Kayden's car pulls up in front of my apartment. My eyes stare out the window, watching the entire building, which now looks like it just had a huge makeover.Well, a huge construction makeover.Kayden turns off the car's engine and we both alight from the car. Throughout the entire drive to my place, we said nothing to each other. The silence would have been choking, even for me, but thanks to Kayden's car radio, I did not feel the sting of the silence that much.He helps me carry my luggage bag, and being the foodie that I am, I decide to carry the packaged box of food.We ascend the stairs leading to my apartment.In silence.When we finally get to the door of my house, I bring out the door key from my purse. I slip the key into the keyhole and turn it, hearing the door click open. I push the door inside and enter first. Kayden follows me behind, shutting the door behind him.I have lost count of how many times Kayden has been to my house, but now that he is in here, I can't help bu
A MONTH LATER. . . . . .It's been a month.A month since Lisa's birthday. A month since I kissed my bestfriend.And a solid full month of her breaking my heart time and time again as I swipe through her Instagram photos everyday only to be wrenched apart with pictures of her and Christian looking all 'lovey-dovey' and shit.Every. Single. Day.Things are still cool with Lisa and I, but I can't deny the fact that our phone calls are not as often or as long or as funny as they used to be. Most of her time is now gobbled up in her work and in her new love relationship with Christian, which totally makes me sick all time whenever I remember that she finally decided to date that guy.I know something is off between us, but I feel so afraid approaching the topic with her. What do I even say? How do I even begin?Besides, would it even matter? She has a boyfriend now. And at the moment, it is not like I can just blurt out to her how I feel about her. It will be totally awkward, complicated
Hey Lisa!" Sandra squeals, hugging me by her doorway and kissing me on both my cheeks. She tends to overdo the peekings sometimes, but I have grown almost immune to them that they do not even bother me anymore.Besides, she is a damn hot Puerto Rican cute chick with the banging body and bad ass attitude. How can I ever be offended with her?She hugs Christian too and opens the door wider for the both of us to come in."Ethan, Kayden, Lisa and Christian are here already!" She yells towards her sitting room, closing the door behind Christian and I when we come fully into the house.Kayden is already here?I gulp in a breath as Christian and I walk into the sitting room. When we enter, I feel my heart skip a beat when my eyes land on Kayden. He looks so hot and sexy in his black Nike sleeveless shirt and gray sweat pants. The sleeveless shirt proudly shows off the black wing tattoo on his left arm, and his dark hair looks wet, with some of their messy strands falling on the sides of his
I feel like I am drowning into this sofa, my heart tearing into shreds as I watch Lisa and Christian whispering and giggling to each other, their fingers entwined so tight that it makes me sick just by looking at it. Christian's free hand is draped on one of Lisa's exposed thighs, the sight of his caressing fingers on her skin filling me with the rabid thought of chopping them off.I can deal with the obvious kissing show that Sandra and Ethan are obviously displaying by my right side, but my insides are ripping apart just by watching Lisa cuddled up with Christian on that damn sofa directly in front of me, wearing that blue jean shorts that is nearly driving my head insane.And that crop top is also not helping matters. . . . .I know it is not my place to ask, but did what happened between us last month even mean anything to her? Or was it really just a mistake to her?The movie 'Shotgun Wedding' is showing on TV, and I am trying to force my entire body and mind to immense in the ch
After a few minutes of trying to pacify the raging thoughts in my head, I muster up strength and leave the kitchen, my footsteps the only sound echoing lightly through the walls of the empty corridor.Just as I enter the sitting room, I stumble upon Lisa grabbing a bottle of wine and a glass from the mini bar in the dining area. Her eyes catches mine staring at her in surprise.What is she doing here by this time?"Hey." She calls softly. "You are still up?""Yeah. I just came downstairs to grab a bottle of water from the kitchen." I answer, showing her the bottle of water in my hand.My eyes move to the wine in her hand. It is Chardonnay Red alcoholic wine, and it is already past midnight."What's with the wine?" I find myself asking, pointing to the wine in her hands. "It is already past midnight to get yourself drunk you know."She chuckles a laugh. "I am not trying to get myself drunk Kayden. I am just going to have a little. Besides, you are joining me."I scoff. "And who said I
I heave a low sigh of relief when Lisa's eyes finally leave my face to stare down at the drink in her hands."You know, the girl you are going to love is going to be one lucky girl Kayden. And you are even a damn good kisser to top the icing on the cake."Damn it! My ears must be kidding me, because what I heard must be a joke. I am already in love with the girl she is talking about. This girl sitting beside me right now is the girl I love. Lisa Collins is the girl I love. The dumb silent confession hits me like a truck, my heart nearly exploding in a mixture of pain and anger. Fuck this! I am just going to tell her right now how I feel about—"Hey babe." I hear Christian's voice behind us, the surprise it jerks into my body sending back the three words rising in my throat back down into my belly. The three words that has pricked and poked at my heart all these years, begging to be free.He bends down and kisses Lisa's forehead. "I have been looking for you all over the house.""Real
I feel something warm caressing my cheeks, and when I flutter my eyes open, it is to the rays of the morning sun shining into the room and on my face. I groan and turn over to my left side to find Christian's space on the bed empty.Just then, my ears register the sound of running water from the bathroom, and I figure out that he must be in there taking a shower.I yawn, using the back of my hand to cover my mouth as I sit up on the bed. As I rest the back of my head on the headboard of the bed, Christian's marriage proposal to me yesterday comes rushing back into my mind like a tsunami.Something about his proposal does not really make sense. I mean, we have only known each other for like. . . .three weeks. Kissed only twice, which actually felt forceful and blank on my part both times. And also, this relationship with him is not as deep enough for me to even consider marrying him.Marriage is. . . . .BIG. Even if I felt a little bit of erotic love for him, I would still need more ti
When I enter the kitchen, I stumble back at the intense sight of Sandra and Ethan gripping and pulling and kissing each other's brains out."Oh my God guys!" I groan out, my loud voice startling them out of their make out trance. "Can't you both just do stuffs like this in the privacy of your bedroom?"Sandra adjusts her night dress. Ethan runs his hands over his messy hair, both their faces blushing so deeply.I shake my head and simply walk to the kitchen counter, where I take out a bottle of water. I screw the cover open and take a long gulp before closing back the lid of the bottle.When I turn around, I see them leaving the kitchen, their fingers entwined into each other's hold, their faces so close together as they murmur and giggle to each other.I wish I have what they have. Imagine their temerity to mess around even in the kitchen. Something that I can't even do with the guy I love just a few rooms away from mine.My mind goes back to the little conversation I had with Kayden