~Livie~
“Jesus, Christ!” He shoves his plate away. Abel does not bother to hide his agitation. With him, it is all passion, the good and the ugly. “You walk back into my life, turning my fucking wet dream into reality, and think you can leave? Babe, if your goal was to be free of me, you never should have climbed on my bus.”The chances of him signing the papers are bleak. Stupid me for thinking he would be reasonable. I’m going to spend the rest of my life tied to the worst husband in the world. Seriously. He had sex with my cousin on our wedding night! Who the hell does that?
I realize I lost control of the situation. I don’t know what to do to remedy the situation. Maybe call my bestie and ball my eyes out. Yes. That is the extent of my master plan.
By some divine interference, my phone goes off again. I grab my phone when I notice the caller. “I have to take this.”
“Hello?” I speak quietly as if it matters.
Eliza wastes no time. “You were supposed to call me with all the juicy details!”
I sneak a covert glance at Abel. Yes, he stares at me while shoveling food into his mouth. “I’m sorry if your desires take precedence over my dire needs.”
“That’s hanger talking, girlfriend. Have you eaten?”
I nearly choke on a bite of bacon. “You’re right. It’s a clear cut case of the hangries. I’m eating right now. Sorry, I can’t really chat. Too loud.”
“Not alone, huh?” She catches on quickly.
I don’t acknowledge her question. “I might be home later than I planned. Everything going well?” I say, carefully selecting my words.
She sighs. “Yeah. We’re all good. But do you think you could sing to the little nugget? He’s a bit restless tonight.”
I shoot up from my chair. “Are you sure everything is okay?” Panic threatens to take over.
“Yes, dear. Calm down.” She laughs. “Just sing the song. I’m no good at it.”
“That’s because you aren’t applying yourself.” I accuse.
“Please? It’s a ridiculous choice for a lullaby. That’s on you.”
People are gathering, pressing in close. Great. I look at Abel. “Hey, I’ll be right back.”
“Livie, what’s going on? What’s the matter?” Abel asks.
“Everything is fine. Give me a moment.” I say. I shove my way to a spot behind a busy tent. It’s the best I can do in the moment. “Put him on.” I say. My eyes close as the sound of his sweet little coos sooth my soul. “Hi, my darling.” I no longer care who is around or listening. “Sing sweet nightingale. Sing sweet nightingale….”
I return to the table in a somber mood. “I’m done. You good?”
Abel shrugs. “Sure.”
We walk back to his bus in silence, mood totally fucked. That phone call was a solemn reminder of my goals and why I am here to begin with. At the entrance to the bus, I shove the papers in Abel’s unwilling hands.
“There is nothing left between us. Sign the goddamn papers so we can get on with it.” Abel looks upset and I regret it. But it doesn’t stop me. Needs must, remember? “If you do not, I will be forced to proceed without your cooperation.”
“You can’t do that! Just talk to me. What happened back there?”
I refuse to make eye contact. “I can, actually. My lawyer says since we never consummated our marriage, it gives me a legal out. And it will become a public matter for all to see.”
“No.” Abel pulls at his hair. “No. Don’t do this! It’s not what I want.”
All the anger and lonely nights... “I’m sorry. It is much too late for you decide to want your marriage.”
“Livie, please.” Abel pleads, dropping to his knees in the dirt with a growing crowd surrounding us. There are tears gathered in his eyes.
I do not expect this. I prepared for screaming and yelling. I prepared for high acts of drama. I didn’t prepare for heartbreak. I never imagined my heart could take on additional anguish. Fuck! I pull a pen out from my purse and hand it to him.
“If I sign this, we are done. Forever.” He says quietly.
So much for my happy ending. I turn my back to him. “We were done forever after Anna.” I cannot hide my bitter tone or the new crack in my heart.
My lawyer’s paralegal helpfully marked each spot for him to sign. I hear him scribbling and turning pages. I am freaking the fuck out. Moments stretch into minutes. Minutes stretch into an eternity. I am on the verge of a breakdown. I almost say something stupid, like I changed my mind. Then, he taps my shoulder with the papers. “Here.”
“Thanks.” I grab the packet that will eventually lead to soul-crushing finality. I stuff them in my purse and hand him the letter Anna asked me to deliver. “This is for you.” I finally muster the courage to look at him. I might as well memorize once last image of him. I drink him in. This has to last me a lifetime. He glares over my shoulder, totally ignoring my presence. However, I notice his Adam’s apple bobbing as he swallows.
I smile, basking in his crusty attitude I love so well, and run my fingers through his messy hairdo. Realizing this is the final moment we will share, I hug him. His arms do not wrap around me. I squeeze and hold on tight anyway. “Goodbye.” I whisper.
I turn on my heel and navigate the maze of bodies by myself. After walking forever, I make it to my car. It is no longer trapped. Instead of leaving, I rip apart at the seams. I tumble down into a deep abyss. I don’t know how I will crawl out this time.
“I gotta say, sweetheart. That was some damn show.”
I wipe my eyes. “What are you doing here, Gabe?”
“I hunted you down to curse you out, call you a selfish whore, gold digger, whatever else came to mind in the spur of the moment.”
My shoulders slump. I guess I earned a verbal thrashing. “Well, then. Have at it.”
Instead of calling me out, he pulls me into a hug. I fall into the comfort he offers. I bury my face into the crook of his neck and cry harder than I have ever cried in my life. He doesn’t bother with useless words. He holds me tight until I have no tears left to cry.
~Livie~ Six weeks later…. I rush over to Anna’s apartment. I am running late. So what else is new? I pull into her assigned parking spot, thankful for that at least. After grabbing my purse, I rush inside. Just as I fear, my Nugget is throwing a fit. His exasperated nanny sits him in his bouncer. “You’re late! Again!” She accuses. I sigh and hold back an eye-roll. I am three minutes late. “Thanks, Hannah.” I shove some money in her hand and usher her out the door. “Rude, bitch.” I mutter after I slam the door. I lean my head against it while I catch my breath. At the sound of a chuckle, I finally notice Jaxon leaning against the far wall, one eyebrow hitched up. Jaxon is the lead singer of the metal group End of Days. He is high up on the panty melter scale for sure. His fit, muscular build is only the cherry on top of his rugged good looks. He rocked the wild, untamed beauty. The black hair and blue eyes so rich you could drown in them helped as well. I nibble on my lower lip
~Abel~“Are you sure?” My heart hammers in my chest. “Yes.” My lawyer confirmed. For the third time. “The paperwork was not complete. It appears there were a few critical pages missing from the packet.”“F-U-C-K.” I say.“This is not a problem, only a minor inconvenience. I assure you. I can contact the other party, request they sign and overnight the paperwork to you for signature.”My lawyer sounds smug, irritatingly so. I rub my face with my other hand. “So we are not divorced?”She sighs. “No. The courts kicked the paperwork back. You are still Mr. and Mrs. Abel Moore.”My mind races with a thousand different possibilities. When I signed those papers, I suffered from fucking crushing regret. Like instantly. Livie and I never had the chance at a real marriage. Well, that shit is about to fucking change.“Hello? Mr. Moore?” Her impatient tone calls out.“Yeah, sorry. So what if I do not sign? Can they proceed without me as they threatened?”“Well, yes. But it will take time and ef
~Livie~“What the hell am I going to do?” I wring my hands while my BFF Eliza watches me with a grin.“This whole scenario is like something from a Hallmark channel movie!” She grins wider.“Seriously? Is that all you have to say?” I huff, shoving unruly hair out of my face. “Abel’s sexy but frustrating ass will be in town tomorrow! I need real advice.”“Fine.” She crosses her arms. “Take control of the situation. Remember Ana’s business meeting with Christian? She took control of the situation and stayed on point. She teased, flirted, stuck it to him, and then walked the fuck away.”I groan. “This is real life! Not 50 Shades of Bullshit!”Eliza smirks. “Meet him in a neutral place of your choosing. Stick to facts. Don’t take any shit. And make him sign those damn papers so we can all move on with our freaking lives!”Tears gather in my eyes but I’d be damned if I let them fall. I will allow no more shed tears for him. I grab her and pull her into a hug against her will. “I’m sorry! I
~Livie~A horde of ‘tweens almost trample me. Yup. Shit just got real. The situation is more terrifying than when my mom took me to the opening night of the final Twilight movie. I thought those little bitches were scary. They didn’t hold a candle to this crowd. There is nobody to blame but myself. I am that desperate to confront my ex, the lead singer of Pieces of Abel. Why here and now? What am I thinking? Rock It Out is Oklahoma’s largest rock festival of the year. Sucks when I’m the cause of my misery. If I could kick my own ass, I would. Cursing under my breath, I fight my way through a mob of women showing way too much skin, muscled security, and guys in outfits so bizarre I worry about their mental health. I swear the Marilyn Manson phase died a silent death. This crowd proves my theory wrong. Just like I am mistaken about the mullet being out of style. Seriously, I lost count of the number of mullet heads about five minutes ago. A pair of squealing women stumble by me, one
~Livie~I’m not here for a social visit.” I speak with determined purpose.“Do you think I’m a moron?” He interrupts me.My eyes roll at the question. I swear he sets himself up for failure on purpose. “It’s a controversial subject.” He walks over to a hidden cabinet and pours himself a shot of whiskey. “Let me clarify for clarity’s sake. I don’t believe for one goddamn second you are here because you miss me.” He swallows the shot with the ease of a seasoned pro. I heard the rumors circulating about him, that he is a heavy drinker among other things. When he offers the bottle to me, I scrunch my nose and waive it away. His eyebrow quirks up. “That’s new. Going with the good girl act?” I am pissed. “Act? You don’t know me anymore. Save your judgments. Some of us have priorities in life. You know, responsibilities?” His hand freezes in the middle of pouring another shot. “You’re going back to home tonight?” “I’m not here to talk about my schedule.” My foot taps on the ground. Wh
~Livie~ “Ladies! We’ve been waiting for you!” Raze calls out. “Who is she?” A member of the trio gives me the stink eye. Raze shrugs, devilish grin in place. “A friend of Abel’s.” “Abel?” She eyes me up and down, weighing her supposed competition. “Actually, we’re not friends at all.” I plaster a smile on my face for her benefit. “Are you lovers?” She persists. Ugg. I laugh at her desperation. I will never disgrace myself over a guy again. She crosses her arms across her chest, amplifying huge, fake boobs. A pout forms on her cherry-red lips. “But he invited me back to the bus.” Stupid chick. I shake my head. “There’s no reason to be upset. He’s not a lover or friend. He’s just somebody I used to know.” “So you aren’t screwing him?” My hand itches to grab a handful of her bottle blond hair. Crazy, right? I am totally not jealous. Liar, liar! Pants on fire! “Nope.” I say cheerfully and waive at Gabe. “Good luck with this freak show. Laters.” He stands up,
~Livie~ I notice women are staring. I'm talking bug-eyed ogling. Yup. Abel's sculpted upper-body is on full display. Couldn't he have put on a damn shirt before chasing me to cause a scene?“You left your phone on the bus. It has been going off. Whoever “J” is, he or she really, really wants to get in touch with you.” Abel smirks“Crap! Give it to me!” I lung for him.Abel easily fends me off. “I didn’t bring it with me. If you want it, you’ll have to come and get it.” My hands ball into fists. Again. I can picture doing bodily harm to his sexy ass. “Aren’t you missing a booty call?” “Hell, no! I sent that bitch away.” I say nothing, nibbling my lower lip in deep thought.“She attacked me after I got out of the shower. Raze had to restrain her and drag her ass off the bus.” Whatever. “I need my phone.” I stalk towards the bus.“To call J?” Abel is hot on my heels.The nerve! He doesn’t deserve an answer. So I don’t give him one.“Livie, are you seeing someone?” His long legs m
~Livie~“What the hell am I going to do?” I wring my hands while my BFF Eliza watches me with a grin.“This whole scenario is like something from a Hallmark channel movie!” She grins wider.“Seriously? Is that all you have to say?” I huff, shoving unruly hair out of my face. “Abel’s sexy but frustrating ass will be in town tomorrow! I need real advice.”“Fine.” She crosses her arms. “Take control of the situation. Remember Ana’s business meeting with Christian? She took control of the situation and stayed on point. She teased, flirted, stuck it to him, and then walked the fuck away.”I groan. “This is real life! Not 50 Shades of Bullshit!”Eliza smirks. “Meet him in a neutral place of your choosing. Stick to facts. Don’t take any shit. And make him sign those damn papers so we can all move on with our freaking lives!”Tears gather in my eyes but I’d be damned if I let them fall. I will allow no more shed tears for him. I grab her and pull her into a hug against her will. “I’m sorry! I
~Abel~“Are you sure?” My heart hammers in my chest. “Yes.” My lawyer confirmed. For the third time. “The paperwork was not complete. It appears there were a few critical pages missing from the packet.”“F-U-C-K.” I say.“This is not a problem, only a minor inconvenience. I assure you. I can contact the other party, request they sign and overnight the paperwork to you for signature.”My lawyer sounds smug, irritatingly so. I rub my face with my other hand. “So we are not divorced?”She sighs. “No. The courts kicked the paperwork back. You are still Mr. and Mrs. Abel Moore.”My mind races with a thousand different possibilities. When I signed those papers, I suffered from fucking crushing regret. Like instantly. Livie and I never had the chance at a real marriage. Well, that shit is about to fucking change.“Hello? Mr. Moore?” Her impatient tone calls out.“Yeah, sorry. So what if I do not sign? Can they proceed without me as they threatened?”“Well, yes. But it will take time and ef
~Livie~ Six weeks later…. I rush over to Anna’s apartment. I am running late. So what else is new? I pull into her assigned parking spot, thankful for that at least. After grabbing my purse, I rush inside. Just as I fear, my Nugget is throwing a fit. His exasperated nanny sits him in his bouncer. “You’re late! Again!” She accuses. I sigh and hold back an eye-roll. I am three minutes late. “Thanks, Hannah.” I shove some money in her hand and usher her out the door. “Rude, bitch.” I mutter after I slam the door. I lean my head against it while I catch my breath. At the sound of a chuckle, I finally notice Jaxon leaning against the far wall, one eyebrow hitched up. Jaxon is the lead singer of the metal group End of Days. He is high up on the panty melter scale for sure. His fit, muscular build is only the cherry on top of his rugged good looks. He rocked the wild, untamed beauty. The black hair and blue eyes so rich you could drown in them helped as well. I nibble on my lower lip
~Livie~ “Jesus, Christ!” He shoves his plate away. Abel does not bother to hide his agitation. With him, it is all passion, the good and the ugly. “You walk back into my life, turning my fucking wet dream into reality, and think you can leave? Babe, if your goal was to be free of me, you never should have climbed on my bus.” The chances of him signing the papers are bleak. Stupid me for thinking he would be reasonable. I’m going to spend the rest of my life tied to the worst husband in the world. Seriously. He had sex with my cousin on our wedding night! Who the hell does that? I realize I lost control of the situation. I don’t know what to do to remedy the situation. Maybe call my bestie and ball my eyes out. Yes. That is the extent of my master plan. By some divine interference, my phone goes off again. I grab my phone when I notice the caller. “I have to take this.” “Hello?” I speak quietly as if it matters.Eliza wastes no time. “You were supposed to call me with all the jui
~Livie~ I notice women are staring. I'm talking bug-eyed ogling. Yup. Abel's sculpted upper-body is on full display. Couldn't he have put on a damn shirt before chasing me to cause a scene?“You left your phone on the bus. It has been going off. Whoever “J” is, he or she really, really wants to get in touch with you.” Abel smirks“Crap! Give it to me!” I lung for him.Abel easily fends me off. “I didn’t bring it with me. If you want it, you’ll have to come and get it.” My hands ball into fists. Again. I can picture doing bodily harm to his sexy ass. “Aren’t you missing a booty call?” “Hell, no! I sent that bitch away.” I say nothing, nibbling my lower lip in deep thought.“She attacked me after I got out of the shower. Raze had to restrain her and drag her ass off the bus.” Whatever. “I need my phone.” I stalk towards the bus.“To call J?” Abel is hot on my heels.The nerve! He doesn’t deserve an answer. So I don’t give him one.“Livie, are you seeing someone?” His long legs m
~Livie~ “Ladies! We’ve been waiting for you!” Raze calls out. “Who is she?” A member of the trio gives me the stink eye. Raze shrugs, devilish grin in place. “A friend of Abel’s.” “Abel?” She eyes me up and down, weighing her supposed competition. “Actually, we’re not friends at all.” I plaster a smile on my face for her benefit. “Are you lovers?” She persists. Ugg. I laugh at her desperation. I will never disgrace myself over a guy again. She crosses her arms across her chest, amplifying huge, fake boobs. A pout forms on her cherry-red lips. “But he invited me back to the bus.” Stupid chick. I shake my head. “There’s no reason to be upset. He’s not a lover or friend. He’s just somebody I used to know.” “So you aren’t screwing him?” My hand itches to grab a handful of her bottle blond hair. Crazy, right? I am totally not jealous. Liar, liar! Pants on fire! “Nope.” I say cheerfully and waive at Gabe. “Good luck with this freak show. Laters.” He stands up,
~Livie~I’m not here for a social visit.” I speak with determined purpose.“Do you think I’m a moron?” He interrupts me.My eyes roll at the question. I swear he sets himself up for failure on purpose. “It’s a controversial subject.” He walks over to a hidden cabinet and pours himself a shot of whiskey. “Let me clarify for clarity’s sake. I don’t believe for one goddamn second you are here because you miss me.” He swallows the shot with the ease of a seasoned pro. I heard the rumors circulating about him, that he is a heavy drinker among other things. When he offers the bottle to me, I scrunch my nose and waive it away. His eyebrow quirks up. “That’s new. Going with the good girl act?” I am pissed. “Act? You don’t know me anymore. Save your judgments. Some of us have priorities in life. You know, responsibilities?” His hand freezes in the middle of pouring another shot. “You’re going back to home tonight?” “I’m not here to talk about my schedule.” My foot taps on the ground. Wh
~Livie~A horde of ‘tweens almost trample me. Yup. Shit just got real. The situation is more terrifying than when my mom took me to the opening night of the final Twilight movie. I thought those little bitches were scary. They didn’t hold a candle to this crowd. There is nobody to blame but myself. I am that desperate to confront my ex, the lead singer of Pieces of Abel. Why here and now? What am I thinking? Rock It Out is Oklahoma’s largest rock festival of the year. Sucks when I’m the cause of my misery. If I could kick my own ass, I would. Cursing under my breath, I fight my way through a mob of women showing way too much skin, muscled security, and guys in outfits so bizarre I worry about their mental health. I swear the Marilyn Manson phase died a silent death. This crowd proves my theory wrong. Just like I am mistaken about the mullet being out of style. Seriously, I lost count of the number of mullet heads about five minutes ago. A pair of squealing women stumble by me, one