Esmeralda's POVI didn't know what was happening or if the scream I heard came from the room or my own mouth, but I found myself on the ground.I had fallen down from the tree.It wasn't a good feeling. The collision of my back and the ground left a very painful throbbing on my back.My head was also feeling very light and I must've lost ky for a second there. I remained on the ground trying to remember little details about myself.I'm a girl.My name's Esmeralda.I'm a high school student.Killian.Fuck.Why him?Everything about this day was going sideways. I didn't understand what Killian was doing in the little details about myself?That fucking piece of shit.I continued to lay down on the grass with the sun on my face because at that moment, it all seemed so peaceful, except the pain in my back that was slowly fading away.Maybe what I waa doing on the ground was getting mentally prepared for the sharp pain I was going to get when I finally decided to stand up.Lying there I gaz
Killian's POVThe police left the office leaving advice behind. I had known beforehand that detective Wesley was not a fan of mine and for him to suddenly take up this case actually kind of made me edgy.What I didn't understand waa how he believed me without me having to give him a full detail of what had happened. He was understanding and even made me believe we could turn out to be friends.There was no proof of the claim that Mikel had killed those people and set my warehouse on fire but he was willing to believe me. Maybe it was his gut sense or maybe it was the realization that of course I wouldn't kill people who worked for me or even blow up my own warehouse.However, I tried to believe that it was just his gut sense.He had even advised that I catch the snitch as soon as possible without even hearing from me whether there was a snitch or not.Fowler joined me in the office after they left. He was sure to close the door behind him."What are we going to do?" He asked me.I sat
Killian's POV.I was flabbergasted. I couldn't move. My palms were sweating and my heart was racing. I couldn't say anything or even do anything. My heart was racing fast and my head felt light.Paula was pregnant.How the hell did this even happen?She was too cruel, she could've at least let me settle before telling me something like that, opening her mouth and spilling such from it.I had nothing to do and i felt kike I was trapped in a dark small room and everything was moving in the room other than me. They were moving against me but I was pinned to the ground, I couldn't move, I couldn't breathe, I could only stare and watch how the objects inside the room all penetrated me one by one.It was suffocating.I was suffocated. I didn't know how or when or why but my hand moved to my tie and loosened it.Okay, i knew why, i was too suffocated.I couldn't breathe and I felt like curling up in a corner and thinking about all the mistakes I've ever made.No matter how cruel this would s
Killian's POVI left Paula. I had left Paula.I ran away from the hospital even though Paula needed me. I left her because I needed to get to Esmeralda. I was a jerk. A bastard. An idiot. Stupid.There was nothing in the dictionary that I could find that would describe how insane and humane I was to Paula. I stood there speechless after she told me she was pregnant with my child but I couldn't say anything. I was such a coward.Paula needed me around, Paula needed me to say something, to tell her that I wasn't going to abandon her but I didn't say anything. I left her there to take care of herself, I left her there abandoning her and our unborn child.I was saying these words, scolding myself but I was still in my car, driving like a maniac to my house to see Susan, to get told to my face that Esmeralda was missing.I can't even weigh the importance of those two things. Paula announced to me a new child and Esmeralda was missing, probably in danger or something.No, the only reaso
Killian's POVI was worried. Beyond worrying.I couldn't figure out what was going on. Pauka had left standing there with the notion that Mikel was no different from Frederick.Would it be weird if I said that I didn't care?I didn't care if Mikel was leading them all to their deaths, I didn't care if Frederick came here and started a war. As long as it had nothing to do with me, as long nobody came to my doorstep, as long as they didn't come for Esmeralda and anyone else I cared about. I had no problem.I didn't care about the war, I didn't care whether Mikel was a good leader or not and I gave zero shits about Frederick.What I cared about was Esmeralda.I was only worried about her well-being. Mayne paula was right when she had said that if I cared about the city I should worry about Mikel becoming an alpha.Did I care about the city?Yes.However, not the way Paula wanted me to. I cared about the city, not to the point where I'd wield a sword or climb on a horse to defend it. Hu
Esmeralda's POVKillian did not say anything about helping me but I didn't need him to spell it out before I knew he would help with it.At first I had no.intention of allowing him find out about what happened, I thought i could do it myself, I could find out what was wrong with Izan and help him out on my own but from what i saw back at the house, with my mom, i knew i was helpless without Killian and I knew I would always be helpless without him when i broke down and cried, begging him to help me.I didn't want to always go to Killian for help but I had no.other choice, I had no other person in my life who would be willing to help me.I had no home.And I was holding on to the one I grew uo in. I was holding on to people who don't think twice before dropping me.Was that foolish, could that be regarded as me being extremely stupid or was that love?I didn't know, I only knew that I loved them with a pure heart, one that could go beyond everything else and do something for them.I lo
Esmeralda's POVI didn't know how I was feeling, but I knew there was an immense sadness within me. I was attacked by a great feeling of regret and woe. I felt guilty too. For the things I had done, for each day my lips claimed Killian's own. I felt guilty for the feelings I possessed for him.He was the father of the child and I, indeed I am a homewrecker. I was going to ruin the home of an unborn child. Though I had never even thought of the possibility of Killian having a child with her. I had caught them having sex but I never thought he would be so careless as to get her pregnant.I was stupid.In hindsight, I couldn't believe I had caught them having sex, yet I kissed him that night.I wanted to die.I was such a fool. Killian never loved me. Killian never saw me as something more than a plaything, a child he could use to while away time.I was disgusted at myself. I felt like a pile of shit, a carcass that should be buried in the dirt. I was not worthy to see the sun. I had
Esmeralda's POV.The drive was stuffy, the air was so thick I could hardly breathe. Killian was sitting so close to me all I had to do was stretch my hand out and I would touch him. However, if I made that decision to do so, I knew that I was really irredeemable and I was the spawn of the devil.I kept my hand away.My conscience was eating at me but I was more focused on the overwhelming smell he was emitting.He still smelled like apples. Delicious.Fuck!Fuck!!I still had lewd thoughts about him, allowing myself to be clouded with lust. Shameless. Though the AC jn the car was on, I still pressed the button that brought the car window down and kept away. The wind was in my hair and the smell of apples was far gone. I kept my face facing the window and I leaned into the seat in a relaxing position. If i didn't think about it, then I could get it out of my heart.Throughout the drive, he didn't say anything to me only when he asked if I was still leaving. He didn't even think to