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Author: PrettyFingers
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Esmeralda's POV.

I opened the door, waiting for him to say those same words to my face. I opened the door, opened my ears and opened my heart waiting for him to give me a faint idea of what he waa feeling.

I knew he liked to kiss me and to sneak into my room at night to sleep beside me, these are hints that I purposefully ignored because we're not children that cannot express our emotions through our words.

Being man enough to tell the other what was in our hearts.

However, it seemed like I was the only one who thought this way. I had expected that a grown man like Killian would be able to think the same thing.

But as he stared at me with soft eyes, he stared at me with hesitant eyes, with eyes that looked so deep and so emotional, I knew he was too scared to admit to his feelings, I knew it.

But then he opened his mouth and said, "Esmy," he said, "I don't want you to go".

Maybe all I wanted wasn't plain and simple, maybe what I wanted was just a tiny bit of affirmation that in fact
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