Death Smiling at me

Aubrey POV

It was almost like I had this feeling like something was about to happen, and it wasn't something good.

I had always been good with prediction but regardless of what was about to happen, I’m pretty certain that it couldn’t be any worse than the scolding that I had listened to through out the ride for letting Rosaline fall from my hands.

Today was Kendrick’s homecoming and the night he would pick a mate ahead of coronation coming up in two weeks. I didn’t know how to feel about his coming because of our very uncertain past, which ended on a bad note.

Maybe that was the reason I was feeling so uneasy.

All thanks to the light make – up I had on, I looked at least reasonable to face him, as we got to the door, mom pulled me closer to her and whispered harshly “I would rather not be embarrassed by anyone here, let the mating ball go as it should”.

I wonder how she must be feeling knowing she had to bring me with her, the last ball we had attended, I made a total fool of myself as was the laughing stock of the pack and unfortunately, mom and dad were dragged into the mess too.

I attracted bad luck and worse still, I was the most popular person around for being a werewolf without a wolf yet at the age of twenty-one.

“Hope I have made myself clear to you?” She asked once more, making me nod in reluctance, and then we proceeded into a hall that was already filled up with other pack members.

The moment we entered, my eyes caught a very familiar pair of green eyes and a surge of emotions zapped through my body making me frown.

The look in his eyes too scared me as it was so fueled on emotions I couldn't recognize.

Did he still hate me?

“There he is” I heard Dad say before he added, “He looks all grown up" Mom added with a little trace of delight in her voice.

She then turned back to check if I was okay, she knew what had conspired between us, I flashed her a fake smile.

Although she didn't buy it, she smiled and nodded.

"Let’s go welcome him now The Alpha is yet to arrive”.

My heart thumped so hard against my chest and I tried walking in mom’s shadows, I could feel my body getting all tingly and hoped deep down, even though I would have loved it, that Kendrick wasn’t my mate.

Before we could get to him, he suddenly started walking towards us with his eyes red, it almost seemed like he was either drunk or angry over something.

“YOU ARE MY MATE?” I heard him thunder, making me turn to see who he was referring too; my heart beat so hard against my rib cage as I saw everyone staring at the both of us.

“THIS HAS TO BE A JOKE, THIS FUCKING ORPHAN HUMAN IS MY MATE?” He asked, more like shouted once more, confirming my suspicions, he was indeed referring to me, but I was about to scream at him that I might be a human or haven’t met my wolf that didn’t mean that I was an orphan.

Without letting me speak or even defend the fact that I was no or orphan, he stalked towards me the more and grabbed my hand before he then gripped it tight, he ordered “REJECT ME!”

I could feel the anger surging through his body as he was shaking so badly…so badly that I feared death, if it were others, it wouldn’t hurt thus bad, but his grip was crushing me because I was still more human than wolf.

Did he hate me this much? I remember when he left with a promise, but now it seemed more like he was a stranger.

Upon coming here, I was worried about how I would face someone I had shared a very memorable past, but I saw nothing familiar in his eyes, rather the only emotion that existed right now was HATE.

“No!” I said, struggling to escape his wrath and grasp.

“What do you mean by NO?” he asked in rage.

“WEAK HUMAN!” He added and gathering all the strength I had I looked him straight in the eye and said, "I'm not human neither I'm I an Orphan”.

As though what you had just said was a joke, he burst into laughter and slowly everyone joined, excluding my parents who held onto Rosaline.

Why were they laughing?

“I was not an orphan!, My parents are standing…” I had begun screaming at them, but then I caught their guilty look.

“Mom?” I called out shakily, “we all know you are no child of this pack, Aubrey” I heard Kendrick say making me gasp.

“Dad?”

“We apologize for not informing you, but we have really tried Aubrey” I heard Dad say, making my heart sink.

“What are you saying!” I asked and immediately mom rushed to me and enveloped me in her arms where I cried.

I could hear her sniffs too, “We found you and took you as our own but we love you baby” she said amidst tears and in rage I pushed her away.

“As much as this show seems interesting, I need you to reject me!”

“I will not have a weak, useless Human as a mate”.

“Kendrick?” I called out in pain, “why are you doing this to me?” I asked, knowing he wasn't going to answer me.

My whole body was aching, “I, Kendrick Weather reject you, Aubrey as my mate!”

I burst into tears as so many foreign emotions filled me up, never have I felt this rejected and alone in the world.

If I wasn't sure I would have probably said that this was all planned, being rejected and disowned in front of everyone hit differently.

I wasn't fit to be his Luna, he wanted a strong Luna, but I was just a weak human.

“I'm yet to hear you accept it” he growled out impatiently.

My heart shattered the more as mom added, “please for this pack's sake, do it”.

With a sad smile plastered on my face, I said, “I, Aubrey, accept your rejection”

It was now, I understood why my parents had lied to me every time when I asked them why I had no wolf and why I couldn’t catch up with others in the pack, no matter how hard I tried.

Their answer always I will have it until one day, meanwhile they had no reply for me because I wasn't theirs in the first place.

I belonged nowhere.

“How are you even still living your miserable life?” I heard him shout as I walked out, I wanted to ignore him, but he added, “I mean what do have to offer to this pack and worse still, fate has punished me by giving me a mate like you”.

“You don’t fucking belong here!” he shouted as I broke into a run, he was saying hurtful things even though he had just rejected me. I wanted to scream at him and ask what him what he wanted from me.

Hadn’t he done enough? He had insulted, degraded, rejected me in front of everyone, but he didn’t seem to be pleased, his tongue still raged war against me.

Could it be by any chance I had hurt him in the past because what he did today had no justification?

He hated me for being weak, I hated myself even more for being a liability to myself, my parents and the pack.

As I ran away from the gathering where Kendrick had successfully made me a fool and my parents…or guardians as of the point, I didn’t know if I could still call them that after just confirming that I was never theirs, all that rang in my head was “DIE”.

It was no wonder they had treated me the way they had, especially after finding out that I had no mate, if the treatment from other pack members did an awful job in singing how useless so was then they had just confirmed that I was really useless as they had always said.

All my life, I had been lied to about the person I was, and it was revealed to me in the most shameful way.

They couldn’t wait until we got home, they had to do it in front of the people who knew and never stopped singing it that I never belonged.

I had lived with everything before now, but what had happened at this moment just kept on playing on repeat in my head.

Life had no meaning and even if it had, fate was my enemy. All I felt at this point was the sting of their betrayal felt all people lied to her, Kendrick was right, I should have died.

If I had, then maybe mom and dad would have lived a better life, one in which they were given the respect that they deserved, they would have lived a much better life without me.

A little part of me still wanted my absence to be missed, I still wanted someone to care and find me, but the shouts I was heaving from the distant showed me thought they all really didn’t want me.

They were celebrating the full moon tonight like my absence didn't matter.

Just then it seemed as though the water below was calling out to me making promises to stop me from hurting anymore.

"Jump!" I could almost hear it chant, without looking back I ran and jumped off the cliff.

As my body dove to the darkness below, I could see death smiling at me. The world was definitely a better place without Aubrey.