I was woken up by someone and there was a faint smell of coffee. I opened my eyes gently. I saw my mother in law smiling down at me. I sat up immediately. I have slept very late sometime early in the morning. I don't know if my husband slept at all. I heard the sound of laptop clicking away the entire time. I cried and cried silently but didn't once turn over to him. I knew I could find no support in him only accusation of not doing what he wants. I know he hates me. I hate myself too because I was so weak and pathetic to keep feelings and sex separate.If I could have I would have had sex with him. But I don't know if I ever could. I'm not that kind of person."Dane is already up and is adamant about going right away. He sent me to know whether you want to sleep in or follow him", she said kindly."No I'm up. I will go", I said already jumping from the bed."Sorry you must be tired. My son keeps early hours none of our family has that trait . Not even my mother in law from hell. May
He is leaving right now. I'm still sitting here in my room. My tears had dried. But I dare not to see him before he goes or I'm afraid I will fall apart. He is going away breaking my heart to be with my sister. My whole body had gone numb thinking about it. I know the minute he board flight to Hawai it will be over. What ever unfinished business we had between us will end. What I want to do was hold him so tight and never let go. The question is why? But I'm afraid of the answer. I know that the first time I ever saw Dane I felt something deep in my chest come alive. It didn't matter to me that I was in a relationship. I didn't care that he was with my sister. I don't know what it was? I didn't even know him then. It was as if he was mine. We barely spoke but I crushed on him. In the lonely nights, my fingers seeked pleasure with his face on mind. Dane was the name that slipped from me when I cried out my release.Is this madness called love? If yes I will never be cured. The last ti
When I reached at my work place I was greeted by our overworked receptionist. I gave her a weak smile. I had the proposal in my hand. I didn't have ta laptop which was an issue. But I'm thinking of borrowing one from Janine I saw her using one. As of now I have no time to do it. So here I'm with a handwritten proposal and hoping they like it. I'm sure Irene or Hana would never accept it willingly but I can at least try. The work was my excuse to get away from problems and miseries.I was the first one to join this time. Slowly our small committee had come to life. Irene came really late but I didn't call her on it becoming a bigger person. I'm showing her how it is done. But she might think that may be because I was a coward which is kind of True too. All in all I want this to be a fresh start. Let bygones be bygones."So what's on today's agenda?", asked Irene in a bored tone."I have made a mini proposal. It is my first time. So I just wanted to get a good grasp of things first, if
I had always loved surprises but never received one. Receiving a surprise gift from Dane was surreal for me. I was relieved that I don't have to beg for laptops anymore neither would I be insulted for not having one. Could he give me anything sweeter? I was so much aggravated by him earlier but it was as though I had been calmed. Is it because of the gift? Probably yes but not only because of it. For me most important thing is that he remembered to get me one irrespective of his busy schedule. I would have forgotten if I were in his position. Giving me a gift implies only thing that I'm in his mind just as he was in mine.I wanted to thank him. But I don't know how? I quickly call Charlie. She thankfully answers me. Sometimes she had this nasty habit of digital detox and she stops touching the phone all of a sudden."Hi girl", she chirped from the other end."Hey Charlie. Are you busy? I need a quick advice", I said to her."Why? What happened? You never needed my advice before. Have y
I couldn't believe what had happened? I had bared myself to Dane. I didn't even try to resist him for a second. Why would I do that? But I knew the answer. I missed him and I was willing to risk it all just to catch a glimpse of interest in him. I had seen it in fact much more. I saw the desire blazing in those blue eyes like an ocean battling a storm. I laid on the bed and wondering what was Dane doing? Could he be pleasuring himself. I considered doing it too. But realising that it will give me seldom satisfaction especially when I know the face and arms I want to lose myself. I want Dane's fingers on me intimately touching and pleasuring me. Anything else will only be a process which I'm not interested.I didn't try to video call him again. I know it was too much for both of us. I wanted to get over this week so we can finally be with each other with out any pressures from outside.I'm waiting for the next week like an impatient school girl for her vacation. I was singing and gett
What do someone do on weekends? Fathima left to visit her husband. He is dead but she liked to see him where he rests peacefully. That is her thing I guess. Even though she didn't have to work she still made food and kept in the fridge which I'm grateful for because I'm not much of a cook or even take out girl. The problem with take out is that it costs a lot of money and hardly ever promise taste. Charlie cooks for me sometimes but I didn't like to take advantage of her. I considered stalking my husband and sister again but was bored of doing it too. My husband is probably busy too even if he wasn't I won't call him. It will sound too clingy even for me. I tried to call Charlie but she is out with her new girlfriend who I haven't met by the way. That is when I realised I had Renee's number. I dialled it and she took my call thankfully. We decided to meet up in a restaurant. I wanted to get out of the house because I'm becoming very horny and being alone in my house is dangerous.We
I felt his smooth lips caressing my inner thighs. I saw him. Kneeling between my legs. I don't think I have ever seen something as beautiful as this. I'm not wearing any pants just the purple underwear that he let me wear. My legs were shaved and I had a good sense to do it before he caught me half naked. His thumb was caressing the panty line. Drawing circles in my panty covered pussy. I moaned when he found the spot. I want him to take it off and ride me."Please", I begged him.I opened my eyes when he didn't respond. But I couldn't find him anymore. My eyes half closed shot up on. It is not fair of him to leave me like this. He is not here. I was all alone panting like a drowning woman. A wave of disappointment ran over me. It was a dream. For heaven's sake show me some pity. I can't survive without having him. I'm worse than a dog in heat. This is the first time I'm being like this. My heart was beating so hard and fast as though it is begging for pleasure. I sighed and left the b
I woke up with a splitting head ache that is the cost you will pay for partying hard. I had to go to work with a fucking hang over Damn it. Last night came back to me like a movie. I had done some major fuck ups last night. If I had any hopes of being with my best friend for the rest of our life I better make some amends and do it as soon as possible. But I have work which is too important to miss. I know it doesn't make much difference to them. It matters to me I don't take leaves unnecessarily.Fathima served me my coffee with a frown. I knew she didn't approve me drinking. It might be because of her religious upbringing. I'm also not much of a drinker. I was only trying to be more like Heidi. I realise that now. I'm getting insecure and all these things happened because I can't control my feelings. So instead of solving my problems I tried to keep others from making the mistakes I prayed my husband and sister shouldn't make. I shouldn't judge others with a moral compass because n