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Chapter Six
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2021-04-13 05:28:12*Tristian's POV*
I knew I shouldn't be doing this, but I couldn't help it. Haven was so close to me and she smells like strawberries like she always does and she's absolutely stunning. So I kissed her.
My body felt like it had been set on fire! I had never felt this before. She's kissing me back hesitantly, but she's still doing it. I slip my hand in her hair, kissing her harder. She moaned against my lips. It's too much, I want her so badly.
I'm allowed maybe a minute of tasting her utterly perfect lips before she pulled away abruptly and backed away from me.
“What's wrong?" I asked.
“You know what's wrong. You can't do that, Tristian."
“Why not?" I asked, even though I knew the a
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