PATRICIA’S POV I didn’t sleep well the whole night. I was pre occupied by dad’s revelation. Callum's softness to me can't get rid of my anger towards him. What he did was inexplicable so last night, I thought to myself that why don't I take time to listen to his sides? I decided to talk to him as he wanted and of course, with Jess's advice. “Are you ready?” Isang tango ang sagot ko kay Jess nang makasakay ako sa sasakyan niya. Sasamahan niya ako’ng makipag-usap kay Callum ngayon. “Handa ka na ba sa mga sasabihin mo?” tanong niya ulit. Umiling ako bago huminga ng malalim. I’m a bit nervous. “Bakit ba kasi kailangan pa na gawin niya ’yon,” galit niya’ng sabi. “He better have a nice and acceptable reason! Dahil kung walang kwenta lang ang sasabihin niya, baka ako pa mismo ang sumampal sa kanila ni Zara!” Salubong ang kilay niya at padabog na pinaandar ang sasakyan. Sinabi ko sa kanya lahat ng sinabi sa’kin ni daddy kagabi. Hindi ako mapalagay. "You’re not mad at your daddy anym
PATRICIA’S POV “Anak, may bisita ka sa ibaba…” Nag pantig ang tenga ko sa sinabi ni mommy. I just woke up and I just want to coop here in my room the whole day. After what happened yesterday, I felt so weak. I can’t even eat properly. “If it’s Callum, make him leave-“ “Not him, his parents…” sabi ni mommy na nakapagpalaglag ng panga ko. “Bakit sila nandito?” taranta kong tanong at napatayo sa kama. “Mom, I can’t face them-“ “Nasabi ko na yan pero mapilit sila,” sumandal siya sa hamba ng pintuan. “It’s better if you’ll talk to them. I think it’s about Callum again?” Lumihis akong tingin. Pansin ko na mariin ang titig ni mommy sa mukha ko siguro dahil namamaga ang mata ko sa pag iyak buong gabi. “Hindi mo parin kasi sinasabi sa’kin ang nangyari kahapon sa usapan niyo ni Callum,” aniya sa tonong nagtatampo. “Kahit si Jess ay tikom din ang bibig. You got home last night crying. What happened?” I shook my head and smiled bitterly. “It was…nonsense,” “I’m sure it’s not good. Tell m
PATRICIA’S POV “Umuwi na naman daw na lasing si Callum kahapon,” Ibinagsak ko ang kutsara sa plato at mariin na tumitig kay Jess sa harap ko. Nagising na lang ako na narito na siya sa bahay. Halos marindi na ako sa boses niya. She keeps talking about how drunk Callum is last night. “I said, I don’t care about him,” mariin kong sabi at inirapan siya. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ngayon ay nag bago ang pananaw niya. Noong una ay galit na galit din siya kay Callum pero ngayon, parang gusto niya na kaawaan ko ito. “Hindi ka ba naaawa sa sinabi ko sayo noong isang araw? Sinampahan na raw siya ng kaso!” Sa tono niya ay parang dapat ako’ng mag-alala. “He can get out with that mess easily,” Kahit ang totoo, grabe ang kaba ko tuwing naiisip ’yon. I was worried for his life. Kung totoong mga Laurier nga ang nag tangka sa buhay ko noon, maaaring gawin din nila ’yon kay Callum! I should not be affected or felt worried about him but at some point, I can’t help it. Gusto ko siya’ng kagalitan
PATRICIA'S POV (Continuation...)Nanginginig ang mga kamay ko. Mas mabilis pa sa pagmamaneho ni Jess ang kabog ng dibdib ko ngayon. Callum is really hard headed. I will surely slap him if something bad happens to him. Driving drunk is not good! “Grabe naman pala ang tama sayo ni Callum!” ani Jess. “Madalas na raw uminom simula no’ng magkalabuan kayo,” Hindi ako mapakali. “Bakit ganon? Is my feelings didn’t valid? I am wrong for pushing him?” Nag init ang sulok ng mata ko. No, I don’t want to cry. “Kung sa’kin din nangyari ang ginawa nila, mas malala pa ang ginawa ko. Baka napatay ko silang dalawa!” Tumigil kami saglit dahil sa red light. “You know what, cheating is a choice and feelings are always valid,” she said seriously. “Yong ginawa mo kay Callum, tama lang at wag kang ma-guilty. Maybe it’s okay if you’ll talk to him,” Paano kung wala ako’ng matinong explanation na matanggap? What if he admit that he really cheat? Ano’ng gagawin ko? I’m sure I’ll be more wreck hearing it f
PATRICIA’S POV A very familiar white ceiling welcomed my sight as I opened my eyes. I could hear the sound of machine beside my bed. I roomed my eyes around. I’m in the hospital. Hindi ko masyado maigalaw ang katawan ko. Nakaramdam ako ng mabigat sa kamay ko kaya bumaba ang tingin ko roon. I saw someone sleeping. “Jess?” I called in a low voice. Her face was resting on my hand. Mabilis umangat ang ulo niya at gulat na napatingin sa’kin. “You’re awake!” Tumayo siya at hinawakan ako sa ulo. “May masakit ba sayo? Ulo, katawan, binti o kahit saan pa! Sabihin mo sa’kin,” Napangiwi ako sa boses niya. Annoying as ever. Hindi ko siya sinagot at nag patuloy sa pag libot sa paligid. Bakit ba ako narito? “What happened to me-“ Hindi ko na naituloy ang sasabihin ng sumagi sa isip ko ang senaryo isang gabi. Magkasama kami ni Jess na pumunta kay Callum pero nakita namin na magkasama sila ni Zara. We had little arguments that night that will turned me, into this… Nanlaki ang mata ko ng ma
PATRICIA’S POV Isang linggo na… Isang linggo na mula no’ng umuwi ako rito sa bahay at mag kulong sa kwarto buong araw. Isang linggo na rin ang lumipas simula ng mawala ang napakahalagang tao na inaasahan kong magsasalba sa’kin sa kalungkutan. Isang linggo na simula ng mawala ang anak ko. Good thing that the doctor were able to know the gender. It’s supposed to be mini me, a girl. Halos sumabog ang dibdib ko ng malaman ‘yon. It really broke my heart knowing that I wasn’t able to see her. I named her Agatha Celestine, sounds angelic just like her. Sila mommy ang nag asikaso ng lahat pati ang pagpapalibing. Hindi pa man ganap na tao ang anak ko pero naging masaya ako kahit saglit. I requested Jess to take a picture of her even though she’s not fully formed, even though she looks like a forming blood. She printed that photo and I was so happy, I placed her picture here in my room that I’m staring at every minute. “Anak, hindi ka ba kakain?” Rinig kong bumukas ang pinto at pumasok
PATRICIA’S POV “Why are you here? Leave me alone,” That’s the first words I said when I woke up and saw Jess here in my room. “Ngayon nga lang ulit ako nakadalaw-“ “Wala ako’ng sakit para dalawin,” sabi ko bago tumingin sa side table. I stared at Agatha’s picture there. I didn’t sleep well again. “You’re slowly turning rude…” Nilingon ko si Jess at na nakasimangot. Nakaramdam tuloy ako ng guilt. Ngayon nga lang ulit siya nakapunta rito dahil alam ko ay magsisimula na ulit ang klase niya sa med school as second year. “Bakit ka ba kasi nandito?” “I already enrolled for second year. Ikaw? Any plan?” maingat niya’ng tanong. Mabilis ako’ng umiling. I can’t proceed to my second year in med school. I think I’m too weak right now. “To be honest…I don’t know what to do in my life anymore…” I said in a strained voice. “I don’t think I can survive in med school if I’ll enrolled now,” “Sayang, ngayon lang kita hindi makakasama” lumungkot ang boses niya. “We were together since grade
PATRICIA’S POV Hindi ko alam kung paano ko nakayanan ang mga nagdaan na linggo. Those weeks that turns into months have been so rough to me. Mabuti nga at naiwasan ko ang umiyak ng sobra. Good thing that I learned to control my emotions. Pero minsan, kapag naaalala ko si Agatha, nagiging emosyonal parin ako. Kapag naiisip ko ang posibilidad kung hindi siya nawala, bumabalik lang ang sakit. Bumabalik lang ang pangungulila ko. “Ano’ng gagawin mo sa mga yan, ate?” Nag angat ako ng tingin kay Jordan na nakahiga sa kama ko. “Itatapon o...susunugin,” sagot ko habang inilalagay sa isang box ang mga larawan namin ni Callum, especially our wedding photos. Naaalibadbaran lang ako kapag nakikita ang mga ito sa paligid. Hindi ako kuntento na itago lang ang mga ito kaya nag pasya ako’ng likumin lahat kahit ang mga naka-display sa sala at kwarto nila mommy. I don’t want to see any trace that reminds me of him. I badly want him to remove in my life. “I heard from mom yesterday that you want
CALLUM’S POV “How’s life of being a married man again?” I sip to my coffee before looking at Austine in front of me. “I can’t explain the feeling, Austine…” I answered. “Still reminiscing how we started,” It’s been what? A year now, since Patricia and I got married. Our relationship flowed so well. I’m still managing the company while Patricia is on her clinic. Ngayon, nagulat ako sa biglaang pag bisita ni Austine at kapatid kong si Ram sa’kin. Narito kami sa garden. Patricia was not at home, she was just going out to buy something. Austine is sharing some of his and Jess misunderstanding. “She’s asking for a break up?” I asked in surprise. “Why?” Lumihis ng tingin si Austine. “She wants to settle down already and you know I’m still not ready…” Natahimik kami Ram. Kaibigan ko siya at mahalaga si Jess kay Pat, hindi magandang mag hiwalay sila. “Bakit ba hindi ka pa ready?” ani Ram. “You two not getting younger anymore. Syempre, naiinggit ‘yon at naiisip na magpakasal-“ “Ayaw
CALLUM’S POV“Finally, you got her again. We’re happy for you,”I smiled at Austine, who were my best man again beside me while we were waiting for the big and elegant door to open. I roamed my eyes around and can’t help but to smile seeing our families together.“Thank you, bro…” bumuga ako ng hangin at pinagdaop ang palad. “Kinakabahan ako,”Natawa si Austine. “Ngayon ka pa ba kakabahan? Totoo na ang nararamdaman niyo ngayon. Unlike on the first wedding, you two look so stiffed,”Yeah, I remember that. How the beautiful Patricia glared at me while we’re exchanging vows. How we pretend that we love each other but today? There’s no pretending anymore.Today is our wedding day. Today will be one of the best day of my life for sure.“Dalawang beses na kayo ikakasal,” biglang sabi ni Austine. “Ngayon, naiinggit na si Jess. Sana walang pangatlo, ha”“Why don’t you marry her, then?” I asked confused.I frowned when I saw a hesitation in his face. “Alam mo naman na hindi pa ako ready. My bu
CALLUM’S POV“Callum, I swear, this is a silly idea!”Hindi ko pinansin si Austine na nakasimangot sa tabi ko. Nandito kami ngayon sa parking malapit lang sa clinic ni Patricia.“Come on, go outside. Do it!” pag pilit ko kay Austine na lumabas ng sasakyan ko.I pointed to him Patricia’s car just in front of us.“Damn, bakit ba kasi ako sumama sayo!” he gasped dramatically. “I can’t believe you come up with this corny idea-““Just shut up and do my favor,”I pushed him until he opened the door irritatingly.“Sa lahat ng humihingi ng pabor, ikaw ang makapal ang mukha!” usal niya. “Fuck, I don’t know you anymore. Ganito ka pala ka-corny pagdating sa pag-ibig. You’re whipped!”Natawa ako dahil nakasimangot siya’ng lumapit sa sasakyan ni Patricia. Tumingin muna siya sa paligid bago binutas ang gulong ng sasakyan. I smiled secretly. Perfect!Austine is still frowning when he returns.“Damn, I’m done! Wag mo na ulit ako idadawit sa ganitong bagay!”I tapped his shoulder before he left me her
CALLUM’S POV“Callum, I’m really sorry. I didn’t want to make that happen…”Umalingawngaw ang pag iyak ni Zara habang nakayuko sa harap ko. I didn’t expect her to be my visitor this morning.“Patricia’s right, I was too desperate. To get you, to snatch you from her,” she continuously sobbed. “The loss of your child makes me so guilty to what I did. I can't sleep at the thought of you both grieving,”Nag tiim bagang ako habang pinanonood siya.“What will I do with your sorry if she leaves? She left me and you can’t do anything about it,” malamig kong sabi.I saw her shoulder shaking. Hindi ako naaawa sa kanya.“Why are you here, anyway?” I asked harshly. “I don’t want to see you! I fucking hate you, Zara!”“I’m here to apologize, C-Callum-““I don’t need that,”In the middle of crying, she took something from her bag. She’s trembling and handed it to me, I didn't accept it so she just put it on the table.It was the supposed evidence against the Mr. Laurier. The recordings and some pic
PATRICIA’S POV“Doc, ano po ang update kay Miss Bella? Banned na po siya rito di ‘ba?I nodded to Nurse Aubrey as I studied my patient's urine test results this morning.“Yeah, I’m sorry about last week. Nakita niyo pa,”Hindi ko masyadong iniisip si Bella dahil sabi ni Callum, si Mrs. Velasquez mismo ang kumausap dito para tigilan na kami.So far, my interactions with Callum was good. Last week, we go out for a dinner. He still gives me flowers, we even visited Agatha. What we’re doing are so far to what I was thinking before. Akala ko...hindi na ‘yon mauulit. Akala ko mananatili na lang kaming iwas sa isa’t isa.“Ayos lang, doc. Mukhang okay na kayo ng asawa niyo,”I smiled with her term. Hindi na ako sanay na kilalanin si Callum bilang asawa dahil ilang taon kaming nagkahiwalay. Pero ngayon, pinararamdam niya sa’kin lahat ng bagay na hindi ko naranasan dahil lumayo ako.He also went to our house and talked to my parents.He asked permission to pursue me again. Knowing my parents ar
PATRICIA’S POVSeven years ago, I told myself to focus on my career, becoming a doctor. I thought it would be my priority through the years but when I came back here, a lot had changed.I can't understand myself anymore. I thought...I'll never feel anything for Callum. I just fooled myself.Ngayon, parang tanga ako’ng naghihintay ng pag punta niya rito sa clinic ko! I keep looking outside my office.“Patricia, stop it!” I whispered to myself.Pinilit kong mag focus sa trabaho. Ayaw kong maapektuhan ito ng mga iniisip ko. But minutes just passed, I just found myself staring at my phone and waiting for his reply, damn it!“Ano bang nangyayari sa’kin…” naguguluhan kong bulong.Tumayo ako at lumabas sa office.Natagpuan ko sila Nurse Aubrey na abala sa pag inject sa mga babies na kararating lang. Lihim pa ako’ng napasulyap sa labas ng clinic pero malinis doon.Bumuntong hininga ako bago nag asikaso sa ibang pasyente. Nakalimutan ko saglit ang iniisip. Natuwa ako sa mga batang paslit na pi
PATRICIA’S POV Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong gawin at unang isipin. Kung ang tungkol ba sa trabaho ko o ang mga bagay na ginagawa ni Callum ngayon. Pagkatapos niya’ng sabihin sa’kin ang chance na gusto niya, palagi na siya’ng dumadalaw sa clinic ko. Halos araw-araw. Sending me flowers and foods sometimes. But what gave me a strange feeling was the things he showed me. Pakiramdam ko, malapit na ako’ng mabaliw sa ginagawa niya. “Doc, may flowers po ulit para sa inyo!” Nakangiting tumakbo palapit sa’kin si Nurse Aubrey habang hawak ang isang boquet ng roses. Bumuntong hininga ako bago ito kinuha. “Grabe, absent nga siya ngayon pero may flowers parin!” kinikilig niya’ng usal. Napailing ako bago binuklat ang note sa flowers. To my doktora: I can’t see you now because of a sudden meeting but expect me tomorrow. My face flushed after reading that. What’s with the flowers though? Hindi ko na nga alam kung saan ko pa ilalagay ang mga bulaklak na ibinibigay niya sa’kin. Ang iba
PATRICIA’S POV My day didn’t go so well. Pumasok ako sa trabahong wala sa mood. Apektado parin ako sa nangyari samin kahapon ni Bella. I didn’t expect that to happen that way. I was so shocked. Bukod kay Zara noon, isa rin siya sa taong nagsabi sa’kin ng mga ganoong salita. Why do I feel that I’m the antagonist here? Kaya nga ako umalis dahil nasaktan ako, sinaktan nila ako. Pakiramdam ko ako lang ang sagabal sa kanila pero heto na naman. It's like I'm the reason between them again. Is Bella another version of Zara Banner? But some point, I realized something from what Bella said. Tama nga siguro siya na dapat hindi na ako bumalik, na ako lang ang gumugulo sa kanila but that’s not my intention. Should I gave her the satisfaction that she want? Para matapos na. Para hindi na ako masali sa kung ano’ng gulo tungkol kay Callum. Should I talk to him for our annulment? For them to be happy? I would gladly cooperate though. “Doktora…may bisita po kayo” I stopped writing the necessary
PATRICIA’S POV “I’m here for Doctor Jaime. Tell him it’s Doctor Clemente…”Ngumiti ako sa nurse bago siya may tinawagan. I'm here at Alvarez hospital owned by Jaime's family. Jaime message me to come here to talk about my concern. It’s really big here. Alam ko’y magagaling din ang mga doktor dito. It’s about my patient. Maliit lang ang clinic ko at kailangan ng malaking doktor na hahawak sa kanya. Naalaa ko si Jaime dahil sa ospital nila. “Akyat na lang po kayo roon sa office ni doc. Hintayin niyo na lang po siya roon dahil nasa emergency room pa…” saad ng nurse. “Thank you,” Ngumiti siya at hinagod ako mula ulo hanggang paa. Nagtataka ako’ng tumalikod sa kanya papunta sa elevator. May mali ba sa suot ko? I’m just wearing an off shoulder dress. Nakalugay lang din ang buhok ko.Hindi ko na lang ‘yon pinansin at pumunta na sa 5th floor. Nang makarating ako roon ay wala masyadong tao. Ilang nurses lang. Hinanap ko lang ang office ni Jaime at kumatok muna ako bago pumasok. Walang t