~Livie~
A horde of ‘tweens almost trample me. Yup. Shit just got real.
The situation is more terrifying than when my mom took me to the opening night of the final Twilight movie. I thought those little bitches were scary. They didn’t hold a candle to this crowd. There is nobody to blame but myself. I am that desperate to confront my ex, the lead singer of Pieces of Abel.
Why here and now? What am I thinking? Rock It Out is Oklahoma’s largest rock festival of the year. Sucks when I’m the cause of my misery. If I could kick my own ass, I would. Cursing under my breath, I fight my way through a mob of women showing way too much skin, muscled security, and guys in outfits so bizarre I worry about their mental health.
I swear the Marilyn Manson phase died a silent death. This crowd proves my theory wrong. Just like I am mistaken about the mullet being out of style. Seriously, I lost count of the number of mullet heads about five minutes ago. A pair of squealing women stumble by me, one of them spilling their fruity beverage on my arm. Now the stench of pineapples soaked in vodka clings to me like cheap dollar store perfume. Fuck!
My anxiety rises to epic proportions as I approach Abel’s tour bus. I don’t know what kind of greeting to expect since our last conversation ended in an epic screaming match. No joke. The guy has a set of lungs on him, hardcore rocker type lungs. Knowing him, he will order his security detail to haul my ass away rather than deal with me. I pace the empty bus like a caged animal.
The door opens. I panic before turning around. A dark-haired guy barges his way up the steps with the grace of an ox. He throws me an annoyed look.
“Who the hell let you on the bus?”
His gruff, woodsy voice has me picturing him dressed in plaid and swinging an ax. With that voice and sexy stubble covering his face, he would fit in an Old Spice commercial.
“Cat got your tongue, sweetheart?” His words are nicer than his tone.
“I…Um.” Silly me. I am unprepared for an encounter with Abel’s bandmates. I blink and he transforms from fully dressed to damn near naked. Crap! See what happens when my brain decides to take a coffee break? Little rivers of sweat roll down his bare, ripped chest. Tight jeans hang low on his hips, his feet bare of the boots he’d worn only seconds ago. The harder I try not to stare, the more my eyes refuse to budge from the glorious man-buffet.
“Are you going to answer at some point or start stuffing twenty dollar bills down my pants?” He uses his balled up shirt to wipe his face. “I’m not complaining or anything. I promise the show gets better.” His hands move to his belt buckle.
I grit my teeth, realizing this was all a huge mistake. Why didn’t I wait outside for Abel? Duh!
Behind me, someone lets out a low whistle.
“Fucking beautiful. I swear Oklahoma has the prettiest girls. Can I persuade you to join me in the shower?”
I ball my fists, resisting my desire to turn around. “Excuse me? You don’t even know what I look like and you’re propositioning me? How do you know I’m not covered in warts?”
“Sweetness, based on the expression on Gabe’s face, I’m betting the front view compliments the rear.” He chuckles.
I whip around to confront the rude guy. Instead, I am shocked at the sight of the tattooed rock god standing there.
A small smile curves his pierced lip. “Hello, sweetness. Who let you on the bus?”
“That’s what I fucking asked her.” Gabe grumbles.
“Never mind that caveman.” The rock god extends his hand towards me. “I’m Raze.”
“As in short for Crazy?” Instead of taking his hand, I fold my arms across my chest.
“Sure. If that’s what does it for you.” He winks, pulling his hand back. “Ball-busting girls do it for me so I’m in heaven, babe. Be all the rude you can be.”
“Sorry. I’m not usually this rude or abrasive.” To stop myself from apologizing for other faults, I run a hand through my tangled mess of hair.
“Yeah? Could have fooled me.” A new voice slices through the rising awkwardness.
At the sound of his voice, my defenses shatter. “Abel?” I shove pass Raze and come face to face with the one guy I have been avoiding for the past two years. He stares at me, letting the silence eat up the space between us. Something tells me if I wait for him to break the quiet first, I’ll be waiting a long time.
Someone clears his throat. “Good thing this is in no way weird or uncomfortable.”
“Shut the hell up, Raze.” Abel grabs my hand and drags me towards the back of the bus.
“What are you doing?” When I tug against his hold, his grip tightens. “Abel?”
“We’re going to talk. In private.” He mutters.
“Oh.” I wish he didn’t sound so pissed. My shoulders slump.
“Talk? Is that what the kids are calling it these days?” Gabe smirks as we brush pass him.
I spare a second to glare at him. His smile deepens. Jerk. But I have bigger problems at the moment. Abel stops moving and I slam into his back. He opens a door and shoves me inside a bedroom.
“Hey! No pushing!” The back of my knees brush against the edge of the bed. The room is tiny. With Abel scowling at me, the room shrinks even more. My heart hammers wildly inside my chest. I remind myself to breathe.
Being so close to him unlocks every emotion and memory I’ve kept hidden. Like a starving woman, my greedy eyes rake over him. I ogle each work of ink my eyes can find. His tight jeans wrap around lean legs. Even the simple black tee-shirt molds to his every muscle. Yet all the muscles and piercings don’t hold a candle to the sky-blue of his eyes or the soft curve of his lips. Sure, he rocks an edgier look now, but I only see the Abel I fell in love with. Loved and abandoned.
“What are you doing here, Olivia?” He growls at me.
He never uses my whole name. “I miss you.” The honest declaration spills from my lips before I can stop it.
He lets out a barking laugh which matches the harsh expression on his face. “That’s all you have to say? Two years. It’s been two fucking years.”
I flinch under the weight of his hostility. He hates me. Guess I deserve that to some extent. Still, I’m not about to let him shove another stake through my heart. I didn’t single-handedly destroy our relationship. He did wrong. Big time.
Get your shit together, Livie. The past belongs in the past. I stand a little taller, mustering whatever self-respect I can.
~Livie~I’m not here for a social visit.” I speak with determined purpose.“Do you think I’m a moron?” He interrupts me.My eyes roll at the question. I swear he sets himself up for failure on purpose. “It’s a controversial subject.” He walks over to a hidden cabinet and pours himself a shot of whiskey. “Let me clarify for clarity’s sake. I don’t believe for one goddamn second you are here because you miss me.” He swallows the shot with the ease of a seasoned pro. I heard the rumors circulating about him, that he is a heavy drinker among other things. When he offers the bottle to me, I scrunch my nose and waive it away. His eyebrow quirks up. “That’s new. Going with the good girl act?” I am pissed. “Act? You don’t know me anymore. Save your judgments. Some of us have priorities in life. You know, responsibilities?” His hand freezes in the middle of pouring another shot. “You’re going back to home tonight?” “I’m not here to talk about my schedule.” My foot taps on the ground. Wh
~Livie~ “Ladies! We’ve been waiting for you!” Raze calls out. “Who is she?” A member of the trio gives me the stink eye. Raze shrugs, devilish grin in place. “A friend of Abel’s.” “Abel?” She eyes me up and down, weighing her supposed competition. “Actually, we’re not friends at all.” I plaster a smile on my face for her benefit. “Are you lovers?” She persists. Ugg. I laugh at her desperation. I will never disgrace myself over a guy again. She crosses her arms across her chest, amplifying huge, fake boobs. A pout forms on her cherry-red lips. “But he invited me back to the bus.” Stupid chick. I shake my head. “There’s no reason to be upset. He’s not a lover or friend. He’s just somebody I used to know.” “So you aren’t screwing him?” My hand itches to grab a handful of her bottle blond hair. Crazy, right? I am totally not jealous. Liar, liar! Pants on fire! “Nope.” I say cheerfully and waive at Gabe. “Good luck with this freak show. Laters.” He stands up,
~Livie~ I notice women are staring. I'm talking bug-eyed ogling. Yup. Abel's sculpted upper-body is on full display. Couldn't he have put on a damn shirt before chasing me to cause a scene?“You left your phone on the bus. It has been going off. Whoever “J” is, he or she really, really wants to get in touch with you.” Abel smirks“Crap! Give it to me!” I lung for him.Abel easily fends me off. “I didn’t bring it with me. If you want it, you’ll have to come and get it.” My hands ball into fists. Again. I can picture doing bodily harm to his sexy ass. “Aren’t you missing a booty call?” “Hell, no! I sent that bitch away.” I say nothing, nibbling my lower lip in deep thought.“She attacked me after I got out of the shower. Raze had to restrain her and drag her ass off the bus.” Whatever. “I need my phone.” I stalk towards the bus.“To call J?” Abel is hot on my heels.The nerve! He doesn’t deserve an answer. So I don’t give him one.“Livie, are you seeing someone?” His long legs m
~Livie~ “Jesus, Christ!” He shoves his plate away. Abel does not bother to hide his agitation. With him, it is all passion, the good and the ugly. “You walk back into my life, turning my fucking wet dream into reality, and think you can leave? Babe, if your goal was to be free of me, you never should have climbed on my bus.” The chances of him signing the papers are bleak. Stupid me for thinking he would be reasonable. I’m going to spend the rest of my life tied to the worst husband in the world. Seriously. He had sex with my cousin on our wedding night! Who the hell does that? I realize I lost control of the situation. I don’t know what to do to remedy the situation. Maybe call my bestie and ball my eyes out. Yes. That is the extent of my master plan. By some divine interference, my phone goes off again. I grab my phone when I notice the caller. “I have to take this.” “Hello?” I speak quietly as if it matters.Eliza wastes no time. “You were supposed to call me with all the jui
~Livie~ Six weeks later…. I rush over to Anna’s apartment. I am running late. So what else is new? I pull into her assigned parking spot, thankful for that at least. After grabbing my purse, I rush inside. Just as I fear, my Nugget is throwing a fit. His exasperated nanny sits him in his bouncer. “You’re late! Again!” She accuses. I sigh and hold back an eye-roll. I am three minutes late. “Thanks, Hannah.” I shove some money in her hand and usher her out the door. “Rude, bitch.” I mutter after I slam the door. I lean my head against it while I catch my breath. At the sound of a chuckle, I finally notice Jaxon leaning against the far wall, one eyebrow hitched up. Jaxon is the lead singer of the metal group End of Days. He is high up on the panty melter scale for sure. His fit, muscular build is only the cherry on top of his rugged good looks. He rocked the wild, untamed beauty. The black hair and blue eyes so rich you could drown in them helped as well. I nibble on my lower lip
~Abel~“Are you sure?” My heart hammers in my chest. “Yes.” My lawyer confirmed. For the third time. “The paperwork was not complete. It appears there were a few critical pages missing from the packet.”“F-U-C-K.” I say.“This is not a problem, only a minor inconvenience. I assure you. I can contact the other party, request they sign and overnight the paperwork to you for signature.”My lawyer sounds smug, irritatingly so. I rub my face with my other hand. “So we are not divorced?”She sighs. “No. The courts kicked the paperwork back. You are still Mr. and Mrs. Abel Moore.”My mind races with a thousand different possibilities. When I signed those papers, I suffered from fucking crushing regret. Like instantly. Livie and I never had the chance at a real marriage. Well, that shit is about to fucking change.“Hello? Mr. Moore?” Her impatient tone calls out.“Yeah, sorry. So what if I do not sign? Can they proceed without me as they threatened?”“Well, yes. But it will take time and ef
~Livie~“What the hell am I going to do?” I wring my hands while my BFF Eliza watches me with a grin.“This whole scenario is like something from a Hallmark channel movie!” She grins wider.“Seriously? Is that all you have to say?” I huff, shoving unruly hair out of my face. “Abel’s sexy but frustrating ass will be in town tomorrow! I need real advice.”“Fine.” She crosses her arms. “Take control of the situation. Remember Ana’s business meeting with Christian? She took control of the situation and stayed on point. She teased, flirted, stuck it to him, and then walked the fuck away.”I groan. “This is real life! Not 50 Shades of Bullshit!”Eliza smirks. “Meet him in a neutral place of your choosing. Stick to facts. Don’t take any shit. And make him sign those damn papers so we can all move on with our freaking lives!”Tears gather in my eyes but I’d be damned if I let them fall. I will allow no more shed tears for him. I grab her and pull her into a hug against her will. “I’m sorry! I
~Livie~“What the hell am I going to do?” I wring my hands while my BFF Eliza watches me with a grin.“This whole scenario is like something from a Hallmark channel movie!” She grins wider.“Seriously? Is that all you have to say?” I huff, shoving unruly hair out of my face. “Abel’s sexy but frustrating ass will be in town tomorrow! I need real advice.”“Fine.” She crosses her arms. “Take control of the situation. Remember Ana’s business meeting with Christian? She took control of the situation and stayed on point. She teased, flirted, stuck it to him, and then walked the fuck away.”I groan. “This is real life! Not 50 Shades of Bullshit!”Eliza smirks. “Meet him in a neutral place of your choosing. Stick to facts. Don’t take any shit. And make him sign those damn papers so we can all move on with our freaking lives!”Tears gather in my eyes but I’d be damned if I let them fall. I will allow no more shed tears for him. I grab her and pull her into a hug against her will. “I’m sorry! I
~Abel~“Are you sure?” My heart hammers in my chest. “Yes.” My lawyer confirmed. For the third time. “The paperwork was not complete. It appears there were a few critical pages missing from the packet.”“F-U-C-K.” I say.“This is not a problem, only a minor inconvenience. I assure you. I can contact the other party, request they sign and overnight the paperwork to you for signature.”My lawyer sounds smug, irritatingly so. I rub my face with my other hand. “So we are not divorced?”She sighs. “No. The courts kicked the paperwork back. You are still Mr. and Mrs. Abel Moore.”My mind races with a thousand different possibilities. When I signed those papers, I suffered from fucking crushing regret. Like instantly. Livie and I never had the chance at a real marriage. Well, that shit is about to fucking change.“Hello? Mr. Moore?” Her impatient tone calls out.“Yeah, sorry. So what if I do not sign? Can they proceed without me as they threatened?”“Well, yes. But it will take time and ef
~Livie~ Six weeks later…. I rush over to Anna’s apartment. I am running late. So what else is new? I pull into her assigned parking spot, thankful for that at least. After grabbing my purse, I rush inside. Just as I fear, my Nugget is throwing a fit. His exasperated nanny sits him in his bouncer. “You’re late! Again!” She accuses. I sigh and hold back an eye-roll. I am three minutes late. “Thanks, Hannah.” I shove some money in her hand and usher her out the door. “Rude, bitch.” I mutter after I slam the door. I lean my head against it while I catch my breath. At the sound of a chuckle, I finally notice Jaxon leaning against the far wall, one eyebrow hitched up. Jaxon is the lead singer of the metal group End of Days. He is high up on the panty melter scale for sure. His fit, muscular build is only the cherry on top of his rugged good looks. He rocked the wild, untamed beauty. The black hair and blue eyes so rich you could drown in them helped as well. I nibble on my lower lip
~Livie~ “Jesus, Christ!” He shoves his plate away. Abel does not bother to hide his agitation. With him, it is all passion, the good and the ugly. “You walk back into my life, turning my fucking wet dream into reality, and think you can leave? Babe, if your goal was to be free of me, you never should have climbed on my bus.” The chances of him signing the papers are bleak. Stupid me for thinking he would be reasonable. I’m going to spend the rest of my life tied to the worst husband in the world. Seriously. He had sex with my cousin on our wedding night! Who the hell does that? I realize I lost control of the situation. I don’t know what to do to remedy the situation. Maybe call my bestie and ball my eyes out. Yes. That is the extent of my master plan. By some divine interference, my phone goes off again. I grab my phone when I notice the caller. “I have to take this.” “Hello?” I speak quietly as if it matters.Eliza wastes no time. “You were supposed to call me with all the jui
~Livie~ I notice women are staring. I'm talking bug-eyed ogling. Yup. Abel's sculpted upper-body is on full display. Couldn't he have put on a damn shirt before chasing me to cause a scene?“You left your phone on the bus. It has been going off. Whoever “J” is, he or she really, really wants to get in touch with you.” Abel smirks“Crap! Give it to me!” I lung for him.Abel easily fends me off. “I didn’t bring it with me. If you want it, you’ll have to come and get it.” My hands ball into fists. Again. I can picture doing bodily harm to his sexy ass. “Aren’t you missing a booty call?” “Hell, no! I sent that bitch away.” I say nothing, nibbling my lower lip in deep thought.“She attacked me after I got out of the shower. Raze had to restrain her and drag her ass off the bus.” Whatever. “I need my phone.” I stalk towards the bus.“To call J?” Abel is hot on my heels.The nerve! He doesn’t deserve an answer. So I don’t give him one.“Livie, are you seeing someone?” His long legs m
~Livie~ “Ladies! We’ve been waiting for you!” Raze calls out. “Who is she?” A member of the trio gives me the stink eye. Raze shrugs, devilish grin in place. “A friend of Abel’s.” “Abel?” She eyes me up and down, weighing her supposed competition. “Actually, we’re not friends at all.” I plaster a smile on my face for her benefit. “Are you lovers?” She persists. Ugg. I laugh at her desperation. I will never disgrace myself over a guy again. She crosses her arms across her chest, amplifying huge, fake boobs. A pout forms on her cherry-red lips. “But he invited me back to the bus.” Stupid chick. I shake my head. “There’s no reason to be upset. He’s not a lover or friend. He’s just somebody I used to know.” “So you aren’t screwing him?” My hand itches to grab a handful of her bottle blond hair. Crazy, right? I am totally not jealous. Liar, liar! Pants on fire! “Nope.” I say cheerfully and waive at Gabe. “Good luck with this freak show. Laters.” He stands up,
~Livie~I’m not here for a social visit.” I speak with determined purpose.“Do you think I’m a moron?” He interrupts me.My eyes roll at the question. I swear he sets himself up for failure on purpose. “It’s a controversial subject.” He walks over to a hidden cabinet and pours himself a shot of whiskey. “Let me clarify for clarity’s sake. I don’t believe for one goddamn second you are here because you miss me.” He swallows the shot with the ease of a seasoned pro. I heard the rumors circulating about him, that he is a heavy drinker among other things. When he offers the bottle to me, I scrunch my nose and waive it away. His eyebrow quirks up. “That’s new. Going with the good girl act?” I am pissed. “Act? You don’t know me anymore. Save your judgments. Some of us have priorities in life. You know, responsibilities?” His hand freezes in the middle of pouring another shot. “You’re going back to home tonight?” “I’m not here to talk about my schedule.” My foot taps on the ground. Wh
~Livie~A horde of ‘tweens almost trample me. Yup. Shit just got real. The situation is more terrifying than when my mom took me to the opening night of the final Twilight movie. I thought those little bitches were scary. They didn’t hold a candle to this crowd. There is nobody to blame but myself. I am that desperate to confront my ex, the lead singer of Pieces of Abel. Why here and now? What am I thinking? Rock It Out is Oklahoma’s largest rock festival of the year. Sucks when I’m the cause of my misery. If I could kick my own ass, I would. Cursing under my breath, I fight my way through a mob of women showing way too much skin, muscled security, and guys in outfits so bizarre I worry about their mental health. I swear the Marilyn Manson phase died a silent death. This crowd proves my theory wrong. Just like I am mistaken about the mullet being out of style. Seriously, I lost count of the number of mullet heads about five minutes ago. A pair of squealing women stumble by me, one