do that so close to us leaving.Looking around this house, I wonder if all the decisions I made these last ten years were right. How did I go from smiling with Alena within my mind to now having nothing but darkness and scary thoughts, dark, melancholy plaguing my mind and trying to make me do something I shouldn’t?I look at our wedding photo. I can’t do that to Maria. No matter how down I am feeling, I can’t do that to her. I still remember the last time, waking up in the hospital, her by my side, her face broken, soaked from tears because I was selfish, trying to take the coward's way out.Her words are still loud in my mind.“Do I mean so little t
I need her now, not later. My hand begins unfastening her shirt, my hands moving down, lifting her up, her back against the wall, as my mouth keeps kissing. My hand is pulling her dress up, moaning against her neck.“Marcus, not here.” Her words stop me, why can she never just let loose, stop thinking sex is only for the bed, looking at her, I push my lips against hers, her moan quiet, I will carry her to bed if I have to, but I would rather just fuck her here and now.Why does everything have to be planned? Why do I have to be in bed?“Just once, just this once, please.” Looking at her, I wait. My lips pressing against her neck, her touch so soft and delicate, nothing like any other woman I have witnessed. She doesn’t pull me to her, she doesn’t go frantic for me, and she is always so calm.“Bed, please, Marcus.” She looks at me, she means it, yet I don’t want that. I want her, but I don’t want the bed. I want something different. This is why we would never work alone. I can’t live a
Picking up the phone, I text Troy, hoping he has space for me for a few days. I can go to my apartment, but I know Rebecca will be there still.Troy replies, I know I am welcome, but I always like to ask. Driving, I meet him at the pub local to him, walking in I sit getting a drink. I should talk to Jackson about this.He at least knows what I am like. Sure, Troy knows but not like Jackson. Sitting drinking, Troy walks in, he is happy, and I am ready to burden him with my life.“Maria?” He looks at me as he sits down, ordering his own drink.“Do you ever wonder if you made the right choices at the beginning of the relationship that led to now?” I look at him my question waiting for an answer.He shakes his head. “Never mind asking me questions. What has happened?” I wish he was Jackson, Jackson would understand more, but I don’t want to pull him away from the new life he has.“I gave up Rebecca, I can’t get someone else out of my mind. Today, though, standing with Maria, she was gone,
Parking up, I unlock the door. Walking in, there she is, sitting on the sofa, walking over to her, with her collar in my hand. I only hope she takes it back. She knows my issues, but I have never done this to her. Yet, she knows my demons and knows how much I struggle in my own mind. Her eyes light up seeing the collar, walking towards me, my hands place it around her neck, her smile growing as I do. Jumping up, she wraps her legs and arms around me, my cock instantly going hard for her. My hands pull at her shirt, ripping it open. This is going to be quick, no toys, nothing but us two. Throwing her onto the sofa, my hands pull her trousers off, my lips kissing her body, the feel of her hands in my hair forcing my head down. Slowly kissing down her body, I reach her sex, my tongue teasing, licking at her entrance. She tastes so nice. My hands grab her waist, pulling her closer to my mouth, her moans getting louder. My tongue teases faster as my fingers rub against her sex, the wetn
It is Monday, and Jackson leaves soon, and I know he will hate himself more than he hates Liam right now if he leaves and doesn’t sort it. So protecting my balls, I walk into the now-empty office.“Go see Liam.” He doesn’t even look up to me, he shakes his head and continues signing papers.“I mean it, you go and see Liam, he is the only family you have left Jackson. Go see him sort this shit out, I know Alena is hurting not seeing Georgina.” No one has even communicated, Georgina is sticking by Liam and Alena is sticking with Jackson, it needs sorting.“Go sort it, then Alena can at least say bye to Georgina.” He finally looks up and moves, standing in front of me.“I will, but only for Alena, I have no intention of accepting his apology none at all, but for her, I will.” He walks out, following him I watch him leave, Alena looking at him confused.“He is going to sort things out.” She smiles, clearly, she agrees it needs fixing“I am glad, he leaves in an hour and I don’t want him g
“What are you trying to do to me? Seriously.” I laugh stepping backwards, her body coming towards me,“Stay kitten.” She looks at me with an innocent look and slowly takes another step.“I thought I would come and help Master.” I shake my head looking at her, she is amazing.“Kitten, not happening, I would be fucking you right here for everyone to see all night” Her eyes spark with interest and it just makes me want to do it more.“Fine, no sex, I will just help you.” She steps forward now reaching me, her hand pushing into my jeans and grabbing my cock.“And how do you plan to do that kitten?” Someone walks in, Alena moving closer to my body hiding her hand, he walks past into a cubicle, and she smiles.“Well Master, first I am going to go so slow, so, so slow until you can’t take no more you drag me onto my knees. Then after that, I am going to tease slowly and gently with my mouth until you grab my hair Master, grab it so hard I scream and force me, gagging me” She smiles, does she
Arriving at the club we walk in, Georgina and Liam nowhere in sight.“You stay here Alena, and I will see if I can see them.” I leave her standing against the bar leaning over it ordering drinks, is she doing that on purpose? If she leans forward a bit more, we will see everything!Shaking my head I walk around and can’t see them anywhere, giving up I walk back to the bar, someone is standing with Alena. His arm is around her, and he is laughing. I recognise him, but I don’t like how his hand is slowly sliding down Alena’s back, and she is letting it.Walking over I stand behind them, Alena looking back and smiling.“Marcus, you remember Daz right?” Oh, I do remember Daz, pushing myself in between them his arm folds,“How are you Daz? Any new crazy girlfriends?” He flinches shaking his head.“No, no one yet still holding out for someone if I am honest.” I look at him, acting interested but really I am not, everyone knows that person is Alena.“Oh is she that good she’s worth staying s
“What’s happened?” Moving I hug her, my heart still beating in my chest.“You that is what, tell me next time please, I have been searching the house for twenty minutes, I even called Jackson.” Her arms wrap around me, hell I thought I had lost her, just like that.“Sorry, I didn’t think. I am fine.” She moves back, turning in a circle.“See, nothing wrong, totally fine. Let’s get packing.” Sitting we pack away a suitcase each for the kids. Alena carries on while I go down to cook, walking around the kitchen I make us dinner, Alena coming down looking exhausted already.“Early night for you tonight” She nods not even trying to argue with me, sitting we eat. Alena is quiet the whole time.“Why don’t you go get some sleep now? Honestly, there is no need for you to sit awake.” She nods and walks upstairs, I will even get the kids if she is still asleep, sitting in the living room I turn the tv on, sitting and watching random stuff.The time comes to get the kids, and as much as I want to
I throw on a pair of slacks and walk out, Jackson stood there in the hall waiting.“She came then.”I nod walking towards the room.“Good, the first thud I thought you fell off the bed, then the scream had me worried it was Max but checking her room was empty and the second thud came from your room, so I figured she had.”“Yeah, I walked in turned around, and she was standing there waiting”. I shake my head to myself, I took a risk there doing that to her, a huge risk.“What happened?” He looks at me sensing my doubt.“Nothing bad I don’t think. She just kept pushing for me to be me, to stop hiding and take control.” His eyes widen, he knows what I am like.“She cried, a lot but still didn’t tell me to stop even when I asked her she said not to. I need to clean the room.”“I will help, and you can tell me what you did, and how she reacted, so I know, I won’t do it myself, but if she gets that side from you that is a good thing.” Nodding I open the door walking in we clean the room, Ja
Walking to the office, I sit down with Jackson looking at me.“No way, even just to cuddle she didn't look comfortable. It may take time, if she is like this in a few weeks, it stops." Jackson nods, clearly agreeing her not being comfortable with doing anything with me with Jackson around isn’t good.“Right, bed for me, if you need me just come wake me." Walking out I go back to my room. Closing the door I rest my head against it and sigh. As I turn I stop, my eyes taking her in.“Sorry Master, I thought I should change first.” She stands smiling, her body looking perfect, heels and stockings, but other than that totally naked.“Would you like a picture?” She giggles.“Why would I need a picture when I have you?” I'm frozen, taking her in. I think it's just shock that she just did it, I thought she was in bed. She steps towards me, hitting the play button on the music. Her body stops before me, standing she looks at me, then her hands stroke down my chest, her hips swinging as she beg
Walking in Georgina and Alena are sat talking and looking through printouts of houses.“Right, for you two. I am happy with all these, Georgina has found houses local to each one as well. So you two decide which house and location are the best.” She hands us both a pile of sheets. Sitting at the table with go through them, Alena and Georgina cooking and talking.“You think she is giving a hint here Marcus?” I laugh and nod.“Yeah, considering for every one house in this country there are about four in America.”“Okay, if you're happy with it, throw the ones here away and pick from America?” He looks at me, and I nod.“Hell yeah, no arguing from me, let’s move to America.” Laughing I push the ones from this country away, sitting another hour we look over the pictures getting it down to two.“Alena, Georgina,” Jackson calls them over, sitting at the table Jackson places the two sheets down in front of them“Two houses, you two need to decide this part.” They turn over the sheets, Alena
My alarm wakes me and I get ready, walking down I grab a coffee, when Jackson comes down looking at me.“I’m coming, I left Alena a note, there is no way I am just going to sit and wait.” Grabbing his coat he follows me out, and I drive us the three hours to the court. The trip is done in silence. Nothing right now is right to talk about. I stop outside the court and both of us just look at the doors. Waiting for the other to move. I guess I will. Getting out of the car Jackson follows and we walk into the courtroom and sit down. We sit where they will see us. Jake is brought up first, then Roxy, their eyes catching ours but don't linger as they quickly avert their eyes away.Roxy's barrister stands up."My client made a full confession and admitted to all charges that were put before her. Yes, he was the one who used the gun, but she had no part in the torment of the family, the boxes, and such. She did not intend to physically harm anyone, and Mr Jake O'Brian used her broken mental
“In we go kitten.” I get out of the car walking into the house Alena follows me.“Honestly, after Melanie how did you have the energy for more?” Jackson laughs looking at her, and she looks embarrassed, seriously embarrassed.“Sorry.” Her head lowers, and we both look at her confused.“Oi, we agreed on no apologising, and why would you apologise anyway, you did nothing wrong in fact you did something right you let it happen around people that could see.”“Wait, surely she has at some point let you do that around people?” Jackson shakes his head, and I honestly feel shocked.“Other than at the business, those days when the blinds are up, and staff can check in no, never has she agreed or thrown caution to the wind and let me do what you did, so to me, that is an achievement.” He walks to Alena pulling her to him.“I love you kitten, go get a shower, I will be up in five minutes to cuddle and sleep.” He kisses her gently, and she walks off, turning to me I am ready for some sort of argu