Naomi (Continued)
“I meant to ask you something,” Finn murmurs sleepily as we watch yet another shooting star go by. “Did it bother you that we never had a ceremony?” “No…no it just never felt the right time, then we had been together so long it almost didn’t matter?” “It’s a shame. Your sisters had all promised to walk together.” “We did it for Matilda. If things had gone differently, we would have walked for Eleanor and Rhett, but it all broke apart. I'm just glad we all found happiness, even if it wasn't in the same town square.” “Did Sia give you an address for Eleanor?” “Yes but I left it alone in the end. She knows where we are. She’s made a choice a long time ago,” I whisper sadly, clutching my King’s hand tightly. I know every wrinkle and line in his muscular frame. I could make his replica out of clay in every pose. The feel of his body is a memory I constantly revisit. “I found my memory box the other day when we were packing,” I add. “I didn’t know you had one?” Finn replied. “Leona had one, and it inspired me a bit. I only put a couple of things in it. I stopped after you became Alpha.” “What was in it?” “The arrow Leona split. I couldn’t think of a better item to remember her by. Two ruined pieces of leather, too.” “Oh really?” “Your belts. When I slashed them from your waist.” “I know exactly where they’re from. The night after the pyre?” “That’s right,” I smile, still able to feel the coolness of the kitchen tiles on my skin. I shut my eyes as Finn is clearly having his own flashbacks, bathing my senses in a warm, cosy adoration. "I didn't know you were keeping trophies of me," he jokes slyly. "Well, I only took the two," I joke back as he gives me a mock scowl. "Hmph. What else was in there?" “Some of Rami’s drawings. The first one he did of us as a three. His first arrow.” “The one where I was so big I took up three quarters of the page?” Finn sniffs in amusement. “That’s the one,” I chuckled softly, absorbed in watching the stars above. “Wondered where that went. It was my favourite picture too. He put a big heart in the chest. He was Super-Rami, and I was his...helper?” "His assistant," I chuckled. "You know why I didn't add much more to it?" Finn turned and gave me a soft smile, his grey and brown hair still a mess of curls. "Because you were too busy living to be sentimental?" The fact he remembers Rami’s drawing in such details had melted my ancient heart all over again. “I love you, Penkov.” “Love you too, Kharkov.” “How do you think Rami is coping without us?” “He’ll be getting ready for his own retirement soon. He’ll be wanting us to clear out of this cabin so he can have it!” "True, we definitely didn't put enough bedrooms in for the rebuild." Rami took over when he turned thirty because that is when he finally met his mate. He told Finn privately he didn't mind the wait as long as the Goddess blessed him with someone who made him as happy as us. Goddess I am so proud of him. Now, for twenty years, we have had the pure joy of seeing him with Sia. When she first appeared at Cragstone, we were a little hesitant. She came from Five Lakes. Her eyes dark as midnight with neon blue flashes. Yet she had her mother’s elegant blond hair. Jane’s daughter. No longer Jane the Witch, now she lived in one of the restored manor houses in Five Lakes. A homely life in a slowly rebuilding, quiet little pack. It has no leader, but it appears peaceful enough. But despite rumour and gossip, Jane is very much alive. She found her mate. She had a beautiful daughter named Sia, who utterly entranced Rami from their very first meeting. We all knew it was love. Mainly because it was the first time since he was five years old he missed the archery target in front of his team. He might have messed around firing arrows at Diane Jackon’s cottage for me as a youngster, but never in front of his peers. Sia strode in, long blonde curls swishing down to her waist, pouting lips and dangerously dark eyes. Finn declared our boy was sunk. Confidently, a backpack slung on her shoulder, wearing a pair of high-cut shorts, she asked Finn there was perhaps a place the Alpha could grant her to stay for a few nights. Rami might as well have told her there and then he had no intentions of ever letting her go, the way his sea-green eyes blazed with his gentle orange wolf's glow. He might not have Finn’s blood, but he loves just as whole-heartedly. Knowing she was Jane's daughter, we welcomed her with open arms even if Jane was too blissfully happy to ever return to us. The very next full moon, their mate bond, snapped into place in front of everyone. Although we had a sneaking suspicion, their relationship was already underway weeks earlier. The cobbled courtyard allowed everyone to see their loyal, brave favourite finally find his matching half. Rami and Sia had two sets of very busy, very noisy, very big twin boys. A completely crazy packhouse full of love. Sia is a wonderful influence to the pack with her adventurous spirit. Twenty years ago, we stepped aside and Alpha Rami created his own kingdom. They have their own Beta’s, friends, and extended family. They don’t need us or Jane. Our era has ended. The men and women we once trained as tired and finished as ourselves. We can step away and know everyone will be fine. Shadowlands, White Forest, and Rising Star have known fifty years of peace. Rami’s children or perhaps some other elected leader will bring forth the next decades of success and prosperity. Except when I hear the cabin door rattle, I feel my heart chill. Finn lifts his head slightly, but we don’t move. We had a feeling this might happen one day. /I think it might be time, my beautiful girl./ The risk of humbling a king might work for one generation, but it might fuel the next. As the wolfsbane syringe hits my neck, I sigh and grip Finn tighter. Dying together, there is nothing else I would choose. I don’t panic because I know Rami and his family are fully prepared for whatever might happen. Even if it is war. Rami, Elena, and Aisling. The trio of leaders our world can depend on. “King Heath is dead. Long live the Queen. Your time is up shifters,” hisses a foul, tobacco laced breath. Silly humans. Fifty years is a long time to play catch up. Shadowlands is so fucking ready for them. Rising Star Academy is producing genius new inventions. That wall won’t last a week. Bridgend will be in flames by the fortnight. Silly humans never learn. The history books declare wolves the winners for a damn good reason. I hear the water lapping nearby, a shooting star above my failing vision. But Finn and I are tired now. Our wolves are tired. I remember to offer thanks to my loyal spirit for never steering me wrong, for always pushing me towards Finn instead of fleeing the chance of love. As the lethal wolfsbane kicks in, I feel Finn’s adoration. Still warm, still pulsing across our bond even as we slowly drift away. A blue light seems to descend from the sky itself. I see my Mama and Papa waiting for me. Their faces are proud. Just as I remember them. When I see 6 heart shatters and rebuilds itself in an instant. My twin. My stolen sister. Still in her twenties, vigorous and full of energy. I can feel Finn close by, no doubt reuniting with his loved ones. We did good. We made a difference. I loved and lived and did everything I could dream of with my soulmate by my side. I stride towards my heavenly family with open arms and await the chance for Finn and I to proudly watch our Rami lead from the stars. **THE END - THANKYOU FOR READING!***Lingering on the wooden porch of the Cragstone packhouse, everyone is celebrating. A band plays, the full moon glows with summer drawing to a close. Joy, sex and happiness everywhere, but fuck all for me. Bitter but true.“Beer?” nudges Alpha Cillian. My fox-haired leader studies me when I silently take the bottle. “Maybe try a smile? You’re allowed to enjoy a party you know.”“It will take at least twenty more of these then,” I reply grimly, taking a hefty swig before grabbing the Alpha’s from him with a cheeky swipe. “Hey, nothing crazy this month?” Cillian remarks cautiously. “Of course not Alpha,” I reply, adding a sarcastic salute that leaves him rolling his sky blue eyes. Everyone is happy. As the single women finally complete their skipping, weaving dance between the other unmated men of the pack there is the occasional yelp of delight. Another young couple finding their forever bond. A moon-forged connection stronger than blood, bribery or betrayal.Lucky for me, I have alre
Staring at the shambles that is Finn Penkov I could almost laugh. Lips smeared red with Diane’s lipstick, a wide, dumbstruck look on his chiselled, boyish face. He said nothing, just looked at me, flickers of gold lighting up his dark grey eyes. It was easy to find him, his warm tangy scent acting like a homing beacon.In a way I'm pleased I saw him with Diane Jackson too. I knew I was right about him./You called it. Win for you/ Impes, my wolf confirms bitterly. Except Finn didn’t count on my sisters. Especially Leona. My matching heartbeat. Nothing gets past her. We’re wearing the same all-black catsuit, copper hair medium length. Instinctively matching even when separated. I knew my so-called mate wouldn’t be struggling that badly without me. He’d move on eventually. Men are all the same. Adrian wasn’t like that. My son won’t be like that either. Little Rami, blessed with the same sea-green eyes of his father won’t turn into one of those beer-swilling oafs. I hope not anyway
I knew she’d be hard work. The amount of guilt pulsing out of her before she folded to her sisters and agreed to stay had me feeling nauseous. So maybe she really does hate me. Or perhaps she is just a stubborn fool who won’t admit there is a reason we are mates? I barely slept last. Paced my way around the back of the packhouse long after the party ended. There isn’t much time to make this count. I need to spend time with her, somehow./We need to understand her, why has she hidden for so long/ Adamo suggests softly.My wolf is always worth listening to. A huge ashy blonde beast, people assume like me, my wolf is purely built to kill. He’s actually a soft, caring, ponderous old soul. I’m a good guy too. If she hadn’t cut me off mid-sentence last night she would have known that. Halfway towards saying “I don’t want your guilt, shame and all that shit to steal anymore of your happiness away,” before she took me out. Swiping at me like I didn’t weigh three times more than her.Ming
“I don’t know what he’s trying to do, but he needs to stop it,” I growled at Leona, stuck in the side-room to the library. Finn has gone to check on their progress leaving us alone. I rubbed at the back of my neck where that constant gaze of FInn’s had lingered for the past half hour. “Don’t let him get under your skin,” Leona sighs. Sat on plain wooden chairs we both lean forward, except she fiddles endlessly with a small charm bracelet on her wrist, the tiny wooden letters spelling out Aria’s name. “It’s not that easy,” I protested. Like it’s so easy to just ignore one's mate, undressing you with his gaze. “Believe me I’m trying.” “You act like Finn’s something special.” “He is my mate,” I snapped in frustration. “You’re stronger than all that bond shit Naomi. Believe me…” looking at the floor. “Anyway what was with the near death biking experience.”“That was fun! You nearly ran over Beta Riley! What’s with his hair now though, twirly braids?” “It was fucking insane Naomi.
I leave them to it. I know my father ends up in the same situation. He works with wood, not because he’s unintelligent but because he’s a quiet master of his own world. Built like this, it's often assumed we're only good for heavy lifting. Those attitudes turned my father into an assassin, me into a fighter. I should be relaxing, but I can’t switch off. Because on the other side of that wall, I remain connected to Naomi. It’s not good. Dark waves of guilt lash me like waves against cliffs. I know she fell hard for Adrian, but this amount of pain isn’t normal, surely? Her heart lurched at Eleanor, mentioning the Ceremony, is it because she dreads the idea of us having one? It leaves me turning down food and pacing the grey stone corridors, chatting to the builders, and marvelling at the plans Alpha Zeka and Luna Freya have created. I thought wolves had to be marked before this level of emotional connection was possible. But I know my mother and father have some running joke
Slapping him was a stupid move. Finn pushes buttons I didn’t even know I had. All that talk about wolves and feelings, yet I had my hand on his dick! If I’d listened to my wolf, those books would have been untranslatable for future generations. That’s what I wanted. In that insanely heated moment in the dark, anyway. Then he opened his mouth and ruined it. Anyway, it's all proof we're not a good match. /What about if he'd kissed you?/ Impes asks. I turn and toss in my small bed, plagued by my wolf. There is zero chance of sleep, I might as well be translating. Damn it, Finn Penkov. I growl internally, only to roll over again. Impes nudges me for an answer. A kiss? Well, I guess I’ll just have to ask Diane Jackson next time I’m at Cragstone. /Jealousy. That’s a new one/ Impes snickers. I roll over, press a cushion to the top of my head, and pray for sleep. I was showered and dressed well before dawn. Habit of having tiny Rami. Clad in tight black sportswear, forget
Naomi’s sisters are proving to be the bane of my life right now. Every time I take a step forward, one of them leaves a rusty, lethal bear trap for me to step on. “What do you mean you’re leaving? Leona! Come back!” Naomi calls out, swiftly jumping off me to chase her out of my room without a glace back. She doesn’t even shut the door after her, allowing a concerned Wren, two builders, and a passing cook to get a look at my naked body as I stand there like a bemused fool. Angry voices bounce down the corridor. “You won’t change my mind, Naomi!” “I don’t understand. You won’t even stay another day?” “I can’t! I don’t want to be here!” Fuck. I drag on some sweatpants. Stalking down the corridor it’s easy enough to catch up to their noise. Leona dressed all in black, ready to kill versus the sports-bra and leggings clad Naomi. “Why! What’s more important than finding out who was sheltering Gustav, who killed him? What it means for Shadowlands!” “I COULDN’T GIVE A FUCK AB
/He’s not going to hurt us/ Impes offers. But that’s irrelevant. I know that. I know he’s good and loyal. That his kisses make me feel like a sinner and a saint all rolled into one confusing, delirious mess. I know he won’t ever reject me, and he only wants to lift the grey cloud of doom from around my head. All of this is clear and obvious, yet still I’m keeping him at arm's length. Until he calls me clever little Kharkov anyway. Is it still a cheesy line if he says it to himself? I step quietly back into the room, wondering if he feels how blatantly I’m staring at the hemline of his black pants. I’ve lost my mind. It’s official. There is no way what I’m contemplating is in any way sane. But it’s what I want. Even when shouting with Leona, in the back of my mind, Impes was reminding me I’d left Finn naked in his room. So I try to correct myself, swerve back into normal. “I’m leaving with Leona. We’ll work through every book. I’ll do the trips up and down to restock. I’l
Naomi (Continued) “I meant to ask you something,” Finn murmurs sleepily as we watch yet another shooting star go by. “Did it bother you that we never had a ceremony?” “No…no it just never felt the right time, then we had been together so long it almost didn’t matter?” “It’s a shame. Your sisters had all promised to walk together.” “We did it for Matilda. If things had gone differently, we would have walked for Eleanor and Rhett, but it all broke apart. I'm just glad we all found happiness, even if it wasn't in the same town square.” “Did Sia give you an address for Eleanor?” “Yes but I left it alone in the end. She knows where we are. She’s made a choice a long time ago,” I whisper sadly, clutching my King’s hand tightly. I know every wrinkle and line in his muscular frame. I could make his replica out of clay in every pose. The feel of his body is a memory I constantly revisit. “I found my memory box the other day when we were packing,” I add. “I didn’t know you had o
Naomi It’s been fifty years since we took over as Alpha and Luna this full moon. Fifty years. Time has the cruellest ability to just vanish from underneath your feet. I swear I was a feisty, opinionated, quad-bike obsessed woman in her twenties just the other day. Now, creeping upon me like a riptide, I'm a content, slow-moving little fossil. I’m his girl, his Queen. He is my King. Now and forever. The quad-bike-revving beast of a man who only ever cares for us. I love the fact I’m still his girl even as time eats away at our vitality. My hair is no longer fiery red. I’ve conceded to grey. He insists it only makes my brown eyes all the prettier. I’d blush, except I love every word he says. I still find any opportunity to stand above him and bring my face to his, marvelling at the lack of wrinkles on his relaxed, still-boyish features. We’re currently down on the very south of the Shadowlands coast, in Finn’s old family home, left to him by his parents. I wonder if all o
*** SEVEN MONTHS LATER*** PHOEBE It is strange when the life you thought you always wanted lands in your lap. Except they don’t feed your soul. I lecture students on human and shifter history. An expert in my bitterly-learned field. The contrasting versions of events. The dangers of automatically believing the only side of the story you have access to. The fact history is always told from the side of the winner. I stride the corridors, my wedding band and bumblebee pendant permanently part of me. But it’s not enough. Jane and Wren are so incredibly kind. The hours I've spent talking through Huli and those momths with them have been cathartic. Even so, they know Rising Star isn’t what I want. Not without Sawyer. Of course, it would have been ungrateful to protest at Alpha Finn’s decision. Two people voted for me to die. Including my own sister. Alpha Finn saved me whilst yanking Sawyer away. It’s been seven months, yet every night, I lie awake. I think of the same mom
*** 7 MONTHS LATER *** ALPHA FINN “Alpha!” That fake-serious, minx of a voice forces me to pause. Not ideal when halfway across the Jackson’s roof, retrieving Rami’s misplaced arrow. Again. Considering he is meant to be an archery prodigy, he seems to fire it up into that thatched cottage’s eaves with annoying regularity. “This is your fault, Luna!” I shout back, fully aware of her laughing from the packhouse. When she sends a bolt of seriously dirty thoughts across our bond, I almost put my foot into the chimney. Thankfully, Diane is with Beta Tucker again, straightening out his boredom-driven drinking via pure seduction. "IT WAS ME!” Rami adds with glee. Naomi innocently claims the practice targets Rami uses simply must face the Jackson’s cottage. I don’t argue. Not when my girl slinks around in dark bodysuits that leave my hands twitching to wrap around her waist. I have no arguments, only desires. Any argument she has formulating just vanishes away at the soun
My mouth drops open, but there is nothing to say. Nikolai doesn’t suffer the same issue. “Now just fuck off a minute-” but Cillian doesn’t even flinch. Zeke and Freya step forward, their eyes wide with surprise. "You haven't discussed this with us?" “Look, my father was never born an Alpha. He rose. He proved himself. Calm in danger, braver than any of his peers. Any Shadowlands Alpha should follow the same route. I haven't. I've made it this far by the skin of my teeth. So I want you all to endorse and support and give your backing to Finn. Alpha Finn Penkov and his Luna, Naomi Kharkov of the Shadowlands.” The only person to make a sound is Rami, who starts clapping wildly and shouting “KING FINN! King Finn and Prince Rami! Haha, I'm in charge!!” He doesn’t seem to realise everyone else is in complete shock. He’s just thrilled his favourite person in the world is getting a promotion. And by default, in his eyes anyway, himself. “Do you accept?” Cillian says, not really givin
The truck ride certainly gave me time to think. For one, I am eternally grateful Huli was no longer with me. I don’t miss having a wolf. The agony she would have been putting me through had she still held residence in my consciousness made me instinctively reach for my wrist. The only sign of that former life, one that could be years ago instead of just a few months, is a faint, grey scar on my wrist. It used to be so red and angry. Now, it has settled down to almost nothing. Genevieve picked up on it whilst she came to say goodbye. “I know you’re scared.” “I am. But only because it’s what I deserve.” “Well, if it helps, Nikolai and I are attending this meeting too. Cillian has asked for Rising Star as well.” "Oh." That absolutely does not help in any way. It only means Matilda will have even less influence. It makes me think Cillian is preparing to make an example of me. Genevieve has been kind enough to lend me a cornflower blue and white gown. Its swirling blue remi
Nikolai explained, in a much more brutal and dickish way than was necessary, that we only got one night's stay at White Forest Castle. After all, he has sworn to help Alpha Cillian and Zeke, the pair of them bound in a trio of voting and veto. I don't care. We have each other right now. Every day seems to be swinging us to the extremes, and now we are just waiting for the biggest and hopefully final one to go our way. “I think we need to switch our brains off for a while,” Phoebe sighed, our brown dust-covered bodies flopping onto the bed of our small little room. “I can’t keep thinking about next week. It will drive me insane.” “Cillian could just exile us. Or maybe be so taken up in making Heath pay that we are nothing to him. Matilda will have an influence.” “I killed my mother and put him, Naomi and Finn into a trance. I stole a child…” “Not you. Your fucking wolf. You were just the vessel,” I sigh, too weary to go round the grisly roulette wheel. Phoebe rolls herself
Clutching his silver goblet, our nameless, very-well rested hostage was almost chirpy, insisting he had a brother in law in the next town he could call on for a ride. But Sawyer shook his head when the time came to abandon him in the dark. “No…no it’s not right to take this. Can you drop us at the border? Keep the truck.” “From here, your nearest pack is Rising Star?” “That works just fine,” Sawyer replied. Walking through the night, keeping away from the towns and villages, Sawyer found us fresh water to drink, before killing and cooking a fish over a small fire. I’m probably endlessly naive, but to me, it was a perfect night. Because finally, there was not a single obstruction to just being with Sawyer. The man who patiently explained how you can catch a fish bare-handed. Explaining why he purposely ignored one section of the river, walking another mile upstream. I said nothing when he stripped to his underwear to stand in the shallows. I whooped and laughed instead when
I felt Phoebe’s fear rise at the sight of Cillian. I saw a chance. Our opportunity to finally put things right. I just need him to listen to me instead of immediately heading to decapitation. His wolf's eyes were entirely golden, burning anger at the forefront of his intent. Cillian didn't even attempt diplomacy. No Shadowland envoys to King Heath, not even a personal visit to Bridgend to ask if there was truth in any rumours. He’s ended up straight here, shifted into wolf form, and shredded his way through at least twenty human men. What if this isn't the first prison he's tried? What will be the fallout from the Alpha's desperation? I couldn’t get Matilda’s cell unlocked in time. The heavy collection of black and silver keys was impossible to gauge. With the gag still in her mouth, Matilda wasn’t coming to our aid anytime soon. Plus, I know how it feels to be obliterated by wolfsbane. Sluggish, dopey. She might not even believe this is even real if they’ve really pum