Three months later…
As Milli listened to soothing piano music and piped black swirls onto two tiers of a white velvet five-tier cake, she remembered her wedding only six weeks ago. The love she had for Edgar poured out her hands into the delicate, beautiful design she was creating on the cakes.
He was her first in everything from the moment she had saved him from being mugged outside the Velvet Rope Club, to the first thought she had this morning when she woke up. She had gone to pick up Marni at 3 AM. Her sister was always getting off work just as Milli was getting ready to head to work. She and her sister’s life always blended seamlessly from the day Haywood adopted Milli. Side-by-side sisters, always there when the other one needed them. Nothing ever came between them. If Marni didn’t have the job she had, Milli never would have met the man of her dreams.
As her hands flew over the surface of a cake, stacking the tiers and piping the flowers, Milli remembered how Edgar had showered her with gifts and spoiled her with attention the likes of which she had never received from anyone of the opposite sex. Growing up with Marni meant every boy had only shown interest in Milli to get to Marni, but Edgar was different. He loved Milli, and he wanted her, not Marni. It was Edgar’s cousin, Heith, who had taken an interest in Marni and she in him, and soon they were double dating. Doing everything together socially as a foursome. The only hiccup to their happiness was Heith and Milli, both insisting they got married before moving in together. So, on April second, they all got married, a double wedding in a small chapel, just the four of them.
Everything in their shared household seemed ideal. Heith and Milli always seemed to wake up early, even when they didn’t have to work, while Edgar and Marni were the night owls. They had settled into a comfortable family-like life in Milli and Marni’s two-bedroom rental. Milli cooked and baked, Heith did the dishes when he was home, while Edgar threw in laundry, and Marni... Well, Marni just did the things Marni typically did around the house. Milli had never been happier.
Milli leaned back and rotated the cake slowly, ivory roses with hand piped lace, and it was lovely. She really hoped her friend Katy’s cousin liked it. Carefully she put the glossy fondant ribbons in rich turquoise on the cake, it had taken four attempts to get the color to match the swatch she had. But her joy in decorating the cake was tempered by wondering what would happen when Heith got home from South Dakota. Milli thought about asking Edgar if they could stay at a hotel. She didn’t want to hear Heith and Marni fighting again.
“Pick up,” Milli called as she slid the cake off her decorating pedestal. She handed the cake off to Caroline and started on the next one; a chocolate cake with peanut butter filling. Looking at the order sheet, Milli grinned at her own sketch. She got a clean set of brushes, fondant paint, edible metallic powder, clear extract, and bags of white and black royal icing. Soon, she was piping royal icing lines around hand painted lilies and butterflies on the birthday cake, but her thoughts drifted back to the coming conflict between her sister and brother-in-law.
Heith’s job as an energy engineer and geologic surveyor would keep him away until next week and then, when he returned, he would find out Marni had gone back to working at The Velvet Rope Gentlemen’s Club. Milli couldn’t imagine that Heith would be very happy about it. She knew Marni well enough to know she wouldn’t have asked him about returning to her old job.
Marni quit The Velvet Rope the day of their weddings because Heith was old-fashioned; he wanted his ‘respectable’ wife at home to raise a family, but Marni loved to shop. Milli mentally cringed knowing Marni probably needed the money; she had a lot of new things that could only have been bought with her many credit cards or paid for by her secret side gig as a registered sex worker. Another thing Marni had never told Heith about. The pay was ten times what Marni earned as a teacher’s aide. Milli worried that her sister would go back to her party girl ways if she and Heith divorced. It was Milli’s greatest fear that someday she would get a call saying Marni had died, killed by the lifestyle she played at in high school once she got the means to fund it for real from their inheritance.
Edgar was the opposite of Heith in so many ways. He was fine with Milli working; he didn’t even care where she worked or what she did at work, and so she no longer talked about it with him. Milli envied Marni that her husband worked so hard while Milli’s husband lived on a job created by his mother that amounted to just meeting people, mainly men, and taking them out for a good time on the company dime. Her husband shopped like her sister and he never seemed to tire of spending money. She knew Edgar came from money but never asked how rich his family was. She wondered how much things would change when the sisters got their inheritance; she had never told Edgar about the money they would get when they turned 25.
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Another day, another set of cakes. Just as she was finishing piping the royal icing detail, Milli felt someone tall standing over her shoulder and pulled out her earbuds.
“Heith? You’re back early. Welcome home.” Milli tried to sound happy, but secretly she was wondering how she could text her sister to warn Marni without him noticing.
His face looked like he was barely containing his temper, “Where’s Marni? They said that she hasn’t been to school all week.”
Milli hesitated, then shook her head; there was no use hiding the truth. “She didn’t tell you, did she? She went back to work at the club.”
His jaw clenched as he looked down at her strangely. He muttered under his breath, “There’s a lot she isn’t telling either of us.”
Milli looked at him oddly. “Her shift starts at 4 PM, she said she’d Uber over there.”
Even his southern drawl sounded strangled as he spoke in a stilting, hesitant way. “Milli, there’s something I need to tell you but I... I don’t want to hurt your feelings... You’re a really good person and I know you didn’t know... I found out something...” His phone rang, and he cursed under his breath before turning away. “Rowling here.”
For a moment, she thought he would fall. Heith turned pale under his tan as Milli hooked a barstool out from under the decorating table. She sat him down on it, as he seemed to struggle to breathe, even sitting he was still taller than she. She grabbed a bottle of water from the cooler for him.
“Heith, what’s wrong?” Her fear screamed at her that it was Marni.
“Our... our grandfather died. He was helping with the Longhorn cows and...and got gored in the leg. He... he... He bled out before they could get him t-to... th-the h-h-hospital.” Heith stammered the words out.
Internally breathing a sigh of relief that it wasn’t Marni, Milli wrapped her arms around his neck and let him cry. Their grandfather had raised both Heith and Edgar after their parents’ divorces. She murmured soothing things to him. In the bakery around them, the cake was taken away and another set in its place, but she ignored it. Her phone buzzed, a text message from Edgar, telling her what she already knew. The patriarch of the Rowling family was dead, and Heith and Edgar needed to go to Texas tomorrow for the funeral and to help sort out their family affairs.
Telling Ramses there had been a death in the family, Milli took Heith home. Edgar was sitting on the couch; he was already drunk and still drinking. Marni was trying to get him to give her the tequila bottle he was drinking from. She was curled up next to him, with her feet tucked under her, whispering and cooing soothingly. Heith yanked her away from his cousin and dragged her to their room. They immediately started yelling at each other. Milli couldn’t hear what they were saying, only that there were angry words being exchanged.
“Edgar, honey. What can I do?” Milli asked quietly.
Truthfully, Edgar scared her when he was drunk, it seemed like he got angry so easily. He was always sorry afterward, but she had lived through the many times when her biological mother turned violent that it always scared her. Her fear made him even madder; he didn’t know about her childhood before her adoption, only that Marni’s mom adopted her.
“Nothing, Lil’ Bit.” He had started mimicking the nickname Heith called her.
“Have you eaten?” Milli asked softly, afraid of provoking one of his tirades, but he shook his head. “Okay, I’ll make dinner.” She went into the kitchen and made dinner, all of his and Heith’s favorites.
Heith stomped into the kitchen just as Milli finished putting in a spiced peach pie in, then she took the twice-baked stuffed potatoes out. He froze, staring at the food she had made, muttering she was too good for them. The front door slammed and Milli knew Marni had left like she always did after she and Heith fought.
“Thanks for dinner, Lil’ Bit,” Heith muttered.
Nodding, she made him a plate. “I’m so sorry, Heith.”
Heith sat and ate quietly, alone, while Milli took a plate into the living room and coaxed one bite at a time down Edgar. Milli came back just long enough to take the pie out of the oven and cut a piece for Edgar. When Heith went into the living room, Milli and Edgar were gone, and music was coming from their bedroom.
Later that night, a wide-awake Milli laid next to a drunkenly passed out Edgar. She struggled to sleep when he was drunk because she had too many bad memories from her childhood, but tonight… tonight, he had hurt her. Her phone chimed in reminder, and she slipped out from under his arm. Edgar muttered in his sleep and turned over. Shakily, she dressed quickly and headed out to pick up Marni from work. Milli was glad she was off today because she was exhausted.
In the living room, Heith was sitting in the chair by the front window.
“Where are you going?” he demanded roughly.
“Uh... Marni gets off work in a little while, she’s not supposed to drive.”
Milli edged toward the door, trying to keep as much distance between them as possible. She had never feared Heith or Edgar the way she was usually afraid of other men, but tonight there was something different about the way they were both acting. Something dangerous. Edgar had been cruel, and now Heith... Heith seemed to radiate a need for violence, just like Dante used to, and she didn’t want to provoke him.
“So, you’re her chauffeur now too? You’re her cook, her maid, her slave, is there anything you don’t do for that whore?” His words were cruel.
Milli was shocked about the way he was talking about her sister, it made her angry, and being angry made her brave, so she stabbed his chest with her finger and argued with him, but he backed her into the wall menacingly. He was so tall as he towered over her, trapping her, then his head dipped low and he kissed her. His large hand firmly but gently cupping her cheek so she couldn’t turn away. She knew she shouldn’t let Heith kiss her, she wasn’t that kind of girl, and he was married to her sister. Her fear shouted that he was going to hurt her the way her late sister Roxie had been hurt.
“Please, stop.” She half-sobbed against his lips. Her heart pounded fearfully in a way it never had with Edgar’s tantrums until tonight.
Something in her tone got through his drunken stupor and he stepped back, shocked. “Ohgawd, Milli, I’m…”
Fleeing in fear, Milli didn’t wait to hear the rest of what he had to say and ran out the door. Jumping in her little car, she started it and sped away. Looking in the rearview mirror, she saw Heith standing in the yard looking upset that she escaped.
Milli was still shaking when she arrived at The Velvet Rope. Marni was sitting in a car with a guy Milli had seen before. Jarvis Adams was the lawyer for the owners of the club who were not so secretly connected to the mafia. Milli had catered many parties for the Valtini cousins, she sent cakes to their family members back east, and even sent a cake to the local Federal Supermax four times a year. Milli was horrified when her sister leaned over and kissed the lawyer before getting out and walking over to Milli’s Subaru.Marni smirked and waved a handful of large bills. “Take us to a hotel, sis. There is no way I am going home to the jerk tonight.”“Fine,” Milli readily agreed. She didn’t want to go home either.“Wait? You’re okay with this? Since when did Ms. Frugal approve of spending unnecessary money?” Marni stared at her like she had grown two heads. Marni knew Milli never wanted to spend money on anythi
November in Vegas… Milli and Marni sat side by side in the airport, waiting for a text message or a phone call or anything that would explain why their husbands weren’t on their flight. Edgar and Heith had not returned after the two weeks it took to arrange the funeral. They hadn’t returned the next month, or in the six months since their grandfather’s funeral. Milli had been trying to get Edgar to come home, but he always had an excuse to stay in Texas then he stopped answering her calls and text messages completely. Out of sheer desperate curiosity, Milli stalked Edgar’s prolific social media posts and saw both cousins tagged in several pictures with ex-girlfriends and other beautiful women out at restaurants, clubs, or business-social engagements. The women were all tall, thin, and fair skinned like Marni, and nothing like the short, curvy Milli with her afro-hair that hung in shiny, frizzy curls, or her caramel colored skin with i
Milli walked behind another nurse into the west wing of the hospital and walked down one flight of stairs in silence. “Do you know how you would like her remains handled?” The nurse asked kindly, interrupting her memories. Her name badge said, Stacy. Milli drew in a deep breath, trying to fill the emptiness with air as they stood outside the door. She knew her sister was on the other side, just as her parents had been, just as Roxie and Duran had been. Her soul rebelled against what her mind knew was true. She was alone again... except for Baby Emily. Milli forced the words out. “Our parents’ ashes are at Our Lady of Angels. They can call them to... to... get... her...” Milli’s sobs shook her. “Oh honey, is there any other family we can call to be with you?” Stacy offered. Milli shook her head violently, “I was adopted, and we only have an old widowed aunt in Colorado and some cousins in Alaska.” “Do you want me to stay with you?” The
“I’m so sorry… I… I forgot to eat.” Milli profusely apologized after she fainted in the NICU nursery. “Mrs. Rowling, you need to be more careful. Your blood sugar was dangerously low.” A doctor had scolded her for not eating because of her morning sickness. He was concerned, “Your baby’s heart sounds fine, and like it isn’t under any stress. Are you certain you don’t remember when your baby last moved?” “Maybe yesterday,” Milli wasn’t sure if it moved or if she had gas from binging on enchiladas, tacos al carbon, and refried beans with Marni. He left after ordering her to eat small meals every four hours and see her obstetrician as soon as she could for a complete workup. “Men don’t understand morning sickness or cravings, or the actual effect stress has on a pregnant body, mind and baby.” The nurses assured her as they rolled their eyes at the doctor, then offered Milli every sort of treat they could find. However, the nurses didn’t want her to drive herself
On the Sunday before Marni’s funeral, which was to be held the following Tuesday, Jean was flying back to Dallas to face Edgar’s mother and file the divorce papers. She would get them through the court before quitting so the divorce couldn’t be stopped. The Rowlings were evil enough to have a judge under Colleen’s claws that would approve the papers the same day. “Good luck, Milli. Take care of those little angels.” Jean hugged her. “In a few years, you can go back to doing your cake contests. If I’m still around, I promise I’ll watch the Foodie Network for you. But if you ever run across the Rowlings, just lie and tell them Emily and Jr are not their kids. They can’t make you give them a DNA sample without a court order, and a judge will need more than hearsay to order it. Show the judge those pictures of bachelor number two we doctored the dates on. The pictures of Edgar in compromising positions should be enough to discourage them from bothering you, especially if you thr
The week of Thanksgiving, Dallas Tx, six months after leaving Vegas… Heith scowled at his phone for the hundredth time this week. Tomorrow was Thanksgiving. Marni hadn’t texted or called him since Halloween, and neither had Milli, he wondered what had changed. Marni had been pleading and needy the few times they actually spoke, proclaiming that she loved him, and begging him to come home, while he demanded she move to Texas with him.Milli had pleaded for their husbands to return and he had agreed reluctantly, then asked his cousin’s secretary to book tickets for Labor Day weekend. But his bruised ego couldn’t let go of the fact that Marni and Edgar had an affair and he changed his mind. Marni admitted the affair the night they learned his grandfather died, and her heated, hateful words still burned in Heith’s mind. Edgar had shrugged off his part in the affair and his own infidelity after the funeral, sam
Friday morning after Thanksgiving, Vegas Heith and Edgar stared blankly at the “For Rent” sign in front of Marni and Milli’s house. Looking through the windows, the house was completely empty. Several neighbors were giving them very hostile looks and a police car stopped to tell them to move along or they would be arrested for trespassing. They went to the school address Heith had from Marni’s location app and asked about Marni Haywood-Rowling. The lone security guard at the gate glared at them when they gave their names. Then he threatened to call the police and have them removed for trespassing. At the Famous Vegas Cakery, no one would tell them anything about Milli or which bakery she now worked for. Desperate, they went to The Velvet Rope as a last resort, hoping that some of Marni’s friends still worked there. The evening crowd was just arriving. It was getting dark, but Edgar did not miss the hostile looks they were getting from the bouncer as th
As they walked back into their hotel, Edgar read through the TRO paperwork. His hands shook. “We’re screwed, Heith. If we go within five-hundred feet of Milli or attempt to contact her in any way, we will be arrested and charged with felony stalking, regardless of wether she agrees to press charges or not.” “What about Marni?” Heith demanded, trying not to touch his broken nose. Edgar flipped several pages as the elevator descended. He looked at Heith, confused, “It doesn’t say anything about Marni.” The hall outside their room smelled like sewage or garbage or both. Opening the door, the smell that wafted out of the room hit them both like a slap in the face and they gagged. Edgar vomited in the hall as Heith slammed the door shut, swearing colorfully. Heith was glad his nose was packed with gauze, as he left Edgar puking, and stormed back upstairs to the front desk. The girl at the front desk blinked at him with an expressionless face, then sent the bellhop
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Superintendent Patrick had asked Milli for her number again at Ben Wallace’s funeral. Milli had been frozen in place for a moment with Emily on her hip, looking for Aunt Elizabeth. She had handed over one of the Wild Anemones business cards without hesitation and agreed to make 1000 simple vanilla cupcakes and a specialty cake for a raffle.It had taken her two days of baking in her oversized double oven, in the oven of the single bedroom cottages and the oven in the Anemone. Running between the four buildings in the wind and snow was annoying and cold. Now, she had only to decorate the last of them and deliver them today.While her mixers hummed, making more buttercream frosting, Milli rolled out fondant and stamp-cut hearts out of the sheets. Each heart made her think of Lloyd’s tattoo. She groaned in her head; she liked him a lot, but obviously, the feeling wasn’t mutual. He made her feel things she didn’t understand, things different from wh
Lloyd’s soul ached like when he had lost his Uncle Ray, and worse than the times they had lost men in combat. It ached because the man they were gathered to say goodbye to meant as much to him as his grandfather and great-uncle. Ben had been a fixture in the community for his whole life and he had died as a hero in Lloyd’s book. He didn’t look anywhere except at the clear sky above the minister’s head. He didn’t hear the words the minister said, and the words of Amazing Grace, and Sweet By and By, came out without a thought as he sang the hymns. He saluted when they played Taps for Ben who had served with distinction and earned several medals including the Navy Cross. Afterward, he watched Tonia pretending to be distraught, and Tim doing his best to ignore her and pay attention to Tiana. He wasn’t surprised when they all went inside to have a memorial meal together, but Tonia had left. Milli was offering cake to the Wallace family when Molly squeezed his ar
The wind raged through the trees above him. Lloyd was about to call out when he heard the whistle from the overgrowth under a large cedar, it was a place sheltered from the oncoming storm. Lloyd pushed away the overgrowth of limbs and fallen branches, there he saw Beau was leaning against the trunk, the whistle in his mouth. He seemed asleep; he inhaled slowly and blew a loud blast. Ben was lying next to him, his shoulder ripped open, his skin ashen. Lloyd knew Ben was dead. Ben’s coat was draped over Beau’s legs. Lloyd crawled in, “Beau, I’m here.” Lloyd lifted the bloody coat off his friend’s leg. It was a mangled mess. A belt was tightened above his knee. Lloyd had seen a wound like this before. The driver in an APV ahead of him had suffered the same injury when they ran over an IED, he hadn’t made it. Lloyd knew that the tourniquet would cost Beau his leg, but it may have saved his life. “Hang on, Beau. I am going to get you out of here.” Lloyd cr
When they got back to Pagosa County, Lloyd drove to the Ridgeline Ranch as he promised. Milli got out in the starting snow and was shocked when Camille’s girls rushed out, looking scared. “Girls, where is everyone?” Lloyd demanded seeing the scared girls and led them inside. “We don’t know, Deputy McConnell. Mom and Gramma Dorine rode out to look for Grandpa Ben and Beau when Cajun and Poncho came home alone.” Willow’s chin trembled as Gracie added further, “Mom thinks something bad happened...” and her tears started to fall. Lloyd instantly knew something bad had happened and called his grandfather about bringing the horses and everyone on hand from the Rocking M over to Ridgeline Ranch. They needed to start a manhunt before the weather got worse and someone died. Milli shifted nervously, holding Emily close. “Is that really a thing here? To ride out looking for a bear?” She looked confused and terrified as she asked Lloyd, “Why would they go looking
Milli was up before dawn. Peeking in Lloyd’s room, she saw sprawled out on the bed in his boxers. Empty bottles from the mini-bar covered the night table. On one shoulder was a military tattoo, and in the center of his chest was a heart with a lettered ribbon. ‘ANTONIA’ was written there. It looked like an old tattoo, one that had spent years over his heart. She scowled as he rolled over onto his side, exposing his back. He was covered in scars and a few had come from bullets. She had grown up in the Vegas ghetto until she was 6, then had a close friend who was a cop and another who was a cop’s son, so she knew what those wounds looked like when they healed. She was glad Lloyd was out of the military and working in a county as small as Pagosa. His life was safe now, but his spirit was another story. Tonia had crippled it. Sitting by the bed, a plan quickly formed in her mind, Milli logged into the hotel’s wi-fi. She found the shop she was looking for in minutes and snapped a
The next morning, they headed to the slopes without talking any more about their past. Milli fell down as much as she skied but she always got back up. Lloyd showed her a better way to turn and stop. He feared for her bodily safety. Between her lack of skill, absence of fear, and need for speed, he worried she would break something. By afternoon, they were talking in their suite after showering while waiting on room service for an early dinner. The adrenaline from the day on the slopes hadn’t worn off yet. “Whoever taught you how to ski was trying to get you maimed or killed,” Lloyd huffed. “Well, he was from Texas,” Milli answered, laughing at his stormy expression. “A Texan?!? Really?” He seemed disgusted. “You let a Texan teach you how to ski?!?” “Yep. He taught me to ski in Tahoe, California, in April.” She grinned at his reaction. “Seriously? A Texan taught you to ski in California?” She nodded enthusiastically. “Yep.” She popped
Milli wondered if Lloyd had talked to anyone about all the drama Tonia had caused in his life. She had seen men fall into Marni’s orbit and stay there for years; some ended up losing their marriages. “I promised to come back for her… I got home from Bootcamp a day early to surprise her and my family. I thought I was home alone, then I heard them upstairs. I just stood there at the door, watching my cousin screwing my girlfriend. I must have made a sound because they stopped. Both said they were sorry, and I punched Tim square in the nose. I hit him and didn’t stop. Tonia was screaming at me to leave him alone. When she said that she was having his baby, I froze.” His hands tightened on the wheel. “Tim got up and hugged Tonia, said he was going to marry her. He begged me to forgive him and said it had just happened. I felt like I couldn’t breathe. It felt like the time we were screwing around, and I fell off the barn, but this time it wasn’t my ribs that were broken,
Milli laughed malevolently to herself as she drove straight to City Hall and parked on the side in front of the Sheriff’s Offices. “Hello Ms. Ruby, I need to talk to the sheriff about borrowing your nephew,” Milli began handing the woman a box of carrot cake muffins. She saw Lloyd standing in the office with Sheriff Tanner; they both walked out seeing Milli. Ruby smiled up at her and winked. “Can I help you, Ms. Haywood?” Sheriff Tanner asked in a concerned voice. “Actually, you can, Sheriff,” Milli smiled wickedly and held out a box of pastries to each man, “I came to offer you cake-mail in an attempt to get a favor from you concerning your deputy.” Sheriff Tanner grinned handsomely as he lifted the lid to the box. “I’m listening.” Milli could almost hear Marni’s ‘hello, cowboy’ to Tank as Milli winked at Lloyd. “I am sure you heard about my little trade at the Bingo game last night.” “No,” Lloyd said firmly, holding