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Alam ko na mahirap mag tiwala ulit, so I am trying to build my trust to him again. But, I want to be observant this time. Ayaw ko na paulit-ulit akong niloloko ng mga tao. Hindi ko nga alam pero parang nakaka dissapoint na kapag nakikita ko si Diego. The desires, the fire was no longer there, here in my heart. I don't know why, but this is what I am feeling. It seems like the fire is slowly fading away.

Because of that thingshe did, I am slowly losing the interest of being with him. I have loved him for almost a decade and because of that big mistake he did, I am slowly losing it. Alam ko na parang ang bilis mawala pero ito talaga ang nararamdaman ko eh. Or baka nasaktan lang talaga ako ng sobra kaya ganito ako mag-isip. Pero kinakapa ko ang sarili ko, ang puso ko kung meron pa ba talaga ngunit parang hindi na talaga siya tulad sa dati.

Selfish ba akong tao kung ganito nararamdaman ko after kong malaman ang kataksilan ng asawa ko? Masama b na ganito ako? Na dahan-dahan nawawala ang ap