He is leaving right now. I'm still sitting here in my room. My tears had dried. But I dare not to see him before he goes or I'm afraid I will fall apart. He is going away breaking my heart to be with my sister. My whole body had gone numb thinking about it. I know the minute he board flight to Hawai it will be over. What ever unfinished business we had between us will end. What I want to do was hold him so tight and never let go. The question is why? But I'm afraid of the answer. I know that the first time I ever saw Dane I felt something deep in my chest come alive. It didn't matter to me that I was in a relationship. I didn't care that he was with my sister. I don't know what it was? I didn't even know him then. It was as if he was mine. We barely spoke but I crushed on him. In the lonely nights, my fingers seeked pleasure with his face on mind. Dane was the name that slipped from me when I cried out my release.Is this madness called love? If yes I will never be cured. The last ti
When I reached at my work place I was greeted by our overworked receptionist. I gave her a weak smile. I had the proposal in my hand. I didn't have ta laptop which was an issue. But I'm thinking of borrowing one from Janine I saw her using one. As of now I have no time to do it. So here I'm with a handwritten proposal and hoping they like it. I'm sure Irene or Hana would never accept it willingly but I can at least try. The work was my excuse to get away from problems and miseries.I was the first one to join this time. Slowly our small committee had come to life. Irene came really late but I didn't call her on it becoming a bigger person. I'm showing her how it is done. But she might think that may be because I was a coward which is kind of True too. All in all I want this to be a fresh start. Let bygones be bygones."So what's on today's agenda?", asked Irene in a bored tone."I have made a mini proposal. It is my first time. So I just wanted to get a good grasp of things first, if
I had always loved surprises but never received one. Receiving a surprise gift from Dane was surreal for me. I was relieved that I don't have to beg for laptops anymore neither would I be insulted for not having one. Could he give me anything sweeter? I was so much aggravated by him earlier but it was as though I had been calmed. Is it because of the gift? Probably yes but not only because of it. For me most important thing is that he remembered to get me one irrespective of his busy schedule. I would have forgotten if I were in his position. Giving me a gift implies only thing that I'm in his mind just as he was in mine.I wanted to thank him. But I don't know how? I quickly call Charlie. She thankfully answers me. Sometimes she had this nasty habit of digital detox and she stops touching the phone all of a sudden."Hi girl", she chirped from the other end."Hey Charlie. Are you busy? I need a quick advice", I said to her."Why? What happened? You never needed my advice before. Have y
I couldn't believe what had happened? I had bared myself to Dane. I didn't even try to resist him for a second. Why would I do that? But I knew the answer. I missed him and I was willing to risk it all just to catch a glimpse of interest in him. I had seen it in fact much more. I saw the desire blazing in those blue eyes like an ocean battling a storm. I laid on the bed and wondering what was Dane doing? Could he be pleasuring himself. I considered doing it too. But realising that it will give me seldom satisfaction especially when I know the face and arms I want to lose myself. I want Dane's fingers on me intimately touching and pleasuring me. Anything else will only be a process which I'm not interested.I didn't try to video call him again. I know it was too much for both of us. I wanted to get over this week so we can finally be with each other with out any pressures from outside.I'm waiting for the next week like an impatient school girl for her vacation. I was singing and gett
What do someone do on weekends? Fathima left to visit her husband. He is dead but she liked to see him where he rests peacefully. That is her thing I guess. Even though she didn't have to work she still made food and kept in the fridge which I'm grateful for because I'm not much of a cook or even take out girl. The problem with take out is that it costs a lot of money and hardly ever promise taste. Charlie cooks for me sometimes but I didn't like to take advantage of her. I considered stalking my husband and sister again but was bored of doing it too. My husband is probably busy too even if he wasn't I won't call him. It will sound too clingy even for me. I tried to call Charlie but she is out with her new girlfriend who I haven't met by the way. That is when I realised I had Renee's number. I dialled it and she took my call thankfully. We decided to meet up in a restaurant. I wanted to get out of the house because I'm becoming very horny and being alone in my house is dangerous.We
I felt his smooth lips caressing my inner thighs. I saw him. Kneeling between my legs. I don't think I have ever seen something as beautiful as this. I'm not wearing any pants just the purple underwear that he let me wear. My legs were shaved and I had a good sense to do it before he caught me half naked. His thumb was caressing the panty line. Drawing circles in my panty covered pussy. I moaned when he found the spot. I want him to take it off and ride me."Please", I begged him.I opened my eyes when he didn't respond. But I couldn't find him anymore. My eyes half closed shot up on. It is not fair of him to leave me like this. He is not here. I was all alone panting like a drowning woman. A wave of disappointment ran over me. It was a dream. For heaven's sake show me some pity. I can't survive without having him. I'm worse than a dog in heat. This is the first time I'm being like this. My heart was beating so hard and fast as though it is begging for pleasure. I sighed and left the b
I woke up with a splitting head ache that is the cost you will pay for partying hard. I had to go to work with a fucking hang over Damn it. Last night came back to me like a movie. I had done some major fuck ups last night. If I had any hopes of being with my best friend for the rest of our life I better make some amends and do it as soon as possible. But I have work which is too important to miss. I know it doesn't make much difference to them. It matters to me I don't take leaves unnecessarily.Fathima served me my coffee with a frown. I knew she didn't approve me drinking. It might be because of her religious upbringing. I'm also not much of a drinker. I was only trying to be more like Heidi. I realise that now. I'm getting insecure and all these things happened because I can't control my feelings. So instead of solving my problems I tried to keep others from making the mistakes I prayed my husband and sister shouldn't make. I shouldn't judge others with a moral compass because n
I feel so low now. I don't know how I could ever function without Charlie? I know this marriage is going to cost me a lot and it had proven right in that aspect. I wanted to see my father. I need his support. I had done this marriage for him mostly. So that he can come back to life. I wanted to make him happy like Heidi used to do. I don't know when is Heidi coming back? Why had she left us? Did she hate me for marrying Dane? I never dreamt of taking her place in life. That is why I left the company because I didn't want my father to choose. Though Charlie said he will choose my sister. But I didn't believe so. Who can choose between their daughters?When I rang the bell my father opened the door. I was surprised to see him up and walking. I could see Ella no where. She had gone back to her partying ways.He looked at me worriedly. I know he is afraid that I had come home unannounced abruptly without Dane could mean one thing and that is trouble. "What are you doing here? Where is
Charlie hadn't said anything to Dane. If only she waited for him to talk. Charlie pretended to say the truth so that Heidi comes clean before Dane. She had done it but I knew she will pay the cost for it. Dane now knows everything. The Wedding won't happen now. I felt a little sorry for my sister after all she had lost Dane again."You didn't say the truth to me. I'm angry at you too", said Dane."I won't blame you. I should have told you about Enzo but I was afraid you won't take it seriously", I confessed."His people had shot me and you think I won't take it seriously? Ziva please be mature", said Dane."I'm sorry Dane", I said."You made us lose our precious three years of life. I missed my daughter's birth and her significant mile stones. It is not something that I can forgive", said Dane."You are right. I was a coward and everyone used that knowledge to influence me", I admitted."You are not a coward Ziva. I wish you were a little more selfish. You sacrificed us for my life. I
When I reached the venue I was immediately ushered into the groom's room. I went to see Dane working on the laptop. My daughter screamed and went to hug him. He took her and lifted above his shoulders. Who knew my serious daughter was a fun loving girl ?"I miss you daddy", she said."I miss you too bug", he said."Don't get married", she said bossily."Why?", he asked curiously."Because mommy cries", she said shocking me.He looked at me with a hint of smile. I was dumb struck."I wasn't", I said to him.She climbed down from her father and took her place next to me. I gave her a warning look."Don't lie", she said to me."I'm not lying", I said to her."You said that daddy", she was about to say everything but I put my hand on her mouth."That is enough", I warned her."There is still time confess your love or it will be too late", he said with a smirk."No. Our life is not a rom Com Dane. Everything is not black and white", I said to him."Fine your wish", he said.I took my daugh
I'm a stubborn creature where the need arises. I'm not going to backdown even if he says that he can't live without me. But I knew he won't say it. I had hurt him enough but still he says he can't marry Heidi. I can't go home till we reaches some sort of agreement."Dane. I'm not going back where it all started. I want an out", I said painfully. I had a fair idea on how much I was hurting him."Fine. I will get married but you have to be at the wedding. If you decide not to come at the last moment the wedding is off", said Dane."You can't say that. Please I won't go back not with Enzo there", I said to him."The wedding is going to happen here and tomorrow. Remember to be there else there is no wedding. I had booked a cab for you. It is not a good idea for me to join you", he said. I nodded my head. I was ready already.I have to be there at Dane's wedding to my sister. The fate couldn't be any more cruel. It hurt me like hell to adjust to the prospect that my husband is going to get
The thing about mistake is that we don't have a desire to undo it constantly but I didn't feel that way. Sleeping with Dane might be a bad choice on my part but I never regret a second that I spent with him. I would do it all over again if given another chance. But I shall remain silent. My thoughts never should come out of my head. It must stay there safe and silent. Even after I insulted Dane he being a gentleman had gone to fetch me fresh clothes. I stay there waiting for him to get the clothes. He must have ordered it through the hotel. But it still hadn't come. So he had gone there to check what happened to my dress. He might have fired somebody too if the hotel was his.I heard a knock and Dane came through. I stayed there very still. All my instincts said to go towards him. My emotions were over the top plus the amazing sex we had destroyed any small amount of self-control I used to have."Here is your dress", he said putting it on the bed."Can you give me some privacy?", I as
"I'm sorry for hurting you. I want us both to move on for the sake of Angel. You are also getting married to my sister. Let us end this please. What do you want in return for it?", I asked him."I want you to give me back every kiss I gave you. Then I will forget you and move on", he said."Fine. I have a condition too. I want you to give me back every kiss I gave you as well. So that we can settle the score", he said."Done", he said. I was the one who charged at him he bent down the kiss me. We kissed each other like there was no tomorrow. His tongue duelling with mine. I gasped when he bit my lips hard enough that it hurt. I bit him too drawing blood. He chuckled when he heard me growl. You better stop provoking me. I said in my mind.His hands cupping my boobs. I moaned when his hands tore my expensive dress. I didn't bother to put aside the tattered dress. It lied crumpled on the ground. I stood there in my undergarments. He removed a single boob from the constraints of my bra. H
"You can't let go of me right? You wanted to play me even after leaving me. I just played you back", he said with tight eyes."It wasn't any game Heidi loves you. She asked my help I gave it to her. I have no other interest in you", I said to him."Is that so? Then why are you on a date with me? How does it help your sister?", he asked me crossing his arms."I'm doing what I'm told. You said you will leave me alone after this date", I reminded him."I said and you listened. Things are that easy for you? Our life together didn't matter to you isn't that right? You couldn't endure a life with a handicap so you left me. But still you are here they are right what goes around comes around", he said."Why do you ask me to this date? Is it to torture me?", I asked him."No. I'm on this date to say you goodbye. You might have meddled with my life a lot. But after today you won't do anything like that ever again. I wanted to destroy you initially but then I realised that you are also mother of
"And what do you think?", I asked him."I know my feelings never died for you", he said thoughtfully."You are only saying this to punish me", I said."Why would I want to punish you?", he asked me."Because I left you three years ago", I said."It is correct that you left me. I don't think I can ever forgive you for that. But that doesn't mean that I had lost my feelings for you", he said."I think you want to bed me that is why you are talking about the feelings all of a sudden", I said."I would always want to bed you. I'm attracted to you physically and mentally. I will always want sex from you. Even when we are both a hundred years old", he said."I don't want you", I shot back at him."I realised that three long years ago. But that hadn't deterred me from wanting you like a Madan", said he."You shouldn't say such stupid things. I have used you in the past and disregarded you as it suited me", I lied to him."I got that. It still hurts. I thought you were in love with me", he sa
"You look beautiful", said Charlie carrying my daughter on her hip."Thanks", I murmured putting on the necklace.My open-sleeve dress had so many boob's that I was sure Dane would drool. I knew the game that I was playing is a dangerous one for both parties. It was like fighting with a sword that has no pommel. It can cut both."Is this some kind of a reminder for him? To have an idea of what he missed?", she asked me."I'm only getting ready for the date as he asked me to. That is all there it is. A single date where we will behave like it was the first time I'm seeing him walking", I said."You mean like while you were married to him", she said."Yes for a single date. But there won't be anything beyond that. He is going to get married soon to my sister. She had already told me that it is OK. Dane said that this date night is all he is asking in return for leaving me alone. I have nothing more to ask for from Dane and he will only get what he asked", I said."That is going to be to
I have decided to give him what he want. I know it will be a lie to confess that it is something that he only he wants. I want that too. A date that we missed three years ago. I couldn't help but imagine what would have happened if I hadn't met Enzo that day. I want to see him walk towards me for the first time again. He would have been romantic and flirty with me all night. We would have ended that night early each of us eager to go home. So that we could celebrate together at night.I was very nervous. Something inside my mind warned me from going through with Dane's idea. It is not only a worst idea but the after math of the said date would be incomprehensible. I won't be able to forget and move on while he ends this fantasy of date. I would be left with broken pieces of my heart.I called Charlie for clarity. I doubt she has anything new to supply. I already know consequences of my decision even though it doesn't make a difference to me.She picked on the first ring. She had alrea