Past Life - Selena Gomez & Trevor Daniel
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I'm still curled up in pain. I was holding my stomach. I feel the blood rushing down to the feet. It's cold when blood runs up to the feet.
"Just go home." I nodded with a belly that's so wrapped around. I had to get up and put my clothes back on. I saw on Sheilla's bedsheets there were a lot of bloodstains.
"Look at the sheets." I'm pointing over there and still holding my belly. It hurts so much, and I want to go out now and want to curl up all day in bed.
I can't stand it. I was sitting when Gerald pulled those sheets.
"Take it. Wash it at home. It's not fair, and it's in people's homes." I still see under my feet bleeding. It comes out in clumps. I have headaches.
"Gerald, look at my feet with a lot of blood."
"Wash it first." I went into the bathroom and washed my feet. I'm going to take my pants off. Menstrual
Picky - Joey Montana๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏGerald's conducting a Computer-Based National Exam. Yes, my husband is fighting for his future. My future too? I don't know.I'm lonely without Gerald if he's not home. If there was him, there was his outrageous behavior, which made my blood pressure high. He seems to want to make me die quickly or old quickly because the tempers continue.I want to go home to my mother and see my mother. But I'm afraid all these lies are uncovered. It would be best if she weren't angry about the umpteenth time. I just rolled around on the bed like a pig smearing himself with mud. Argh... so dull.I checked my phone, and nothing made me happy. Ah, I still have a brother. How can I forget my arch-enemy? Gerald's problematic behavior has distracted my whole world. I want to see Aldo.I called Aldo's social media, and the that jerk replied. They only have one course today. I miss wanting
Call It What You Want - Taylor Swift (my fav song)๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏIf in the past, the thing I hated the most was is wait.Now replaced the thing I hate the most is: when my husband sulks.Because Gerald sulked at something, and more unlucky, sulking is his new hobby now.I was overwhelmed, had to do what I persuaded him to do. There's been a lot of ways I've persuaded him, but it's not effect to him. From nasty to ordinary things are not works. It looks like he's sulking at the summit. He's sulking from yesterday until now. I should've let him go, and he sulked until he was out of breath. And die quickly! Sometimes when I get too upset, I pray that he dies quickly. I think I deserve to be called an ungodly wife. But Gerald's too much. He shouldn't be jealous of blindness like that. Who wants to be with a woman like me? I'm just a spoiled woman who can only trouble who wants to? With that in virgin status, something of
Dancing With Ours Hand Tied - Taylor Swift๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏAgain my heart was broken by the owner. And Gerald wasn't trying to explain, and he deliberately left this wound gaping until it finally rotted. Let me take away this heart, which is dead.My heart is again, shapeless. I was so ruined! Don't know how to explain now. It's always been like this, and stupidly I've still been crushed. Why do I have to act like a sensible woman all the time, which makes him even more arbitrary? What makes me hate Gerald, no matter what happens, he doesn't try to explain it to me. Leaving me with my assumptions, he ends up blaming me, because I'm overthinking. But, whose fault would it be if he left me with my beliefs? Gerald... Gerald. I don't understand the way he's thinking. The thing is, I've already died in love with him. It's one of my biggest regrets.And I ended up at my mom. There's no more destination for me to live in. I have no acqua
Stuck With You - Ariana Grande & Justin Bieber๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏMy world is completely collapsing. It's just a man, which I have pledged to devote my entire life with him. In the dream palace until the hair is whitened. And now before my bleached hair. My hair that is still healthy, fragrant and soft has just been dumped. I'm still wallowing in grief.Yes, I've been dumped by the man of my dreams. A man I love. He has found the mooring of his heart. I'm just filling in the blanks.And I should have realized that I'm not his type at all. Let's say he's rich, young, handsome, perfect. I? I'm the opposite of that. And I'm older, and I should have realized, too, that he'd be looking for a younger or the beautiful one. But why am I so stupid? All his ruses also lulled me.I should have recorded the words he put out. That he just wanted my body, and he did it. And indeed, in time, I was dumped. Sometimes Gerald doesn't say it in perso
Anyone - Justin Bieber (Hooked with this song)๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏPanic!I immediately jumped through two stairs at once. I almost slipped. But, I don't care about myself now. My body is shaking. Again, I was careless. Trembling and scared, I approached Gerald. Afraid that he might die, I'm not ready to be a widow right now. I turned around, and he was still breathing. Thankfully! The violin Physco sobbed."We have to go to the hospital." My whole body was trembling, even I almost fell, because my legs were shaking, making me unbalanced."Gerald heard Rara, right?" Gerald just grimaced. I see, there is a wound in the corner of his temple. Maybe the blood came from there. Or another part of his body, which was injured."You can walk, right?""Yes." Gerald replied softly. He still grinned, I don't know what hurt."Can you help me?" I asked the violin physco who just cried. This bitch mu
Drag Me Down - One DirectionFun fact : I wrote this with 5 watt eyes. Enjoy ๐๐๐๐๐๐คฉ๐คฉ๐ฅณ๐ฅณ๐ฅณ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ"Awh ...." I heard Gerald scream in pain. I still ignore it."Awh ..." Gerald groaned in pain. Feeling guilty and heartless, I turned around. However, I was the one who caused him such pain. I can't be selfish. Gerald held his hand. Taking a deep breath, I was forced to serve this."Just one step, you walk, you will be a wife of lawlessness," Gerald warned. What? Seriously? Is he talking about disobedience? Is he insane? Of course, he is."Oh, disobedience. What you mean is seeing a husband making out with another girl. That's what that means, right?!"Gerald gritted his teeth. "I'm so sick with all of your drama. Fuck you and your stupid assumption!" shouted Gerald. If I don't remember, he's disabled now, and I want to grab his hair."Because you made me like that yourself! You kn
Last Friday Night - Katty Perry๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏI took a small look, and when I realized I was already in the room. Yes, I was in Gerald's room. It's no longer our room, and I think soon I'll be a widow in a month of my marriage.My head still hurts; it feels cumbersome. I'm not aware of anything, I remember, at a glance, they mention blood. BUT don't know what blood it is. My head too, throbbed violently. I held my head and lay back down. I was tired, so tired of endless drama. I turned around and found Gerald, who was asleep. Gerald is also lying beside me, and it looks like he is one with all this.Yes, I am physically and emotionally tired. But, the mind is stronger to attack.I corrected his messy hair. My love is getting bigger day by day. I stroked the bandage at the corner of his temple. I love this man very much. I kissed his cheek. This time it was very long, and with feeling, the feeling of his cheeks was warm. Does he
Say You're Just Friend - Austin Mahone๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏWhether to blame who, everything fell apart, the people who should love me and protect me ended up getting angry with me.Gerald is mad at me. Because I screamed. And I'm really sick. I was lying weak and pale and had a lot of fluid loss. I drop again. I guess it's because I'm stressed lately. The stress continues and never ends. Is it because it's all made up? Am I overacting? But, I'm sick of this all.Even though Gerald was angry, he still took care of me. And why should it hurt? I have to be healthy and strong for this. I have to be strong, mentally, and physically. And I'm physically helpless right now. I want to fight this helplessness, and I don't want to look weak. I have power. I can get through this. Get well soon. I want this drama to end soon. I still feel my head throbbing.This too much headache makes my eyes hurt too. All illnesses come to me. Why don't you
I'm lying in the roomโme time. I just lay there watching TV. I just saw moving images on the plasma. Because on purpose, I didn't raise the voice.My physique can be in the room, and my mind wanders far.The sound of the door opening. My heart immediately warmed. This is what I'm waiting for."Mom." I miss that voice. No matter how selfish and no matter how strong my heart refuses and hurts with past events. I remain, take this man back, and forgive him without knowing it."Why?" I asked dryly. A week, he didn't fill this room."Daddy missed you. Sorry for everything. Honestly, I can't be away from you. Ah, I'm crazy there. I can't be apart from my children, and I can't be apart from you either. Please, mom, you can punish anything, but do not separate. This is torturous. " I looked at Gerald, saw the sincerity of the words that came out of his lips."Where's Skye?""Playing outside." I just nodded.Gerald followed me to bed. He hugged
I watched the faces of my two daughters. Their faces were similar, and one would not mistake them for siblings. Kelsea is beautiful, Verena too. However, where Verena's hair was taken from, her hair was slightly wavy and coppery brown. Even though mine and Gerald's hair are straight. Ah, whichever is important, my children are healthy.From her wavy hair, you can tell Verena's lashes are curled. Verena and Asher have gorgeous lashes; what I like most about Kelsea, her smile—even though she was pouting, still looking cute. My daughter, that one is not tired of being looked at. Her face is beautiful, so pretty. Sometimes I don't believe that I have such a beautiful child, even though her behaviour makes you shake your head.Moreover, Kelsea, a person who likes to take sour.Kelsea is more dominant. Genes are mine. However, it still looks crossbreed: Verena, more hair. Asher, I don't see my genes at all. He's a real G
Sorry for the typoEnjoy readingGerald's PovI am ready, and my hands are itching to kill people. It is not irrelevant.Rara immediately knew my attitude.She stroked my hand, even though I was clenching mine as hard as possible. My opponent might faint at all times."Gerald, don't." said Rara. Seeing my woman begging with puppy eyes and pleading, I gave up my mind. Even though my emotions are already on the crown, and I'm ready to go to prison right now."Oh, this kid made Rara a mess. And now she shamelessly comes as if there is no sin." Said the madman with songong. I don't remember and don't know his name. But what I remember he had felt my punch.It felt like I wanted to run over there and kick his evil mouth.I've been rushing. Rara pulled my hand.My breath is already one by one, so holding back emotions."Actually, what else do you want to come here for?" Asked that damn uncle calmly, but very harsh sarcasm.
I'm a little excited. After five weeks, I was down. I try to be sincere and accept everything. I'm trying to live a normal life without a lover. Yes, I didn't think this was the longest record without a partner. Usually, in two days I've got a replacement. And I don't think I'll get a partner anytime soon or maybe for the rest of my life.I can't move on. Even though this relationship has only been a few months, it is so lasting. I do not want to keep grieving and lamenting fate. I will try to forget everything and hope to find someone who helps me forget it."Nanana." I sing like crazy. I am ready to live a new day, and positive energy permeates my soul the last few days.Incidentally, today is a holiday."You sugar .. yes, please. Would you come and put it down on me?" I sing and go downstairs. I intend to help my mother. It's a coincidence that you have to give me a thumbs up. I never tidy up the
Sorry for the typoEnjoy readingGerald's PovMomentary emotions make things messy.Sorry, really sorry. I, who originally wanted to meet my lover and fix everything, instead, with an uncontrollable emotional state and jealousy everything fell apart.My relationship is on the edge, aka aground I think. And I regret my stupid deeds that I will regret for the rest of my life.Stupid, stupid, stupid! I cursed my stupidity. For hurting the person I love, and the wound will definitely remain and will be remembered for a lifetime. This suicide is her name.My lover, I really am very sorry. I who was initially filled with anger saw hee lying and helpless. Make me regret it. And now only regret I guess.I helped hee, when she passed out. I have always been her hero, and will remain her hero.But when I brought it into the house, and Rara's mother always looked unhappy, especially since I had made her child pass out. Plus the gol
Sorry for the typoEnjoy readingMy world stopped spinning. Yes my world.I woke up, and when I woke up I was in the hospital. I could say I'm sick, but my heart hurts more.All my life, I just had this pain. Broken my heart, I feel.It's hard to breathe, my breath is short. Thinking about all this, just thinking about it gave me a headache and a stomach upset, suddenly wanted to go to the toilet, but when I went to the toilet nothing happened.Paralyzed, my brain is paralyzed to think.It's been a week I didn't go to school, I dropped. Really drop and rushed to the hospital. I lacked fluids because there was no food coming in and cried all the time, my eyes might be blind too much crying.Poor mother, who is tired of taking care of me and I can only be a bother.Mother is always loyal and painstaking taking care of me. Myself is out of shape anymore. My eyes are sunken already. My face is pale, my lips are pale. And I think I lost
Gerald's PovMy world collapsed, I didn't expect my angel to be like a devil.Really. Just really.I lost my words to express it, I lost energy, lost everything. I lost everything because of her.There is no need to describe what I am anymore. You can imagine for yourself. You don't need to imagine. I just feel it.My world is upside down. My God, my world. My woman.I really didn't expect. I hope this is all a dream. And when I wake up I'll find her still by my side. I mean it still resides in my heart.My heart is dead, my taste is dead. Buried and carried away at the same time as the confession.It's killed me!This is no longer killing me slowly, but precisely stabbing the dagger of my heart. I no longer have a heart. I feel hearthless now!Damn! Because of women.I've never experienced anything like this before.Oh God, my woman! Do she still deserve or not consider her my woman? I really really
Anyone - Justin Bieber๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐWe've changed clothes, respectively. Yes, indeed, a date that I will never forget."Ready to date?" I smile. I'm excited now. If we can't be lovers, at least we've had different experiences. As my request, Gerald is wearing a purple shirt, and I am wearing a pink shirt, just like the other couple goals. I also asked him to wear a hat, very handsome of course. And I was told to tie up like a schoolgirl and wear glasses, really like a nerd. I wear big round glasses, and they droop a lot."I'm a nerd." I held out my hand."I'm a bad boy." Gerald introduced himself."No. You're not.""I am." I laughed and hugged him."Let's go." I don't remember if this was the last day I had fun. After this, it's all just memories, which will put me down as much as possible."Before the date, it looks like we need to eat.""Right," I said, confirming the word lover a day."But
Hold On - Justin Bieber๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐI could only cry and sat on the floor, watching Gerald move away. I'm still holding it down my stomach. It hurts so much.I deliberately felt it down. I was afraid my ass was bleeding because of the force of gravity downward."Wake up." Mas Rangga stretched out his hand. I feel more and more devastated."Thank you." I wiped my tears while sitting on the bench earlier."Rara wants to go home." My mood fell apart. I'm not in the mood for what to do. My lower stomach hurts too. I better go home and rest.Mas Rangga knows my broken mood. Luckily I had time to eat."Thank you for your kindness, Mas. Rara prayed hope you will find the perfect companion." I immediately ran into the house. I do not want to hear what Mas Rangga said.I just cried and cried, regardless of what was going on around me._____________________"This is what I said before, make sin not to re