~Haven's POV~
I was beyond furious after dropping Tristian off. What's his problem? Who throws quarters at people?
And saying that Gabe pleasures himself to substitute the fact that we don't engage in premarital sex is just ridiculous! He knows nothing!
Sure Gabe gets a little intense and grabby when we make out, but he's more than aware that we have to wait. He's never verbally said that we should take things further, but his actions when things get hot and his breath gets shallow do indicate that he wants a little more.
He'd have to wait.
Tristian is still a jerk and completely wrong.
I took a deep breath and reminded myself that we're not supposed to judge others. That's not our job, that's God's. No matter how obnoxious other people can be.
"How was the meeting?" Mom asked when I entered the house.
"It was wonderful!" I said.
"Good. We're going to have a full table tonight at dinner. Mrs. Fletcher and her grandson are joining us!" Dad said excitedly.
Lovely.
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I waved at my brother Heath as I passed his room.
"Hey Haven." He said distracted by his video game.
It's so strange having a twin brother. The thought that we used to share a womb is pretty crazy.
Heath and I definitely looked like twins. We both have glowing, bronzy light brown skin, freckles and bright amber eyes that we're told are piercing. His black coily hair was cut into a perfect flat top. He always told me I should wear my hair curly too, but that felt too wild and untamed to me. I like the structure of straight hair even though it's more work.
I settled on my bed and opened my bible. I was tired, but I had to finish these verses...
"Haven. Hey Haven," Gabe was trying to wake me up with a gentle whisper. "Wakey Wakey." He was gently poking me.
I groaned. "Five more minutes," I turned away from Gabe.
"It's time to wake up now," he said. He didn't sound like himself. His voice sounded much deeper. Almost sexy. Maybe he was catching a cold.
"Nooo." I whined.
"Come on, Haven, get up."
I turned around to beg him to give me five more minutes and instead of seeing Gabe's hazel eyes staring back at me, I see Tristian's smokey silvered eyes. I screamed.
"What the hell?" He asked.
"You scared the living daylights out of me! I thought you were Gabe!" I explained.
"I don't know why you thought that. I'm much better looking." He shrugged. His eyes raked over me. I suddenly felt incredibly insecure.
"What are you doing in my room?" I asked.
"Hoping you changed your mind about that premarital sex."
"You're disgusting. Where is Gabe? Or Grace?”
Tristian shrugged his broad, muscular shoulders again. "Isn't it your job to keep tabs on your friends?”
I rolled my eyes as I reached for my phone. There was a text from Gabe saying that he was running a little late. Apparently Grace had just arrived
Tristian was still just standing there, looking at me. "You can leave now," I said. "Tell everyone I will be down in a few minutes, I just need to freshen up."
"Alright,” he said. He stopped at my door. "You might want to pull your dress down before that though. You're giving a whole new meaning to 'turn the other cheek'."
I gasped and scrambled to pull down my dress. I could hear his deep gravelly laughter as slammed the door behind him.
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"Could you pass me the green beans, Haven?" Tristian asked, giving me a smile that I did not like. It was still charming but by now I knew if he's smiling, it's not a good thing.
I forced a smile to my own face and handed him the green beans.
"Why thank you for your assistance." He put emphasis on the first part of the word, obviously referring to my dress riding up.
"So, are you kids excited for school tomorrow?" Ms. Fletcher asked.
"Yes!" Grace and I chorused.
"I am so excited to finally take some art classes!" I gushed. "I mean I completely understand the importance of G.E. classes, but I'm so happy to finally work with my hands."
“I could help you with that too if you want.” Tristian whispered so only I could hear.
I didn't even want to figure out what dirty, vulgar thing he would have me do with my hands.
"Tristian, Haven is also an art major."
"You're into art?" Tristian asked me. I nodded. "Who's your favorite artist?"
"I don't want to sound like a poser or anything, but I am hopelessly obsessed with Monet's work."
A smile spread across Tristian's face. "He's my favorite too."
"Oh. Well...cool I guess."
Just because he was cute and liked Monet did not mean suddenly I wanted to be friends with him.
"Well that's wonderful!" Ms. Fletcher said. "You can show him his classes at school tomorrow."
"Oh, um, sure," I said.
"So, Heath, what's your major?" Tristian asked.
"I'm a Psychology major, so obviously I want to be a psychologist." Heath said. “I somehow missed out on the artistic gene.”
"He's terrible at art, but he's gonna help a lot of people." I said smiling.
"I'm a government major. I want to be a good politician. No lying or schemes. And I think I'd like to be President someday." Gabe stated, without being asked.
"And wouldn't Haven just make a wonderful First Lady?" Mom said grinning widely.
"Well I think so," Gabe said, winking at me.
“You have great style, you'll be like the next Jackie!” Grace said.
"I could paint the White House!" I joked.
"You could make it look like Rouen Cathedral The Portal in the Sun!" Tristian exclaimed.
Okay, that's a cool idea.
Heath shook his head and laughed. "Art geeks." I made a face at him.
"Speaking of being First Lady, when are you two taking things to the next level?" Ms. Fletcher asked.
"Yes, when will you be making an honest woman of my daughter, Gabe?" Dad asked.
Gabe and I exchanged looks. I shifted uncomfortably. I wasn't a fan of when my family would get nosy about my relationship. It wasn't their business.
"Soon," Gabe said, his hazel eyes creasing under his curls. "Very soon. I can't imagine a life with my Haven."
“I can't wait to be a maid of honor,” Grace said. “Haven you'll be such a beautiful bride!” Everyone started discussing how beautiful I would be on the day and the songs that would play and who would be what.
It made me feel awkward.
Tristian gave me a strange intense look while everyone else talked and I wasn't sure why.
After dinner we got ready to go out for ice cream while the adults settled in the living room, talking animatedly about the sermon from this morning.
"So who's driving?" Heath asked as we exited the house.
"I'll drive." Tristian offered.
*Tristian's POV*
So it turns out Haven wasn't just the hot stuck up Jesus freak that I wanted to corrupt. I mean she was, but she's so much more than that.
She's an artist! From our first conversation I thought the only thing she could be passionate about was her Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
But she was truly passionate about art and painting and I gotta say, it's a huge turn on.
There was something about this girl that I couldn't explain. I'd only known her day and she was driving me out of my mind.
Haven was special. I had to have her.
And there's definitely more to her than she lets on. She's not happy with her boyfriend. And I know she's curious about less Godly things.
It was now my mission to make her see that. I was going to make her leave that clown and find out how fun life outside the church is. I'm also going sleep with her.
We all climbed into my car. Haven took the passenger seat, and Heath, Grace and Gabe got in the back.
I liked Heath. He seemed pretty cool and wasn't super in your face about the God stuff the way Gabe was.
Now there's something I don't trust about that guy. I didn't understand how he's had a gorgeous girl like Haven for like ten years and he's never tried to get in her pants.
Grace seemed okay. I unfortunately couldn't use her as an advantage with Haven.
"Fasten your seat belts." I said shifting into drive.
"Woah!" Gabe called from the back seat. “Slow down buddy!"
I laughed in response and glanced over at Haven, who seemed to have no problem with the speed. In fact, she seemed to be enjoying it. Her hair was whipping around her face. She likes to go fast. How hot is that?
“Do you even know where you're going?" She asked me, looking amused. I loved the almost devilish smile on her perfect face. Her honey eyes are lit up with mischief. I knew she liked a little excitement.
“Yes. I make it my mission to find a great ice cream place the moment I go to a new city." I informed her. This made her giggle. I was pleased with myself.
We made it to the ice cream place in record time and I parked right in front.
“Everyone okay?" I laughed.
“That was fun," Haven whispered to Grace as though she didn't want Gabe or me to hear it.
“He drives even faster than you do," Grace responded, fixing her glasses. “Didn't even think that was possible."
Haven lightly shoved her as Gabe grabbed her other hand. It bothered me to see them being cutesy with each other. I needed to figure out a way to ruin them quickly. I didn't like seeing her with this guy.
We entered the place and I surveyed the ice cream carefully. Picking the perfect ice cream couldn't be rushed.
I found the perfect one.
“What are you guys having?" Heath asked.
“Chocolate Malted Crunch." Haven and I answered simultaneously.
She laughed. “Looks like art isn't the only thing you have good taste in."
“My taste in women isn't so bad either." I winked at her. She bit her lip and looked away from me.
“Bleh, chocolate ice cream is the worst!” Grace says. She ended up choosing Sherbet.
I offered to pay for everyone's ice cream and we all went outside to eat.
“What college are you from?" Gabe asked me.
“University of Florida in Gainsville." I said.
"That's like the biggest party school in Florida right?" Gabe questioned, almost sounding accusing.
"Yeah, I guess. How did you know that?" I asked.
"Google."
“So why'd you leave?" Grace asked curiously. "I mean from Florida to here in Rhode Island is a huge change."
“Well, I needed a change and my parents and I felt the change I needed was here." That was as much as I would say. Haven would never look at me the same if she knew about what I'd done. "They grew up here and thought it was great."
“They're not wrong,” Heath said. "You'll love it here."
“I kind of already do." I said sneaking a glance at Haven.
Seeing her lick her ice cream cone was doing something to me. Her pink tongue swirled around the top. It was making my mind race with images of being with her.
I shifted and pulled at my pants. This girl is driving me insane!
“Hmm." Gabe said quietly.
We didn't say much else as we ate the ice cream.
“To the park then?" Heath asked.
“Yes!" Haven replied.
“What park?" I asked.
“You'll see,” she said. “I hope you're good at following directions."
I'd follow her anywhere.
“Is there any way you could slow down?!" Gabe shouted. I was speeding through the streets, listening to Haven's directions.
“That was a stop sign!” Grace pointed out.
“Turn right here!" Haven yelled.
I did a hard right. Gabe and Heath screamed, but Haven squealed in delight.
When we reached the park I stopped abruptly.
“You've given us all whiplash!" Gabe announced, quickly unbuckling his seat belt.
“My neck feels just fine," Haven said looking over at me.
“Race you guys to the swings!” Haven said taking off.
I ran after her immediately. My eyes were focused on her ass. I didn't even care about winning. I just loved seeing her from behind. The others didn't stand a chance. Haven and I reached the swings first.
“I have to say, for someone who throws quarters, you're not as bad as I thought you were." She said.
"Thanks. You've helped me realize what my newest mission is going to be."
“What is it?" Haven asked curiously.
"You."
"What do you mean by that?"
"My new mission is to make you see life differently," I explained. “To be happy with life."
“I am happy with life." She insisted.
“No, you're comfortable," I whispered. “Not happy. I'm gonna make you see that. I'm gonna make you happy, Haven."
~Haven's POV~ I could barely sleep that night. I was always incredibly excited for the first day of school. And knowing I had art classes only made me even more excited. I had the perfect dress picked out. Knew exactly how I would do my hair and had brand new art supplies. I was so ready. I was up before my alarm went and I got ready for school eagerly. I texted Tristian to make sure we were still meeting early so I could show him around the Art Department. I got an immediate response. I wasn't sure how to feel about what Tristian had told me last night. He said I didn't seem happy with my life, only comfortable. And now he was making his mission to help me. I wasn't sure what that entailed, but he was wrong about me. I love my life
*Tristian's POV*I’d only known the girl like two months, but Haven has somehow captured my attention something fierce. She’s just unlike any other girl I’ve ever met. She's completely insane and yet makes so much sense at the same time. She makes me wanna tear my hair out and confess my undying love for her all at once.She's kind of perfect.I didn't think I'd feel this way about her. It's become so much more than about sex. Don't get me wrong, I still want nothing more than to make love to her. I wanted to be tangled in the sheets with her for hours on end while making her feel like she'd been to heaven and back.But I also have real feelings for her. I wanted to hold her hand and buy her ice cream and kiss that adorable nose of her. I want to hold her in my arms
~Haven's POV~I was so confused. I loved Gabe, I really did, but there's something about Tristian that pulled me in. These last two months we'd spent hanging out with each other had been wonderful. Whether it's doing art or obsessing over the many masterpieces in the art building at school or getting ice cream.There's never a dull moment. We're always talking and laughing and doing art.I know Gabe still didn't like Tristian and dislikes that we hang out so much. But I didn't know what to do. Tristian and I just connect in a way that Gabe and I don't. I can tell how much that bothers us. But to be fair, he is making hanging out with Trisitan much too easy. He's always busy gaming or whatever he and Jonah do on weekends.Heath really liked Tristian. They'd become gr
*Tristian's POV* I knew I shouldn't be doing this, but I couldn't help it. Haven was so close to me and she smells like strawberries like she always does and she's absolutely stunning. So I kissed her. My body felt like it had been set on fire! I had never felt this before. She's kissing me back hesitantly, but she's still doing it. I slip my hand in her hair, kissing her harder. She moaned against my lips. It's too much, I want her so badly. I'm allowed maybe a minute of tasting her utterly perfect lips before she pulled away abruptly and backed away from me. “What's wrong?" I asked. “You know what's wrong. You can't do that, Tristian." “Why not?" I asked, even though I knew the a
~Haven's POV~ Even though I was sure I wanted to be with Tristian, I wanted to give Gabe a chance to keep me. To see if he could make me feel the way Tristian did. Were making out, but I wasn't really feeling anything. I probably just have to work with him a little. I grabbed his hands put them in my hair. I liked when Tristian did that. "You want my hand in your hair?" Gabe asked. "Yeah, I thought it would be kind of hot." I smiled. "But you put so much work into your hair." "Well you can mess it up." I kissed him hard pressing against him. I still wasn't feeling anything. I was honestly kind of bored. I wasn't excited or damp or
~Haven's POV~ "Can we help you?" A girl now emerged from the covers. I looked at her in disbelief. “I was so close to getting off.” I shook my head. “No. I'm sorry I interrupted. That was...rude of me.” "Haven..." Gabe whispered. "Um..." I couldn't stay there. I couldn't look at him. I couldn't wrap my mind around the fact that most of my life was a lie. I ran out of the room. I practically stumbled down the stairs. "Haven wait!" Gabe's voice called after me. I ran into the backyard. I couldn't breathe. My chest was closing up and I was crying and I was dizzy. I think was having a panic attack. I had to stop and lean against the house to catch my breath. "Haven, what are you doing here?"
~Haven's POV~ "What do you want?" I asked approaching him. "You weren't at church today,” he said. "I had other plans,” "Where?" "That's really none of your business, Gabe." I said crossing my arms. "Now what do you want?" "I want to talk to you about our break up. I want you to reconsider." He said quietly. "Excuse me?" I asked. "Are you out of your freakin mind?" "Maybe I am. That's what being without you feels like, Haven. I feel like I've lost my mind." Gabe said. "That's funny, because you weren't losing your mind when you were with all those o
*Tristian's POV* Being with Haven is truly something else. I absolutely loved kissing her more than I loved anything else. But I also loved just talking to her. That's pretty much all we did. Talk and kiss. And do art. She was literally the perfect girl. Haven had changed a lot since we'd started secretly dating. She cursed a lot now. She was good at not doing it around any of her church friends and her family, but around me, she didn't filter anything. I think it made her kind of excited to say words she knew she wasn't supposed to. Her clothes are completely different too. Haven used to dress pretty modestly. Skirts and dresses down to her knees, no low cut shirts, nothing too tight. That was gone. She went in the back of her closet and took all those sexy clothes and made them her wardrobe. Her body was now scantily adorne
~Haven’s POV~ “So you chose Tristian?” Aleecia asked as we got ready for the wedding. “Are you surprised?” Grace snorted. “I mean it was always going to be him.” “Yeah, I suppose. But what are you two going to do in different states?” Aleecia questioned. “We’ll figure it out.” I answered. I didn’t want to take the attention off of Grace by telling them that I was moving to New York. Tristian talked to Avery this morning, who was thrilled to hear that I would be coming there too. I think it was all going to work out perfectly. This was what was meant to happen. “I’m gonna go check on Heath.” I stated. As I reached the door to the boy’s room, Logan stepped out of it. We stared at each other for a moment. “You look beautiful.” Logan whispered. “You look really handsome.” I offered. “I’m sorry for how I left things last night. I just...I’m tired Haven. Tired of pretending everything w
~Haven’s POV~Tristian was right.I wasn’t as happy as everyone thought I was.Up until now I couldn't figure out why. I knew something was missing, but didn’t know what it was.I now knew it was Tristian.It was strange because there was nothing wrong with Logan. He was perfect. But maybe too perfect. Sure that sounds dumb, but it was true.When we had gotten together he was exactly what I needed. Sweet, funny, loyal. During that time in my life, I required that kind of man.But three years later, things are different. I’ve grown as a person and while Logan has grown with me, I wasn’t sure he grew into someone that complimented the person I had grown into.Tristian had.Or had he? Was this me trying to relive a time in my life that was long gone? Did I still have that bad boy fantasy or something?I wasn’t sure. What I did know was I almost h
Three Years Later~Haven’s POV~Planning a wedding was not easy.It’s even harder when it’s not your wedding that you're planning.I was the Maid of Honor for Grace and Heath’s wedding that was in a mere five days!I was relieved that it would be over soon. I was ready to fully get back to life without thoughts of flowers and table cloths coming up.I sighed and sat back in my seat. Finally the work day was done. I looked next to my computer at the framed photo of me, Mom, Heath, Grace and Logan at mine and Tristian’s first and last gallery exhibit together.Mom passed away nine months after that. It was easier than Dad’s death. We knew it would happen. We were prepared. It was still painful.I felt guilty about the sense of relief I felt. I didn’t have to take care of her anymore. I could fully pursue my career after that and I did.I was now the cu
~Haven’s POV~Logan had been kind of distant with me since the trial. It had been a week of tiptoeing around the issue, but I just couldn’t take it anymore.“Logan, baby, is something wrong?” I asked.I knew we had to talk about what I had said at the trial. I hoped he wasn’t too upset with me.“Did you mean all that?” Logan whispered. “That he was your best relationship? He’s the love of your life...are you not happy with me Haven?”“Of course I am. Logan I love you. I meant that! At the time yes it was everything to me and I felt like my life had crumbled. But you’ve made it better. I’m happy with you. That’s why you’ve been the one by my side through this whole ordeal. I couldn’t have gotten through without you.”Logan studied me before smiling. “Alright. Good. Because I love you too and you being happy is the most impor
~Haven’s POV~I couldn’t believe what Mr. Vera was suggesting.That Tristian could have something to do with my father’s death. He would never.Tristian was a lot of things. A liar, a manipulator, a bad boyfriend. But he was not a murderer. He wouldn’t hurt me just so I would get closer to him.The defense lawyer was really going out of his way to try to prove Trevor’s innocence. The crazy thing was that Trevor himself didn’t seem like he wanted this. I think he actually wanted to take responsibility for what had happened.“Haven Campbell, please come to the stand.”I was shaky as I was sworn in. My eyes found Logan and then I felt safe again. He was like my anchor.“So, Ms. Campbell, you were with Mr. Fletcher the night of the accident, correct?” Mr. Rush questioned.“Yes, I was.”“And was there a moment where Mr. Fletcher could ha
~Haven’s POV~ I wish I could have nothing to do with the trial. I just wanted Trevor to be punished for what he had done and leave it at that. I wanted this painful time in my life to be over so I could move on for real. I hadn’t spoken to Tristian since Kent’s party. I was disappointed by his behavior towards Logan. He made him out to be some devious guy that wormed his way into my bed. But Logan wasn’t like that. He was sweet and sensitive and absolutely perfect. I was glad I was with him. +++ Before our day in court I had to find a way to calm myself down. So of course Logan and I had sex. I loved the way Logan looked at me when I was on top of him. How he bit his lip as he watched me and would close his eyes when it felt extra good. He would grip my hips and make me go faster, the sound of his moans increasing. “Fuck Haven,” He gasped. Logan pulled me down to him and kissed me before rolling on top of me and thrusting into me quickly. “Right there baby.” I murmured.
*Tristian’s POV* I was going to get Haven back. I had to. I couldn’t let Logan win. Haven was my girlfriend and I needed her. I just had to remind her that she missed me. That I was the hot bad boy that had made her want to change her life. She couldn’t resist me when we first met, so she shouldn’t be able to resist me now, right? The only problem about that was I needed to enlist Viola's help. I needed Haven to think that she and I were back together to make her jealous and realize how much she truly missed me. Easy enough right? “No.” “What do you mean no?” I demanded. “I am not going to help you trick a girl with a dead father and a dying mother!” Viola exclaimed. “Okay, but why not? You’ve never had morals Vi, what’s changed?” “All that I’ve done is fucking up my karma! This is gonna make it worse. Find another girl, Trissy.” “Another girl won’t bother her,” I groaned. “You will though. She’ll be foaming at the mouth.” “I’m not doing it.” She crossed her arms. “You
~Haven's POV~“Shit. Fuck. Haven, I'm so sorry.” He rolled off of me pulling the covers up.“Why?” I asked.“I feel like I just completely took advantage of you just so I could finally fuck you. I was thinking with the wrong head.”“Well I wasn’t exactly protesting. You did nothing wrong.”“Yeah?” Logan whispered. “I’ve been trying to control myself with you and I just lost control.”“I’m glad you did. I was tired of waiting.” I smiled.“Was it good for you?” I nodded. “Good. It was amazing for me.”I pulled him to me. “Then we should keep doing it.”Logan smiled back and kissed me. “It doesn’t have to mean what I want it to mean.”“What do you want it to mean?”“That I’m your boyfriend.”“It could m
*Tristian’s POV*This was worse than when I blew up the building.I thought people hated me then, but that was nothing compared to how much everyone hated Trevor after finding out what he did. And they hated me by association.Grandma didn’t even go to church that Sunday. She said the whispers were loud enough at the grocery store and she couldn’t take it.Everyone whispered about me at school and gave me dirty looks. No one talked to me in class at all.Even my friends were avoiding me. But I think that had more to do with them being pissed that I’d lied to Haven again. Aleecia and Logan didn’t speak to me at all. I could tell Cam wanted to, but never did if Logan was in the vicinity. Kent was the only one who openly and actively talked to me anymore.“So how’s Haven?” I asked.“Dude, you know she’s bad. Her dad is dead and her mom has cancer.” Kent s