After crying, I entered the museum again. I'm looking for Mas Rangga. I'm also not thinking straight. Emotions still overtake me. I was mad at Gerald, angry at my mother, and mad at myself.
And stupidly, my cellphone is thrown away. I also didn't have time to pay attention, where Gerald dumped the cellphone. After this, my cellphone is like it used to be. It won't be replaced. I just took a tired breath from my bad luck.
I'm just looking for Mas Rangga like a child who lost his way. Before I already wiped all my tears, I don't want to look pathetic.
Again, again. Damn it Gerald. And unfortunately, I love him very much.
I went around looking again and never found Mas Rangga. I also don't know if Mas Rangga has come home. Because I wasn't sure how long it took, we left Mas Rangga.
Look Gerald. I do, make your orders come back with Mas Rangga. My head is still dizzy. I don't know where to ta
I felt vacation. Because since here, I was mostly confined in the apartment.Gerald fucking Willson, which makes me unable to explore this part of the European world's beauty. Because every moment is he's doing all his perverted things. There is no time and opportunity, besides Gerald spends more time outside, and I am alone in the little apartment.We toured many of the most commonly recommended tourist attractions in Frankfurt. I don't need to explain. You have to search yourself. But mostly I like being on the banks of the Am Main river.I'm waiting for spring to see more of Frankfurt's beauty. I'm also looking forward to summer, to enjoy free fruit in Hessen. If it's summer, I'll stay in Hessen. If Gerald doesn't want to accompany me, I can sharpen the wild fruit oma or the wild mushrooms that Gerald used to say. I have to make fair use of every opportunity, when else can I enjoy like this, only the chosen ones can feel.Impatient, eating apples straight
I'm just silent because of the mistakes I made. Gerald was also silent the whole way. Maybe we both realized what happened and discovered the childish nature we had done.I waited for Gerald to explode, and I was ready to fend him off. I have to be strict with my relationship now. There is no word unstable and do not have the heart because all of that damaged my connection and impacted me.I'm tired of my life. Especially the people around me, who always considered me lightly and thought I couldn't do anything about it, and I ever made the wrong decisions. To hell with people. From now on, I will focus on my relationship with my husband.I leaned my head on the dashboard and turned towards Gerald. Ok, I'm crazy. I imagine my husband, Justin Bieber. Realize Rara, and you are not as beautiful as Selena Gomez. Justin Bieber is married, and his wife is not beautiful, in my opinion. Rara, you are not beautiful, either. I was pounding my head on the dashboard, completely
"Gerald what is this?" I shouted, so louder. Breathless, I turned to Gerald, who was so casually standing, leaning his back against the wall, hands over his chest. He wanted to show all this to impress me. Unfortunately, I'm not impress at all.Our meager living room looks no further. It was covered with new and strange stuff. I saw a baby cot, baby clothes, baby knick-knacks, baby toiletries, soap, and all stuffs with all the baby's needs. Woah. Is this a surprise or a waste? And I'm not impressed at all. Am I bad? I have no idea. I'm not touched one bit. Gerald is extravagant. The baby's needs, spend as necessary because the baby's development is fast. She could only wear clothes once and then not be used again. Gerald should buy what he needs, not buy up a single shop."You bought all of this?" my voice sounded unhappy.Gerald raised his eyebrows. "There is something wrong?"" Wrong? You ask me wrong? This
One day before Christmas day. I had to buy a present because tonight there will be an exchange of gifts. Not wanting to celebrate Christmas, but more to tradition. In my life, I have never celebrate what Christmas was like.Along the way, Christmas trees have been decorated in such a way. And every house has a Christmas tree perch. So we will exchange gifts at oma's home in Hessen. Think of it as Eid at Grandma's house.What makes me confused, what gift? What gift should I buy, for Gerald? Oma especially. And I am utterly blind to reference facilities for oma. I don't know what oma likes. Ah, anything in my eyes is beautiful. I just bought it. Gerald? I guess I bought him a pack of condoms. He doesn't mind. But what are condoms for? We never played with condoms again. It could be, he's wearing a condom out there. Duh, don't let this happen. Ok, this is too much."Gerald, what gift for oma?""Anything." a
"So, what do you think I am? Why do you often do things without me knowing before?"Cry? yes, I'm crying. My emotions are running high. I know Gerald likes to do things suddenly. But not with a change in his plans. Why doesn't he want to discuss everything with me first? What do I want to be considered? Why should he choose a German citizen if he is married and will have children? Why he is so selfish? If he thought of me, he definitely wouldn't vote for a German citizen. Argh ... this damn bastard always makes my head dizzy.My heart ached and even felt like being betrayed. Damn it! I was sobbing, even more, could no longer understand his thoughts."I've never been useful to be a wife. So, you really don't need to tell me whatever you choose and do." I sobbed softly. Like there's nothing left."Listen to me first." I sat at the end of the bed. Gerald below and took my hand. I wanted to kick him. I was too pissed off. Very annoyed. Why did he do things that m
I'm still grumpy. With his curse, Gerald instead came out of the room and joined his family to open gifts. What a husband. Rare husband, with rare traits too.Automatically, if Gerald wants to return to Indonesia, he has to take care of passports and other complicated document matters. Or is it that he plans never to come home again? How about me? I am Indonesian—Indonesian citizens. Even though Gerald has dual citizenship, he still has to have two passports. But was Gerald's choosing the right one?This is how complicated it is, having a Caucasian husband and a husband who thinks his ego.Argh...I bite the pillow anxiously. I want to bite my husband. Let it bleed. Now and then, I need to bite Gerald to teach him a lesson. He's just super annoying. For some reason, that ugly character is very attached to him. He never looked right in my eyes. Ugh ... wake me up to be a grateful human."Come on
I looked, turned to Violin, and there was a hint of disappointment in her eyes. What's wrong if I kiss my husband? Can I not be spoiled with my husband? Thinking of this, I believe Violin wants to get a spoiled kiss from me. I jumped from Gerald's lap. Back in the living room, Gerald's family gathered."Which Violin?" I asked, as Gerald's family laughed and took each wine out of their hands."Violin? Grandma doesn't have a violin." asked oma in surprise. Make no mistake. I closed my mouth and shook my head. I could mistake someone's name later. I'm an impolite human being. Even so, it is true. I want to maintain the best image in front of my in-laws. They are so lovely to me. They care for me."What about Winola?" This is the first time I mention this crazy woman's name. Luckily I still remember her name. Because I look back. Viola-Viola-Winola. Yeah, all correct. It looks familiar right, with her name?"Go ho
I'm not sure what time I got up, but my stomach squeals for food.I tried to get up and felt whether my stomach still ached. Thankfully not.Luckily, I'm not a vengeful person. If not, I will pull phsyco's violin hair bald. Moreover, nothing happened to my daughter. I will be like a fierce mother, hen, while looking after her chicks. I will head on her using whatever I can.I pulled my feet out of bed and tried to stand up. My butt was excruciatingly sore. My butt isn't swollen. I've never heard of a swollen buttocks case. It feels like my butt is sore. Could it be that I can't walk?I stood up and closed my eyes, considering whether to walk or lie back down. My stomach rumbled even more.With shuffling steps, I walked. My ass, poor ass.I hobbled along while biting my lip to endure the pain. I walked like the person who just losing her virginity. It hurts even more than that by holding the end of the stairs and counting one by one as you descend.
I'm lying in the room—me time. I just lay there watching TV. I just saw moving images on the plasma. Because on purpose, I didn't raise the voice.My physique can be in the room, and my mind wanders far.The sound of the door opening. My heart immediately warmed. This is what I'm waiting for."Mom." I miss that voice. No matter how selfish and no matter how strong my heart refuses and hurts with past events. I remain, take this man back, and forgive him without knowing it."Why?" I asked dryly. A week, he didn't fill this room."Daddy missed you. Sorry for everything. Honestly, I can't be away from you. Ah, I'm crazy there. I can't be apart from my children, and I can't be apart from you either. Please, mom, you can punish anything, but do not separate. This is torturous. " I looked at Gerald, saw the sincerity of the words that came out of his lips."Where's Skye?""Playing outside." I just nodded.Gerald followed me to bed. He hugged
I watched the faces of my two daughters. Their faces were similar, and one would not mistake them for siblings. Kelsea is beautiful, Verena too. However, where Verena's hair was taken from, her hair was slightly wavy and coppery brown. Even though mine and Gerald's hair are straight. Ah, whichever is important, my children are healthy.From her wavy hair, you can tell Verena's lashes are curled. Verena and Asher have gorgeous lashes; what I like most about Kelsea, her smile—even though she was pouting, still looking cute. My daughter, that one is not tired of being looked at. Her face is beautiful, so pretty. Sometimes I don't believe that I have such a beautiful child, even though her behaviour makes you shake your head.Moreover, Kelsea, a person who likes to take sour.Kelsea is more dominant. Genes are mine. However, it still looks crossbreed: Verena, more hair. Asher, I don't see my genes at all. He's a real G
Sorry for the typoEnjoy readingGerald's PovI am ready, and my hands are itching to kill people. It is not irrelevant.Rara immediately knew my attitude.She stroked my hand, even though I was clenching mine as hard as possible. My opponent might faint at all times."Gerald, don't." said Rara. Seeing my woman begging with puppy eyes and pleading, I gave up my mind. Even though my emotions are already on the crown, and I'm ready to go to prison right now."Oh, this kid made Rara a mess. And now she shamelessly comes as if there is no sin." Said the madman with songong. I don't remember and don't know his name. But what I remember he had felt my punch.It felt like I wanted to run over there and kick his evil mouth.I've been rushing. Rara pulled my hand.My breath is already one by one, so holding back emotions."Actually, what else do you want to come here for?" Asked that damn uncle calmly, but very harsh sarcasm.
I'm a little excited. After five weeks, I was down. I try to be sincere and accept everything. I'm trying to live a normal life without a lover. Yes, I didn't think this was the longest record without a partner. Usually, in two days I've got a replacement. And I don't think I'll get a partner anytime soon or maybe for the rest of my life.I can't move on. Even though this relationship has only been a few months, it is so lasting. I do not want to keep grieving and lamenting fate. I will try to forget everything and hope to find someone who helps me forget it."Nanana." I sing like crazy. I am ready to live a new day, and positive energy permeates my soul the last few days.Incidentally, today is a holiday."You sugar .. yes, please. Would you come and put it down on me?" I sing and go downstairs. I intend to help my mother. It's a coincidence that you have to give me a thumbs up. I never tidy up the
Sorry for the typoEnjoy readingGerald's PovMomentary emotions make things messy.Sorry, really sorry. I, who originally wanted to meet my lover and fix everything, instead, with an uncontrollable emotional state and jealousy everything fell apart.My relationship is on the edge, aka aground I think. And I regret my stupid deeds that I will regret for the rest of my life.Stupid, stupid, stupid! I cursed my stupidity. For hurting the person I love, and the wound will definitely remain and will be remembered for a lifetime. This suicide is her name.My lover, I really am very sorry. I who was initially filled with anger saw hee lying and helpless. Make me regret it. And now only regret I guess.I helped hee, when she passed out. I have always been her hero, and will remain her hero.But when I brought it into the house, and Rara's mother always looked unhappy, especially since I had made her child pass out. Plus the gol
Sorry for the typoEnjoy readingMy world stopped spinning. Yes my world.I woke up, and when I woke up I was in the hospital. I could say I'm sick, but my heart hurts more.All my life, I just had this pain. Broken my heart, I feel.It's hard to breathe, my breath is short. Thinking about all this, just thinking about it gave me a headache and a stomach upset, suddenly wanted to go to the toilet, but when I went to the toilet nothing happened.Paralyzed, my brain is paralyzed to think.It's been a week I didn't go to school, I dropped. Really drop and rushed to the hospital. I lacked fluids because there was no food coming in and cried all the time, my eyes might be blind too much crying.Poor mother, who is tired of taking care of me and I can only be a bother.Mother is always loyal and painstaking taking care of me. Myself is out of shape anymore. My eyes are sunken already. My face is pale, my lips are pale. And I think I lost
Gerald's PovMy world collapsed, I didn't expect my angel to be like a devil.Really. Just really.I lost my words to express it, I lost energy, lost everything. I lost everything because of her.There is no need to describe what I am anymore. You can imagine for yourself. You don't need to imagine. I just feel it.My world is upside down. My God, my world. My woman.I really didn't expect. I hope this is all a dream. And when I wake up I'll find her still by my side. I mean it still resides in my heart.My heart is dead, my taste is dead. Buried and carried away at the same time as the confession.It's killed me!This is no longer killing me slowly, but precisely stabbing the dagger of my heart. I no longer have a heart. I feel hearthless now!Damn! Because of women.I've never experienced anything like this before.Oh God, my woman! Do she still deserve or not consider her my woman? I really really
Anyone - Justin Bieber💰💰💰💰💰💰💰💰💰💰💰💰💰We've changed clothes, respectively. Yes, indeed, a date that I will never forget."Ready to date?" I smile. I'm excited now. If we can't be lovers, at least we've had different experiences. As my request, Gerald is wearing a purple shirt, and I am wearing a pink shirt, just like the other couple goals. I also asked him to wear a hat, very handsome of course. And I was told to tie up like a schoolgirl and wear glasses, really like a nerd. I wear big round glasses, and they droop a lot."I'm a nerd." I held out my hand."I'm a bad boy." Gerald introduced himself."No. You're not.""I am." I laughed and hugged him."Let's go." I don't remember if this was the last day I had fun. After this, it's all just memories, which will put me down as much as possible."Before the date, it looks like we need to eat.""Right," I said, confirming the word lover a day."But
Hold On - Justin Bieber💰💰💰💰💰💰💰💰💰💰💰💰💰I could only cry and sat on the floor, watching Gerald move away. I'm still holding it down my stomach. It hurts so much.I deliberately felt it down. I was afraid my ass was bleeding because of the force of gravity downward."Wake up." Mas Rangga stretched out his hand. I feel more and more devastated."Thank you." I wiped my tears while sitting on the bench earlier."Rara wants to go home." My mood fell apart. I'm not in the mood for what to do. My lower stomach hurts too. I better go home and rest.Mas Rangga knows my broken mood. Luckily I had time to eat."Thank you for your kindness, Mas. Rara prayed hope you will find the perfect companion." I immediately ran into the house. I do not want to hear what Mas Rangga said.I just cried and cried, regardless of what was going on around me._____________________"This is what I said before, make sin not to re