Derek Draper. I note his name down to search for an obituary, the sudden need to visit this man's resting place to ask for his girl's hand, making itself known. Fuck, she was married?Is that why she stopped us last night?That seems more plausible; the thought of her struggling with the fact she once belonged to another, and now she might be struggling to allow herself to move on much as I had been, would explain the sorrow within her eyes.Fuck! We have so much in common, so many stars aligned to bring our paths crashing alongside each other, but now I fear that I have this all wrong. That I might have allowed myself to feel something for the wrong person.I'm not sure I could let her go even if that's what she wanted...I can't continue chasing her until I know the true extent of her feelings.I sent a secure email to Josh with all my findings, intent on ensuring we have time alone today to talk about this and figure a way through this latest bout of turmoil.Fuck! I really like h
SebastianJosh and I asked for a private booth and ordered quickly before watching each other with raised brows and a mutual look of defeat.He swallows whilst reaching for his phone, unlocking it to scroll through everything I had read this morning alone.He's huffing, raising his brows, knitting them together. Chewing his cheek and sucking in his bottom lip much as he might when he and Charlotte argue, and it's then I know he truly has nothing to do with this. This is all my father's doing—solely his burden to bear.There's a torrent of emotion flitting through his features, and I hate everyone because they are exactly how I feel. I preferred it when he was happy for me, when he was blissfully as eager for this new life as I was."Seb..." he sighs my name, turning the phone down at the death certificate as if to say.'What the actual fuck'"Yeah. Yeah, that got me too. The things we have in common, the things that have aligned to bring us both here and yet my father is playing a hug
Cassidy I wake to an empty bed, my hand reaching out for Sebastian, finding nothing but the cold bedsheets where he was lying when I allowed my eyes to close for the night finally. I sigh, upset that he's gone already but cognisant that he's probably needed for the work he came here for, which I should be helping him with. I move up, sitting from the bed, finding Charlotte staring right back at me from the sofa as the door hangs wide open, much as Josh had been sitting just yesterday morning. "Good morning," she grins. "Morning," I mimic her, looking behind me to ensure I didn't skip over Sebastian in the room somewhere. I still don't find him, much as I hadn't when I woke up. "He's downstairs working with Josh. They have lots to do today, but not to worry, he's left me his credit card, and I've been instructed to do some retail therapy with you. You can have whatever you like." "I don't want anything," I shrug, walking out to stand before her as I nervously decide wha
Last night flooded my mind, the memory of Sebastian slipping them from my feet as he held my weight as if I were stick thin and weighed nothing. My cheek blushes, and I groan internally as I place them on my feet and just in time, too, because Charlotte has rejoined me and dressed in only a pair of jeans and an oversized jumper. "Ready?" She asks me, walking to the door with a massive grin on her face. I nod, following along, and we ride in the lift down to the foyer, where we exit the hotel and hail a taxi just outside. We drive only for a short amount of time, being dropped outside of a small collection of very expensive branded shops. I hate to think of us going inside, but she grabs me instantly, taking me inside one that has rows of underwear only fit for consumption in a bedroom. "What's your size?" She asks me, looking down at my breasts as I do. "32D," I admit with a blush. "Don't be ashamed. Seb likes breasts, and you've plenty to keep him occupied all night."
SebastianI did it; I fucking bagged the contract, and it's signed already as we sit across from one another in the restaurant as we drink to success. "It's a pleasure doing business with you, Mr King," Yu Meng grins back at me. I nod, and I think of the price I've paid for the phones that we will redistribute with our names attached to them.It's a good deal, far less than I expected them to agree on, yet we have to keep it a secret for now, still playing the game that the phones are up for grabs.The three of us shake hands, and I nod to Mr Meng as we walk towards the conference room. Josh and I are wearing a secret smile as we sit at the back during the meeting, and the others ask their questions.I take the opportunity to sit and think over my revelation from this morning and what I want to do.Part of me wants to make Cassidy submit to me; I really want to have her sitting there on her knees, holding herself up as her muscles protest as I make her spill her proverbial beans.Onc
"We're going out again," Josh admits, a smirk on his face as he looks at Charlotte."Have a good evening then," I tell him, slapping his back in a friendly manner."You too," he nods towards Cassidy as she calls for the lift.I nod, but I don't know what I'm about to do. There are so many things running through my head, so many needs that need scratching, but there's also the hurt riding alongside the need, forcing my mind into a place of unknown.We stand beside each other in the lift, silent as can be.I've barely said anything to her all night, and she seems jittery because of it.Perhaps she knows I'm on to her, but what she doesn't know is I don't fucking care.Yeah, I came to that conclusion at the dinner table.Cassidy's mine now; I won't let her go. Things need to be ironed out, wrongs need to be made right, but I don't feel any less for her than I did this time yesterday evening.I let her brew, walking ahead of her to the apartment door and opening it for the pair of us as s
Sebastian I fell asleep next to her as her breathing fell from erratic to calm, and I marvelled at her.She tasted divine, and I wanted more; I wanted to roll her back to me, to spoon her from behind and enter her softly as I played with her clit until we both climaxed together. Instead, I reeled in any and all control I could use, and I ended up staring at her as her eyes drooped whilst she fought sleep. Her eyelashes fanned her cheeks repeatedly as she smiled softly.She's breathtaking, but now that I'm saited, partially at least, I know I need to cut this crap between us and admit to the secret that isn't a secret anymore.I fall asleep like that, holding onto her waist as we face one another in the bed, my eyes seeing her as the last thing before sleep takes me.The following day, I wake to an empty bed, and I frown for a long moment as I reach out beside me, finding nothing but bed sheets. But the frown disappears when I sit up to Cassidy, dressing before me.She's in nothing b
CassidyThe drive back home is nothing but quiet contentment as he holds my hand in my lap, and I allow it because that's precisely what feels right. I have so much to think back on so much to unfold, and if I'm honest, I'm craving the time alone to assess what has happened this weekend and assess where I want to go.I have feelings for Sebastian; whatever those feelings are is still unknown, but when I look at him, my stomach summersaults. And when he kisses me... fuck, I don't ever want him to stop.He leaves me on my doorstep, kissing me softly as he looks at his watch, noting the time. He's really looking forward to seeing his daughter, and that makes my insides squeeze with something that's unknown.I love that he's a good father, love that he's tentative to her needs, and the fact he can't wait to get back to her makes me feel warm inside like I've never felt warm before.But that only brings the realisation that there's more than the two of us to look out for.There's this six
Sebastian comes to stand beside me, and Tina lets go of my hand to pick up the little girl I've only seen in photos up until now.She's beautiful, looking just like Sebastian. Thick brown hair, gorgeous eyes, and a cheeky grin that she greets everyone with as if she knows she is an extraordinary girl. Which she is, don't get me wrong.Until she looks at me standing beside her father, and she frowns."What's your name?" She asks me, obviously not having recognised me, and she appraises her father-Sebastian. His hand is around my waist, holding tight as he usually does.I don't know why, but knowing she doesn't know who I am hurts just a little."I'm Cassidy," I tell her. Reaching my hand out to shake hers as if this were a business meeting. She takes my hand in her own and shakes it firmly before grinning so beautifully that I think my heart breaks at her beauty. "Melody," she tells me, then turns away and struggles down to the floor.Charlotte puts Jordan down, too, and the pair of t
CassidySebastian and I explore our relationship on the weekends as Melody spends time with her grandparents. It's been around four months now since that day he spanked me in his office, and I've enjoyed getting to know him on a deeper level.And the sex... yeah, I've never had sex like the sex Sebastian offers me.Some days, he'll love me like a typical boyfriend. On other days, he ensures I feel every single bit of pleasure he can rake through my body as I'm bound or held up against a wall like an object to be devoured.I hate to say it, but I prefer those times. The pleasure leaves me feeling complete and whole.He also showed me his caring side, and though I was upset that he paid off my mortgage in total, I saw that as him showing me he would care for me.I both hated and loved the way he ensured my housing safety. But things are about to change; Sebastian wants me to meet Melody, and I'm petrified.He made plans for today, Saturday. It's Josh's son's birthday, and Sebastian pl
"Without your agreement, there wouldn't be scenes; there would be no punishments or rewards. Without you... there would be no us," I murmur quietly, pushing her back on the bed where she falls, her legs instantly parting for me."Why do you like BDSM?" She asks."Many reasons. Pleasure, pain... control. Watching you coming undone beneath my fingers only for me to put you back together again.""How do I have control?" She asks."You give your body to me," I grin, lying between her legs, kissing along the inside of her thigh. "That pleases me to no end. But the pleasure I give you makes me needy; it makes me feel powerful.""And the punishments?""Did you like it when I spanked you in my office? Did you like receiving my pain in that way?" I chuckle."Mmm... yes, I did. Very much so.""I took that hurt out on your body, and we both climaxed for it," I smile, crawling up her body and catching her free hand."Why bind me?""Control, again, only to pleasure you. Us. The both of us. Do you
SebastianI hate to admit it, but I understand where Josh comes from. He feels betrayed by Cassidy, and he can't keep his opinions to himself for fear something would happen on his watch, and he hadn't said anything. I'm upset; of course I am. But I'm also honoured that he'd try to protect me.But I won't allow him to hurt the girl I'm most certainly irrevocably in love with.Christ, I don't know how I fell so hard and quickly, but... it's there dictating my life at every corner as she invades my senses, my decisions... my concentration. I search for Cassidy, catching her leaving the foyer and heading outside, so I follow in a hurry. Her hair flows behind her as I watch her bottom shake with that jiggle I love."Cassy..." I call her as she walks through the gardens full of trees and flowers that have bloomed bright and smell wonderful."It's okay, Sebastian.""It's not, I'm so sorry he's being such a dick...""I lied, and that must have hurt you. He's only being a good friend to you
"I'm sorry..." Josh notes, looking at me with troubled eyes as Sebastian makes him wither in his gaze. "I didn't mean to make it seem as if you didn't matter; I was just making it known that I don't thinkyou'll cope well with the paps that follow Sebastian's every move. And trust me, after four years of staying out of the public eye... they're hungry for a story. Any story, and I don't see your relationship being kept under wraps.""Just remember she's a person too," Sebastian growls unhappily, changing the dynamic of our interaction as he demands Josh act differently around me."It's okay," I soothe Sebastian despite agreeing with him that Josh hurt my feelings."It isn't. Besides, I love this shy girl..." he pointedly talks over to Josh as if those words aren't momentous. I still, again, not knowing what to do with those three little words that he hadn't muttered to me. And I think Josh and Charlotte know that, too. And for a long moment, I see the realisation hitting them smack b
CassidySeb closes the room door almost as soon as we pass over the threshold, dumping the bags in the little nook obviously placed for them and then he stalks towards me as if he's starved and needs to touch me. I'm up and wrapped around his waist, my ankles crossing over to keep me in place as I press myself to him in a moment of need.We kiss like we have been doing for weeks, our mouths open and our tongues exchanging saliva as he presses me against the wall of the bathroom."I want to try something new..." he tells me through kisses to my neck, pulling away as if he might be planning my demise by way of orgasms."What is it?" I sigh breathlessly, grinding my clit against him to find any friction possible."I want to tie you up..."And that has my anxiety jumping up a notch, and I'm grasping for any excuse not to lay on the bed and allow him to have his kinky way with me.I just can't be trapped... that scares me more than anything else we've tried together."We have afternoon te
Sebastian"It's so pretty here," Cassidy grins up to me as we sit on the moist grass atop a hill through my favourite wooded area, not a twenty-minute drive from my home.She's wearing a white silk blouse and suit pants that she shouldn't have worn for a place like this, but I never told her our destination, and I don't think she believed we would be sitting in the chilling night air watching the stars float in the sky above us.This is one of the most honoured places that Beth had shown me, and now I'm showing Cassidy on the night that I asked her to be mine.I've been procrastinating for an age, sitting here quietly as she looks out over the expanse of deep night sky."It's a special place for me.""Thank you so much for bringing me here then," she tells me despite me not elaborating on why I find this place special.It's been a week since she admitted about my father's involvement to make her help me get over Beth, and it's been an upsetting seven days having the knowledge she's mi
"No.""Then you see, I had to go about things a little... less favourably.""I like her, father. I really like her, but you're hanging over us like a looming fucking guillotine. I can't trust you with her now.""Nonsense, I've known the girl's family for years. Do you not remember the Drew's?" He asks me, walking to his bookshelves, where he pulls a photo album from one of the top shelves."No..." I murmur, but I'm looking back through my life now, wondering if I know Cassidy.He thrusts a book toward me, opened on a page of a young couple with a little girl standing in our yard at one of the dinner parties my mother used to throw.I don't recognise the little girl, but I do recognise the couple. I hadn't seen them that long ago... and it's now I realise that the woman on Cassidy's phone is the same as before me right now."They were at Beth's funeral," I murmur aloud when the memory surfaces. They were in my house, telling me how utterly sorry they were that Beth was gone. But Cassi
SebastianI had every intention of leaving Cassidy last night to head home, but she had other ideas, and so we found ourselves on her immaculate sofa that felt as if it had never been sat on.She was clinging to me as if her life depended on it, and we cuddled as I lay behind her, watching a show on Netflix she was obviously into.But that quiet time gave me time to think and overthink I did.I'd jumped that hurdle, was able to have sex without emotional feelings of guilt or upset, and I enjoyed every time we fucked. But I didn't bring condoms, and I know that was a huge mistake on my behalf. One that I wouldn't be repeating.I'd love another kid, but the thought of doing that now when I have the predicament of allowing my two worlds to collide already is something that scares me.I love my daughter, and though Melody is gagging to have someone like Cassidy to call mum, I know I need to protect her from the heartache of losing someone else.So, as I pressed my hand below Cassidy's tho