Colin could not refuse when I insisted on an answer. After an awkward while, he finally whispered, "I'm happy because my darling Lulu will return to me. I no longer have to worry about agitating Felix. I can finally hold your hand again."I knew this would be his answer, but I still felt shy when he said it. My cheeks reddened out of embarrassment. I instinctively acted coquettish by burying my face into his chest and nuzzling against him.To think that Colin cared about me this much...I even considered filling all the red flowers to end his probation period because of his sweet words.Colin froze immediately, and his body soon heated up. When I noticed that he was about to lower his head and kiss me, I quickly stopped him."Why did you stop me?" Colin's breathing got heavier, and he caressed my neck. His eyes revealed a sense of desire."Felix will be undergoing surgery tomorrow, so we need to rest. We'll have many opportunities to kiss in the future," I whined cutely, causing
"Colin, the surgery was successful, right?""Yes."I was so thrilled that I didn't care about the presence of others. I rushed to hug Colin and exclaimed, "Hurray! It succeeded!"He was worried I would fall, so he hurriedly hugged me back and smiled happily.Mom reminded me to be polite before wiping away her tears and leaning against Dad.Aunt Mel was so pleased that she pulled up Uncle Austin's clothes to wipe her tears. She cried uncontrollably into his shoulder.We may seem back to normal after Felix's car accident, but we were all under pressure. Our heart sank when he couldn't see or walk.Even though we knew what was going on and let things run their course, we felt regretful.After all, Felix had always performed admirably and made his family proud. Now that the surgery was successful, he could finally see again and be the excellent guy he once was.I felt overjoyed for him, Colin, and even myself....Felix was sent to the ward. He slept silently, with his hair shav
As time went by, we realized the surgery had failed. Felix was unlucky enough to be part of the 10% fail rate.It meant he would be disabled. He wouldn't be able to see or walk again. He would spend the rest of his life in a wheelchair, in complete darkness.My worst fear became a reality.My parents were disappointed. Uncle Austin and Aunt Mel were heartbroken. Colin and I felt inexplicably desperate.Did I have to owe Felix my whole life? No, I wouldn't accept this fate!I contacted Matthew anxiously. It was almost 9:00 pm. From the sound of it, I assumed he was having a social gathering.Soon after he answered my call, the noise level from the other end of the phone quieted. He must have left the private room and chosen a secluded corner to speak with me.He gently asked me what had happened. I told him about Felix's situation and asked for his help to contact George.Five minutes later, Matthew called back. He said that after George left the operating room, he had gone stra
I might be shameless to have such thoughts, but I had no regrets.Felix's surgery was over. Everything remained the same, except that he had suffered once more. His mood was far lower than before.I was the one who gave him hope, then shattered it. It was cruel for him to get such an ending.How could I tell him that I still wanted to be with Colin?I wasn't afraid of hardship. I could even give Felix money. I just worried that I would never be able to be with Colin again.My grief grew stronger.Colin knew me best. Every night, he would hold me and tell me not to worry. We weren't at the end of the road yet. He'd find another way.George was a world-renowned expert in brain surgery. I wondered where we should put our hope if even he couldn't solve the problem.When I couldn't sleep, I deeply regretted my actions and hated myself.I thought I was right, but my self-righteousness messed everything up. I was such a useless person....Felix was discharged. He didn't speak all
"I've placed everything that could harm him out of reach. It would be fine after I install a guardrail to the windows and balconies and elevate the door locks."I felt distressed to see Colin so busy. I doubted these methods could stop a person who wanted to die.It was difficult for us to take long-term precautions. If Felix wanted to die, even a belt was enough. We couldn't guard him at all times. Colin's actions made no sense.We first needed to understand Felix's true thoughts.After the suicide attempt, Felix became clingy again. He wanted me to be by his side whenever I didn't attend lectures. He even grasped my hand to ensure I was beside him, or he would feel unsafe.Honestly, sitting next to him was fine. I could at least accept it. However, I couldn't tolerate it when he held my hand, not even for a second.I told him I had to draw. I couldn't work if he held my hand.Then, he asked me to move the easel to his room so he could always be by my side. When I objected, he
"I know you hate me. Since it's my fault, blame me alone. You can ask for anything. I'll do anything to satisfy you. Don't involve Lulu. Felix, please let her go. Please.""Lulu is mine! I'll never let her go in this life. Just give up!"Colin swayed slightly, gripping his head. He let out a painful and desperate cry.I could imagine his breakdown.They had had this conversation countless times during this period. I'd encountered it three times. It always ended up this way.Felix always hurt others with a single blow and spared no effort. After all, he did the same to me on Thanksgiving that year.Colin had always been a decisive person. However, when it came to Felix and me, he was in a dilemma.He was responsible, and he valued the two of us. He felt hurt when he had to make a decision.As he said, he was the cause of the car accident. He felt indebted because his brother had become disabled. Yet his feelings for me were so deep that he was reluctant to let me go, let alone g
Queenie and Zara often called to comfort me. However, their comfort seemed meaningless in my case.As time passed, they realized it was pointless and stopped. They only encouraged me to keep going rather than forcing myself to do things I didn't want.One day, I was so depressed that I hid in the kitchen and cried softly. Colin embraced and kissed me.He said, "Lulu, you can leave and not return. I am the one who owes Felix. I'll accompany him forever. The world is big. There will always be another guy who will love you, protect you, and give you a stable life."You're a good person. Don't waste your whole life on my family. Leave us and live your life well. As long as you're happy, I'll be happy as well."That day, I got angry with him for the first time and slapped him."Colin White, you bastard! Do you think I'm heartless? You gave me the best love in the world! How could I fall in love with someone else?"Isn't it just suffering? We can get through it together! I'm not afrai
It was easy to guess. Helen would never show off another guy as she did with Matthew.She should have been delighted yesterday. I felt happy for her."Why didn't you tell me about your birthday? I didn't even prepare a gift.""That's not the point.""Then what's the point? To show off your love?" I joked.She replied, "No, it's Matthew. He's looking for you. He called you, but you didn't answer, so he asked me to find you."I took out my phone and looked at it. There were indeed three missed calls from Matthew. I put the phone back and glanced at Helen. "Didn't you treat me as your love rival? Won't you be jealous? You even help him to find me. Won't you be afraid I'll take him away from you?"Helen laughed. "I won't. If you were interested in Matt, you would have been with him long ago. I wouldn't even have a chance with him. You're not that kind of person.""That might not be the case. If I get tired of my current life and wish to change my boyfriend, I might seduce him.""H