“You can’t possibly be considering leaving,” Teresa snaps as she sees me with a suitcase on the bed and clothes strewn all over the room.
“I can’t stay, Tere. I can’t be here, and I can’t marry a man I don’t love, one I don’t even know. This is just stupid!”
I’ve spent the whole day in a fury. My wedding planning was long before I found out. Not days, weeks ago. That man had already come to negotiate with my father and tried to have me as if I were a stove you could buy or a refrigerator you see in an appliance store. When he made his choice, he made up his mind and said, “This is the one I want to take.”
He treated me like an object from the start. He doesn’t even know me. He didn’t even have the delicacy to ask me if I wanted to get married. That makes me understand that my life will be like this if I marry him.
He will make all the decisions even if they are not for my convenience or my benefit.
He will not ask me if I want to change the color of the house’s walls, and he will not ask me what we will do for Christmas Eve. In short, he will not question me on which side of the bed I will want to sleep.
I must rule out all those possibilities since the guy is an egoist and narcissist, a man who thinks he can have and get whatever he wants because he has money. Therefore, he believes he has every right to go around the world buying women to make them the mother of his child and perhaps his servant.
He was wrong about me.
“You stress yourself out without knowing him. Have you thought that maybe it’s not true what they say? What if you like the Shady One?”
“That’s not going to happen, Tere,” I gasp, fold more clothes and place them inside the suitcase.
“You don’t know. You don’t know if he’s a good person. He has taken care of his son by himself. He’s a good father who’s just trying to give the best future and family environment to his son.”
“You talk as if you know him, Teresa.” It bothers me that she sees all this as so normal and appealing.
It’s crazy!
“I don’t know him. You know that he has secluded himself in his castle and has rarely let himself be seen since his wife passed away.”
“Then stop defending him! He came to buy me. He came to pay for me, to ask me to be his wife without consulting me. This isn’t the bloody Middle Ages!”
My sister begins to laugh, and it unnerves my blood.
Her bright brown eyes watch me with amusement; she’s not upset at all with my current situation. In fact, she seems to enjoy it.
Teresa has always been outgoing, full of life, and a very intrinsic desire to see the world, go out and walk around with no strings attached. In addition, she is a gorgeous young woman, much more so than me. Her hair is light golden with dark highlights that she had dyed at a beauty salon less than a month ago and is above her shoulders, so it gives her a more youthful look, although she doesn’t need it, given that she is only twenty years old. Plus, her nails are always manicured.
“You’re drowning in a glass of water. You’re not looking at things from a different perspective.”
“Perspective, Teresa? For the love of the forbidden, they’re forcing me to marry the Shady One!” Her calmness baffles and angers me.
It’s one thing to be cheerful in front of everyone, always remaining calm and positive, and quite another not to see the obvious: I’m about to tie myself to a man for the rest of my days.
“Maybe he’ll die in five years,” she replies when I tell her.
“Don’t say such things!” I shriek. “He’s not old enough to die in five years.”
“Then what are you complaining about? You’re marrying a millionaire man, young, full of life and health. He’s fought to have you.” She fans herself with her hands as if a warmth takes over her body. “I try to understand you, Tati, but you make it difficult for me. You got a bargain! What woman doesn’t dream of marrying a millionaire?”
“I don’t dream of it, nor have I ever dreamed of it!” I grumble, furious. “I don’t want this. I don’t want that man.” And poor Lucian! “How am I going to tell Lucian tonight that I’m getting married? I’ll break his heart!”
My sister watches me, furious. Her eyes change from blissful to sparkling as if a fire is rising in her body.
“Forget Lucian. He’s not the man for you. You deserve so much more, one like the Shady One!”
“But what a thing to say, Tere! I’ve been with Lucian for years, and he’s the best man I’ve ever known. He’s the best thing that could have happened to me.” I think I’m going to burst into tears, so I sit down on the edge of the bed and drop all the weight of these two days, the hardest forty-eight hours I’ve ever spent, and they’re not over yet!
“I’m just telling you, he’s not for you. He doesn’t reciprocate the way you deserve, but you’ve been blind thinking that’s all you can have.” She sits next to me. She gives me advice as if she’s older than me. “You refuse to see beyond your horizons. Love is not blind; it is us who refuse to see what is happening in front of our eyes.”
Something in her words and the way she narrates it makes me nervous and produces concern.
“What do you know that I don’t know?” I contemplate her and wait for her answer.
For the first time since she came to see me tonight, my sister ducks her head and shies away. This action is even more disturbing to me. Teresa has never been one for a few words or shyness in expressing what she thinks.
“Tere, sis, what do you know? I’m starting to get nervous.”
She gets up from the bed and scrutinizes me for a thousandth of a second. When I think she’s finally going to tell me, she turns to the door and starts to leave.
“Tere!” She stops. I don’t understand her mysterious attitude at all. “Tell me what’s going on with Lucian. What the hell do you know that I don’t? Look, in less than an hour, he’s coming. If you don’t tell me, I’ll get the information out of him. I’d rather know it from you, who is my sister because I trust you more than anyone else than him, who is my...”
“Your boyfriend, the man you love,” she interrupts me. “That’s why I’m afraid you’ll believe him and not me. If you want to leave tonight, I don’t recommend it. However, I won’t stop you either. I won’t tell Mom, much less Dad. I only ask you to do it to leave alone, because you want to, because you don’t want to marry that man. Don’t leave because you think you have a future with Lucian,” she exclaims out almost breathlessly, her eyes on mine. She begs me for something I can’t quite make out.
Just before I can comment, she turns and finishes walking out of my room, crestfallen and slump-shouldered, leaving me in a tidal wave of uncertainty.
What is Teresa hiding? What is it about Lucian that makes it so serious that my sister won’t tell me? Is it true that we never really get to know people?
Tonight, I put on my perfume and a pale green strapless dress, which, according to Teresa, highlights my eyes. My hair is light brown, almost blonde, and gives the impression of having golden highlights, but I have never colored it.It scares me a little to talk to Lucian and find out what the hell my sister meant when she said I couldn’t trust him. She didn’t exactly mean it in those words. However, doubt implanted itself in my brain. Now I can only think that he is hiding something from me and that he acted in a way that may affect me or affect our relationship. I am afraid to know that what I thought I had with him was not true.I never wanted to be stuck in this town. Because it is so removed from civilization, characterized by being accustomed to stability, both emotionally and economically, no one loses their homes and suffers from a lack of food since everyone knows each other. If someone is in trouble, he will always have the helping hand of a neigh
I leave the room after listening to her and giving her the attention I should give her a month ago. I put Teresa to bed. I will never stop blaming myself for not noticing the small details, those crossed glances, those involuntary movements, the suspicion and hatred my sister had for my ex-boyfriend. Now I know.I want hell itself to swallow me up and take me for a sinner since I can’t imagine what that man could have done if I hadn’t arrived at the lake that day if I hadn’t arrived on time.Teresa told me that that evening, after six o’clock, she threw stones in the lake while she was thinking about getting out of town. She felt that this place was not for her. She told me how Lucian tried to kiss her several times. Then, she calmly asked him to stop, as he was with me and, more than anything else, she would ne
For a moment, I am speechless. I don’t know how to respond to such words. It seems taken out of a romantic novel, one of those where the couple lives happily ever after, where there are no barbarians who hurt or a Lucian who tries to abuse your sister, where parents don’t offer you as a sacrifice to pay their debts.One of those novels with endings apotheosically full of love.“It’s a bit of a corny phrase.” I play hard to get, even though I feel like my heart has turned to butter: melted by this stranger. I smile at how he makes me feel.“Corny or not, you’ve smiled.” He takes a step closer.Our breaths come together in silence.I can&rsquo
I awake to horrible pain and the singing of an early morning mockingbird.Slowly my consciousness falls to account for my previous night.“Oh, God!” I mutter as I rise from the green grass, which is damp with the dawn. It watches me, gossiping.I look everywhere. The coast is clear.I adjust my dress, which almost revealed a nipple.What the hell did I do?My sandals are on the side, delicately placed. I slip them on without blinking.Was it a dream? A beautiful dream, but no more than that? A dream of fantasies and wishes fulfilled!My curiosity is stronger than my modesty, so,
I stroll into the chapel, a place I used to visit only on Sundays with my parents. The day seems like any other day, although my heart screams at me that it is not like that, that from today I will change. My life will change completely. I will be from now on Mrs. Magghio, a full-fledged woman, a wife, and stepmother to a little baby. I will have no say over that house, over that home. As much as I try to pull myself together from this torture, I cannot help biting my lips to avoid crying. Secluded in the castle of the Shady One, fear tightens my chest and prevents me from breathing properly. The air does not reach my lungs easily, and I feel myself suffocating with every step I take. Meanwhile, the wedding march begins to play, but for me, it is a funeral march.
I enter my new home. The castle is full of dust, and the walls look like they haven’t been cleaned in months. There is not a single painting anywhere, no pictures, no portraits, nothing to indicate that a happy family lived here once.“Welcome,” I hear when Dario opens the door.Although that word must make me feel comfortable and at ease, the truth is that I assimilate it more like a welcome to the dungeon, like in the movies when they take you to jail, and the guard says, “Enjoy your stay.”I can’t cry again!The dinner ended, my family gave me a blessing and congratulated me on my recent marriage. I am now Tatiana Magghio, wife of the
Dario scrutinizes me for a few seconds before handing me over to Dante. I guess he’s pondering whether or not it’s appropriate for me to hold his son in my arms.I understand.He’s been alone these past few months.It’s something that, as coldly as he expresses it, I know it must not have been easy to raise the baby alone and come to terms with the loss of his wife in the same way.“Do you know how to hold babies?”“No.” I can’t help but be honest. I’ve never held children after adulthood.With my sister, me being three years older, I don’t remember if I ever carried her at all. But, nevertheless, I ha
In a matter of three seconds, I feel little Dante’s body being ripped from my arms. I hold on to a strong, muscular wall.It’s Dario or maybe his twin.My God, I can’t believe this is happening to me! Since when did Dario have a twin? This is something I hadn’t thought of before. It can’t be! This can’t be... Oh my God, it can’t be!Suddenly the memory of the night of pleasure with Dario comes to my mind. What if I didn’t really sleep that night at the lake with my husband but also with his twin? Oh no! No... no... this can’t be! This can’t happen to me.I feel my body slacken a little more, how the tingling in my hands increases, and my legs don’t cooperate to r